/sad/, I need your help.. I've posted here before, but I've been too depressed to get the motivation to do shit recently. I was doing better for a bit, but Things have been going down hill. My gf is still in school, and we don't really get to see each other in person at all, because she's still a minor and her family hates me, (I'm 18) and I love her, but all I seem to do is hurt her, and I even got a job, but the company (Rally's) was fucking me so badly I had to quit two days in. I live with a friend and his family, and I feel like a worthless shit because I can't contribute anything. I've been really feeling it now Mr. Krabs all day, and something just happened that I can't explain. I was about to browse for mods for Morrowind, just absolutely absentmindedly, and as soon as I walked into my room and closed the door, I without thinking Picked up a multitool from my floor, opened the saw, and sawed into my arm for a bout thirty seconds before smearing my bleeding arm across a piece of shale on my shelf and lighting candles over it. I have no clue why I did this. it seemed a completely normal and rational thing to do until I had finished. I've been losing my fucking mind for weeks now, and it's getting breddy bad. Advice?