>>1015
I am in much of the same situation you're in, but I think I've just accepted that being alone is an absolute certainty.
There's no point in ruining yourself with drinking beyond the occasional days that getting drunk sounds nice. In fact, I think it'll even get better for you. Yes, you'll be living alone. But you will never serve anyone else in your life beyond your job. You will never have to feel the pain and suffering of a girl breaking up with you, or divorcing you and taking half of what you own, and then continuing to pay for her in alimony. You will never feel the pain of maybe losing a child and never seeing them again, both in death or that nasty break up.
I've seen people in my extended family walk that path of marriage. They are fucking miserable, and every time I meet with them, it's almost always the same thing. They utterly regret doing so, especially the ones that did get divorced.
You will be a free man, and you will have nothing to prove to anyone but yourself. You can decide to do anything you want, buy whatever the fuck you want, and live however the fuck you want. Those in your family that expect something out of you in terms of raising a family? Fuck them. They pushed you out because it was a choice they made, and you deciding not to have a family is also a valid choice. You owe them jack fucking shit.
Anon, I'm telling you this because I don't want to see you off yourself. I want to tell you to give it a shot. At first, it sounded fucking terrible to me, and I cried myself to sleep at night multiple times knowing I'd be alone forever because I'm a god damned fat ass, and just wondering when I should check out of life, preferably with a gun. But now I can see nothing but the potential for good things, even if it's just me alone.
If you take nothing else away from this, don't define yourself as someone that can't get a gal. Don't define yourself as the expectations of other people. I'm telling you to define yourself as the best person you want to be, and then fake it until you make it. And if for whatever reason you still want to check out, before seeing the world or doing what you want to do, do it not because you think you'll be alone forever, but because there's no possible potential for life to get better. And until you are absolutely convinced of that beyond a shadow of a doubt, please, live.