/sad/ - Depressed

I think I finally stopped caring last year (I'm 22). no friends, no job, no money and no real desire to do anything.

7th grade is when it began, but I didn't hit rock bottom until the second half of 9th grade. Now I'm a 17 (turning 18 next month) year old loser with no job, no driver's license, no gf, no plans for the future, and no fucks to give.

>>242
I know it's sort of an empty statement, but please, please do your best to find some motivation. You see your post? I'm all of that except now I'm 22 (I'm the Anon who posted above you - not sure if I'll have the same ID). I've failed out of college twice so it's not even like I'm at $0… I'm at -$xx,xxx. I had a serious girlfriend prior to my life going all to hell, but that obviously didn't work out.

All I'm trying to say is that for you, please don't wind up like me. Being how you are at almost 18 really isn't too bad, Anon. Believe me though, you don't want to be like this at 22 (or older obviously).

I only realised it a year or two ago when someone mentioned how much they enjoyed life, which got me thinking at the time about how long it had been since I last cared. I know it's been a few years, but should it be this difficult to pinpoint an exact time?

>>255

I can relate to this, i had a bit of an awakening when I found out people genuinely enjoyed life. For some fucking reason I thought everyone was like me. I now find my presence to be somewhat of a cancer and those that could be bothered to listen to my insistent pessimism have all floated away.

Can't say i've stopped caring, every morning i still get that "marching to the gallows" feeling. Sometimes i let out an audible "Why?!" when i wake up. The thought of how the fuck im going to waste the day is such a horrible burden.

>>255
>>262
I can relate to both of you. Especially these parts:

>I now find my presence to be somewhat of a cancer and those that could be bothered to listen to my insistent pessimism have all floated away.
People didn't really float away from me though; I just voluntarily drifted from them as I knew that I was the cancer. I sort of figure that it's better to leave them before they come to dislike me (who knows, maybe I'll get my life together and I can have them think of me as put together like they once knew).

>Can't say i've stopped caring, every morning i still get that "marching to the gallows" feeling.
Oh God, this.

>The thought of how the fuck im going to waste the day is such a horrible burden.
Every. Day.

Every day is exactly the same:

>wake up tired
>piss
>turn on laptop
>check to see if there's anything interesting no forums I browse (there usually isn't)
>eat
>lurk 8chan for hours
>maybe fap
>continue lurking
>eat supper
>probably fap
>lurking 8chan consistently
>bed
>repeat

Nearing two years of this shit but I can't just bring myself to even try to change.

>>263
I know that feeling. I've got a full time job and i'm just in autopilot. day in day out everyday for a year now.

About what

>>284
Life.

>>287
Haven't stopped caring about life yet, otherwise I'd be dead instead of feeling feels here. I haven't stopped to care in years though

>>244
24 year old here, listen to this anon.

I have no desire for anything anymore. I just stopped caring about anything.