So, My dad has cancer and apparently dying.
I havent seen him in years, since my parents divorced and he had threatened to kill me and my mother.
Hes no doubt a bad person and has a long track record of doing awful things, i wont go into it since dont think any of you care about those details.
Anyway, I recently heard from my sister than he wants to speak to me before he dies, he is exaggerating somewhat for sympathy, im sure. But its gotten me thinking about things.
I cant bring myself to speak with him, not because im angry with him, but because after so long of having to deal with his behavior, threats, etc, i just cant find the courage to do it.
But I cant help but wonder if i'll regret not speaking with him in the future.
I'm feeling conflicted.