5afaeb No.222
Hi. Can I ask for your help? or at least just somebody to talk to?
Let me explain why I came here. I guess this will just sound bitchy but I really just want to know somebody actually knows I exist.
Since age 12 people has avoided me. My problem is that I can't understand whats wrong with me. Ok, when I was 12, I was an emo and all that shit, I understand that nobody want to be around and emo, but after that age, I started changing. I started to be less depressive and actally tried to get along with people. I tried to be funny, loyal, show interest for other people, etc. but in the end, everybody just ends up avoiding me, the i realized it my be because I'm too whinny. I stopped complaining about shit with people. Still I ended up alone. After the years, I have no friends. Nobody to talk to. Every time I try to talk to my old friends or just hang out with them, they just tell me an excuse or just say "Yeah, let's meet" just to end up ignoring me for the rest of the day. I know I'm boring but fuck, am I really that boring?
Please, help me. I hate being alone. I hate that feeling in my chest. Its like I'm about to cry but I never cry. I can oly think about how worthless I am. I'm not able to make friends, I'm not able to be happy. My life is just waking up, go to work. Talk to nobody for the entire day and go back to sleep to repeat the routine.
I don't want to keep going with this boring shit, just to summarize everything, please, help. What the hell is wrong with me?
5afaeb No.223
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Do you have kik?
We can talk if you want to.