/sad/ - Depressed

Hey there. I've been lurking in 8chan for a while and while I am not clinically diagnosed with depression, I feel like I need someplace to talk to.

To summarize: I have a useless degree, am doing an equally useless Master's only so I will have the chance to leave the fucking country. I have taken up the family business which was going down the shitter despite my best efforts but immediately picked up when my brother took the reins. This has happened in pretty much every job or responsibility I've assumed. Things barely work when I am on, another person takes over and they pick up again. It doesn't take a genius to convince me that I could be useless even though I don't like to admit it.

The worst part is that my parents broke up when I was a kid and I didn't give a shit then but ever since I took up the family business I am living through their divorce (I was forced to ask for a loan from both of them when things were down the shitter and haven't been rid of them since).

No matter what I do, I am constantly reminded that I fuck up everything everywhere I go. I am well into my 30's and all I have to show for it is a nearly empty bank account and pretty much nothing else to my name. Fuck's sake I an't even replace my shitty useless second-hand car.

Sorry for the longpost, but I really have no-one else to talk to about this. My friends have mostly achieved what they wanted in life. My girlfriend has been employed at a major telecommunications company. And all I'm doing is trying to keep a tiny little business afloat and failing.