18. Still a fucking kid. Still in high school. I don't know why I have no motivation. I don't know how to solve it.First time posting here. There's a lot I want to say, but most of it would probably be rambling.I feel very trapped by my own self

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Anonymous 02/28/15 (Sat) 12:57:06 1723d0 No.395

18. Still a fucking kid. Still in high school.
I don't know why I have no motivation. I don't know how to solve it.

First time posting here. There's a lot I want to say, but most of it would probably be rambling.

I feel very trapped by my own self. I have extremely little willpower to do anything about my academics, and yet I acknowledge this and don't do a damn thing. I want to die, but I think about my family, my girlfriend, and my close friends and how they might react.

And then I acknowledge that I have all those people and how I live in a comfortable enough environment, and then hate myself for acting so stubbornly stupid, when I have all these nice things that people out there (even in this board) would dream of having, thus digging myself into a deeper hole.
I'm sorry if I sound like a prick.

TL;DR I have extremely little willpower for reasons I'm uncertain, and it's killing me.

Anonymous 02/28/15 (Sat) 15:41:29 64fd5b No.396

Probably already know the answer, but are you depressed? And if so, for how long? Have you talked to your family/friends/family about how you're feeling?

Anonymous 03/01/15 (Sun) 01:09:22 55a979 No.397

>>396
I was diagnosed with depression when I was 13, which was 5 years ago.
I don't like to talk about how I feel. I'm not even close with my mother. My girlfriend doesn't really understand how I am, which is okay in her own way, since she's a supportive person nonetheless. I have a couple of friends that I talk to when I feel oveewhelmed from time to time.

Anonymous 03/01/15 (Sun) 01:34:45 7ccac0 No.398

>>395
I'm 17 and am literally going through the same thing. (minus the girlfriend. fml) But seriously willpower is just nonexistant now in my life for some reason, when just a year ago I was fine. Is this what depression is? I want out

Anonymous 03/01/15 (Sun) 01:36:59 8a1a67 No.399

>>397
Well it's good that you at least went to talk to someone (as in - a professional) at one point. Would you be willing/have access to that kind of resource again? And it's good that you at least seek out your friends; I know that stuff can be hard to talk about too, especially if you're not too close with your family.

Anonymous 03/01/15 (Sun) 10:41:20 ff4901 No.402

>>399
I suppose some professional help would be good. I don't know how well I will utilize it.
That time I went when I was 13, I only saw that therapist like once, and she was only there just to diagnose me with depression, and give me antidepressants, which pissed me off. I went to another one at 14/15, and I never felt as if that helped me in any way.

Anyhow, it's mainly 1 friend that I talk to about personal problems from time to time. An online friend (we've seen each other irl twice), and a very relatable person. We help each other out from time to time.

Anonymous 03/24/15 (Tue) 04:08:15 0596fe No.431

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>>395
>>397
Other than the part where you have a gf, you've pretty much described my life (although I only got diagnosed last year).

>tried tulpamancy, but I just can't give enough fucks
>meds and therapy didn't do jack shit
>tfw it's been years since I've given a rat's ass about anything other than vidya and funposting
I'm just not cut out for the real world.

Anonymous 03/30/15 (Mon) 14:56:35 cc620c No.468

>>431
Zero?

Anonymous 03/30/15 (Mon) 22:15:52 331229 No.470

Going through the same… No GF though.

Anonymous 03/31/15 (Tue) 20:35:47 42383d No.476

>>468
I have no idea who you're talking about.
>>398
the ride never ends