>>94You seen the images in the locked sticky? The image with the venn diagramm that relates ADD to aspergers and schizoid struck a chord with me. I'll tell you how I recognize all of them, if you can bear to read a little amphetamine induced rant.
A few months ago, at the age of 20, I had been strugling with my university study for a while. I had a lot of ADD symptoms like excessive fantasizing and daydreaming, lack of motivation, and alcohol and drug abuse. I lacked childhood symptoms though, except for the excessive daydreaming.
I went to a psychiatrist and got prescribed dexamphetamine, but she was reluctant to label me as ADD, and told me to also take an autism test. I could tell from her body language that she believed that I did not suffer from ADD, but at that time I did not believe I could have autism, since I scored only 23on the AQ test. I went to an ADHD help group, and while I could relate to them, their issue seemed different from mine. It seemed that they kept failing despite their best intentions, while for me the failure was in getting good intentions at all. I failed at getting even the slightest motivation. I lacked the passion and drive you need to succeed in life.
Later, I thought I might have aspergers instead of ADD. My best friend told me I suffered from rather severe mood swings: he identified a monotone, zombie-like state and a hyper, almost manic state. He told me I was always either warm and enthusiastic or cold and aloof, or somewhere inbetween. I had never noticed before, I always feel the same. My mom told me: "You never make eye contact. You look at the floor, you look at the ceiling, you look at the walls, but you don't look in my eyes". I also discovered that 3 of the 4 people that were my best friends in life had aspergers/autism. Somebody told me that my emotional volume was 1 or 2, where for other people it would be 8 or 9. Naturally, I concluded I must have aspergers instead of ADD, since that is related to not understanding your emotions very well.
Reading up on a certain piece about aspergers I found a lot of similarities. I felt like somebody had written the piece about me, except for the social parts. In social situations, especially when I am in a good mood, I am highly charismatic and can read people very well. However, I lack empathy. For example, if my best friend's dad died, I'd do
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