Mom, I'm sorry I never really tried to do anything. I just became apathetic with life after a while in High School and just slowly began giving up after that. Maybe you're right, maybe the divorce fucked me up a little bit and caused me to become who I am now. Maybe if I tried my best and got that 0.1 point extra in my Finals I would've been better off. Maybe if I was born 10 years earlier I wouldn't have been completely enthralled by computers and games and I would have ended up better.
But the world doesn't revolve around "Maybe", it revolves around what happened. And what happened was that I was a lazy fuck who never really tried anything, I always said I did try my best but I never fucking did. I'm sorry for that and wish I was a better person, someone you actually deserved as your son since you're always running your ass off for me.
Grandma and Granddad, I'm sorry for how I acted up to this. But to be honest, you guys weren't the easiest to live with too. You did try your best with me too but eh, what can you do right? Honestly, must suck to see your grandson die before you, but I honestly can't go on anymore. I'm just tired and afraid of what will happen in my future.
Sis, I was always jealous of you in some way. Mostly in the fact that you had friends where I was just stuck with random fucks on the internet with whom I shitposted my ass off.
Just know I never meant anything I called you, you're gonna grow up to be great and so will your kids. Trust me, you have the drive that I lacked so I know you will.
Dad, I'll probably see you in hell or the void you fucker. I'll be there, waiting on your ass to make sure you'll suffer for eternity. You always acted like a cunt and like some sad sack of shit. Hell, partially why I'm killing myself is because I don't wanna end up like you. Knowing myself like I do… I probably will.
Job, you were the only friend I had outside the random fucks I talked to on the Internet. I wish you the best of luck in your future too, I know you felt bad for me and you probably won't be shocked to hear that I offed myself, you were one of the few people who actually gave a shit about me and heyPost too long. Click here to view the full text.