Hi /sad/
So, uh, where to begin.
About 4 months ago or so my girlfriend and I split up, we had planned it and knew it was coming, even agreeing that this would happen before we started dating. So I shouldn't be kicking myself for it or anything. But, in summary, I courted and loved this girl for over a year, then we dated and I've never been happier.
Then the summer ended, our plan to break up happened, she went to study abroad and I happened to fall into #GamerGate.
Over the past few months I've had a lot of friends move away (I'm out of college for a year and some change now) and one of my favorite places in town to go to just closed. Over the past month or so I've been feeling sadder and sadder.
I have a therapist, and have had one for over a year, dealing with Gender Dysphoria, something which I felt I was "cured" of when I was loved by my previous girlfriend, because she made me feel accepted and loved and she loved me for me.
Anyway, so her and I still talk and are still friends, but I finally put the nail in the coffin (she already has gotten over me) and I made an OkCupid profile.
So far it's just been really really depressing. I wrote up a nice profile, and I've answered over 400 of those little questions they ask you, and the more I answer the more and more the match ratings on the women in my area go down and the enemy goes up. It just makes me feel that answering honestly is somehow wrong or something, or wonder what if I'm really just a bad person?
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