/schizoid/ - Schizoid Personality Discussion Group

Yes, at work I am often afraid people will notice when I don't make a big fuss about the beautiful woman that just walked by. I find I have to try to act like non-schizoids sometimes so they don't notice I'm not exactly like them.

There is sometimes a concern I might appear as gay out of disinterest even though I feel I experience normal sexual attraction, but it's just simply not on display.

I've had zero romantic relationships, and this is probably the hardest part of having a schizoid personality for me personally.

>>2
>I haven't even fapped for three months

This sort of thing happens to me too occasionally. I don't know if I've gone as far as three months very recently though. I recommend you just force yourself if it's been this long. (Porn isn't even necessary. If you do it long enough, it'll just happen.) It should relieve some tension you don't even know is there.

>>3
>There is sometimes a concern I might appear as gay out of disinterest

So much of that, for ages my close circle of friends thought I was gay because I hadn't sexually interacted with anyone for a long time. A few years. They blatantly forgot that I'd had several partners, I think they thought I'd just turned gay or something. People still think I'm gay unless it happens to be that one day, that I am feeling different (usually drunk) and I talk about a sexual experience.
Then out from their mouths come "Oh so you're not gay. I thought you were gay!"

>>2
>general tendency to just avoid sexual concepts and ideas in general
I forgot to mention I do this too. I never really understood why normal people seemed so obsessed with sex. I felt I had this instinctual discretion about sexual matters that just felt right. I never saw myself as prudish, just acting in the way that made the most sense to me. The way other people acted regarding this always seemed so strange, almost foreign.

>>2
>I have been diagnosed for a long time
Can you tell me what you went through to get your diagnosis? Did it take a long time to get your diagnosis? What advice were you given afterwards?

>>5
Yeah it gets to me sometimes. Especially when I'm in a work place. Being almost completely nonsexual I don't understand the office banter of "blah blah blah so and so is cute" sometimes I find it borderline offensive.
I've been dealing with my personality disorder for so long I've learned to accept people will always think I'm weird. But I've learned now at work, to make my life easier to pretend to be an extremely religious Mormon so people don't try to involve me in parties, or sex talk, celebrations of birthdays and Easter and Christmas.

>>6
I was first diagnosed as schizoid when I was 9, which was recanted when I was 12, then when I was 14 it was re-installed. Then when I was 16 they changed it to dissociative which was recanted by another doctor, then reinstated again when I was 21-22. I'm 28 now, and I think I'd rather have the label so I can learn about the thinking patterns and such that are typical of these personalities to make them more functional.

I was given bad advice, for someone who possibly is dissociative, I was told to let my imagination run wild. By a very nice man a Russian psychologist. That sent me on a weird journey, eventually I found a good psychologist, and he was a bloody genius and hypnotized me. That was the best professional treatment I've ever had.
He changed the way I think into a more logical, probably very autistic but at least able to "disengage" without it effecting me too much. It's taken me a while to really understand what he taught me.

He pretty much told me to let go of everything and to just coast. I've been doing that ever since, and I've kinda found my way. The only thing I really struggle with now, are the major depressive episodes, but even then I don't require hospitalization and around the clock treatment like I used to.

How about you friend?

>>7
I should add I went through a lot to get the diagnosis. Every time I thought I'd gotten somewhere, a psychologist or psychiatrist would change clinics and I'd have a new one with new beliefs that would tell me I was fine, or that it was something else. That is the greatest downfalls of the mental health industry. I had to be hospitalized numerous times, and answer millions of questions, at times I was given free treatment, in return to be a test subject for the treatments and to have my health published in medical journals. Which was sometimes a rewarding experience, and at other times, most damaging.

>>7
>How about you friend?
As in what I went through to get my diagnosis? I'll be honest and say that I'm afraid of getting the label and having family or coworkers aware of it, so I have never visited a mental health professional to get diagnosed. The thought of people thinking I have a mental illness and treating me differently is not pleasant. It may not work out to my benefit.

It was after more than ten years of having no friends that I just happened upon an article than mentioned schizoid personality disorder and I began to read all I could about it. I was shocked when everything I read described me in full. Before that I could only vaguely identify with certain conditions because the overt and covert aspects of schizoid personalities result in what appears to be contradictions.

>>9
I can only recommend never letting the medical name of your personality define you. That's the biggest mistake people like us can make, apparently, I was told by a psychologist. Because we're slightly obsessive it can lead us to be a bit distraught.

But I defiantly understand what you mean about only vaguely identifying with other conditions, I feel that way too. On many levels I wish I wasn't able to identify so easily with dissociative and with schizoid, but that's life.

>>10
I don't know if you plan to check back here again, but I'm hoping to keep this board up for a long time.

I may or may not attract enough people to have regular conversation. I think at the least I could potentially make it a place where monthly conversations happen.

I'll give it at least a year, maybe two before saying it was a complete waste of time. I still suspect there are enough schizoids around for this to be a fairly active place if enough become aware of the board and their personality type.

Maybe traffic will start to trickle in after search engines index the board.

Either way, I have no reason to be negative about the current state considering how new the board is.

I'll try advertising a few places, but I'm not sure where.

>>12
Your ad on /b/ was a good thought, OP. I've suspected myself of being a schizoid for a while now, and it's a refreshing thought that there may be a large number of others like me here on wholechan. I've almost entirely withdrawn, so I can't guarantee I'll contribute much to the board, but I'll certainly be checking in almost daily, as well as reading most of the threads that might pop up.

>>13
Quick correction, I meant board owner, not OP.

>>13
It's okay to just lurk. I can't make any demands I wouldn't make for myself. I hope the content will become intriguing enough that you'll just naturally want to interact though.

>>15
I think it'll be more than intriguing enough. I love learning about people, and as a bonus, while I'm here, I might even learn more about myself. So I hope I end up posting as well.

>>2
>involuntary celibacy
off topic but you know, sometimes I pretend I'm beta just because I hate the fact that I have absolutely zero sex drive and can't fulfill my reproductive duties.
sucks to be you OP

>>17
Before I learned what a schizoid personality was, I wondered if I was asexual, but ultimately I was unable to reconcile the apparent contradiction with my sexual desires.

>>19
Wish I was in your boots, I'm 24 and the only son in my family, other than my dad with our last name. I can't afford to be asexual for prosperity. One day though.

>>20
I'm not sure if you misunderstood me, so I'll be clear:

I'm not asexual; it's just that I wondered if I was because of lack of romantic relationships and my behavior of not seeking any. Ultimately I decided it would be dishonest to myself to believe I was asexual because the sex drive is there. The social drive is another matter however.

>>23
No I understood that, my response was that of tentative desire for a sex drive that you have.

>>24
Oh, well in that case have you tried testosterone boosting supplements?
Maybe horny goat weed?

I'm still way too young to need this stuff, but when I was 17-18 I took a whole bunch of herbal supplements that were supposed to increase testosterone levels and some horny goat weed for good measure, because I was lifting weights at the time (I miss lifting weights.) and why the hell not?

It took about two weeks for the supplements to kick in, and well, let's just say one day I woke up and my voice somehow felt deeper than usual. Soon after I had the most intense masturbation session of my life. I haven't felt pleasure like that or been so horny since.

None of that will increase your social drive though, so you might just make yourself horny without any outlet other than your hand.

For me, there seems to be this divide between my physical attraction and my mental attraction. Pleasing the body doesn't necessarily please the mind.

I gave up on the idea of losing my virginity long, long ago.