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I don't know if you care but I talked to her about it because after all I didn't really send a whole cringe fest.
I just told her that I am kind of disappointed that we never get to hang out and today we talked a little and basically she just didn't respond because I tend to write too much stupid shit when I get drunk and that she feels that it's too much. That only seems to be a problem when I drunk text her, so I can live with that. I promised her that I'd cut back on sending drunk messages.
Downside is that she is reluctant to hang out with me for two reasons: One being that she doesn't want me to think it's a date and two that she doesn't want to get into a situation with lots of awkward silence because we basically never hang out and only see each other a few times a year and everytime there's alcohol involved.
I told her she shouldn't worry about me thinking it's a date because I never had a date in mind. It's true though a date for me would be too official, I just want to hang out and just spend time together regardless of where we might be heading and that I am not really a guy for this type of thing. But she didn't adress that in her reply.
In the end I also told her I was afraid that she'd say something like "yo stop messaging me and gtfo" to which she responded that she really likes talking to me even though she's not really the texting kind of person.
Anyway, it's all cool again. Even if stay just in contact using messengers that's fine with me. It really eases the loneliness I feel all the time. I mean, she obviously does like me on some level but I am also sure that I don't make the cut for bf material, but that's fine with me. I am aware that I am not exactly what a girl wants. Gotta be happy with what you got.