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65b0ea No.197[Reply]

>tfw a girl falls in love with you

9f6ce3 No.198

Stop all contact unless you can live with her and have her give you monetary benefits, even in simple things like food, if it would be economically beneficial to you.


5b812e No.205

Oh god and she's so fucked up.

What do I do.

I need to fix her.



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0531f3 No.190[Reply]

When I'm alone for a while, I sometimes feel like I could just go to the employment office, sell some of my lifetime so that I could maybe buy clothes, of which I own very few, or buy something that I might have a slim chance of enjoying, but then when I talk to my mother (like one sentence about the most meaningless stuff), or go outside and am around people I don't care about and who don't care about me, there is an inexplicable pain and I just want to 'not live' as much as possible.

It has probably something to do with having learned as a child that showing initiative will lead to being hurt, and with having a notion of "It's not OK to be me, I'm guilty" ingrained somewhere in my psyche (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Erikson%27s_stages_of_psychosocial_development).

I get laughed at occasionally when I'm outside. (It's probably because of the dead expression in my eyes, which marks me as a 'loser', as well as superficial signs of status, like clothing.) It's not like it hits me emotionally, but the world just feels hostile. How could it not for someone who has no one to trust in and who can't trust anyone?

So, if I did stuff, life wouldn't be so meaningless, but since life is so meaningless, how could I be motivated to go outside and suffer more than necessary?

2ff084 No.202

>feelio w no water-cooled house



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90a428 No.181[Reply]

Much love to the dorito shitposter :D

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04c812 No.184

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04c812 No.185

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04c812 No.187

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04c812 No.188

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7eaf9a No.199

I enjoy looking at pictures of the triangle mystery god



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21b55e No.179[Reply]

Who /languid/ here?

40df19 No.180

I've mastered all the sub-types and have since evolved into the perfect schizoid form.



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d3e283 No.175[Reply]

Have any of you been able to really 'get' the phrase (and the connotations behind) "I'm off my meds"? How alienated did the realization make you feel?

I think I just forgot to take my dose earlier, the fact that I started headpunching as it dawned on me solidified that a little. It's like, I don't even know how to >into words it. Lot of curtains just came crashing down on me, we'll leave it like that.

e8a758 No.178

>How alienated did the realization make you feel?

Didn't really care one way or the other.



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98e95b No.159[Reply]

How many here have jobs?

If you are employed, what do you do? How does it affect you, as a schizoid?

60e465 No.160

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I had a low level job so far (think fast food). It was pretty good on the whole I barely spoke when I did not have too but I learned to where a mask and that will pay off!


c938d3 No.165

I worked a lot in my 20s, but the cops got me and laid some heavy charges on me after some stuff. I'm barred from almost all work now and sit alone in my basement awaiting a war or the courage to kill myself.


7f72ba No.171

I work a factory job. The environment isn't too bad, loud machines everywhere and not a lot of people in my department, so I get to be alone and absorbed in thought while doing repetitive tasks for most of my shift. Work can be quite repetitive at times, often doing the same thing for hours on end, so it's easy to turn on autopilot and just shut myself off from the rest of the world while still working. The only time that communication is really necessary is when relaying information to other workers, but everything has a place and/or a label so it's all good. I've worked retail businesses before and I can say that my current job is way better than having to communicate with customers all the time.



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54ab73 No.48[Reply]

There now exists an IRC channel, #schizoid on irc.rizon.net.

I know we don't have many people yet, but I figure it can't hurt to have an outlet for less public or less formal discussion.

I'll be there fairly regularly. I can't guarantee specific times, but often it will be around 10 P.M. to 4 A.M. -06:00 UTC.

Feel free to come or don't. We can talk about whatever or just enjoy the silence, and don't be afraid to talk about anything troubling you. I'll listen.

54ab73 No.170

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The IRC channel is where the action is. Get in there and visit sometime if you haven’t already you schizoids.

There’s even a live audio stream sometimes which is linked in there.



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b5e17c No.161[Reply]

Fairbairn argued that the tragedy of schizoid children is that . . .they believe it is love, rather than hatred, that is the destructive force within. Love consumes. Hence the schizoid child’s chief mental operation is to repress the normal wish to be loved.

b5e17c No.162

‘’ The psychoanalytic use of the term schizoid derives from the observations of “schisms” between the internal life and the externally observable life of the schizoid individual (cf. Laing, 1965). For example, schizoid people are overtly detached, yet they describe in therapy a deep longing for closeness and compelling fantasies of intimate involvement. They appear selfsufficient, and yet anyone who gets to know them well can attest to the depth of their emotional need. They can be absent-minded at the same time that they are acutely vigilant. They may seem completely nonreactive, yet suffer an exquisite level of sensitivity. They may look affectively blunted while internally coping with what one of my schizoid friends calls “protoaffect,” the experience of being frighteningly overpowered by intense emotion. They may 9 9 seem utterly indifferent to sex while nourishing a sexually preoccupied, polymorphously elaborated fantasy life. They may strike others as unusually gentle souls, but an intimate may learn that they nourish elaborate fantasies of world destruction. ‘’


2a9dae No.163

"Life is boring."

Anonymous Schizoid c. 2015


5e272c No.164

"Nothing hurts as much as life."

2D Guy c. 2015



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4f9764 No.139[Reply]

this is also a thread for medically diagnosed schizoids to answer the questions of self-diagnosed schizoids.

3 posts omitted. Click reply to view.

acaad7 No.153

>>142

Would you say it has an affect on your mood. Or rather is it working?


cabe85 No.154

Does anything change too much after you are diagnosed?

What I also mean is that do people still expect much out of you even after they know you have been medically diagnosed as schizophrenic?


15455b No.155

>>154

>schizophrenic

I hope this is a mistake. The differences between a plain schizoid personality and schizophrenia are rather extreme.

For example, schizoids are not in general undergoing psychosis, but those with schizophrenia struggle with psychosis constantly. (That is not to say schizophrenics are always having a psychotic episode, just that it is a frequent struggle, and it is also the case that some people with schizoid personality traits may occasionally experience instances of brief reactive psychosis when under extreme stress. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Brief_reactive_psychosis )

There are some similarities though. Schizoid personality disorder has negative symptoms similar to those of schizophrenia, such as anhedonia, blunted affect and low energy.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anhedonia

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Blunted_affect

I find this distinction important to maintain in discussions as schizophrenia is essentially the basic version of plain old crazy that most people would think of when saying somebody is insane. Plain schizoid personality traits would suggest someone may have a preoccupation with fantasy, but that person would still be grounded in reality.

However, I won’t deny that the two conditions are related. There is some evidence to suggest that there is an increased prevalence of schizoid personality disorder in relatives of people with schizophrenia or schizotypal personality disorder. Schizoid personality disorder and schizotypal personality disorder may also be stepping stones for an individual that will eventually develop schizophrenia. The younger one is when getting a diagnosis of some condition on the schizotyPost too long. Click here to view the full text.


cabe85 No.156

>>155

Yes that was a mistake. I'm on phone usually, sorry


acaad7 No.158

>>155

yeah that was a mistake sorry



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26bd3d No.73[Reply]


Quite good pdf on schizoid dynamics.

Some Thoughts on Schizoid Dynamics by Nancy McWilliams

Link: http://internationalpsychoanalysis.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/07/McWilliamsschizoid_dynamics.pdf

aa5644 No.98

I'll add in just in case this thread becomes the pdf dump thread.

Behold

Guntrip's Schizoid Phenomena, Object Relations and the Self

http://a.pomf.se/zucrbe.pdf

Guntrip's interpretation of the schizoid is far by the most accurate.
I haven't got into much into the book myself yet though.

Enjoy.

aa5644 No.99

>>73
McWilliams also has a very good idea of who the schizoid actually is.

The most interesting part I found was the
"The schizoid-hysterical romance"
Looking back at myself I actually did resonate with women that shown signs of borderline personality / hysterical type traits. I never could have understood why or if this was something more universal perhaps.
I'll probably write a thread for this later on.

e079ff No.101

>>99
>Looking back at myself I actually did resonate with women that shown signs of borderline personality / hysterical type traits.

i'll have to look at that as my last gf had bpd lel
i hate how much this shit fits me

7c6993 No.150

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I wondered when I might find some more papers relevant to SPD. I finally found one.

I’ll post in this thread again if I find more.


534295 No.152

>>150

What do you guys think about the medicine he started using? Are any of you guys taking it?



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e09cae No.86[Reply]

How do we increase the userbase with quality users and real schizoids?

c7f7ac No.97

They'll just type /schizoid/ in the url.

I know I just did and hey.
Did the same for reddit /r/schizoid

For 8chan I did not want to be around /mental/ crowd.

93e630 No.148

I am a byproduct of someones attempt to do this and it worked. However that thread was specific to having no friends. Do you think that we could out reach to /b/'s feels threads?



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29a705 No.50[Reply]

I'm not some kind of rebel or anything, but I do notice that I'm not exactly "fitting the norm" like the average Joe. Often, people will ask things like:
>"Why don't you have a boyfriend or girlfriend?"
>"Why don't you want to go get friends and hang out with people your own age?"
>"Why don't you like [normal things]?"
>"Why aren't you trying hard at school/work?"
>"Why do you want to be alone all the time?"

The list goes on and on. Most of the time I just answer with a simple "I don't know" or "Because I do/don't want that".

Do any of you /schizoids/ go through this? How do you deal with it? Do any of you go "under the radar", so to speak, leaving people oblivious to the inner-you? How does one achieve that without leaving their comfort zone?

4c6901 No.51

>>50

I've gone through it more or less. I never knew what to say in response, because I didn't know why myself. My parents just thought I was shy.

>Do any of you go "under the radar", so to speak, leaving people oblivious to the inner-you?

Yes, unless I'm just dog tired, I often try to play a sociable role at work, so I don't seem too odd. (See this section of the Wikipedia article: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Schizoid_personality_disorder#The_.27secret_schizoid.27 )

I am not emotionally close to anyone at work though and have never done something outside of work with anyone there. The hardest thing about interaction is forcing out some emotions they expect to see on my end.

>How does one achieve that without leaving their comfort zone?

It just became habitual for me after lots of practice I guess.

85f404 No.52

>>50
You may need to learn more about banter if you are being attacked all the time. Transactional analysis, arguing, etc.

I've been in loads of trouble before for not censoring my speech. Saying supposedly hurtful, gross, personal, and spooky things. I just really don't like lying and don't find any subject particularly repulsive, only repulsive people.

I now know better. The vast majority of people are in search of some ego feed, not information. They want you to give them something to criticize, so I refuse to answer anything I do not have to. It's the wisest approach I've found in any case. The only person who can mess up is the person running their mouth, so I give them questions right back; try to make it clear to everyone that they are attacking me and I'm not taking it at all. And the most important thing to remember is not to persuade the person who's attacking you, but to persuade the audience. The attacker already hates you and has committed to your destruction. The audience holds all of the power, if they see you are nice and the other person is scum, you've won.

If it's a friend (people I've known for years), I'm open, but I'm careful not to stray into anything popularly offencive. I tell the truth all the time, ask questions, or refuse to answer.

As far as disorder in general social interaction goes, I'm ok, just very subdued. It is exhausting though. I don't answer the door to anyone that arrives unannounced. I let my phone go to voice-mail unless it's family (they only ever call for emergencies). And I don't go to any social gatherings I don't want to.

19235a No.53

>>50
I’ve been pretty lucky when it comes to my family berating me to be sociable; only a couple of my family members really pester me to talk more often and/or get off the computer (they refuse to acknowledge that you can socialize meaningfully online). When it does come up though, I usually respond with neutral phrases such as ‘ok,’ ‘fine,’ or 'ya'.

>Most of the time I just answer with a simple "I don't know"

I use 'I don't know' a lot so much that it's kind of a joke with my close family.

>Do any of you /schizoids/ go through this? How do you deal with it? Do any of you go "under the radar", so to speak, leaving people oblivious to the inner-you? How does one achieve that without leaving their comfort zone?

I’ve just grow used to it, and I don’t really care at this point. I speak when spoken to unless I’m isolated with close friends. Like what I said with ‘I don’t know,’ my responses seem to be humorous to significant number of people, and people are more inclined to leave me alone if they laugh at my short responses. Why they’re funny to them, I do not know, but if I were to guess, it would probably have to do with the answer they were expecting. My peers will answer with several sentences full of frivolous information, and I will answer with one or two syllables that are on point and everyone laughs.

6fcbe7 No.70

I try (and hopefully succeed) to present myself as an ordinary introvert. People eventually learn to treat you accordingly.

5db91b No.147

>>70

This Anon is right for better or for worse people eventually will stop trying to get you out of your shell. (At least in my experience).

>Under the radar

I have no idea how I would go about achieving this except to force myself into places with people.



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5898c1 No.32[Reply]

I’m writing this more in interest for others to share their experiences than to share my own.
Typical of the trope of being different, as a child, I very much felt different from my peers and sometimes ostracized by them. It never really bothered me though, and as I grew older, I got very good at ignoring those types of people (to such an extent I would not focus my eyes on them). While I did have acquaintances during school, I felt that the only reason I had them was my desire to not break habit; by sitting next to them every day, it made us acquaintances by proxy. I would eventual make actual friends that I would talk to outside of necessity, but recently, I’ve noticed my self drifting away from society.
I’ve always been secretive about my life; I try to hide everything that is not necessary to living from everyone. This means all forms of entertainment, branded merchandise, and interests were kept hidden from the world around me, and I still try to keep them hidden today. This lack of trust extends to everyone (including all my relatives) except maybe my closest friends; even then, I noticed my “personality” differs from relationship to relationship as if it’s a way to please the other person rather than myself. Even here, on 8chan, I find myself not posting because of how secretive I am.
My sexuality still confuses me today, and having a strong exclusive sexual fetish doesn’t help. While my family doesn’t really push me all that much, I still feel a pressure from them to get into a heterosexual relationship. My grandmother has even explicitly asked me if the “sissy boys” have gotten to my mind (she is a very nice hardcore Christian). There’s probably a pressure I constructed for myself seeing as I’m the last male in the family to share my last name besides my father. From the outside, I seem asexual and my actions seem to reflect that, but reading the Wikipedia article, the having a relationship with my inner self fits me very well.
The way I think and interact with other people, makes me come off as “stupid” or “uniformed” (the words of others), but when I talk to people and have a intellectual conversation with them, nine times out of ten they go out of their way to acted surprised and tell me I’m “really smart.” Despite this, I still feel very slow, and things that takes a normal person five seconds to do take me about twenty. The only explanation I can think of that could cause this gap in cognitive time, is the way that I have debPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

d10ced No.35

>>32
>The way I think and interact with other people, makes me come off as “stupid” or “uniformed” (the words of others), but when I talk to people and have a intellectual conversation with them, nine times out of ten they go out of their way to acted surprised and tell me I’m “really smart.”

One of the features of this personality is alternations between eloquence and inarticulateness.

>While this mindset has its downside in that it slows down problem solving,

I have experienced this, but it's never constant. There are fluctuations in how severely I am affected by this. I'm not sure how to lessen it, but I think caffeine may help. I started drinking coffee for select situations, and it seems to help.

>I can talk to myself for hours

Do you actually talk out loud to yourself? Something I never thought to share with anyone is how I do this on occasion. I used to do this more often as a kid when I was less self-conscious of how it might make me appear crazy. I never thought I was having a conversation with anyone. It felt more like thinking aloud, but while at the same time, it felt like I was serving a need to socialize in some way.
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5898c1 No.37

>>35
> I have experienced this, but it's never constant. There are fluctuations in how severely I am affected by this.

It has always been consistent with me, and the only way I can really get my thoughts to go faster is if I spend time forcing myself to speed-read in the way you don’t think of the word in a phonemic way but as an abstract thought, but I always drift back into the “slow” way of thinking afterwards. Memorizing also gives the illusion of quick thoughts but I really hate memorizing things, so I only do it for stuff I use a lot.

> I'm not sure how to lessen it, but I think caffeine may help. I started drinking coffee for select situations, and it seems to help.

I never really been effected by caffeine all that much; when I was younger, my parents would warn me about drinking it before bed, but it never stopped me from sleeping or staying still. I also really dislike the flavor of coffee, so even if it did help, I would most likely not use it.

> Do you actually talk out loud to yourself? Something I never thought to share with anyone is how I do this on occasion. I used to do this more often as a kid when I was less self-conscious of how it might make me appear crazy.

Not publicly (at least I try not to), but sometimes when I’m thinking about something that requires a lot of brain power, I’ll start to speak without realizing it. To draw a parallel to what normal people do, It is kind of like the way people will right something down on paper to focus on something else.

> I never thought I was having a conversation with anyone. It felt more like thinking aloud, but while at the same time, it felt like I was serving a need to socialize in some way.

Maybe talking implies a more back and forth type of chatter; Soliloquy is probably the closest fit to how I would normally vocalize (not externally) my thoughts. Although, as a form of entertainment, I can synthesize anyone’s voice in my mind and make them say silly things, and I would be lying if I said I haven’t used this ability to have conversations with people.

cb9229 No.146

In high school I was fortunate too come across a table that mirrored my personality. People would have thought we were the edgy table if they ever heard us. We spoke freely whatever we wanted to say no matter how offensive it was. For the whole three years I was there we our table composition never changed. And if by some weird circumstance another outside person was forced to sit with us it was dead silent. One of my friends (who I suspect may have also been a schizoid) called us all his acquaintances. I preferred to think of him as a friend; they were all cool but mostly because I found them interesting. Sometimes I would try to predict what they would say. We never really went over to houses or anything most of our contact came from the table. Still I am glad that I had that table lest I be that one stand offish kid who never really talked.



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1a6f4a No.79[Reply]

I was diagnosed with Schizoid personality disorder, but that is not important. It was the first time I learned about it, so I looked up on the Internet, and I thought to myself : this is /b/.

Did you noticed how close the symptoms are to the (imagined) personality of the average /b/tard ? Do you think that the old Anonymous is Schizoid ? What if all channers were ? We always fling 'autist' as an insult to each other, but maybe in fact we really are schizoid…

7da943 No.80

I wouldn't be surprised if it were more prevalent among the chans, but I wouldn't say that we all are.

74a62d No.83

I think they (had) fit more under a psychopath demographic than a schizoid one, but then again 4chan can serve as a hivemind, where even people who don't exhibit a personality disorder can behave like they have one.

>>80
It does seem more prevalent among the chans, doesn't it? I wonder why that is… I would guess that 4chan's hostile upbringing sort of set a standard or something for other chans and their users. I suppose other factors like anonymity and otaku interests played a role in that as well.

798155 No.145

/b/ and /r9k/ (back few years ago) was a refuge to me places I could go to lose myself and no one would care. If someone did not like you they would call you a faggot and leave. I like the lack of restraint and I think a lot of people like this fact but I don't want to overgeneralize and say everyone here is a schizoid. Just I can see the appeal to introverts.



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4b0d0a No.135[Reply]

Last night I had a strange dream, so here’s a thread for dreams in case anyone feels like sharing.

The context is now forgotten, but suddenly I found myself in front of a small stream. I crouched down and extended the palm of my right hand. I concentrated my mental energy and began to freeze the stream through power emitted from my hand. It felt quite natural and deliberate even though it seemed I never did such a thing in a dream before.

I continued to concentrate harder to speed up and complete the process. Tension started to build. Every last ounce of my concentration was devoted to this task. As I began to reach my limit, small, spiny icicles started to form on my hand. Then the stream started to freeze completely solid. The tension was enormous and I began to feel a familiar sensation.

I was nearing orgasm, but I was too easily stirred from my slumber and awoke without a pay-off. With frustration and confusion in my thoughts, I grumbled and turned to my other side. I then fell back asleep.

146548 No.136

YouTube embed. Click thumbnail to play.

Trips give off bad vibes that people who have been around on chans for a while pick up on. Don't use them no matter who you are. They are for and are used by narcissistic manchildren who obsesses with contrarian opinion.



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