/suicide/ - Suicide Tips & Tricks

>>14271

Any ideas how I can ask for that without arousing suspicion? Also, is there anything you can tell me about revolvers vs. automatics? Or does it not really make a difference?

>5'5" male, 19 years old and balding, weird body shape

>no motivation, field I study is full of hyper-successful people compared to me

>extreme anxiety, hard to go out in public

>people judging me

>no longer value my own life, no longer willing to continue being forced to live

>firmly believe there isn't consciousness(as we know it) after death, so killing myself will be super nice.

>>14260

Heroin or any CNS depressant that you can just pass out/nod off with. Look for threads on this board that go into detail with killing yourself with Fentanyl or Nembutal

>>14272

hello trashman

>no ambitions

>mediocrity is my best at everything

>surrounded by people on a path to a great life

>only person I would ever have called a friend no longer talks to me

>extremely unattractive

there´s more but decent summation 17 M

Honestly, it hurts too much to describe my reasons. I just wish I could decide on a method and fucking do it. I'm sitting here with a knife in my hand, but I know I don't have the courage to do more than cut up my arm a little. Everything I try to feel even the slightest bit better just makes me feel worse instead. At this point, I don't think I even want help anymore, even if someone could fix everything in an instant.

For some reason, though, I don't want to actually kill myself until after I get back in shape. I guess I want to prove that it's not really that I'm too lazy to fix myself, but I want to die because of things that aren't my fault and that I can't fix. The only problem is that food is the only thing that ever helps in any way, because it's kind of a brute force thing. Other things, like games, require me to give myself permission to enjoy them, but I'll get the physical high from food no matter what I think of it.

Watch the pseudo contruct we call post modern society tear itself apart.

It'll be glorious. Watching all the blue pilled fags and normies lose it as everything they've believed in turns on them. Hahaha.

I cannot wait for it. I can't wait to see them squirm and shriek as everything they've paid into and voted for turns against them. It makes me orgasmic to think that in my lifetime I'll have the pleasure to watch the whole social order come down… Piece by motherfucking Piece.

Those who were too stupid to believe or see what was coming, I just get hard at the thought of watching them trample over each in the supermarkets.

When I survive all of that, I'll finally give myself the chance to truly end my life.

honestly? nothing. i'd ctb right now if i could.

>>13638

>What do you want to do before you die, Anon?

kill myself

>>13638

I want to do something to fuck over my parents. I hate them for ever having me.

> "It gets better" is a form of Gambler's Fallacy.

It's more like a sampling bias; you don't hear the life stories of the homeless, the drug addicts, the failures, the losers, those who died early, and those who chose to end their lives.

Something I've always stuck with is that if it's selfish to commit suicide, at what point does it become selfish to force someone to keep living?

Just the ramblings of an idiot junkie.

>>14236

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PJiOijwKQ38

Song isn't exactly pro-suicide, but I like the dirt imagery.

>"“The suicide passes a judgment. Society does not care to examine the judgment, but in defense of itself as is, condemns the suicide.”

This is from Robert E. Neale's "The Art of Dying". I wish I could find this book anywhere online. It looks fascinating, and this excerpt really resonates with me. People tell you not to die so they can spare themselves the thought of what went wrong.

>>14236

You're not an idiot junkie, I like your way of thinking anon.

bump

any tips?

>>14265

Kind of idiotic tbh. You're lucky they didn't get pissed and torture or disfigure you and leave you alive. They were probably insulted as fuck, might have thought you were some kind of cop on a sting operation, etc. Nigga, just have a little agency and do it yourself.

Providing you aim at the brain stem it should be instant.

>what is the absolute most amount of time I would be conscious after shooting myself?

Nobody knows for sure as they usually die from the experience.

>>13968

>>13968

yeah but how are you going to obtain the VFDF?

>>13969

I was hoping someone here might know more about this thing, perhaps they even know where to get it? I'm a bit demoralized after reading a few people saying they bought fake nembutal, this could be a safer alternative. In the video I watched they say it might be used in medicine to treat alzheimers, so it should be freely available to chemists, which can then resell it.

I guess you could try to acquire some of those blue green algae. They're basically plant-bacteria, so they do photosynthesis. This means that you could try to grow them. I guess, if you take the bacteria and a bucket of the water they seem to grow well in, and raise the temperature to 35 degrees celsius or something, they'll grow pretty hard. Don't grow them in sunlight, VFDF degrades under UV. first dry the bacteria before you eat them, it's unstable in water.

…maybe it's easier to just gather a bunch of the stuff, dry it, then eat it, instead of growing it. Would you mind posting it if you are going to do it? Or otherwise stream it or something? So we know it works?

>>14235

Not sure what to add. But I read what you wrote, and I feel much the same.

>>14235

>I had an idea for a fiction. One day everybody wakes up with a button on their neck that would kill them painlessly in a second (only you could activate the button, and you cannot do it accidentaly). There's potential for such a story.

I think it would have potential, also, I'd like to see such a thing to be realized IRL, but it should not be immediate, it should be killing you by pressing it for 1 hour straight or something.

>>14246

Of course, this won't happen.

But we do have Inert gas asphyxiation which is a very pleasant way to die.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Inert_gas_asphyxiation

>>14235

>>14246

I always had an idea for a short story set in a world where people can die just by sincerely thinking about it and wanting it. The protagonist would be someone who is unable to die no matter how much they think about it and apparently want it.

Why bother? It doesn't make suicide any easier. You might fuck it up, you'll be remembered as an asshole, your family will be fucked up even more than it will be because you killed yourself, and in the end you aren't really making any difference.

>>14031

Maybe if I were assassinating someone powerful and evil like George Soros, Barbara Spectre, Jonathon Davis, or someone else like them.

>>14031

I don't get the normalfags who get shocked by parents killing their children before killing themselves I mean what the fuck you prefer then to leave them to suffer here? If my mother had to die I would prefer she killed me first.

The thing i am most scared is going back being cripple or with brain damage, so what is most safe way to wihout chance of being handicapped.

I was thing about mix of heroin plus xa or other bezno

>>14223

> nurse

Well, good luck with dying, when you can't even into reading comprehension.

>>14225

Okay, Vet wtfever.

Exit International >>>> Some random Vet. Bye.

>>14225

when you can't even into reading comprehension.

LOL. Nice.

>>14229

> thinking that was a typo

Lurk moar.

>>10315

>Men can't be raped - their assholes were literally designed to have a dick go inside of them, and the fact that the overwhelming majority of men have an orgasm during prostate exams indicates that it is a perfectly natural thing for a man to do.

kill yourself

Surprisingly, I never thought about suicide as a child, despite being depressed as long as I can remember being able to form thoughts.

My first serious thoughts about killing myself didn't occur until I was put on antidepressants. The first time I skipped my pills, I became all out psychotic and remember crying and wanting to die for no reason (yet every reason.)

I wish I had never taken them. Sure, they stopped he constant panic attacks that caused me to drop out of school, but my brain was irreparably damaged in the long run.

i remember having thoughts about it since i was about 16, though the first time i actually seriously thought about it was when i was 19, and so far it has been growing stronger and stronger

>>9201

I remember choking myself with a piece of fabric in class when I was about 11 (latter half of 5th grade). I was nearly unconscious when the teacher took it away from me, and was coughing pretty badly a few seconds later. Nothing was really done about it outside of that. I got into emo shit at the ripe old age of 17 and started cutting myself yes, I know I'm a faggot and thought a lot about it back then, though I probably never seriously contemplated it. Now, I really think it's just a better alternative to being a loser for the rest of my life.

>>10177

Feels. the problem was/is us, though

from >>11254

>If you are done, you know you are done. If you doubt, you're not done. Find the answer to what there is to do before you are truly done.

>>14226

As my nemesis stated long ago, "there is no right time"

The time is right when you feel physically capable of taking means to effectively end your own life.

I picked my date based on when my friend killed himself for a similar reason I'm going to. It makes it easier to commit to knowing that someone else was already successful.

I'd like to go with CO, but I can't seem to figure out a remote place to park my car and start a fire without being noticed. How the fuck do I find such a place?

>>14024

>>14028

>>14240

Yeah, I've decided roughly a year ago I'll be going with CO.

I have access to a small room that can be easily sealed.

How I will do it:

- First make sure the room I will be putting the burning charcoal in is properly sealed, so that CO will be produced since there is no ventilation.

- Then burn the charcoal outside until the coals turned gray and it has stopped smoking.

- Then bring the burning charcoal inside the room.

- Close the door, make sure everything remains sealed.

- Wait roughly 70 minutes for the CO levels to become lethal in 10-20 minutes of exposure

- Go inside, close the door, make sure everything's sealed.

- Lose consciousness withing 5 minutes

- Die in 10-20 minutes

Someone on here suggested to have a BBQ meal before dying, which is not a bad idea :)

>>14240

I live in Canada so it's pretty easy to just pick a direction and drive for a couple of hours.

>>14242

Put up warning signs and make sure there are no other people in the building so you don't end up accidentally killing somebody else.

holy shit. op please report back if they do accept your case. also autistic

>>14251

I intend to.

It's all theoretical right now, as we won't know any details of how this will be implemented until the government introduces legislation around it (which from the sounds of things could happen later this month). My fear is that the government will find a way to introduce restrictions far beyond what the Supreme Court intended, although happily there was no sign of this in the recommendations made last month by the parliamentary committee formed to advise on the issue.

I'm also concerned that given how new all this is and how clumsy I am, by fumbling a request on grounds of autism as a disability I could not only lose my own access to this service but set a precedent that would close the door for others as well. I've been hoping one organization or another (Autism Speaks?) will step forward to advocate for access to assisted dying for autistic people, but I haven't seen this yet either.

>>14253

so long as you provide your medical history and have a recent diagnosis, i dont see why they would reject the case. regardless, good luck op. if your case is accepted it will be a very valid way to cure autism.