(1/2)The gender dysphoria Jew almost had me again
I deliberated on returning to it for a few days after Walter rejected me. Then I decided that it was probably deleterious to my psychological health, and potentially to my physical health (reading the works of one Dr. Ray Peat, some nutritional science biologist PhD., who absolutely demonizes estrogen and, if what he says is correct, probably with good cause for reason), so I've not bothered self-medicating myself with estrogen or anti-androgens (but might try he latter solely for neurogenic purposes: read on) again, like I had rather stupidly in August-October 2014.
Besides, I had no passability potential except to a fucking obese, ADD, tranny-chasing, over-virilized, closet-straight MGTOW and ego-dystonic pseudo-homosexual, like Walter Dempsey. He was going to bring me to America by subsidizing my travel there, engaging in marriage fraud – pairing me with a friend of his – so that I could procure citizenship (a plan that I was semi-certain would fail), and made all sorts of delusional, bizzare, and completely unrealistic promises misrepresenting the prospect of my future life as a transgirl in the US. He was basically trying to brainwash me.
It was David Chac the Second (or some might argue, David Chac the Third, as /cow/ seems to have me pinned as his immediate successor), all over again. It's bad enough that I'd self-medicated myself to a detrimental enough end that it has now effectively induced a retardo-mimetic condition, such as is characterised by my inattention, and inability to sequentially reason. Even worse, was mistakenly believing that testosterone was antagonistic to estrogen, when Dr. Ray Peat's work now tells me, that isn't the case; testosterone and its more potent 5a-reductase metabolite dihydrotestosterone might block estrogen receptors, but this antagonizes their receptor sensitivity, causing rebound agonization increasing the affinity of estrogen to reoccupy its position. It's this that causes negrification, as I've come to neologistically term it, of the brain; I so term it because it's a consequence of neuro-feminization that is jointly manifest in negroes, as I've always said, but this tidbit from Dr. Pete solidifies this conviction for the absolute in my mind:
"The amphetamine-like action of estrogen, which undoubtedly contributes to the general level of stress and excitotoxic abuse of nerve cells, is probably the only “useful” facet of estrogen treatment, but a little cocaine might achieve the same effect with no more harm, possibly less. The toxicity of catecholamines has been known for over 30 years, and conversion to catechol-estrogens which increase the activity of brain catecholamines. Estrogen’s powerful ability to nullify learning seems never to be mentioned by the people who promote its use. The importance of a good balance of brain steroids for mood, attention, memory, and reasoning is starting to be recognized, but powerful economic forces militate against its general acceptance." – Dr. Ray Peat, Multiple Sclerosis & Other Hormone-Related Brain Syndromes
This decreases myelin quality, neo-cortical density, and the integrity of nerve fibres independent of that afforded to myelination in the event that remains intact.
So I've been scared sufficiently from the idea of returning to trannyism. The community is hostile, its members are passive-aggressive, adolescent-minded sass-lords, who exist in a world of conceit, snark, vindication and prevarication, and the potential consequences for unveiling such tendencies in a society like the B'nai B'rit? Well, since I'm a sperg, it'd be to fall straight back into the clutches of the psychiaric Masons, that this naturopathic researcher has his own contentions with (psychiatric medications have long-term excitotoxic effects by disrupting catecholaminergic pathways – dopamine is a catecholamine; psychiatric medications block their action, moving dopamine from autocrine to paracrine nerve space, that is, from the intended cell target to adjacent ones – that move their action paracrinally further away from their natural sites of occurrence, causing a cascade of hormonally disruptive effects of the whole neurosteroidal profile, that can eventually deteriorate pre-frontal cortical function, a destructive process synergistically reinforced in the presence of elevated estrogen and/or hyperelevated testosterone.)
adult literature
Hi guys, I want to post a story in another board but I am afraid that my story might not be that good. Is it okay that I post it here and get some feedback before I post it in my main board?
Also, i heard it was okay to just use the name field (I don't know how to get a trip-code)
samson so why do you make the images and videos of yourself that you do and posts yourself in so many places spreading such a huge masochistic lingering acknowledgement of hundreds thousands of passing people???
if theres one thing you should want to atleast try moderately grasp on in your hopeless shitty life its some friends but it seems like this would ruin any possible chance you have at that???
/wg/ - Wallpapers/General
Can we have a /wg/ thread, here?PROMS Music Quotient
Please post your results in this thread.
My 24th birthday is tomorrow and I'm absolutely fucking miserable
To explain why the occasion is far from a momentous one where I'm concerned, I wrote a 2 page letter to my mother that conveys my unhappiness at an anniverserial celebration that only commemorates the passage of redundant time in a completely desecratory way as to only symbolize my failure.Personality disorder quiz
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Have you taken the brown pill yet, mateys?MANIFESTO DISCUSSION THREAD
Moss said he wanted to make, as in my terminology rather than his way of describing it, a "metapolitical" work centered around a comprehensive ideological framework that encompasses a general solution to the overall problem that is the present state of affairs in the world, for all of the different intersectionalities which are covered by the umberella term 'degeneracy'.degeneracy
there is a disturbing lack of "degeneracy" on this board
Remember Issac of Ramon Film Productions? Looks like he did music videos before directing
I posted him in a previous thread, including a documentary about how he started making his budget-quality 'action packed movies'.The importance of IQ
Craven had drawn the attention of my focus to a subject which, in her stating the disregard of importance surrounding this concept compared to other indices of racial performance, made me realise that many people must also equally (and falsely) divorce the implications of a low IQ with the meaning of this indice in the conferrence of racial development (being the only tool to finely gauge rate and level of neurological function we have).
Kayageums
There is a shitposter on /cow/ who is also its lowest functioning lolcow, going by the name of Sammy. He's from Denmark.
How the shitey have fallen
so… how's everyone?Heritage thread
I'm too ill to even entertain going to college today (not a big deal, my attendance rate is in the high 90s of percent so far), so let's make a thread detailing our respective ancestries.The religion thread
"I saw in his hand a long spear of gold, and at the iron's point there seemed to be a little fire. He appeared to me to be thrusting it at times into my heart, and to pierce my very entrails; when he drew it out, he seemed to draw them out also, and to leave me all on fire with a great love of God. The pain was so great, that it made me moan; and yet so surpassing was the sweetness of this excessive pain, that I could not wish to be rid of it"I hate /r9k/
What if Sampson a good person and it's just the other tripfriends bullying him.Sweet Refuge
Society is falling apart at the seams. Civilisation will collapse in our lifetime.
Shitty Kung Fu
Maybe somebody else likes terrible old kung fu movies?pluggin my boards cause i'm a faggot
hey check out my boards they're cool as fuck and also not very populated