==I am a stupid fuck, please read fully==>23 currently>honor student in high school>basically suppose to be a valedictorian>fucked up and got expelled at 16>got GED day after expulsion>never opened a book after getting expelled>worked and p

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01/15/15 (Thu) 01:10:55 No.1355

I am a stupid fuck, please read fully

>23 currently
>honor student in high school
>basically suppose to be a valedictorian
>fucked up and got expelled at 16
>got GED day after expulsion
>never opened a book after getting expelled
>worked and partied and it has taken its toll and damaged my ability to learn (no hard drugs, just liquor, weed, and shrooms sprinkled in between to a few times a year)
>can't remember words that I don't know the meaning of when either being told or looking up the definition (E.G. someone told me the definition of amicable, and i looked it up, I forgot the definition, and if it wasn't for google search history I wouldn't have remembered the word.) can't remember names or faces well either.
>can't even read sheet music anymore
>tried going through this book "Manual of Mathematics"
>haven't learned anything having tried to go through the book several times. It's really discouraging
>my brain feels like wimp trying to get fit and just starting out with a few pushups on the knees

Bottom line. I want to learn how to learn and get my brain back into shape. I'm asking where on the bottom do I start to work my way up. My goal is to be a geothermal engineer (designing the turbines used in the field) There isn't a guide or readme for how to not be a stupid fuck and study effectively.

Is there anyone that can give me a place to start and might be willing to work to tutor me? at one point in my life I was brilliant beyond all belief where counselors and teachers were shoving college applications down my throat with AP courses and kids constantly exclaiming "you're so fucking smart" and explaining to me how envious they were. Now I'm just a braindead stupid pothead that doesn't even know that 1+1=2, and I fucking hate it so much. Sorry for the sob story, please help. I'll take anything I can get.

>inb4 Lumosity, tried it for 4 months with literally no results

01/15/15 (Thu) 08:14:17 No.1359

>>1355
>>1355
>My goal is to be a geothermal engineer (designing the turbines used in the field)

I think it will be mechanical and aerospace engineers who are responsible for designing the turbines but whatever.

I'll try and take some time later to organise a large post covering engineering basics.

What you need to do is go to community college and get whatever qualifications required to get you into university.

What you can do right now for free is to work your way through Khan Academy to get your mathematics up to scratch. Don't be discouraged by the fact you haven't learned everything in a few minutes by skimming a book. Start with the basics.

I need to revisit all of the basics over the next year so I'll be here in a similar boat to you.

01/16/15 (Fri) 02:06:30 No.1372

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>>1359
this is what geothermal engineering is, when i said turbines i meant making the power generators into this process.

I am discouraged by the fact I have a huge inability to retain information I'm trying to learn.

01/16/15 (Fri) 03:43:00 No.1373

>>1359
also thank you for taking the time to do so.

01/16/15 (Fri) 20:50:47 No.1386

>>1355
What state do you live in?

01/17/15 (Sat) 04:39:23 No.1387

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>>1355

I was like you though I narrowly avoided being expelled. What you have done it probably not enough to fry your brain, you are probably just out of practice. The effects of weed wear off mostly and alcohol takes a long time to destroy your brain.

Suggest you read the book "A Mind for Numbers" which is about how to learn stuff effectively.

Then enrol in a community college or a MOOT course on coursera.com and get back into some discipline. Then take it from there.

Hint: no matter how smart you are, there is no substitute for hard work.

You sound young enough to turn things around.

01/23/15 (Fri) 02:09:16 No.1436

>>1386
nevada
>>1387
I tried going through that book this past week and I haven't been able to keep any information. I'm going to keep trying but I'm feeling it's futile. I think I'm just going to go over to /fit/ and get my physical health in order, hopefully my brains health will follow and I'll be able to regain some cognitive function. I took a IQ test from my psychiatrist tuesday and I scored miserably lower than when I was forced to take the test in high school. thanks to you two that posted.

I will still be following this thread if anyone has anything to contribute.

02/01/15 (Sun) 04:35:04 No.1514

>>1436
Did you do all of the practice problems? If not, that's really what you need. This is true for anyone learning math, but for you especially: do any practice problems you can find.

09/21/15 (Mon) 22:46:21 No.3072

>>1436

Have you been depressed OP? Because depression can lower IQ scores.

09/22/15 (Tue) 16:34:04 No.3073

You're in luck, OP. There's a good course on Coursera called Learning how to Learn. It's acc very good. You're just out of practice dog, you'll get better.