16bff5 No.116
>tfw your parents thought counselling is a waste of money as a kid
I was dreaming of talking to a therapist in my head ever since I was 11. Now it's a habit and at the moment, aged 18 I can't afford one without my parents' help who clearly stated they wont help.
>ADHD, free school advisory pointed out possible ass burgers, absolute lack of any coping mechanisms apart from excessive fapping and binge eating
>seriously depressed, thinking of suicide 2-3 times a day. But not considering it, because I have a girlfriend who has serious mental and emotional problems, history of alcohol abuse and self harm, essentially methods of suicide to me are like cakes in windows by now.
I see days fly past without me learning any useful skills, following my hobbies in art and programming, all because I just can't bring myself up to doing any of that because I feel like I just am not able to, even though I know that my hardware is more than capable of doing it.
>(IQ test scored me in 0,5% percentile with 149 points)
I feel like a broken robot without a self-destruction button and like a ferrari that has no fuel tank.
fun times
98af53 No.118
Not much to say about this other than that at 22, I can relate (I haven't had a gf since I was 19 though and it ended horribly). My IQ isn't as high though (I think I was at 122 or something) - then again, I'd gladly slice ten points off if it made me happier and more motivated.
16bff5 No.120
>>118I'd gladly accept mental retardation if it made me happy.
c5742b No.121
>>120But if you were retarded and depressed that would be shitty.
7ca164 No.136
>>120My IQ is 89 and I'm a depressed-ass nigger.
Lower IQ doesn't always mean happiness.
01b179 No.527
>>116>have 136 iq and am in top 2% of population>have been told im special and smart my whole life and called gifted.>realize im not THAT smart or special>feels bad man