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12eb9e No.1224[Reply]

I never get attach to anyone, always been a loner family is f'ed up like we're dysfunctional functional it's all we ever could be Family never knew i existed in some sense i guess you can say so i was always ignored, my older sister is always favorite Get anything but was always in charge of me and had to take care of me. She left at 16 after my mother tried to cut my dad balls off and was arrested and charged, parents can never stay away they always love misery, finally they got divorced when i graduated high school, but they were back and forth living together and apart since then on . I was focused on after they divorced and my sister stopped talking to any of us and moved on with her life, they don't know how to communicate with me random religious and social fights with my dad, my mom didn't care as long as she had some kind of medication to pop 2 or 4 times a day so yeah was a Gothic kid you can say. Move on about 6 Years back had a bad breakup with my girlfriend. First time i actually felt like I could love someone, i f'ed this up big time. She fell out of love with me. I struggled with depression, made it worse knowing i did this to myself, tried to suicide a couple times ended up in the hospital for both, got stomach pumped and had stitches on my arm, dad felt like im a lost person stopped talking to me started to drink more, kicked me out randomly broke down my door, small fist fight and call to the police. I had enough money and balls moved away lived up north meet cool roommate and meet someone new, about as fucked up as I am, random call from old man wasn't doing so well so I came back to take care of my dad, still struggle to communicate with him without bursting into some kind of argument he still drinks, got to give him medication and make him food. Mother was deported back to her country with half of my dad retirement fund court agreement. ..New girl friend living with me at my dad house trying to get myself out of here again . Social network, found my ex, we start talking small talk we don't communicate anymore. But each time i see her and remember how it felt to feel i cry hard knowing i can't feel that anymore. Sleeping is the only thing i look forward to from each day, random dreams with my ex wake up wishing i was still with her. Knowing i can't she doesn't love me. New girlfriend wants to marry me, find me the perfect person in her life….I can't feel….I don't know what to feel……Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

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ad1313 No.1226

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I know how you feel man. I miss my ex so bad and I have a new girl but damn my ex is always in my head. She's got a boyfriend now and that upsets me a lot. Me and my dad have had arguments and he and I ended up gettin gin a fight. He headbutted me punched me and strangled me. In honesty I found it fun but it's still shitty to be apart of. It's my fault she left. I rushed into the relationship with her it was long distance it was never going to work out but I still miss her. I guess some people aren't as dedicated as me.


12eb9e No.1231

i just saw my ex on social media…she has a new boyfriend and seems happier then ever….I feel lost again…..maybe this is a good thing for me…maybe i just needed to see she has moved on…..It hurts….its the strange thing, my heart felt broken but not so bad this time….My birthday just passed on the 26th… My father got pissed drunk and wanted to start a fight with me…..I left to a friends house after gathering things to make myself a birthday cake…. I came back to a bunch of can's and dishes around. Christmas was nothing really i made dinner for family and just went back to sleep after washing the dishes…So yeah normal time here… Happy early newyears…


c17ee7 No.1232

>>1231

Sorry to hear that, Anon. Only thing that you can really do to -in my opinion- is totally block her on all social media (for your sake). That's what I did with my ex… can't stand to see her.


9a0c40 No.1233

>>1232

I second that.


12eb9e No.1236

I took the advice and took her off my friends list…I hesitated…sat on my desktop on social media while my girlfriend slept and pulled up her profile…Part of me wanted to keep her on my friends list but i just kept staring at her old photo…Some part of me wished it was me she was smiling…Another part of me knew i had to let her completely go and just move on from this……..Still….Felt like a short while I was staring at her photo, almost obsess with her and yet relieved that she moved on finally…They say removing the object that is in your path of life is hard but a good thing….I hope so….I didn't really sleep at all after i deleted her from my friends list…I laid in bed and just thought and tried to rest…All i kept thinking was the good time, then the shitty time and the point we fought and the crushing blow that i made to destroy our relationship…I got up back onto my PC at 2am and been up ever since..its 4pm now the next day…..I keep checking my social media but now i feel like what is the point………I need to learn how to feel again…meditate and move on, drink and have an emotional outburst on new years….Draw, move on, pretend i have emotions……I don't know…….Shit has hit hard with my father on other side…almost got into a fist fight with him..I walked away without a word held my anger in he was drunk as hell….Girlfriend tried to make me laugh…I couldn't i…I really wanted to hurt myself…I used to be a background person in high school…I used to cut myself and no one ever really notices…I remember the feeling…The familiar sting and the not very satisfying satisfaction…I wanted that feeling again…but didn't do it… girlfriend was watching me…She saw my scar's almost all my girlfriends did..So i couldn't do it..Been scratching over the old wound..



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a1cc68 No.1198[Reply]

I went to a party last night to hang out and tried (unsuccessfully) onto a girl I've been trying to fuck for a few months now.

I end up leaving the party because I have work early the next morning. So I get home from work and find out that this chick that I was trying to fuck ended up fucking a friend on mine at the party.

I've been trying to have this happen for fucking months and he manages to make it happen in a night. I am so fucking pissed off that he was able to do this shit.

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a92910 No.1220

>>1206

>This isn't /r9k/

You serious?


2d7532 No.1221

>>1220

As the guy who made the board, yeah I'm serious.

Read the little red text right below the board name.


262305 No.1222

>>1221

>Implying suicide isn't a long term solution to life's problems.

Okay i'll write a serious reply. Go meet a chick at a Library instead of a party. That way your friend can't really fuck you over. I mean if not that quit job and try get pussy or stay in job and get no pussy. One of the two.


2d7532 No.1223

>>1222

I think you meant to reply to someone else.


951243 No.1227

>>1198

> I have work early the next morning.

There's your problem right there.

You walked out on a girl that was ready and willing, because you had to work in the morning, and you're upset because she sealed the deal with someone that was there.

look up "wage-cuck" in the dictionary, and if your picture isn't already there, you should add it.



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9e8267 No.1187[Reply]

I don't know if anyone else here are literal oldfags but I just turned 30 today and these wizard powers are as bad as being LVL 1 in OD&D or 2e. Hey maybe saying shit like that is why I'm foreverkissless.

Anyone else suffering a midlife crisis? Anyone else feel like shit because they're well into "adulthood" yet have accomplished nothing?

I for one wish I were still a NEET, for the car and apartment weren't worth the bills and chores and no time to do anything but feel sorry for myself, drink myself silly, or watch happy cute cartoons to temporarily numb the existential pain.

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a96745 No.1190

>>1188

>implying it hasn't always been a relatively slow board

Go back to /b/.


8386aa No.1191

>>1190

He was probably kicked from there for being a faggot.


5486d2 No.1193

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>seeing a fellow wizard outside wizchan


170b0a No.1194

Somebody please kill me, I'm too much of a coward to do it myself.


fb92a7 No.1204

>>1194

>>>/Suicide/



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07ecee No.1149[Reply]

Well, if anything positive happened this year it's that I managed to get myself back into therapy. It was out of desperation since I've despised going to therapy ever since I was a kid, but the latest of my numerous failed attempts of restarting my life caused me to snap. First time I snapped, I overdosed while at high school. This time, I was about to burn out one of my eyes with a laser. Only reason I didn't was because my sister came over and brought my little nieces, which snapped me out of it for a bit. After that, it kinda sank into me that I'm not quite sane, so I set up an appointment with my therapist I've been avoiding for a year. Figured it was best that I see him since I don't know what I'll do next time I fail if I don't get any help. Overdosing -> Eye Mutilation -> ? is a tough pattern to figure out. Anyways, he's a pretty cool dude, so I've been listening to him and taking his advice on trying to just fake being a normalfag as much as I can. Which has helped a bit, but I really don't have the energy to keep at it.

I mean, I'm tired as fuck. So many years taken from me, so many years of nothing. Well, actually worse than nothing, since there were multiple times things looked hopeful and that I actually had a chance in life, only for me to end up even worse than before. How do you guys find the energy to keep going after so many failures? You'd think I'd built a resistance to them, but it's getting to the point where I feel like, why fucking bother anymore.

Oh and wouldn't be /sad/ without tfwnogf feels, so better add that in real quick. To try to compress it as much as I can, had one, but then broke up with her. Regret breaking up with her everyday, and I try not to talk to her since she probably hates me, but fuck, better that they hate you then have them suffer along with you while you fuck up at life and go fucking nuts. I know that "if you love them, let them go" line is cliche as fuck, but I can't argue with firsthand experience. My mom's first husband died and she was having her own mental health issues, as well as drug problems. She decided to give up her two kids she had with him after that because she didn't want to ruin their lives. They hated her (and me I think) most of their lives growing up, but they're both married and have families and they're happy now. Can't argue with thPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

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07ecee No.1162

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>>1159

>if I havent killed myself yet its because of survival instinct

Hmm, guess I never thought of it like that. At least for me, those fleeting thoughts of suicide I did have were stemmed from me believing it was better off that I die and leave people with that little hope that I could have done something with my life, instead of disappointing them everyday and never amounting to anything. So I figured if I was ever sure things were hopeless, I would absolutely find a way to end things. Although they did say that's probably what I was hoping for when I ate my whole bottle of antidepressants. I don't know, they could be right. Don't even remember what my motivation for doing that for actually.

>But seriously I'll never understand how you can be ok with that, turning things around is possible, if only a little sometimes, but I just did the math and would rather quit this rigged life-game in which the outcome was written before I was born than endure the hell that awaits me, the short moments of well-being are not worth it for me.

Well to be honest, I'm not sure if I'm actually okay with it. Maybe I'm just telling myself that. That's how I always thought about it too, as trying to do the math of it. That in order to be happy with my life, the worth of everything I did would have to be greater than what I were to do if I were a normal person during those 5-6 years. Which meant I would have to live with that pain every day until I made up for all that lost time. I don't know if I'm just numb now, if I've lowered my expectations, or if therapy helped put my mind at ease, but that doesn't seem to be the case right now. I'm just focused on trying to make it through day to day, since anything seems better than wasting away as badly as I am right now.

>>1161

Yeah man, it definitely helps a little. I know that loneliness pain is killer though. Having to move away from everyone I knew still fucking hurts even though it's already been a few years. It's a bit demoralizing when a lot of the famiPost too long. Click here to view the full text.


405b40 No.1163

>>1162

My break was over a long time ago.


07ecee No.1164

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>>1163

Who knows though, right? Maybe that's true for you, me, both of us, or neither of us. Look, I can't bullshit any of you by telling you life is so great and shiny if you just believe hard enough. The last thing you fuckers want to hear is some generic "things will seem better one day" kind of comment that doesn't mean shit to you. But what I can try to do for you guys and myself is learn how to turn my life around at least a little bit so I could help you guys do the same. Then maybe you faggots and myself might change our outlook once things slowly start to become easier. I know we're all kinda spiteful here, so I'd like to think learning how to get better would mean more coming from a fuck up that you guys can at least somewhat relate to than from someone in a much better position than us. But like I said, I'm still working out the wrinkles in that plan, so if you guys could just postpone any possible an hero's for a while, I would definitely appreciate that. Also, try medication and therapy in the meantime. Even if you don't believe in that shit, what do you have to lose? Fuck what others might think, you just focus on getting yourselves better.

On a side note, this anon >>1159 reminded me of something with his vietnamese hiking. I would really like to one day just go walking across America. Came up one day on the internet when I very lightly toyed with the thought of just running off somewhere on foot and seeing how far I can make it before dying. But then it seemed liked a really interesting thing to do, especially when depression makes life seem really dull and pointless at times. I mean, traveling all that time on foot though all sorts of geography, camping along the way, meeting people, stopping at random towns and sharing stories of your adventure. I mean, that's fantasy/chinese cartoon level shit right there, and I'll be damned if I don't get in on that before dying. If you guys really don't have anything to live for, maybe you could find your own dream, or join me on mine. I mean hell, it actually makes me happy just thinking about it, maybe you guys should read up on walking across America. Except I don't know about you britbong anon. I've never heard of anyPost too long. Click here to view the full text.


631ac6 No.1185

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>>1164

> running off somewhere on foot and seeing how far I can make it before dying

anon, you just reminded of webm related.

That's exactly how I would like to end it all, if I ever come to that point. Just walk away from my problems, and keep walking ultil something happens or my legs stop working…


af2105 No.1186

>>1185

Run little fella. You run to those mountains, and jump off the edge.



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2fd6ec No.971[Reply]

Do dogs sleep all the time to make the days go by faster?

I would if I was ignored that much by my caretakers.

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0e52a6 No.975

To make you question the point of this thread.


345ce3 No.978

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>>973

I now have a animu smoking girl. A new one. This thread was good.

Don't be a sad puppy OP.


0e52a6 No.990

>>973

Was a good threat indeed. >>978


04c3fc No.1027

yeah because you neglected them, castrated them, and now they're doomed to spend their life entirely dependent on you with no friends. the irony


0ab4eb No.1184

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>>1027

>>971

You fuckers can't do this to me, i feel bad enough that he can't get in the car by himself anymore.



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d260a3 No.124[Reply]

Hey there. I've been lurking in 8chan for a while and while I am not clinically diagnosed with depression, I feel like I need someplace to talk to.

To summarize: I have a useless degree, am doing an equally useless Master's only so I will have the chance to leave the fucking country. I have taken up the family business which was going down the shitter despite my best efforts but immediately picked up when my brother took the reins. This has happened in pretty much every job or responsibility I've assumed. Things barely work when I am on, another person takes over and they pick up again. It doesn't take a genius to convince me that I could be useless even though I don't like to admit it.

The worst part is that my parents broke up when I was a kid and I didn't give a shit then but ever since I took up the family business I am living through their divorce (I was forced to ask for a loan from both of them when things were down the shitter and haven't been rid of them since).

No matter what I do, I am constantly reminded that I fuck up everything everywhere I go. I am well into my 30's and all I have to show for it is a nearly empty bank account and pretty much nothing else to my name. Fuck's sake I an't even replace my shitty useless second-hand car.

Sorry for the longpost, but I really have no-one else to talk to about this. My friends have mostly achieved what they wanted in life. My girlfriend has been employed at a major telecommunications company. And all I'm doing is trying to keep a tiny little business afloat and failing.
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ed8609 No.146

>>141
3.14/10

I "d'aww'ed".

fee37f No.1179

*penis*


fee37f No.1180

penis


8e405d No.1181

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>>141

Ah yes because living for other people and sacrificing everything you had to become selfless is the best idea anyone could have ever performed. Shut the fuck up you have no idea what you're on about. Even so no matter what you do 'They're all going to betray you!'


98f272 No.1183

How do i know?

I'm not fucking useless. I know it. I can do many things, my family loves me, i have great siblings. I may had problems with my father who abused drugs and alcohol. He might be a stupid fuck who destroyed whole family. But i forgived him. He changed himself. Everything is fine right now. Everyone is happy. The life goes on.

Yet still i'm sitting here. Being sad. Why? I don't fucking know. Everytime i think about it i still don't know why the fuck i'm sad and useless. I shouldn't be. But still i am.

It's like some kind of a paradox. I think i'm useless because i shouldn't be useless yet i still am.

It hurts my brain.



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f5619f No.1145[Reply]

I lost the guy I love because I said one thing to a friend that he took the wrong way (and even knew about; it wasn't even something to keep a secret or anything it was literally a piece of information) and now I'm basically the bad guy.

My friends say it's not my fault but I feel like it is and while he says he does still love me I don't know if he's saying that just to spare my feelings or because he really does, and I don't want to ask him because he says he can't deal with relationships right now.

How can I stop feeling like a piece of shit? I've done literally everything in my power without trying to annoy him.

4d1e41 No.1146

Is it not obvious? Okay so there's a small mistake you made from what you've said, he's taken it way out of proportion and left you because of it yet he still says he loves you just doesn't want a relationship. Literally what he's doing is he's thinking to himself 'This girl is attractive but I want lots of girls and I want to fuck them or and sext them all so i'm going to leave my girlfriend and get as much sexual attention as I possibly can while keeping my ex interested in me, it's the perfect plan!'

He's playing you like a fool and you've strung yourself into his dick pit. Best course of action? Get rid of his ass. I mean you could just keep him around for when you're horny and shit it's your life.


0f4074 No.1147

>>1145

Sounds maybe like massive insecurity from him. Hard to tell given what you've provided, but maybe this one thing was always in his head, and you saying it to someone served to reaffirm this. Not that it's your fault though, people with insecurity issue tend to seek out things that confirm their negative beliefs about themselves, intentionally or not.

You say you don't want to ask him because he can't deal with relationships right now, so when would you plan on asking him? Sounds maybe like your using this to avoid the definitive answer of how he feels. Nothing good can come from staying quiet. Maybe he still loves you, but feels guilty about what he did and takes you not talking as a sign you don't want anything to do with him. Or maybe he doesn't actually love you, but you spend all this time suffering, because you're wondering if he does since you're too afraid to ask. At least if you find out he doesn't love you, you'll have some kind of closure, and you can start recovering from there.

You could hope he opens up to you on his own, but that's betting your feelings on something that you don't know, if he actually loves you or not. If you want to feel better, you need to take control by acting on what you do know. That you love him. I say just go on and ask him. You wouldn't want to waste a love by being afraid you might annoy him. Just remember that no matter how this ends, you'll likely reach some kind of closure with him, which is what you really need.


0c085e No.1148

What was it?


8da17c No.1152

>the guy

Shouldn't of been a faggot m8 ;^)


a82fc5 No.1182

Reminds me of a girl I knew too bad times don't add up and it wasn't one thing oh well back to lurking.



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01f4c5 No.1107[Reply]

I have posted here a few times before but fuck this is it, the bottom of the barrel. I am finally at the lowest point I can possibly be and it tears me apart inside and I need some help to hopefully escape these feelings.

Basically I am socially isolated. Day in and day out, alone. All of my old friends either cut ties with me or left town, this started back in June. I lost the person I loved around the same time but I am over that all I really feel now is anger towards that individual because they were cheating; regardless, it does influence my more negative mood. Then two months ago I lost my grandfather to cancer after a long battle with it. I have spent the past few months leaving the house only to get to work or class.

>Then meet some new people!

I would love to! But the problem is that I have terrible social anxiety and I don't know where to meet new people. The only person I am interested in talking to is a girl in one of my classes but I don't know how to start a conversion with her and I wouldn't know what to say or anything. We have exchanged glances before in class but she stopped doing that recently, and I think she believes I am creepy because of it. Basically I am up a creek without a paddle.

Basically I am left alone in the world. It hurts guys, it really does. I spend every day at home getting stoned to try to forget my problems. Spending days alone brings in really bad thoughts. When I am not depressed I get anxious that I am wasting my life. I feel disconnected, it's like an MMO but every player but you is an NPC and they cannot interact with you no matter what you try.

Basically that is why my life is shit right now. I may have forgotten a few details but they are probably not very important.

Guys, please help, what can I do to try to improve my life? Because this is unacceptable for me now but I don't know how to escape this.

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51d379 No.1169

>>1168

No idea why you feel the need to complain to me about my life compared to yours. You're literally complaining that you're apart of the real life working world while not having much going on; yeah that sucks, but it's hardly like either one of us can claim that our situations are akin to fighting in the trenches.

>you don't have to do anything that you don't want to do.

Glad to know that I don't have to basically to everything short of shitting for my elderly mother who is about as mobile as a 60 year old former offensive lineman.


01f4c5 No.1173

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Hey guys. Was having a shit day today and thought I would give you all an update on how things have been going.

Well I talked to the girl from my class and things went well until the night I asked her out which was last week. This week after class, the time that we had been chatting over the past couple weeks, she practically ran out the door with the person she sits next to in class to her car, I mean she was strangely fast to get away from the room. Seems to me that she wanted to get away from me as fast as she could. That was pretty devastating.

As for the rest of my problems there has been no change. The hope that I had met someone new who would be interested in me had been keeping me in a positive mood, I was actually content with life for awhile. Now that the delusion is over and I once again realize I am a mongoloid who can only chase others away, I am deep in the dumps so to speak.

My ex who I mentioned in the original post is speaking to me again for whatever fucking reason and since I am a lonely piece of shit I am talking to her. There is no sexual or love interest in her at all and we keep conversation fairly casual because I distrust her. I opened up a little bit to her tonight because I felt really shitty. I know I shouldn't but I don't have too many other options to talk about my thoughts and feelings with others.

I have stopped smoking weed, not sure if I mentioned all the marijuana use in my OP post but I was going through a lot. I decided to stop for a month because of my tolerance but I wish I hadn't after tonight.

TL;DR: OP is in a worse place than before.


0031b9 No.1174

>>1173

If I was you by this point i'd stop talking to everyone. I'm slowly slipping away from my friends but I say 'we should hang out sometime' etc to not make them suspicious of anything. Some people are best left solitary and you seem like one of those people. (No offence) If I was you i'd stop talking to your ex.

>I know I shouldn't but I don't have too many other options to talk about my thoughts and feelings with others.

I usually get on I could help you out here or you can just post here and talk on here. Quit talking to your ex man she doesn't care. I bet if you wait a week without messaging her she wont message you within that week and if she does it's to complain to you about how she's not sucked enough dick this week.

TL:DR? Don't talk to people who don't care. So don't talk to anyone.


01f4c5 No.1177

>>1174

I think if I stopped speaking to everyone I would kill myself. I barely speak to anyone now and it makes me loathe existence already but having some semblance of a connection to others somewhat helps keep me grounded to reality.


651407 No.1178

>>1177

Suicide is probably a shit ton better than this shit.



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22fc0f No.1125[Reply]

Does anyone here use antidepressants? I'm sick of feeling this way and I want to see if there's another way before I end up killing myself.

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f1190d No.1157

>>1156

This


4aeaef No.1165

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>>1125

I'm currently on Mirtazapine and another at the moment. Like all antidepressants you get a little boost from it for like a month if you're lucky before you feel like you're just taking it out of habit and feeling no real benefit from it. I realize that I can get quite loopy if I stop taking my meds though


784df4 No.1170

>>1156

I always masturbate with my left hand despite being stubbornly right-handed for every other purpose. I wonder what its signification could be.

On an alternative note I sense that compulsive fapping doesn't cure the depression but perpetuates it instead.


784df4 No.1171

>>1165

Mirtazapine sucks. Its sedative quality made me feel even more detached from the fidgeting matter of my surroundings, as if somebody had spilled a dense and sticky paste inside my cranium. It was one of my first antidepressants (hence my sharp recollection) from a tediously long history, a miserable tour of trial-and-error that I prefer not to revisit.

The dependency issue aside, I would recommend picking up meds whose secondary effects aren't too crippling (for instance, Paroxetine or Fluoxetine).


9184ce No.1172

>>1170

>I always masturbate with my left hand despite being stubbornly right-handed for every other purpose.

You sound like me in that regard. I'm left handed for everything other than using a mouse, and jerking off; no matter what, I just can't seem to masturbate left handed though - trying to fap left handed feels unnatural like when I try to throw something with my right hand.



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4ea1ae No.1166[Reply]

So I see the word 'nostalgia' thrown around quite a lot and I have no idea what it is. I know the definition is reminiscing for the past, but I don't get it.

I had a shit childhood. Since grade 1 I've always been picked on, bullied and beaten up by my classmates. I always told my teachers and parents but they did nothing. I've grown to hate my past and any mention whatsoever of mine or someone else's childhood fills me with anger and rage.

So I see all these people talking about how things make them nostalgic but I have no idea what they mean or feel.

But a few weeks ago I decided to rewatch The Land Before Time (the first one) and the moment I heard the music in the opening credits I felt something and I can't really explain it, but I just cried for a solid 2 minutes. And for the rest of the movie that feeling stayed, although it was less intense.

So was that nostalgia or something else? I watched it again a few days ago but I didn't feel it the second time and that just made me sad again.

Anyone else feel sort of the same way?

f4c0b9 No.1167

It was probably nostalgia because it likely reminded you of one of the few good things from your childhood. From your post, you sound like those things were few and far between, but for most people feelings of nostalgia come more often and remind them of a better time (usually when they were kids/had no responsibilities) - for most people these can be anything from going back to their old high school a decade after graduation, some pop song by Britney Spears or even hearing of an actor that was around their age (for me Hilary Duff is that actress despite her being a few years older than me).

To extrapolate on the Hilary Duff example, for me it goes like this:

>hear something about her

>think of her old show "Lizzie McGuire" (I wasn't even a fan of it)

>that show makes me think of The Family Channel (which I watched a fuckload of)

>show was early 2000s so I would have been in elementary school when it was on

>at that age I wasn't depressed, had a bright future, was ignorant to the ills of the world, and my biggest priorities were getting better at hockey and seeing my friends at school

Smells are another big thing too. For me a big one is actually gross: it's the smell of a small town hockey arena that's had lots of games played that way; it smells of sweat, and greasy food - the latter being from the canteen. The humid air and the stench of sweat is something that I have a fond association with due to having played hockey for about a decade as a kid; I was always happy there. The greasy smell of the food makes me think of getting a hot dog and/or fries after a game, or having it at lunch on a weekend when we had an all day tournament and my team had to play two or three games that day.

If you really go deeper, you'll notice that people -and entire generations- do this en masse. Just look at fashion or music or movies/TV for example. People who grew up in the 80s will still sometimes reminisce about that time, but not in an overt -or even necessarily conscience- way. They'll fondly remember horrible songs and marathon stupid TV shows thinkPost too long. Click here to view the full text.



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fdf715 No.812[Reply]

How can anyone live knowing that any and everything you do is for nothing? There is no reason to get up in the morning, no reason to fight depression, no reason to try and be happy for everyone around you, and no reason to be alive when nothing matters. There is no meaning to life, and everything ends in death. This is killing me inside. Hell, if anything does matter in this world, im still a failure and a depressed sack of shit, and the world is still full of too much hate and sadness to ignore. How can normal people not be freaked the hell out by this? Are they even aware? Or do they lie to themselves constantly?

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70043f No.962

>>955

that was fucking beautiful


09dc36 No.966

I think it's that normies understand that wanting to live is a good enough reason to live. Purposes aren't important OP, if you enjoy doing something you should do it. They don't have those silly standards; they're all existentialists at heart.


09dc36 No.967

>>955

ugh creepy deists and your extra-jargon bullshit.


f67dd5 No.968

Life is what it is and everyday I wake up excited as fuck to live another day.

The truth is you don't know if life is meaningless or not. Nobody truly knows how existence began. Nobody knows how it will end. Nobody knows what happens when you die. It's just a belief, a belief that limits you.

But you got this desire in you to know the truth. Why? Because you want to live by the truth! So why not live by it to the best of your ability? Why not strive to create meaning in your life? So what you don't know why you're here, why the fuck does it matter? How is sitting in your room sad all day more meaningful?

If I died tomorrow I would have no regrets, because since I realized we have this insatiable desire in us for the truth, I've lived each day to the best of my ability in search of it. And in that truth I've found meaning.

There's greatness in all of us. We all have the ability to do things we can't even begin to imagine, with talents and skills in us that we haven't even begun to reach for yet. If you're unhappy with your life, stop doing what you're doing and try something new already. Learn a new skill, read some books, and do something about it!


cac7bb No.1155

>>812

I feel just like you, I think these same thoughts. The only thing that keeps me going is the fact that I have the chance for doing stupid, batshit crazy stuff in my life. Sure, no one will remember you forever, some people may cry for you for a short while, but when it comes to YOU, you can do anything. Even if it is for nothing, just do fun shit that masks the depression and let yourself fade into the light. Let your mind be supressed and do crazy shit. :)



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9e06c3 No.999[Reply]

I hate a lot of things in life and sadly one of them is falling in love with your friend. Having that feeling can destroy the friendship which is an outcome I wish to avoid. I'm not sure how'd they react. Right now I suffer in silence and just hoping I can move on. It would be a comfort to know anyone who can relate this.

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766264 No.1100

>>1099

>Send her an email or something.

Do not do this, OP. Either tell her in person, or don't tell her at all.


457f7d No.1101

>>1100

Yeah always in person or she'll think you're a pussy and take the next guy who can fuck her over you no matter how nice you are.


f84132 No.1118

>>1100

>>1101

Christ, you guys don't have any female friends whose friendships you actually value, huh. (Although reading OP again, I'm wondering if it's really a ladyfriend we're talking about.)

Regardless, this isn't about "getting da gurl b4 she fucks someone else and doesn't see how nice of a guy you are!!!". This is about treasuring a friendship, but not knowing what to do when those feelings stray into romantic territory.

The reason I suggested using email is because doing it in person makes it seem like you expect a yes or no answer, rather than talking it out and dealing with it until those feelings fade away (which'll take a bit if you don't pine, but will eventually go away).


766264 No.1119

>>1118

>Christ, you guys don't have any female friends whose friendships you actually value, huh.

No, I'm just not passive aggressive.

>The reason I suggested using email is because doing it in person makes it seem like you expect a yes or no answer

Yeah, because keeping it in limbo, and prolonging awkwardness is better than tearing off the band-aid where they either part, or figure out that it's mutual.

Jesus Christ, it's like 90% of males had their balls clipped off or something.


f84132 No.1120

>>1119

>No, I'm just not passive aggressive.

What does passive aggression have anything to do with what we're talking about here?

>Yeah, because keeping it in limbo

Except it won't be if you're clear about valuing your friendship over a potential relationship.

OP doesn't want to lose his friendship, but OP's in love with his friend. Sex doesn't have any part in this equation yet.



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a67ff9 No.1104[Reply]

Please help /sad/. My friend is suicidal and I don't know how to help her. She upset another friend today so started self harming again and I was like "You don't have to be a fucking saint". After that she was like "Wrong fucking word choice" and became extremely upset. I'm worried we will fall out, I just want to help her be happy, because she has given up on ever being happy, but I don't know how I'm supposed to do it because she's so secretive about everything.

Please /sad/ how do I make my friend less of a sadcunt? I have pretty much asked her what I need to do to help her and she said "nothing". But I need to feel to like there's something I can do. It's never nothing.

She doesn't deserve this, she's a good person…

8a12c7 No.1105

>asks for help

>Posts a Pepe picture

Here's the simple rundown;

You're not a therapist take her to a therapist none of us here are therapists if she isn't willing to talk about her problems then she's better off dead instead of having people waste their time on a lost cause. If she doesn't seek help and tries to act like some 'hard bitch lonewolf' character then she's going to end up dead or an attention craving whore.

TL:DR she needs a therapist and she needs to actually talk about her problems instead of being a faggot, or to be rammed by a stranger.


8a12c7 No.1106

>>1105

There's always >>>/suicide/ for them too if they need it.


e18ec2 No.1109

>>1105

I agree with parts of this. You can't let her (I don't want to say "intentionally" but who knows) manipulate her. It's great that you care for her, but you're NOT responsible for her or her actions. If you think that she's genuine in her desire and intent to kill herself, the best thing that you can - in my opinion - is to tell her that you're there for her, and that you'll listen. Don't be aggressive or assert blame on her since in her state, she could take it the wrong way like before with the "saint" comment. If she calls/texts you with some shit about saying "goodbye" or that she's going to slit her throat or something, just call the police and tell them that your friend is threatening suicide. If she's bullshitting in that event or hates you for it: FUCK. HER. It's better to get her a reality check than to have her actually go through with it, and leave you with regret and/or a guilty conscience.


b06794 No.1111

>>1106

This, get her some 99.999% pure nitrogen gas tank and make her happy forever.


8a12c7 No.1114

>>1109

This guy knows.

>>1111

There's a method that was being talked about on >>>/Suicide/ about hanging yourself but if you have pressure on a certain part it knocks you unconscious and you die a painless death. Fun times.



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d5623e No.1089[Reply]

All I ever do is go to work and come home to sit in front of the computer.

The weekends are reserved for binge drinking with my mates or watching Netflix if my friends don't have time.

I don't really live either. Lately I've come to the realization that this right here is real life. Before I always thought that my real life would start some day but that's crap. This right now is the real life and I don't really do anything.

I am 24 and haven't done anything meaningful or worth a shit. I literally have no stories to tell my nephews I don't think I'll ever have kids myself because I am worthless to women, I have no life experience yet.

I don't even feel like an adult yet besides technically being grown up. Hell, I still feel like a child despite living for myself in my own apartment supporting myself with an IT apprenticeship, which I am doing pretty good in.

I see people all the time spending time abroad for months either for University or similar shit. I haven't been out the country for longer than a week since I was a child.

I can even count all the countries I've been to on one hand. And I doubt that I'll even get the opportunity to do that in the future. But even if I could I'd do nothing different than I do now. I'd probably just hang out in the hotel and do shit on the internet.

I am no fan of meeting new people in general so I'd basically stick to myself all the time as I do now.

On top of all that I don't really have interests outside of my field and hobbies are basically non-existent. I don't think I even have to mention that I haven't even had a girlfriend yet and don't even have any prospects of changing that.

I feel like I am wasting my life. I mean, I am working on having a career in the future but I feel I waste my life as much as when I still was a NEET.

There has to be more to life than just work. I don't even know what the fuck I want out of life. Sometimes I wish a terminal illness upon myself so this decision will be taken from me.

What is living any way? I could ask people what to do with my life but then I'd live the idea somebody else imposed on me instead of living as I see fit. But I don't evenPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

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d5623e No.1091

>>1090

Why the fuck should I do sports?

I don't need to be fit. I just need to find out what to do with my life


f3c923 No.1092

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>Is this it?

Yes, im sorry OP but you weren't meant for more or else you'd be living an actual life right now.


23ab80 No.1096

>>1091

Just be /fit/ so you can wait for your calling with extra nattiness.


22b739 No.1098

>>1091

Being fit opens potential new avenues for exciting things like hiking and mountain climbing and parkour.

It also gets those feel good endorphines going.


34f957 No.1102

>>1091

Be fit and then fuck a hoe why not. Gotta try it before you know you like it or not.



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b0429e No.957[Reply]

Spoke to an ex today (I know it's bad I keep ex's around to talk to but for me just telling them to fuck off and leaving them is too much to cope with) andi'm used to feeling the sort of numbing/hurting feeling you get in your chest when you're reminded of something you love being taken away from you or when you do something embarrassing but this time it was different. It started off the same with the numbing pain etc but then I just felt it idk pass down my body and it felt like I had a stitch I felt pain in my arm too for whatever reason and I instantly felt like throwing up. Welp I think my emotions are literally one day going to be the death of me. Guess that's not such a bad thing.

*PIC IRRELEVANT* (It's a Margay if you're wondering)

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2eadcb No.1038

>>957

I know that feeling, I get it when I think too much about her. Try to talk to her, but she hasn't responded in a while.


082a7e No.1047

>>1033

One day i'm going to know that feeling. If I even live past 20.

>>1038

My ex doesn't respond anymore. I have 1 friend really. I have a girl who I try and help y'know the optimistic bullshit. It works though which is good. I don't want her to die. I keep my ex around but she never has the time to talk. I have a gf but she's using me and taking advantage over me being easy and lonely. Then I have my friend who I talk to an hour a day maybe. I have this site and Anime and games but I can't be bothered to do any of those anymore. I'm mentally insane. I see shit and hear shit and i'd go to therapy but I know how to fix myself i'm just incapable. I think my time is coming to an end soon. I get random body pains which just reminds me of my body trying to shut down on itself. What the fuck am I even talking about anymore.


082a7e No.1048

>>1033

One day i'm going to know that feeling. If I even live past 20.

>>1038

My ex doesn't respond anymore. Life moves on I guess.


d98b7b No.1095

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That's a really nice cat, OP. Have my bird.


b8c3d9 No.1097

>>1095

Thank you. I will keep your bird as my computer background.



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