/roze/ - randytaylor69

Mine

"fuckin dreams m8

last night i had one where i was laying in a bed somewhere unknown.

i was newly woken and i began to feel this sucking, tugging motion on my crotch.

i was about to look down to investigate when i suddenly noticed blonde rose, sitting on a red armchair to my side.

before i could speak, she pointed her long finger at me and said to shut the fuck up and to not break eye contact with her or else the sucking motion would stop.

it felt good, real good but my curiosity, and partially fear, finally got to me and i looked down.

there was snow2312 and asmraurette just, engorging on my area without any form of inhibition.

as their eyes met mine, rose swiftly rushed up and with her steel boot, utterly obliterated my skull; and then i woke up"

Original post: https://archive.moe/r9k/thread/14968006/#14986152

i just had the oddest dream.

i, along with a large group of people, went to some three day long convention. I was one of the guys in charge of making sure that everything went as planned, that people got their rooms, stuck to the schedule, etc.

so the initial things were all done and the convention halls were all set up for whatever was happening and I had some slack time. I bought myself about a kilo of chocolate and proceeded with to gouge myself

suddenly, I see two pale blonde girls running through the hallway, supposedly looking for something on a scavenger hunt. one of them was rather tall and skinny and the other was short and of medium build. I recognized the tall one as the girl who sits behind me in my physics class, and the short one- I'm sure you can figure it out.

she was wearing the same clothes and had the same outfit as the uni full class photo.

anyway, I hadn't realized what exactly I had seen and just resigned myself to a shower in my room. about thirty-five minutes into shower, I realized who I had witnessed and donned a towel, took my phone and ran out of my room. luckily for me, the scavenger hunt was still going on, so I could still see her.

I ran through all the hallways to see if they'd pass by. once I saw them coming on the far side of the hallway, I ran with great speed in the same direction as them, so I could get out of their sight and then ambush them when they turned the corner.

so anyway, I was running through the hall, making sure my towel didn't slip off and expose everyone to my shriveled black phallus. i got into a crouching/African shitting position and waited for them to come by.

as soon as I heard the footsteps nearing, I jumped out, yelled "AHA, I HAVE YOU NOW!" and snapped a pic of rose. she looked so surprised and helpless, like she couldn't even comprehend what had happened.

they kept running on their merry way and I walked back to my room. I thought to myself "slash rose would be so jealous of me if they saw this pic". the pic was actually shit, only showing her face in really harsh lighting cause of the flash. it looked like an amalgamation of her old pics, bit I didn't care. I had my own personal rose pic, finally.

the rest of the weekend was normal, but I kept looking for rose. she wasn't to be found, so I concluded that she must've left early after the incredible austism she had witnessed. however, to my surprise, I found the two girls in a makeshift laboratory, conducting experiments on things I didn't know. I didn't go in cause I was afraid of the reprimands I'd get from rose.

on the last day, just before the convention was over, I saw them high fiving themselves. as we left the large hotel, I couldn't get over the immense sadness that I didn't talk to her in any of the three times I had seen her.

I think my obsession has started to become debilitating.

also, if someone could post the uni pic, that'd be great

Short one

https://archive.moe/r9k/thread/17010749/#17024913

"just woke up

i dreamt of me and rose walking down by a somewhat secluded waterfront on a hot summer's day. she was wearing cheap sunglasses and knee high socks"

From the archive:

Had a rose dream this morning.

I was so sad and creepy that I was checking for my fedora, when I woke up then booked an autism test.

>sneak into roses house, nobody in, start going through her stuff

>shit she coming back, spaghetti on the boil

>run downstairs, barge door, trying to open door "hey I know someone in there, just let me in"

>the game is up, open the door, spaghetti everywhere, just sat on stairs

>head in hand, "rose, I'm sorry I don't know why I did it, this just wrong"

>she just looking down at me, "look it's alright, I'm not mad"

>puts her bag down, look up at her, she look over "you see what you did is wrong, so you can't be all that bad"

>"you need to stop obsessing over me, it not helping, you need to move on", her family then walk in

>"is everything okay here rose?" "yeah it's fine, he's a friend", I smile and they move on

>stand up walk toward the door, "thanks for everything rose", stops me before I leave

>stands on tip toes, kiss me on the cheek, "here my number, if you need anything just call"

>look down at piece of paper, I nod and leave

mfw I woke up and realised it was a dream

mfw I'll never be counsel by rose, over my infatuation for her

I posted this one before on /r9k/:

I dreamed that Rose came to the United States. It was wired dream because we were on a Navy aircraft carrier and apparently she was causing all kinds of catastrophes across the world. I was convinced that it wasn't her that was causing those disasters because she was stuck in the carrier with me, but apparently it turned out that somehow she would get off the carrier and cause earthquakes and terrorist attacks across the world and then somehow make it back to the ship. Anyway, long story short, she sank the aircraft carrier with all the people on board and everyone drowned. I survived but I knew I was going to died because I was floating in the middle of the ocean. I remember confronting Rose about the atrocities she had committed and all she did was wink at me, and then she pretended to shoot me with her finger just like Spike did at the end of Cowboy Bebop. Then she drifted away and left me to die, all before I could confess my undying love for her. It was all very scary.

>>830

i see we both experienced death by roses

This anon shows a deep psychological trauma:

i had a dream about racking up a rediculous bill from gorging on sushi on a date with Rose, we then rolled out of there, and got baseball bats and smashed everything from bullshit highstreet shops to chavs all the way back to my place. then we tried to fuck but our bellies were too big, so we waited till dawn and watched mr show instead, once the fish-meat sweats had passed and we were both back to abs, we touched bellies and fucked till dusk.

best dream ever.

>>829

i believe colour is important, i'm imagining a blond rose doing that.

you didn't die! you lucky bastard.

>>832

nah he sounds like a fun dud

>>831

Yes, probably the best way to go.

>>827

That's nice, the most powerful love anyone feels is when one is young, and it's funny that one of Rose's traits is her

appearance of perpetual youth. I can only imagine how many boys were driven crazy by her at that age.

>>837

u must kill n8. that's what the dream means

>>839

Fucking love that pic.

>>839

repulsive story, bud. didn't know people had a thing for goblins.

yeah, rose is also very reckless with me in my dreams. i suppose it symbolizes the submissive position one has towards her.

a beating would do me a world of good.

>>840

look at the eyes. something missing perhaps.

I was with Rose, it didn't make sense and i didn't know how but i didn't care, Rose was there.

I can remember her smile, i can remember her unmatched beauty, frozen in time, enough for an eternity.

I was with Rose, it was over, the search was over. The dream was too good to even be a dream, i wished that it would never be over.

The more time i spent with her, the more i loved her. I had everything i wanted, Rose and her love.

Being together with her seemed like a distant dream, but the dream felt so real, perhaps real enough to hurt me.

I woke up, i didn't want to wake up, i lost her, i didn't want to lose her. I felt a sharp pain in my hearth, i moved my hands towards my chest and i swear, i could feel a hole there.

I lied back, i didn't want to continue my life, i wanted to be with Rose, never waking up.

I can't sleep anymore, because of the fear of getting hurt again.

I want to sleep and never wake up.

>>842

I know how you feel, last two days have been bad for me, for the first time I felt frustrated with the whole situation, Rose sank her thorns deep into me, it left a deep impression, I need to back away from her.

I remember Rose giving me her number in my dream, i dialed it after i woke up.

A random 40 year old lady answered and i hung off and cried.

>>844

was the old lady british?

>>845

i can't even remember but i don't think she was

I have almost forgotten her but that dream fucked me up, i am now just watching her videos and trying to remember my dream

>>847

as the dream fades and i forget her smile, i feel like a dying flower.

>>843

like how is such a thing possible?

I haven't even met her, why?

>>848

hmm you gave me some melancholia. nothing rose can't cure.

>>849

you're dealing with some powerful stuff, kid. are you guys sure you can handle it?

>>850

There is something odd about Rose, i have never felt the same way before. I just feel so empty. Knowing Rose is a curse, not a blessing. Every rose has it's thorns….

>>851

for some, yes, it is a curse that will most likely ruin everything you have and are, but for others, for those seemingly few that contain this heat, they will find the exact opposite. praised be her for she is rose and she is eternal.

>>849

You don't have to, just by looking at her and seeing the way she is you come to realize that she is better than any woman you have ever met or ever will be, then the fact that you will never be with her sinks in and it's very painful. Things came to a head for me recently, I experienced depression for the first time in almost three years with an intensity of which I did not know existed. I managed to pull through, however. You'll find that the best thing to do when your mind turns against you is to focus on staying alive and just keep on ticking, and much like the flu, it will go away eventually.

>>842

http://vocaroo.com/i/s0iCrUF6GoQ5

I don 't know why I'm doing these, perhaps it's boredom.

>>854

nice

I dreamt we were wolves. She, a great fierce beast with black fur and shining emerald eyes, and I, a black and white striped creature.

It began dreaming within a dream of running, chasing, hunting in an unknown snowy landscape. But I was awaken and the her absence dawned upon me there in our lair. The dreams, I realized, were memories of this creature I haunted.

I later found myself helping a human female with her important matter. She had promised to reunited me with the black wolf, with Rose, in exchange for my services. Nicolas Cage was there and they both had a plot of their own which I didn't really care for. Cage made some funny faces.

At the end we were reunited through my departure at the hands of the human female, and we were running though snowy landscapes again.

>in japan for some reason

>it's the evening and it's going dark

>want to leave japan, the exit is just like the doors in dust2 from cs

>start swimming out of there

>hear some chink screaming behind me, turn around, wants to stab me

>break his neck

>look at the ocean

>huge chinese artifical island approaching and the dust2 like doors start closing

>swim back up middle

>rockets start flying out from that island, there's some sort of basement right next to me without a wall and i jump into it before mid gets blown to smithereens

>before mid blows up i spell "rosemari" like it's a finnish word, suddenly get the knowledge that rose is in japan

>water starts rising but fall asleep

>wake up

>chinese are rounding up survivors and they want blood tests

>grab some blunt weapon and jump out of a window into some garden that wasn't there before

>there are some guards patrolling the garden and i start executing them like in manhunt

>kill them all, there's some kind of leader on the top floor of a house, i throw a flashbang into the top floor's window and the guy falls out of the same window with a blown off leg

>grows it back, says "second chance" and doesn't kill me, see chinese reinforcements coming in and it's like i'm on one side of the panama canal now, like the mid from dust2 has widened and it turned into panama

>cut out, teleported into a half-life port for psp and basically i see a trailer for it as a reviewer talks about the port, i remember the reviewing guy saying that "the framerate is good for such a system" and "the unreal engine is newer than the psp but it can still run it with 20fps"

>cut out again

>some kind of arcade racing game, drifting mechanics are just like in crash team racing

>i'm on teamspeak for some reason with my friend

>this is where it gets interesting

>invite rose to teamspeak and me, her and my mate have a great time talking together for like 10 minutes, we're playing that weird game but not in multiplayer, we're playing singleplayer and just chatting

>after 10 minutes, it's all quiet, keep playing

>some time after, my mate asks who even is she

>say that she is my female classmate

>all quiet after then

>remember that in the game i have some car riding a kilometer infront of me, it throws some seeds high up into the air and they'd explode like flashbangs and i'd get blinded, some sort of a powerup i guess

>the crying baby noise from a Serbian Film starts slowly fading in as I race and as i'm going increasingly blind, the gargled baby cry when the director shows his "art film"

>starts turning into a nightmare

>wake up

>das end

Not much about rose, but during the "japan campaign" i felt like i was working towards saving Rose, the "half life" campaign felt like i was fighting some superior being and during the "race camapign' i felt like i saved her but i quickly grew tired or she grew tired of me

The half life part was weird though, it's like that reviewer kept teleporting me around half-lifes world and i had to kill enemies for like 20 seconds before he'd teleport me elsewhere, all for his dumb review, it was like a snuff film with aliens, could be explained why Japan played out like manhunt. And during all my fighting, i could hear that reviewer talk about psp and half-life and he had this dumb bratty nasal barely-male voice.

I also saw some shit about my actual female classmate between half-life and the race, she called me a debil a few hours before i went to sleep and in my dreams i had found out why she said that. She just called me a debil out of the blue for no reason on Facebook.

Literally woke up 20 minutes ago on 2am, sleep tight dream journal.

I just had one last night, It was an apocalypse dream, and it was all going the same as the majority do. I'd made a small camp (which as I remember was one the edge of a cliff, with a rock wall straight up on one side, a drop on two sides with a thin bridge going to another bit, and a hill separating it from the grassy mainland on the fourth side (Pic related, but the far side had a hill that had grassy fields on the other side)), with a sleeping bag and a fire, and I was sitting on a tree stump shaving a stick into a point, presumably for hunting. I hear a noise over the hill to the mainland, and raise the stick. It was my friend, who I instantly remembered was out scavenging. He empties his backpack to show me the 5 cans of assorted food he recovered. I remember that for some reason we went over the bridge (which from our camp went down) to another sticky out bit of cliff. There was a small ruins on it.

We were there for what seemed like a couple hours, don't know why, when we started back toward the camp. The closer we got, I noticed the fire is burning higher than it should be for being left two hours, so I grabbed the stick and held it up. As we got onto the island I saw, sat on the stump, back to us, a small girl with short blonde hair (Pic related kind of length) and an iron maiden t shirt on (idk why just roll with it). I complemented her t shirt, she shrieked and turned around. And there she was, Rose.

After introductions we somehow found ourselves on the way back to her home, which, curiously enough was her old bedroom from the times of partyosaurus and to catch a predator unseen. We partook in the food and supplies she had there and looked around, I found the room and was attacked by an influx of memories. This is when my dream self realized who this was. Though we wandered back to the camp regardless and pretty much sat around the camp fire making smalltalk until I woke up.

So there you go, even me in a dream is too beta to bring up Rose's videos if he meets her

>>858

I too have had dreams of that nature, and generally speaking, I believe it to be worry. Could be you're in a strained situation, or mayhaps recent events have had their affect. Might be a longshot, but could be the friend was merely the comfort of your mind. Interesting the scavenging of cans, confirms the post apocalyptic nature of the dream.

As for Rose with the unexplainable, yet perhaps still somewhat explainable, shirt. Have you seen other girls, possibly also small and blonde with maiden shirts? Either that of old memory, or you have mixed the recent concert footage with your favourite band. Seems Rose here serves as an escapism. You leave the wasteland, gain food and change the scenery. Is it possible it was all in west country? Then perhaps you did not wander there by coincidence.

>too beta to bring up Rose's videos

I must say, not stomping ones skull would be an improvement. Chit chatting sounds quite soothing and perhaps you are less of a coward than you imagine.

>>842

Frankly speaking, you're obsessed.

>>859

I don't know of any strained situation beyond getting a part time job, as I'm in college atm, just english college, so like senior highschool or something in america but not uni.

I probably should have mentioned that it was a t shirt I do infact own, and was wearing when I went to bed. As far as I can remember I was wearing it in the dream too. The only other small, blonde girl wearing a metal t shirt I can think of was at a bullets gig I was at recently, but I don't really know her, just talk a bit as we share friends.

I'm also not sure where this happened, outside of the described area, it was just rock. I never really remember picturing any of the green area, just knowing that it's there.

Thanks for your time though anon

>>861

sorry, it was at a bullet gig* not bullets

That's bullet for my valentine

>>861

Whenever I've had a great worry or distress, not necessarily due to my own situation but also things occurring in the world, the dreams of doom become present. It is interesting that you have an aftermath, never experienced that scenario.

Wearing your shirt? Perhaps a wish of becoming intertwined, couples sometimes wear each other clothes. Trust me, I have seen it. The meeting does seems from your description more friendly than romantic. Was there something in the air?

You're not sure but have memories of the green area? Perhaps you wandered for a while. Strange, isn't it. To find yourself in a dream with new yet familiar memories. It is moment like these I fear it could be not a dream, but let's not be crazy.

No problem, I wish others would help analyse and broaden the feedback and impressions.

>>862

That sounds absolutely horrible, but again, you are perhaps not that great of a coward as you picture yourself.

>>863

yeah, I wouldn't say it was a romantic meeting. It more seemed like she was scared and on multiple occasions needed comforting, especially when faced with the fact that her parents and brothers were dead, although they weren't shown in the dream. I'll get back on this thread tomorrow as college is off. All of Cumbria's flooding and my college is closed so yay.

>>863

Also what's so horrible about a bullet for my valentine gig sounding horrible?

>>865

It would simply be a nightmare for me. Say, how you feel about this? >>1452(Old Rose-Core thread)

>>866

I don't really know

I know rose has a lot of odd tastes and I only share a few: johnny cash and weezer most notably.

Thanks again for your time anon, I'm going to bed atm and I'm going to try to have some more rose themed dreams.

On a side note of like to think she sits and reads all of these

>>867

I'd* sorry this fucking phone will be the death of me

>>867

>>868

Your posts and affiliation are gratitude enough. I recommend the no fap plan most highly if you wish to do and have such things. It might haunt you quite fiercely, whomever is born out of your fascination.

Good luck and good night.

>>823

i rarely get more than a couple hours of uninterrupted sleep so no rem for me though i did have one dream once in the hazy moments between initially waking and getting up in which i felt deeply uneasy before a girl that looked and acted like blue rose (though it certainly wasnt rose, there was something off about her mannerisms) comfortingly embraced me though not like a lover or a friend or relative, its hard to describe but it felt like she did it out of necessity moreso than anything else, she tried to tell me something in an unintelligible language, before giving up and mouthing the word "flood" i turned to face a colossal tidalwave large enough to topple a mountain (which it did) we turned to flee at which point i noticed rose (actual rose with blond hair, i could tell it was her for whatever reason though she never spoke or turned to face me and not-rose) fleeing through the crumbling city which we were suddenly in, not-rose lead me by the hand away from the tsunami though it felt like her intentions werent to flee but rather to catch up to rose then suddenly me, not-rose and rose were on a large square wooden platform propped up on extremely thin supports that despite its apparent flimsiness was able to bear the brunt of the waters force better than even the fucking mountain earlier (though it was shaking such that it felt as though it could collapse at any second) myself and not-rose were on one corner of this wooden platform whilst rose was in the opposite corner, not-rose began to lead us to rose but my feet were stuck solid, she kept pulling on me and i tried to explain to her that i couldnt move but no words would come out, not-rose mouthed the word "why" to me and as she did she pushed me off of the platform into the water below, as i got carried away by the current i saw the platform fall beneath the waves taking not-rose with it, in seconds all that remained of the platform was a small section impossibly held up by a pole the width of my wrist, upon which stood rose watching me as i drowned

then i got up and ate some muesli because muesli is fucking great and anyone who thinks otherwise is a heathen

>>869

I don't fap to Rose, never have. I think she's too respectable for that.

But again thanks so much for your time.

>>871

I meant at all, any pornographic use discontinued will enhance the imagination. I too have never done such disrespectful act, and salute you for that.

Could you do me a favour? Please stop thanking me.

>>869

I agree with NoFap, but it has to do more with regulation of masturbation other than excessive. No one's forcing you at gunpoint to sprint to the 3 month finish line, only to moderate yourself so you feel cognitively better.

Pornography should be avoided at all costs, as I found that it's a massive trigger for me.

Has anyone actually rubbed one out to Rose?

>>872

Okay sorry, I can't help it the english thank everyone, or apologize.

sorry

thanks

sorry

>>873

not me

>>874

Stop apologizing!

>>873

I scaled down the use gradually and it worked quite well. Not aware of any actual No fap tenents or movements, I just wanted a far more vivid and imaginative mind. Besides, the Rose pedistal renders any interest in other females to minimal and short.

It is absolutely possible to rub it, but I would not bear the shame.

>>875

oh shit sorry mate

also, is it bad that I do fap to other girls still, just not to Rose? I mean, a boy has his needs m8

>>876

Do the hell you want with that, I want those rosealian dreams.

>>877

Okay

Thank you very much

Sorry

Thanks

Sorry

>>878

Stop it.

>>879

Sorry I haven't had anymore Rose dreams since posting that one a few days ago. Either that or, college is closed all week because of the floods so I've not been getting woken up mid dream, which is apparently how you remember them

>>880

Okay I finally had another one that I remember. It was more of the same really, in that same post apocalypse on that same cliff. But I had my jaw harp( I just found it irl after looking for like 4 days) I was playing it, the only other person was rose, who unsurprisingly was playing with her little harmonica. Then there's kind of a blank patch and the next I remember we're in some run down building and there's some form of indistinct enemy outside, I don't think I ever assigned an actual enemy, no zombies or anything, there was just some form of danger outside. She started crying and I had to comfort her. My friend went out, and we waited for what seemed in the dream like hours, he never came back and we eventually went up to the roof of the building. Rose looked over the edge and confirmed my suspicion that my friend was indeed dead, consumed by what was down in the street below. The memory goes a bit hazy but I remember hugging rose for a while in consolation, before somehow getting back to the camp. There, I suppose because my subconsious still feels bad about making me too beta to bring it up last time and probably the fact that it was still in my memory after you telling me not to beat myself up. I brought up her videos with something to the effect of 'you know, back before all this? I used to watch your videos on youtube' I proceeded to ask why she stopped. The answer I got was along the lines of 'people like you being creepily over obsessed' in a really angry sounding voice, I suppose what her university friends call 'rose rage'. Then I woke up feeling bad, then I wrote this, then it was now, then I don't know what happened.

>>881

Man reading over this and the last one I should write a fucking fanfic

>>881

Such a disregard for non-Rosealian life, completely understandable. Reminds of this Rose endorsed little game.

>>882

No doubt

while i've had a distinct lack of rose induced dreams recently, they've all had either her posting a new video or a sense of me becoming my own rose, which is some nigh fruitless goal i unconsciously made at the dawn of this year. the one thing that was prevalent in all the dreams was that i never interacted with rose: i was always a spectator which, i'm assuming, is because i arrived late to the party in 2014 and am only familiar with an inactive rose.

and not to be so vapid as i mentally jerk myself off but the goal is progressing well, rolling at least an 85% similar face structure. i don't have the proud rosealian nose but it's at least the right size and pointing in the right direction. however since i have the genes of a sloth and am growing at a literal rate of minus knots my bone structure is still developing, and i haven't been trying to get rid of the decades old slight baby fat on my cheeks because i'm concerned that any major exercise will make my body more masculine than it already is. i needed those slight shoulders and they've been steadily widening. time is running out.

>>864

>>880

that couldn't be a certain college in carlisle, could it? they closed for the same week due to a lack of power during/after the floods.

that'd be outside any boundaries of wack.

>>885

>i was always a spectator

Interesting. I wonder why some have interaction (mine quite violent, others more of friendship), and now observers. I do believe it has not that much to do with your arrival but mayhaps more with your perception and impression of Rose and the connection in-between.

>becoming my own rose

Perhaps one should not become Rose but become a better person inspired and provoked by Rose. With that said, I have combated the inner biological need for a partner and intimacy by meshing the Rose I perceive and myself. An eternal inner cuddle if you will.

>and not to be so vapid as i mentally jerk myself

It's what we do, m8.

>but the goal is progressing well,

Are you having surgery? I hope not. It also sounds as if you're still in your teens with this statement.

>am growing at a literal rate of minus knots my bone structure is still developing,

> i'm concerned that any major exercise will make my body more masculine

Sounds like you wish to have the appearance of Rose. Why? I've asked several times, you seem to have company in this regard.

>>885

what diet are you pursuing?

>>885

It is indeed carlisle college. This is a cool thread

>>886

You should be a psychiatrist fuck

>>889

but i'm already an occult cleric

>>886

>your perception and impression of Rose and the connection in-between.

my one-way relationship with rose is strictly platonic. i honestly have no desire to be close to rose and am content with being an outside observer, which is how i have lived most of my life. hell i don't think i'm even attracted to rose despite being relatively hetero. my feelings are more akin to that of a charismatic leader and her follower. she has very little impact on my day to day life and i've gone months without watching or reading anything rose related.

with regards to attraction it has to be said that after i discovered rose at least some of my feelings for other women have changed from being physical to just plain envy, especially if they're cute. the fact that rose was the catalyst for this feeling is intriguing but i'm not qualified to theorize anything close to accurate.

>Are you having surgery? I hope not. It also sounds as if you're still in your teens

i'm nearing 17 and thankfully aware of being prone to bad decisions.

hopefully not until my twenties when i can analyze the situation better, as time is usually the best remedy. however before knowing about rose i realized i had some form of gender dysphoria and did have the ambition to undergo hormone treatment within the next few years and eventually go the usual route of fucking my life up with extensive surgery.

despite agreeing with myself to wait for the ravages of puberty to end, discovering rose has proved disastrous in that i've reassessed the situation and am now afraid that there is a line where my body would be too masculine to look like anything close to female. now i'm torn between wanting to wait for a more reasonable decision or doing it quickly before it's too late. if surgery is the eventual shitty outcome, i at least want to look believable.

on another note i have on occasion been able to convince myself for a fraction of a microsecond that i could/do look like rose and have her bone structure, and the intense joy i received during that moment was debilitating and can only be described as a drug.

>Sounds like you wish to have the appearance of Rose. Why?

i theorize that it's an extension of my aforementioned condition, that i've set her up as an idol for myself to follow and a representation of what i should've been born as. whether or not that is ultimately true is up for debate, as puberty is an untamed beast at best. while my mental resolve is still strong enough to resist making any permanent changes to myself, i seriously doubt it will last through the next year, the only hope and ironically the only risk is that my confusion is a temporary condition caused by puberty. fuck my life.

>>887

rose wise i haven't put any effort into changing my diet, as despite her having preferences i believe her average diet is dubious at best. regardless i don't have any desire to change that aspect, living in the same country she does means that at this point i've probably eaten the same things she's eaten.

health wise i eat at the very least one fruit a day, usually an apple or more, drink enough water and digest enough nutrients to keep myself running. generally i feel like a pretty healthy guy.

>>888

here i was thinking ~1500 students was too small a denominator for even one other rosebud. i'm intrigued as to what area you're studying but the previous fact alone is enough to make me content.

>>891

This is fascinating. I too am an observer, but never by choice. I have an admiration and infatuation as some forests have fires. It is partially beyond my control to end, but not for restrictions. There's a constant correction and would say I'm much better than before with my faint hearted attempts and confessions for the things I adore.

It is strange meeting someone here who seems not that enthusiastic yet not unaffected. I haven't had a day in years where I did not watch at least a couple Rose videos. They are my will to live.

Seems you want to be Rose which is actually not something new. There was even one fan who even dyed his hair and took pictures mimicking Rose's. The envy is understandable. If you want to be a girl, why wouldn't you want to be attractive?

The major difference with people who coloured their hair blue and those who play as Rose in a video game is that their are just as enthusiastic and seemingly admiring Rose as much if not more as I. You're interesting that regard, but then again most oldbuds seem to have either dropped Rose entirely, turn to hatred or just be apathetic towards their formal idol. I wonder if the other ones will one day be as they

>17

Are you sure you are even allowed on 8chan? There's a lot smut you know.

Yes, waiting and contemplating is good despite your fears. Let's just imagine you have decided to actually do this, would you then sculpture yourself after Rose? Despite what many people have joked around about, Rose is not a male and you might want consider that for a second. Perhaps it is better to create a female version of you instead of a Rose 2.0, albeit I would be extraordinarily curious to see that result.

The drug debilitation I have experienced, as have many others. A very unusual method you utilize to extract it. I suppose it doesn't matter at which end you wield it, the Rose will still affect you. I must say for that young age your mind is notably "awake". Don't fall asleep.

Can't really advise too much on the gender conundrum since I'm no expert. I hope it goes well.

>>891

I'm doing level 3 IT

>>892

I too am 17, albeit I'll be 18 in less than a month, but I literally only go on 8chan for /rose/. However I do frequent /b/, but who doesn't?

>>891

>>893

I have to ask, how did you find Rose?

These threads still fascinate me on how adrogynous Rose is.

I mean she looks completely female, but it's her skininess and undeveloped ess that leads to her looking a bit masculine.

Despite that, her personality and humour is just as ravishing as her looks, and my heart aches that I'll never have a chance with this specimen in my life. Oh well, jealousy and negativity will just cloud my mind.

>>895

Jesus christ grow up for fuck sake, you sound like Elliot rodger on mdma.

>>893

/b/, around 2011 is when I saw her first video. First one I saw was I got a cold the freakin' musical. Pretty much just got mor and more obsessed. When she came back in 2012 it was the happiest I've been in years.

>>897

>>894

Shit I replied to the wrong post. I'm too tired for this shit

>>897

At the tender age of twelve? What the jizz.

>>899

Not him, but I was a month away from 12 when I started going to 4chan in 2011. I don't know how to feel about it, on one hand it gave me a sense of community because I was a lonely kid but on the other hand I think I started to know too much and became cynical. I'm 16 now, it's one of the few places where I feel at home.

>>901

I'm not in the US, all is good.

>>899

I am him, and I think for me it's not really anything to do with what laddo before said about a sense of community. I mean, I wasn't exactly popular but I did have an extremely tight-knit group of about 6 at the time that I dossed about with daily. I think it was more that I'd heard on other places what a fucked up place it was, and was just curious more than anything. But being a Cumbrian none of it really bothered me and I did in fact quite enjoy some of the content on there. Not like the sick stuff, although rekt threads are pretty good, more just the fact that everyone had quite a good sense of humour, the whole website is banter central and most of all, the fact that free speech is valuable to them. Really suited my tastes I suppose

>>903

Oh I should probably say, I've also been trying out that nofap stuff you were on about earlier. And over the past 5 or so days, I've fapped maybe twice. Which, when you consider that I'm a 17 year old boy, whose entire family goes away almost everyday while he has to stay at home because his college is shut that's quite impressive. And the two that have occurred weren't really out of lust or need, mostly just to pass the time.

>>892

i should add that i have never gone over two months without rose, only having several roughly month-long periods where interest was simply lacking. most likely the lack of interest was due to oversaturation, the same way that one who listens to a song too often can no longer enjoy it. in that way interest comes through regular oscillations as i tire and refresh myself continually.

cue boring anecdote: i've only had one other infatuation in my life, a chick who i only ever saw for a maximum of two weeks of the year during the summer, which went on for five years. the feelings i had for this chick during the middle of winter after a long lack of contact are eerily similar to those i currently hold for rose. it's possible that this regulated, annual experience conditioned my perception of love. either that or my feelings for rose are simply of a different calibre, but i find the previous too interesting of a theory to ignore.

it's interesting how you only refer to people dying their hair blue, is that simply because it's the first thing that came to your mind or has that been the most common decision? i favour the yellow-blonde rose myself.

as a related aside, i've always found people's preferences for specific periods of rose's activity intriguing. i find the 2013 platinum blonde rose with her seemingly perfect long hair the least appealing, mostly because at that point she gives me the impression of just another vlogger with a fake internet persona. still the lovingly wacky rose in many respects, but with an added sense of being "off". her age and clearly matured skin wasn't assuring either.

>Let's just imagine you have decided to actually do this, would you then sculpture yourself after Rose?

i'd say if i were to make the decision right now it would not be purely because of rose, and i'd go as far as to say i don't think her being part of the reason would've have made much difference in the end.

having an easier time at physically becoming rose would just be an added boon. i don't think my personality would ever change through my own conscious doing, though it has to be said that my attitude and personality has changed since the centuries past roseless days, although that could just as well have been due to growing up, either around rose or independently. too many variables to be sure.

>Perhaps it is better to create a female version of you instead of a Rose 2.0, albeit I would be extraordinarily curious to see that result.

possibly, but i'm just as curious as you to see the effects of letting her influence me while i am still developing. the majority of someone's personality is derived from their childhood after all.

>There's a lot smut you know.

nothing i'm not used to; i had free access to the internet when i was 9 years old.

i've seen some fucked up things man.

>>893

you're kidding – inferior level 2 IT here.

this is going to become some weird freemason shit isn't it.

>>894

searched something s.t.a.l.k.e.r related on youtube in mid-whatever 2014 and found a video from therosearchive, i momentarily checked and discovered her channel but left it at that for a month until i remembered the wacky chick who metaphorically died on the internet and i subsequently began staring into the abyss with escalating fervor.

shit i make a lot of long posts

>>905

I would never have suspected that there was another bud in Cumbria, much less the college. You're even doing IT? Holy fuck, makes you wonder how many of us are in the college, Cumbria

>>906

Sorry, that meant to say 'Cumbria, even' I'm tired shut up

>>903

A brit? A great honour for me then! Let me virtually shake thy hand!

Sounds reasonable, but unexpected.

I suppose my twelve year old self was quite immature and would not handle a site such as that or this.

>>904

Perhaps I can not sustain my recommendation considering my age, but moderation is always healthy and useful.

>>905

Everyone has their pattern of digesting the content. Our sister board's >>>/roze/ owner has told that he even has wilfully not seen some of the videos so that there will be always something new to discover. I one the other hand could stand one single day without at least seeing her face, and my goal is to able to remember each single video by heart. This itself help the fulfilment of other goals and so on.

The value anecdote varies depending on the reader. I see a parallel with my own experience in that one got indeed accustomed to love from afar. Perhaps too accustomed some would say, but not I. Could it be that it is different in that it is a variation? I personally find it more resistant against and all-encompassing. It is everywhere, yet does not exist.

Well, the irish fella, who I think was named shawn or similar, did pick that colour.

I myself had planned to blonde myself, but the reasons for it are the same as one who carves their loved ones name into the flesh, or a tattoo which I'm probably gonna go with after deciding next April.

>i favour the yellow-blonde rose myself.

I like you more already. Most people will answer blue as their favourite and I personally find it a bit plebby. Yes, 2013 has something unusual cast over it and at the same, horrifyingly regular. Rose, but with a plastic veil. When you say yellow blonde, I assume you mean "butter blonde" which were the first attempts at the blonde colour circa 2009-2010. See picture. My personal favourite is 2011 Rose, aka vyou Rose; the vyous has securely founded that and as well as sustained it.

The favourite Rose does say a lot about the bud, and let's not forget blue is still Rose, as well as 2013. But who are they but Randytaylor69? And who doesn't like Randy?

It will be interesting seeing your progress if any will even occur, and where you will be in time. I hope for surprises.

>shit i make a lot of long posts

Don't worry about it. It's quite refreshing to see a similar style of posting.

>>905

>i find the 2013 platinum blonde rose with her seemingly perfect long hair the least appealing, mostly because at that point she gives me the impression of just another vlogger with a fake internet persona. still the lovingly wacky rose in many respects, but with an added sense of being "off". her age and clearly matured skin wasn't assuring either.

i think that's a fairly wide-held notion amongst rosebuds, with the few detractors saying that she's more "articulate". If only there were videos of blonde rose, or at the very least her very last videos or in that style, I wouldn't be here

>>906

honestly despite wanting to believe there's more rosebuds out there i think this is just a peculiar coincidence.

uncannily enough, as i already have my math GCSE i go to another IT class for additional learning on tuesday mornings, recently they were doing web design and from memory i think they're level 3. might be your group.

>>910

after i fell into the deep pit of rose i searched for and pilfered as much information as i possibly could, however after acquiring my own randytaylor folder i became disinterested and held off reading her blogspot until early this year. even the marathon through her vyous was relatively recent. it's definitely due to oversaturation.

while i do prefer the butter blonde rose, her earlier blue maned quests through europe remain as some of my favourite pieces. the later blonde eurotrip extravaganza comes a close second and her formspring is an honorable mention. if all her content had numerical values they would only be decimals apart from eachother, however her writing has drawn me the most.

i should say as an aside that i've already bleached my hair to blond which, with a previous natural colour of dark brown, took an extraordinary amount of effort. right now the method is through using a custom mixture of peroxide, which is even more damaging than the average lightening product.

>It will be interesting seeing your progress if any will even occur, and where you will be in time. I hope for surprises.

the only progress i can speak of for now is an increased vocabulary and a slight introduction of some of rose's phrases. earlier i would've had to have watched/read rose content recently in order to get into that state of mind but now i unconsciously utilize phrases such as "mammoth proportions" or "at a rate of literal minus knots" – i realize i've already demonstrated the latter previously in this thread. sick.

i've observed this effect in quite a few other rosebuds, i wonder how many of them were aware of it.

>>912

>the only progress i can speak of for now is an increased vocabulary and a slight introduction of some of rose's phrases.

I've observed that the vocabulary of some rosebuds is indeed quite complex, my B2-C1 English skills have difficulty keeping up sometimes. Uncannily? Pilfered? Maned? The only word I've seen from those is "uncannily" and even then that word has been quite rare. Just earlier today or yesterday I saw one guy use "dissertation" instead of the much more common "thesis", for example.

Yet, my teachers have said that my English skills have been extraordinary ever since first grade, and often times my English skills have been better than that of my peers. I remember when I was younger, in 6th grade, they gave us some test that would evaluate our skills because they wanted to divide the 24 student class up into separate study groups for languages. I got 49/50 points, while the American girl who emigrated here got 46/50 points, and still I ponder what things like "pilfered", "ravished" and "fervor" mean. Sure, sixth grade was a long time ago, but I'm still steadily acing those tests and assignments while I have no idea what such words mean. I'm actually a bit disappointed that I don't know some words I see around here, English is one of the few things I consider myself good at besides sleeping and wasting my time with video games.

Question to Brits:

Is Rose literally 1 in a million?

>>912

The reoccurring disinterest is odd, but then i reminded by of reappearing themes and behaviours. This is a screencap of the elderly. Please be advised, they enjoy lying a lot, as do most buds.

I held off the blogspot, and still am mainly for the hope that I can scavenge the entirety somewhere somehow, and not just settle with the scrap meal the aforementioned grandmas gave us. This will probably never happen.

Blonde already? You sure have an erratic devotion. I will pray that it stabilizes anywhere at least for a while.

You might be interested in the transcripts found here >>6222(Old Rose Religion thread)

Let me know if you find errors.

Aware? Some. We are all affected, wilfully, by force or temporarily. Rosebuds can not escape, even in their old bitterness.

>>914

I second this. Please, let's have anyone else but Pierre answer this time.

>>914

>Is Rose literally 1 in a million?

Not at all but in the interests of your self indulgent fantasy it's required that you believe she is or else the foundations of your fantasy crash to the ground.

>>915

You only want to hear people who agree with you to help you feel a greater sense of belonging and validation for this silly infatuation in the same way teenage girls flock to fellow groupies and get defensive over boyband members when faced with outside criticism.

>>916

Teenage girl? I do yell at the top of my lungs at Rose's concerts and later proceed to violently dry hump her car which I suppose makes me a silly infatuated pigtail-headed little chick. A chick with dick. Yeah, someone get me skirt and special fx, m8s.

Can you really be this mad simply because I want more evidence? C'mon, Pierre, I want you to be correct. It would help a great deal for my purpose, but more data is required.

>>912

I don't know if they were in my group, I'll have to ask. It's something I can see Russell doing.

Also I too have been noticing the use of Rose's vocabulary unintentionally . Similarly has definitely sneaked its way into my vocab over the last few years. Same with a couple of phrases aswell, but I've still got that ooh-arr Cumbrian accent on top.

Disclaimer: I don't actually have a strong west Cumbrian farmer accent.

>>914

well technically speaking she's one in about 64 million.

Although using the same logic she's one in 7 Billion

>>915

it's a common mistake to believe temporal downtime as permanent.

>I held off the blogspot, and still am mainly for the hope that I can scavenge the entirety somewhere somehow

i don't think reading what's left of her blogspot will have an impact on your perception of any future additions, but your mileage is probably quite different. it's worth it for what's there.

the transcripts are interesting but i daresay i'm not dedicated enough to look through and edit all of them. i did have a gander through the randytaylor transcripts though and found some grammatical & spelling errors, but nothing i'd consider major.

>>918

the tutor during that class is john chambers. don't know of any russell – i haven't heard that name before.

>>914

comparing someone's internet persona to that of largely unknown persons who continually appear to be carbon copies of one another would be difficult and dubious at best. most of the people i know [which is such a minuscule denominator any theory born from it would be disfigured and retarded] are only similar to rose in that they possess the same lack of fucks given.

with that said however i'll make a contradictory guess and say she's not incredibly unique in terms of general personality traits. more like 10 000 in a million chicks, but maybe that's just my casual shitself being sickeningly positive. divide by 10 again. aaalthough if you're looking for exact copies that's gonna net you yet another decadal division. 100. shit. the accuracy of my uneducated guess is truly impeccable.

in short, i unno

>>920

I'll try to remember to ask. but idk if my memory's good enough to remember that until the 5th

>>921

you're confusing me, there's nothing to ask

if you're not with john on tuesday mornings (i gather you're not) then it's not your group. it's a whole class, the only reason i'm there is because i have nothing else to fill my timetable with.

whatevs man, having a proximity of less than one kilometre is enough already.

>>921

>>922

The thought that there's another rosebud in close proximity to me terrifies me. If I'd ever see a fellow rosebud in real life, things would go as awkward as they possibly could. How do you two lads live like this?

>>923

My advise? Don't appear. Hide. That goes for all.

>>922

Oh sorry mate, my understanding was that it was a seperate class you were going to optionally. But no, I don't have a John, I have Darrell, Daniel and the new guy Sam Ogle, who is my second cousin. Also I occasionally have the student teacher, Graham.

what the fuck

was this whole thread saved from some time before and reposted in one day yesterday?

>>926

I reposted the thread by hand from an archive of the old /rose/ before the board got nuked.

(https://web.archive.org/web/20160103121428/http://8ch.net/rose/)

This thread was too significant for all these stories and conversations to be lost… so I resurrected it.

If you have any requests, please tell me in the sticky/meta thread