Not sure if anyone goes on here anymore, but if anyone does I just wanted to vent a little bit. Sorry that it is in a stream of consciousness format, but I just wanted to get it all out. Anyway, here it is: I feel like an extra in everyone else's life.

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Anonymous 11/18/14 (Tue) 04:14:56 b7e1b7 No.137

Not sure if anyone goes on here anymore, but if anyone does I just wanted to vent a little bit. Sorry that it is in a stream of consciousness format, but I just wanted to get it all out. Anyway, here it is:

I feel like an extra in everyone else's life. In the background, only there when someone wants something from me. I feel alone, like an astronaut lost in space. I often feel stupid, and I hate myself for it. I stand about 5'7", so I am short, and weigh about 165 pounds and I have been losing cuz I don't eat enough food some days. I am tired of life sometimes. I smoke a lot of weed to try to keep myself happy, but when I am not high (which is most of the time) I generally am not happy. The only thing keeping my head afloat has been my girlfriend, and my writing. I want to make a career out of my writing but I know I am nowhere near good enough to get noticed.

Thanks for reading guys.

Anonymous 11/19/14 (Wed) 03:53:47 e7895c No.138

How old are you, OP? Do you have any longterm goals? Could you see yourself writing professionally or are you wanting to make a career out of it because you may feel like "it's all" you can do?

Have you ever talked to a therapist?

Anonymous 11/20/14 (Thu) 01:54:14 b7e1b7 No.139

>>138
I am only 18 right now. My longterm goals right now are to get through school, but I have no idea what I want to do. I would love to write professionally, I really do enjoy my writing, but I feel like it is inadequate when compared to anything else. I have never talked to a therapist, mainly because I am too afraid of admitting I have an issue to my family, and I am afraid of actually going.

Anonymous 11/28/14 (Fri) 16:17:52 e2d00b No.154

>>139

anon.

Most people are typically afraid of going to a therapist. It's probably because it's really hard to admit that we can't handle our own situation ourselves. Not to mention that you don't want to admit it because you might think people will think less of you for "being crazy" or something.

It's bullshit

Going to a therapist isn't about what other people think. It's about you. It's about helping yourself.

And it's not a sign of weakness to go to a therapist. It's a sign of strength. Strength that you're willing to go somewhere and get the help you need. That you're willing to face a fear and social stigma and do what needs to be done.

Therapy is a really good thing, you just have to be open about it.

You're only 18, as cliche as it sounds, you've got a lot left in life to deal with and you're going to surprise yourself with how far you'll go.

A lot of therapists even do sliding scales or just take checks with no insurance if you're looking to avoid letting your parents know or whoever you live with.

Trust me man, it's ok, you'd be surprised how many people go to therapy