>>1242
damn, that hit too close to home.
I can't give you any concrete advice, since I have started becoming a ghost aswell. What I can tell you though is that, no matter what, you still need a person to connect to; it's a way to keep you from going insane.
If there is no worthwhile person to be found, you'll need to somehow change something in your life _ just to keep things a bit interesting.
If you stay in the same environment for too long, being a complete ghost, insanity is a danger you'll need to look out for.
I bet you've already thought about that stuff. You know you want to be happy, you know you want something to change, you know you want to find a person who is worth it, but you simply don't know how.
I get how you feel, and I'm not sure how I can help you. I can't even help myself.
I have started planning something though. I plan to go to Africa for a couple of months (maybe more), just after I finish university. My grandpa spent some years of his life there after deserting from the commandos during WW2. He couldn't return back to Greece because it was occupied by the Germans, and he was already in Egypt. So he went south with other deserters and ended up smuggling goods to Afrikaners in Congo. I have heard a lot about his adventures there, I have seen some photos (pic related is one I found right now), I have a painting that he got from a famous Greek painter in Ethiopia, a piece of ivory, the deed to a restaurant somewhere in Rhodesia and other memorabilia.
Shit, I've ended up talking about my grandad too much. The point is that I want to go to Africa and see what it was that kept him there for some years, even after the war was over and he could return home. I don't want an adventure I do, but I don't expect one, I just want to see the continent that took away his buddies, his eye and made him a gambling addict.
What does this have to do with me? you'll ask. I wanted to show you my way of escaping my current state. You simply have to plan something exciting, something that'll remind you that your'e still alive, something that'll bring an end to the boredom I hope I'm not projecting too much
damnit kikewheels!