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Ask tiny questions here.

Ever thought of a murder suicide?

I've always had that line of reasoning, that what's the point of killing yourself if you're not gonna take some idiots with you? We all got people we hate. What's better than making their families lives a living hell?

Morphine overdose

Will 300g of morphine in tablet form and crushed mixed with a small glass of e.g. vodka/rum/whiskey be enough to kill me?

People rarely consider Hanging it seems.

Why does no one ever consider/mention hanging? It seems like it has a good success rate. Should I be expecting a lot of pain from full suspension from a tree? I really hope I can pass out in 10 seconds.

How much pain will I feel when I shoot myself with a handgun? Aiming for the back of the mouth and everything. Also, what is the absolute most amount of time I would be conscious after shooting myself?

Hanging

Any tips. Tricks. Things I need to make sure I do. Is it painful. What should I expect? Give me as much info as possible. I need to do this asap. How do I build up the courage. What should I write in my last note

Pros/Cons Brachial Artery?

So I live in noguns land and I know cutting is not a preferred method, but wouldn't cutting the left auxiliary or left brachial artery be easy enough (if enough painkillers are taken)? Pros and cons?

We list contributing factors which make us want to die

What do you want to do before you die, Anon?

I want to get all the ideas floating around my head written and drawn out. It'd be nice to leave behind some creative work that at least one person enjoys before I go.

Inspirational Quotes

Got any good quotes about suicide, either from yourself or other people?

Here are some that I've collected so far, just from this board. I find them very inspiring, and would love to overlay them on some images sometime:

> Life is an imposition, not a choice.

> If life is a gift, should you return it to the source if it hurts, if it's malfunctioning?

> "It gets better" is a form of Gambler's Fallacy.

> We scour the world searching for true freedom unknowing that it lies just six feet beneath us

> Normal, healthy people's beliefs often clash with our viewpoint of life … Things they have for granted are for us like those things you see through a reinforced glass, you can see it, you almost reach it, but you know you'll never have it.

The last one is my favorite because the whole "glass pane" thing is a recurring theme in my own life that I can identify with all too well.

Today I went to a Known organized crime building to ask for suicide assistance.

I figure it wouldn't cost much to have some gangster put a bullet in my skull, garotte me, or sell me some cyanide or Nembutal.

Verdict: fail.

The building was locked up tightened than a nun's asshole with cameras, concrete barriers, steel gates, etc.

Before I could even figure out where the front door was, some little old man shuffled out and said, "Can I help you?"

"Well, I uh, I i…I have a special problem and I though you might be able to help me."

"What kind of 'special problem?'" His voice suddenly got about 10 times colder and scarier."

Well it's now or never I figured.

"I want to kill myself and I just thought somebody in your…uhm…group migh be able to help me.'l

He stared at me a long time with his beady expressionless old man eyes.

"Go away," he finally said. "Go away and don't come back here. Ever."

I shuffled off, feeling bad. Feeling, if I may, like killing myself.

Very Fast Death Factor

Could this be an alternative to nembutal? https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Very_Fast_Death_Factor

Watched a video about it where it was said a tiny amount would kill a person within minutes. Apparently it's produced by blue-green algae that you can find pretty much everywhere.

Desires

/suicide/,

I guess you're the right people I can share this

I'm undergoing some kind of depression, w/e probably nobody will read it I just need to write it somewhere,

at times I think about suicide, but when I open my mind to it, there's no desire for it. Even though, I wish I had the desire for it, I wish I was ready to just stop this whole non-sense, stop this pain flowing too often. Really what I want is another life but I feel like it's too late to change it now.

I just wish someone would shoot me and be done with it.

I guess if I had a gun, I'd stop thinking for two seconds and just blow my brains out once and for all. Unfortunately I'm a EU citizen (if I really wanted to I could still get a gun from the deep web anyway). All this thinking is just a burden.

I wish I was detached from this world so I could go easily.

Also, I had an idea for a fiction. One day everybody wakes up with a button on their neck that would kill them painlessly in a second (only you could activate the button, and you cannot do it accidentaly). There's potential for such a story.

I mean, one of the main reason why we're on this board is because suicide is painful and risky (ending retarded instead of dying etc.), but if at any moment of clarity (understand : the meaninglessness of pursuing life) you could just press a button, I guess way more people would kill themselves (and also a complete moral shift). I think this is a different act than pointing a gun at yourself.

Where can I get nembutal?

Someone has a link?

How old were you when you first started thinking about doing yourself in? I remember being 12 and thinking about running into the freeway to get hit by a semi truck. When I was like 14 I found a roof access in a tall building and I started thinking about jumping.

How old were you? What methods did you think of back then?

How do you know when the time is right?

My obsession with not hurting people aside, I have a compulsive urge to only do it when the timing is "absolutely right", yet I have no idea when that is or when it will be! What do you think? When is the timing ideal?

Inb4 not suicidal

Nah mate I'm (almost) not afraid of death to the max, just afraid of doing it wrong

Physician-Assisted Dying in Canada

On June 6th physician-assisted dying becomes legal in Canada, following a decision by our Supreme Court last year.

In a surprising act of mercy the Court made the access requirements remarkably inclusive: You must be suffering from a "grievous" medical condition that is "irremediable" and causes you "intolerable" suffering. You do not need to actually be dying, to have a physical ailment or to have accepted any treatment.

I'm thinking this may finally be my way off this planet after a lifetime of failure caused by autism and probably a personality disorder as well. Any other Canadians here contemplating the same thing?

How Many Cherry Pits Does It Take?

I saw on here a few months back something about how cherry pits/apple seeds contain cyanide and that eating enough could potentially kill you. Recently, as though it were the Earth telling me that I'd be better off dead, I ran into a man on the street and he was giving bags of Cherries to passerby's.. Not many people paid him any mind but he insisted that I took as many bags of cherries as I wanted. Not like I cared if they were poisoned of not as I wanted to be dead anyways….. This led me to want to just cut open all of the cherries and take all of the pits out. Many minutes later, my kitchen was messy with cherry gunk and I have a bag full of cherry pits. I'd say theres roughly 50 in there. Would that be enough to kill a 116lb female??

Christine Chubbuck, 41 Years Later

Killed herself on live TV, forty-one years ago.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Christine_Chubbuck

aokigahara

looking for pact. traveling to aokigahara. the perfect place to die. i know the way been there before. or anyone located in japan?

Alright, so I'm going to make an exit bag with helium. I just have a few questions before I go through with this shit. First, exactly how much helium does it take to kill me? For example, let's say I set up everything(tube connected to tank and in bag, bag on head, etc). When I want to start the process, how much should I open the valve? Will I be able to gauge how much is coming out without worrying about running out of helium? Also, how loud are these things? Will it make a loud SSSSSSSSS noise when I open the valve?

Playing in traffic

Call me selfish but it doesn't matter if I scar someone I'm far past that. But how should I do it? How fast does the car need to be to kill me? Is there a certain position to lay or stand in? How can I make sure he doesn't steer pass me or hit the breaks either missing me or just hurting me?

ITT we apologize

Mom, you pissed me off every time you harassed me about getting a job. It's not that fucking easy considering who I am, but I'm not going to hold any grudges. Sorry I couldn't live up to your expectations. Same goes for you, Dad.

Heather, Sydney, if I was an embarrassment to the both of you, I'm sorry about that as well. It's not exactly cool to have some mentally ill, skeltal-looking NEET hiding away across from your bedrooms. Your friends must've been weirded/creeped out about it. Sorry for the times we fought and the awful things we said to one another. I love you both, and if you don't look after each other I'll haunt the fuck out of you.

Nugget, you're the chunkiest and laziest fucking bearded dragon I've ever seen. Sorry for not taking care of you anymore, but I was garbage at it anyway. Seeya later, fatass.

Well, mates, I'm in a bit of a pickle. I planned on hanging myself last night but I'm a pussy and couldn't get myself to because I'm scared of not passing out and just struggling there for like 10 minutes. I'm going to try again soon, only I'm going to buy a bunch of alcohol. Now, I don't drink liquor, like ever, and I've never passed out from it before. But if I buy a bunch of liquor, can I just chug it with the noose around my neck, then wait to pass out so I can begin the choking/struggling like that? How much liquor would it take for me to pass out if I don't have alcohol tolerance? Fuck, I don't know why I didn't think of this before. I guess this is why I should kill myself.

Pills

I have the following: 10x 15mg MS Contin (morphine sulfate, extended release), 30 or so Endep tablets 10mg (amitriptyline) , Targin 10mg (controlled release Oxycodone + Naloxone), Endone 15x 5mg (standard oxycodone) and a pack of Tramadol (unsure about dosage). I also have heaps of Panadeine Forte (Codeine+Paracetemol) which I assume would not be good due to the paracetamol (tylenol). I've never used any of these before and weigh about 60kg and am about 6 feet tall. Would taking down all of these slowly with lots of alcohol make me pass out and cause respiratory arrest? Should I consider getting some anti nausea medication too so I don't vomit these all out? I will have a safe space to ingest these and ensure that there is no intervention. Thanks friends.

do it faggot

if you are reading this you haven't done it yet

DO IT

If you are going to pussy out like the ones still writing down this board, don't, you are special, your genes have caused you to be this much of a faggot, go and fucking do it, you degenerate. THERE IS NO TRY.

DO NOT OR DO

Is it a predictable and dumb cliché to kill yourself on or soon after your 27th birthday? I know the 27 Club is a myth, just asking if people make those connections?

Livestreaming Suicide

Would you do it? Why or why not?

I think it'd be cool to not die alone even if some of them ended up being assholes or platitude spammers. I'm only just worried about having the police called like the college kid who tried to burn himself alive.

Dying in front of the PC

http://edition.cnn.com/2015/01/19/world/taiwan-gamer-death/

So is there any way to replicate this purposefully? Do I need to drink redbull or some shit and not move a muscle and I can go as peaceful as this guy?

Gubermint Psychiatry

http://www.aljazeera.com/news/2016/03/doctor-urged-psychiatric-care-germanwings-pilot-160313110115445.html

Even more reason to only browse this board through Tor. Lest you give someone reason to "save" you.

Nembutal from A?

Hey

Just wondering if anyone has gotten Nembutal from A and if it was tested to be legit?

I am planning to order from him as he has a "stealth" method into tricky countries.

thanks

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lKsCslOqWvY

How do we make normies understand the benefits of suicide? I'm tired of people saying don't do it when they have no fucking clue what they are talking about.

Alcohol Poisoning

Death by respiratory failure from alcohol poisoning is most common and peaceful, usually while asleep or passed out. You stop breathing by CNS depression.

The issue is, dying by choking on your vomit (conscious), which will be unpleasant.

0.40%-0.50% blood alcohol concentration is the LD for most people.

Male 160lbs

How many bottles would it take to reach death with each bottle being vodka 37.5% and 250ml/8.4oz.

I know I'm basically asking for someone to do basic math but when I do it, I get 4 of them bottles to reach BAC levels of over 0.50% which I have a feeling is completely wrong. Also any general tips or warnings for this method?

Considered killing myself by sticking 2 forks in the electrical outlet, making a circuit which would then stop my heart.

Does anyone know if this would actually work and if there is a lot of pain involved in this?

Potassium Chloride

So, you can buy a pound of potassium chloride online for just $9.99 plus shipping. Technically a gram should be far more than enough to kill a person, but can anybody confirm that this should work?

Help me

Hey 8chan. First time ever posting on here. I never thought it'd come to this. 21 year old chemistry student. I could write a novel about my suicidal and self destructive personality but I'll be wasting your time. I've been wanting to kill myself for about 4 years now but I always gave life another fucking chance. Lately I feel like I'm coming close to the end of it now. Arguments with my girlfriend, family issues and just everyfucking thing around me. Help me end this shitty existence. Going through the my day I always look at everything as a way of offing myself. Today I realized I can put a rope around my neck and hang it inside the elevator in my condo (40 floor skyscraper) and do the chocking dog in the elevator trick but I'm still Looking for painless easy accessible and quick method. Not really interested in organ failur shit that can be painful.

Near death experiences

For those of you who have had near-death experiences, what was it like? Let us know what we're missing.

Eternal layers of black? Supernatural? Or was it what I personally hope it is, just nothing. No black. Just a vacuum where worldly pain and torment is voided.

I have 2000 mg of Morphine in slow release pills. Will it work for suicide if I just take it all with some alcohol?

I am pretty much unused to opiates. Tried to do the same thing, but only had two slow release pills then and despite alcohol, I woke up after several hours, I guess it was cos I did not bite the pills (stupid me). Now having more of these - will i succeed?

Is 250mg tramadol, 240mg oxazepam and booze enough to kill me? I can also throw some seroquel into the mix (unlimited supply).

.38 suicide

Where exactly i need to shoot whit my revolver(.38) in whitch part of my head?

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Life has been pathetic since 2014 when I failed out of college. Been living with my parents trying to re-do uni despite how futile I know it is.

Just read all of the successful stories from my old friends, and right after this my mom called me in to clean her counter, not even saying happy birthday, because I forgot to pick up her dry cleaning last month.

I can't live like this, and I want to thank you guys for all of the tips you've given me and everyone here.

I decided to build an apparatus that will slink my nose into a tub of water to drown if the gunshot to the brain stem doesnt work.

pills

I know pills aren't ideal, but are these enough? The internet says flubromazepam is pretty strong, also would drink a whole load of vodka.

There's 250mg flubromazepam and 30mg diclazepam, not that you guys are chemists

Fentanyl

The lethal dosage at which about half of all people die is about 2mg (will make you stop breathing while unconscious) and you can buy 50mg of an analogue for less than 30 bucks that will surely kill you on TOR based markets from this seller and other sellers from various markets:

grams7enufi7jmdl.onion/infodesk/vendor/0xBB03AAD2E462B772

You can access the url via the TOR browser, which you can dl here:

https://www.torproject.org

You can buy needles online or from pharmacies (some pharmacists will ask questions). You can get them from needle exchanges as well if your city has heroin junkies.

You could also rub it into your gums or give yourself an enema with a solution, but injecting it is not so complicated and will most definitely kill you.

Cyanide in Cherries

I come bearing good news, and very simple maths.

There is 0.17 grams of Hydrogen Cyanide in one Cherry Pit.

30 grams of Cyanide will kill you.

So, you take 0.17 and multiply it by 30.

The number you get is : 176.4705882352941

Cyanide affects people with hypoxia.

This is the ideal death, the most devoid of pain I have researched.

The brain, when cut off from oxygen, feels drunk and confident.

The same sensation can be had from death by pure Nitrogen, but this tastes sweeter.

Just eat another fucking cherry : 177 and you're dead.

Personally, I can't wait to go out and just buy 200 cherries.

It's about fucking time I found the best way out.

suicide songs

Give me a list or just a link to songs you'd listen to before committing suicide and your top song.

I need something to listen to right now. Thanks.

Suicide poetry thread?

silence on fire

here's one for starts:

the book in the skull

tossed onto the pyre

of silence:

quickly

please

quickly

How long would it take to die from a Lantus overdose? Can I die in my sleep? I am a type 1 diabetic who is looking for an easy way out of a long life of suffering.

Hey /suicide/,

I just need a quick, painless method that won't get the glands pimping i.e. jumping off a building, hanging self some shit like that.

I don't have access to firearms.

Seriously the only thing keeping me from committing suicide is the fact that I'd want to be able to see the results afterwards. Just kind of sit there and observe how much of a shit people would give and then just fuck around as long as I want to until I'm ready to just stop existing.

Can anyone relate?

Serious question

What if I just reincarnated if I killed myself? That's what scares me the most, being reborn again . I think iv spent way too much the on /fringe/ or something but if I'm reborn again that completely defeats the purpose of killing myself. Does anyone know what's on the other side?

/gettingpastfears/

How do I get passed the fear of death? I have an agnostic view of reality and I'm terrified of the unknown when it comes to death. Any tips to help my get passed this stage so I can finally be at peace?

Just how devastating would the effects of legal euthanasia be on the general population? I'm talking right-to-die, assisted suicide if you want it.

Imagine how many potential millions of people would just up and vanish. Just how huge do you think the impact would be?

Finding guns

I know most guns do the trick but that's not my problem. I live in A state with very strict gun control so where can I find someone who will sell guns to someone without a gun license. On a slightly unrelated note if anyone is nice enough to lend or give a gun I'll gladly live stream my suicide

Poetry, Painting, and Sculpture of or relating to death and reasons to die

The Hollow Men - T.S. Eliot

Mistah Kurtz—he dead.

A penny for the Old Guy

I

We are the hollow men

We are the stuffed men

Leaning together

Headpiece filled with straw. Alas!

Our dried voices, when

We whisper together

Are quiet and meaningless

As wind in dry grass

Or rats' feet over broken glass

In our dry cellar

Shape without form, shade without colour,

Paralysed force, gesture without motion;

Those who have crossed

With direct eyes, to death's other Kingdom

Remember us—if at all—not as lost

Violent souls, but only

As the hollow men

The stuffed men.

II

Eyes I dare not meet in dreams

In death's dream kingdom

These do not appear:

There, the eyes are

Sunlight on a broken column

There, is a tree swinging

And voices are

In the wind's singing

More distant and more solemn

Than a fading star.

Let me be no nearer

In death's dream kingdom

Let me also wear

Such deliberate disguises

Rat's coat, crowskin, crossed staves

In a field

Behaving as the wind behaves

No nearer—

Not that final meeting

In the twilight kingdom

III

This is the dead land

This is cactus land

Here the stone images

Are raised, here they receive

The supplication of a dead man's hand

Under the twinkle of a fading star.

Is it like this

In death's other kingdom

Waking alone

At the hour when we are

Trembling with tenderness

Lips that would kiss

Form prayers to broken stone.

IV

The eyes are not here

There are no eyes here

In this valley of dying stars

In this hollow valley

This broken jaw of our lost kingdoms

In this last of meeting places

We grope together

And avoid speech

Gathered on this beach of the tumid river

Sightless, unless

The eyes reappear

As the perpetual star

Multifoliate rose

Of death's twilight kingdom

The hope only

Of empty men.

V

Here we go round the prickly pear

Prickly pear prickly pear

Here we go round the prickly pear

At five o'clock in the morning.

Between the idea

And the reality

Between the motion

And the act

Falls the Shadow

For Thine is the Kingdom

Between the conception

And the creation

Between the emotion

And the response

Falls the Shadow

Life is very long

Between the desire

And the spasm

Between the potency

And the existence

Between the essence

And the descent

Falls the Shadow

For Thine is the Kingdom

For Thine is

Life is

For Thine is the

This is the way the world ends

This is the way the world ends

This is the way the world ends

Not with a bang but a whimper.

Should I lie on my last note?

I want to leave a note and I don't want my last words to be a lie, but I also want to tell people it's not their fault, because no one deserve to live with that kind of guilt.

The problem is that it IS their fault, my parents and my ex-friens made me live in hell and that's one of the main reasons I am killing my self.

I want to tell them there was nothing they could do but there was plenty they could do.

What should I do? should I lie on my last note to them or tell the truth but destroy their lives?

Killing myself in 3 days. I have my music selected, and not a care in the world. any suggestions on how to go out? If nothing is suggested I'll just do it with a 12 gauge.

so… I'm asking the for SWIM but… um How could SWIM slit his wrists with the least amount of pain in the quickest amount of time

How do I convince those around me I'll be happier dead?

quick question of order

hypothetical here

-70mg vali

-much 325/10 hydrocodone

-much 325/10 oxycoodne

-bunch of xr400 seroquel

-melatonin

would some vali during the day and melatonin before bed and taking the sero/opis before i pass out with a couple joints somewhere between all that be enough to sleep tonight without waking in agony/anguish? i just want to get a good long sleep you know? i'm not a big person i just dont want to wake up or puke right

Suicide with 22lr pistol

I have a Browning Challenger 22lr pistol. Is this enough to penetrate my skull (either penetrating up from my mouth or from the side through my temple)? I've read stories about people dying from 22lr rounds, but also people trying to commit suicide and failing even after several shots.

So do y'all think a 22lr round from a pistol is enough for suicide?

Barbecue suicide in the woods

Hey, I have a suicide method I want to go through with, and I wondered if someone could provide criticisms if possible. I'm going to pitch up a tent in the woods nearby (lots of trees, can probably find a secluded area easily, haven't gotten around to finding it yet), and then commit suicide by exposure to carbon monoxide, using disposable grills. The tent is fairly cheap, but it has an inner and outer layer, and I want to duct tape or glue the outer tent to the inner one in such a fashion that it cuts off all ventilation. (And I'm going to seal all the ventilation meshes). This will be done at night, away from people, and in a snowy forest, so there isn't any fire hazard. That said, can anyone see any weaknesses in my plan?

Benzos. Ever work? Or not really?

I have recently gotten fired, and also was on SSDI/SSI, and since I was fired I am no longer eligible for SSDI/SSI. I am trying to get an appeal going but don't know the whole process or how to do it.

I'm trying to find a new job fast, but if I can't then I'm going to try to off myself. I figure it'll either work, or I'll end up in the mental health ward, and be put back on SSDI/SSI.

I can't pay my bills without a job. I tried filing for unemployment, but they say I'm not eligible because I technically am still employed (through a temp agency) but they refuse to give me any new work, because my workers claimed I was drunk on the job, when I wasn't. I was given a new medication and it made me drowsy. They also claimed I smelt of alcohol, when my mother and my friend at work said they smelled nothing.

They said I could come back the next day, and just said go home for the day, but now they called and said I am no longer welcome there, so I asked for a new assignment, but they kept giving me the run-around.

I have Roughly ~387mg of Etizolam, 126mg of Clonazolam, plus a maybe half full bottle of 90, so maybe around 200, and then maybe 150 .5mg tablets left over in that pink bag. However the vendor even admitted some of those pills were bunk, which is why he through in an extra 100 pills.

I have 60 mg of Kpins (provided I don't take anymore of them, which is hard to do, since I do have legitimate anxiety social and generalized.)

Then I have 9000 mg of Seroquel (again provided I don't take anymore of them).

I know it is extremely hard to die from Benzos, and once I accidentally tried eyeballing some Phenazepam powder and I blacked out for 3 weeks. But maybe if I ate the entire bag of powder right away?

I don't really know how to do bitcoins, so I don't know if I could get anything from the darknet.

Plus, taking all those pills would take forever, and I might just vomit them back up

Would this work, or will this just land me in the loony bin again?

Oh, I also have another full bottle of 90 pills x.7mg Clon and 120 pills x1.2mg Etizolam on their way.

codeine suicide

If I take 1.2 grams of codeine in tablets with 50ml of alcohol 70%, 100mg of valium (for seizures) and an anti vomit pill (metoclopramide 20mg), how much time will it take me to die? will I look asleep? will I feel anything?

A suicide by alcohol

Not terribly long ago in late last December I betrayed a bunch of my friends because of my addictions realized I wasn't going to get what I want out of them and ended it on a bad note, I lost pretty much everyone, and been in conflict of killing myself for being such a manipulative cunt that used a bunch of people to reach my desires this is more of not just a selfish thing because I hate my own life and feel I'm a danger to other people more than ever. I feel my last moments should be doing something I love.

If I do end it all what is the best alcoholic drink to literally drink myself to death on, and how much will I need? I was thinking of drinking myself to death because I love alcohol and getting drunk but I need the most potent stuff possible and have enough money saved up to get it. I don't care about my savings if I'm going to kill myself anyway maybe I'll hire a hooker and fuck one last time as well. It's my first choice, second would be maybe going into the river with my car.

If alcohol isn't a effective means of killing myself what else can I mix with it? I want a slow death so nothing that will kill me quick.

Botox

Botox is one of the deadliest neurotoxins in the world, with a few ml apparently able to kill you

Anyone heard any info of using botox for suicide?

Why do they want to keep us alive?

Failed Attempts

ITT: Ways you fucked up your own death

>Bought disposal barbecue from local shop

>Waited until I was alone

>Taped over gaps in window

>Lit the grill

>Left room and taped door frame

>Piled clothes under door

>Assumed no smoke would escape so didn't break fire alarms

>Went downstairs

>Spent ~10 minutes drinking heavily as I struggled to write an acceptable note

>Got deafened by alarms

>Panicked and ran upstairs

>Saw smoke everywhere

>Assumed room was on fire

>Drunk mind assumed the best option would be to throw a glass of water on the fire

>Threw the door open and filled the entire house with smoke

>Spent 10 minutes struggling to put put the fire out

>Spent another 10 minutes trying to get the smoke out and shut the alarms off

>Cleaned up after myself to avoid getting sent to a ward or some shit

>Vomited

>Fell asleep whilst feeling like a fucking idiot

Toaster bath

Almost did that tonight.

What stopped me is not knowing if it would work.

I know grounding, metal pipes, and using a different outlet besides a bathroom one (due to breakers) is a must

I have an extension cord to use a normal outlet outside the bathroom. Now I just need to know how to tell if its going to work.

Tips, tricks?

I'm 28 now, and when I get to 50 and still haven't bettered myself, I think I'll kill myself if I haven't accomplished much and feel like a failure.

Reasons to kill myself:

Nobody close to me. Nobody to share my personal feelings and trust. Everybody I knew was a scumbag.

Idiocracy in real life. I can't stand watching the human race getting more retarded.

Humans are getting more selfish and insensitive. The human race is scum.

I am a loser who just likes to smoke weed and be lazy and do nothing with my life.

I am bored everyday and don't have money to go out and enjoy other things outside my home.

My parents, aunts, uncles, and older families will be gone, so when I die, nobody will come to my funeral, so I won't feel guilty of suicide.

Hey Johndoe. I need some serious help so don't fucking comment if you aren't actually going to contribute anything useful .

I am 17 and have borderline personality disorder. Look it up if you don't know what it isn't. Anyways it's been the biggest thing that's prevented me to kill myself due to the nature however I don't want to do this anymore. I have lost so many people, been accused and talked to by detectives for suspicion of assisted suicide and have been publically shamed constantly I'm also a lonely memer and have type 1 diabetes. I'm fairly attractive and smart and not a wizard but I can't feel physical arousal so not even sex salvages me

How the fuck do I get myself to kill my slef? I always pussy out because I have friends and family who love me but I can't take it anymore. I'm also poor and on welfare

Does anybody have access to the latest 2014-2015 Peaceful Pill Handbook? Could they post the pdf here or link it? Much obliged.

Traveling to the America to shoot myself

So shotguns look like the most reliable method. The only problem is that i live in a country with tight gun laws. Would it be possible for me to just travel to the U.S.A. and blow my brains out? Has this ever been done before? Ive got about 2000 usd saved up so i dont think money will be an issue.

Electrocution

Any thoughts on how a death like this would feel? I (presumably) have the means to go thru with this method, I'd just like any insight you guys would have, as I'm under the impression that its an instantaneous sensation that would stop a beating heart in its' tracks.

The question is very clear and objective: How to create courage to do the act?

Is there any method? Consume alcohol, drugs, etc, can help?

I thought ask this on support thread, but I think this matter can be more discussed.

Could I buy cyanide online?

Could I buy Cyanide online? I need a method that will be 100% safe and undetectable for buying it because the post office here is really paranoid and they carefully check every single package that comes here. I also need a seller that is 100% confidence.

I have never ordered anything online so if there's something I need to know please tell me.

Bomb suicide

I want to explode myself because it's the lowest survival rate suicide method I found (since I don't have any kind of gun).

I already have TATP, but I don't know how to make a bomb. would an HDPE bottle (originally used to store acetone) work?

and if I just stick a sparkler in it would it make a good fuse?

(See photos)

Jumping

How high is high enough? What should I land on? I live in the middle of nowhere but there is a pretty high cliff around where I live. However I want to be sure I die on impact.

Planning and Preparations

Just curious where people are in regards to organising their death or if anybody is just going to wing it with household objects.

Figured out the best way to do your chosen method? Picked a spot? Bought any necessary equipment? What else do you have left to do to have everything ready?

Hey onion anons, I found this old forum. http://suicide6stgzecud.onion/

It's pretty dead, but I'm sure some of you would rather work your magic in that kind of setting, not having to worry about bumping lest you lose something forever.

Happy hell-raising!

Need some advice on how to overcome this

I've been having crazy suicidal ambivalence as of late. I don't why this is the case, part of me thinks this is just a manifestation of the survival instinct or suppressed feelings. I fear that I won't be able to do it. I do not want to live to 35, /suicide/. I sat here crying because of it, I don't want to be locked up in a hospital. I wish I could tell my mom how I felt and have her lend support without having the cops called on me. How do I deal with this? I just want to go back to how I previously felt. I don't want it to be like fucking this.

Amnesia

What if there would be something else, beside suicide, which would make one forget about everything bad that happened? Like some sort of potion or special herbs? Something to just forget everything and start like a new life, without the past and all the terrible feelings which come with it? Would you try it before committing suicide?

Technique for consuming a great amount of pills in a short space of time? I'm worried I might have to chew them and that might fuck it up somehow.

How can I produce CO at home?

I'm looking for a way to produce Carbon Monoxide at home other than running a vehicle because I'm poor and I don't own one.

Detergent Suicide

I remember Japan's detergent suicides few days ago when I was contemplating how/why/when to say fuck you to this decaying ball of shit.

If memory serves hydrogen sulphide is inexpensive, spiteful and quick method.

The gas kills you in matter of minutes when inhaled.

If I remember correctly mixing pure sulfur with a strong bleach causes a chemical reaction that produces hydrogen sulphide.

Both ingredients are commonly available and *very* cheap

http://www.amazon.com/Pure-Sulfur-Powder-DC-Earth/dp/B005H0WA2O

http://www.amazon.com/Scotts-Outdoor-OxiClean-One-Gallon-Concentrate/dp/B00T3ZO06I/ref=sr_1_15?s=lawn-garden&ie=UTF8&qid=1454990425&sr=1-15&keywords=bleach

The game plan.

Make the damn sure that you brew your little cocktail in a enclosed place with no ventilation (e g car, basement or a apartment with sealed windows and no ventilation). Pop few hypnotics/sleeping meds to knock you out once you are done cooking and just let it set in.

This method is rather…. Evil. If memory serves it can kill off tens of people at a time in moments, so if you want to take few assholes with you, leave your car/apartment door unlocked in case someone is gullible/curious enough to open and come in.

It sounds hilarious to me at least. You might get a high score, send off few fucks to the depths of hell with you and give Internet something to laugh about.

Opinions?

Suicide with plastic bag

I've been suicidal for a long time, but my girlfriend broke up with me and the only thing I cared about enough to remain alive for is gone, so guess it's finally time.

Does anyone know how effective tying a plastic bag over one's head is? Given the lack of advice I've seen on it, I thought I'd ask first. I'm mostly concerned about a risk of brain damage in case of failure (assuming lack of oxygen messes with one's brain and can cause you to remove the bag), but I'm otherwise fairly certain of my resolve and don't think I'll remove it. Is there anything I should know? I'll admit it's my easiest option at the moment, but I don't mind searching for a less risky (?) form of death.

I've placed an order for a Carbon Monoxide 100 liter canister.

Upon receiving it, I intend to start my car in an enclosed space, and unleash the gas, while the car is started.

Tips or advice?

Suicide as a Revolutionary Act

I think suicide is a political and revolutionary act, and the common person who commits suicide is a martyr.

Think of all the restrictions to suicide that have been put in place. Religious restrictions to it involve going straight to Hell. Cultural restrictions are abound with people who feel it is their duty, or who simply get feel self-righteous at the mere thought of "saving" someone (notice the language, it is called "saving" someone). Political restrictions involve–if caught before the deed is committed–being put into a prison (a.k.a. 'involuntarily confined,' what a nice euphemism); and then a fate even worse than that is to be forcibly fed psychotropics, because it's better to have a zombie who hasn't committed suicide than a free spirit who has shown the way out. Societal structures will call people who even so much as consider suicide to be "sick." Countries like South Korea are suspected of going so far as to try to hide or deflate suicide figures, which are already the highest rates in the world. Literature that tries to provide methods to suicide are legally banned. In some places, the mere discussion of it can be legally pernicious. Online, this 8chan board is practically the only site that exists that supports suicide to the level it does.

Why all these restrictions? It's the same reason that in countries where levels of emigration are high, that there are restrictions to that. When a person emigrates, they are telling everyone in that society that they do not consent to what is happening in the religious, cultural, and political system there. In response, the holders of power of that country find it necessary to stem this loss of legitimacy and to stop their cattle from leaving the farm. The society calls it 'unpatriotic,' they put up exit taxes, they put up walls to exit. Emigration is a political and revolutionary act against the society at hand.

The people in power are afraid of the possibility of their slaves to commit suicide.

And suicide is a perfectly rational act, as it is a form of personal secession. Viewed as an emigrant, he moves away from the land of the living. He denies consent. He is no longer to be treated as chattel by his government, by his church, by his peers, by his family, or whatever causes him the pressures to commit his act of secession. Viewed this way, the people who attack suicide are just like the house slaves who defend their master.

Those who reject suicide are unable to see the way off of the plantation.

Possible route?

I have about 3.6g of Prozac and can get about 3.6 more. I was thinking of downing all of it plus a few bottles of tylenol. Think this will work? I can get all of this very soon btw.

Heroin

I'm in Berlin right now and I can easily get heroin and methadone from street dealers.

How much do I need to get to safely overdose?

post useful links

methods:

http://fringe.davesource.com/Fringe/Information/Suicide_FAQ.html#INDEX

http://lostallhope.com/suicide-methods/statistics-most-lethal-methods

http://web.archive.org/web/20130629190403/http://ash2.wikkii.com/wiki/Main_Page

https://suicideocymrgxq7.tor2web.org

http://exitinternational.net/products/

http://optingoutforum.blogspot.no/p/forum.html

http://www.webcitation.org/getfile?fileid=00fdce2b0f38857e2da555da684ec98a0e108889

http://exitinternational.net/wiki/Literature#Guide_to_a_Humane_Self-Chosen_Death

https://groups.google.com/forum/#!forum/suicide-methods-hideout

https://groups.google.com/forum/#!topic/alt.suicide.methods/tzQ713tth9M

https://groups.google.com/forum/#!forum/alt.suicide.holiday

failed attempts:

http://suicidemethods.info/other/suicide%20attempts%20by%20readers.htm

pics:

http://suicidemethods.info/pix/listpix.htm

http://suicidemethods.info/pix/

notes:

http://slightlywarped.com/crapfactory/curiosities/2011/june/suicide_notes.htm

blogs / books / documentaries:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sYZxu1qeKw4

http://skywaybridge.com/home.htm

http://theviewfromhell.blogspot.com/

http://why-im-sold-on-antinatalism.blogspot.de/

http://www.amazon.com/Five-Last-Acts-unbearable-unrelievable/dp/1482594099

http://thepiratebay.se/torrent/9549252/Final_Exit_(2009)ampPeaceful_Pill_eHandbook_(2014)_[Assisted

https://www.youtube.com/user/GracefulExit/videos

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Terry_Pratchett:_Choosing_to_Die

other:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f_HkQ4-x4P4

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MOY-jJeOeBk&t=0m44s

http://www.mediafire.com/download/8vuz7lim83k85rz/BedsideReading.rar

http://www.mediafire.com/download/59hvompnym0n161/BedsideViewing.rar

http://ashspace.org/

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a98W-vW0sh4&noredirect=1

music:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=778cZt5guq8

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s4M8GjgfG9k

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H_rdYY9CIWE

just want to slit my wrists and end this bullshit

Bought a 12 Guage earlier in the week but I don't know much about guns, I can't leave just yet do to obligations I feel I should stick to but for when I can end it, what type of ammo should I use (should I use slugs?) and how should I shoot myself?

Trains.

Considering Trains seems to be discussed a lot recently in the 'Ask tiny questions here.' sticky and no fag can be bothered to read up to see what others have put i'm starting a train based upon trains. Other questions about vehicular suicide can be asked here too but try keep it on trains as that seems to be what's common at the moment. I will come back regularly to answer any questions.

retard faggot

Hey /suicide/ i really want to kill myself and ive been planning it for a while but im not sure what i should kill myself with.

Im 15 and in high school

My parents are crazy and argue all the fucking time. My brother likes to fucking embarras me on Snapchat by doing things to me whilst im sleeping and uploading it. Everyone in school knows about it. Hes basically a chad and hes told me hes been on /fit/. Everyone at school laughs at me including teachers. I try to tell the staff but they dont give a fuck. A girl i confessed to, openly told me "i wouldnt go out with such a freak". Fucking dates my brother now too. Its a chaos. Ive been thinking of hanging myself but i dont want to feel more pain. I want to stab myself but what will work best?

>inb4 emo fag

>inb4 lol what a fag

Also people told me to kill myself in the middle of class. Would that work?

Shouldn't the number of posts die off (so to speak) on this board over time, or are you all a bunch of pussies who can never go through with it?

Killing myself in the philippines

I have a reasonable amount of cash and the laws are not as strict here. So I imagine with cash and loose laws, there must be an easy way to get my hands on something that would painlessly kill me. Any thoughts?

Nicotine

I've read nicotine in its pure form is really toxic. Is it possible to extract it from cigarettes or something else to kill oneself? There are some instructions how to do it out there, but I doubt that the purity is good enough with the methods I've read about and won't be enough to end my life. Maybe some people here have more knowledge about this than me and/or some ideas.

What to avoid

What suicide methods do NOT work?

Bonus points if you have tried something yourself and it failed.

Dammit 200 char limit, fuck you, that is all I want to ask. What more do you want? A little blog like novel?

easiest, best way to kill yourself?

i have been looking into ricin. anyone know a better way?

if possible it should be painless.

It's -6 celsius outside and theres a snowstorm

If I soak my clothes in water and lay on the ground how long will it take me to die of hypothermia?

OTC Overdose?

I'm looking for a painless method to commit suicide using OTC drugs. What drugs will actually work and how much do I need to take? I've read that ODing on certain pills just makes you vomit and is extremely painful. I just want to fall asleep and not wake up.

So let's say theres another world where the dead people are, and in that world they are alive eternally. (no heaven or hell, just a world where every dead person is).

If someone you loved died, would you kill yourself to see that person again?

So my time has come, but I know that doing it alone will be hard as fuck.

Anyone interested in a suicide pact? I'm planning on jumping. We'll go to the cliff (I know the perfect spot), handcuff each other, and whoever jumps first, well, the other is gonna have no say in the matter whether he's having cold feet or not.

If we're more than 2, well, even better. We'll have many handcuffs and make a suicide train of the whole thing.

Why are people always suggesting only 1 method here?

Wouldn't a mix be the best way?

I mean what could possible go wrong if you shoot yourself while jumping down a high building?

or taking an overdose mixed with an exit-bag and cherry pits :^)

Writing the Note

I'm writing my note, but I'm not sure what to put in it.

I've written the introductions, the exposition. You know, the "I finally grew the nerve to do it" and the "I've wanted to do this for years" shit.

But what now? What else should I write? What else should I express?

switzerland immigration for euthenasia

Who do I email, who do I pay, to be able to exit peacefully. I've been at this for awhile, there a lot of gate keeping going on as far as finding a legitimate source. I tried several drugs to end this shit I always end up in the hospital, I am a pussy I don't want to jump, hang or blow my brains out, I just want to fall asleep and it be over.

Does anyone know how to go about the migration to Switzerland for suicide, I emailed the embassy regarding legality of suicide tourism I received an automated email in return. If not Switzerland is there another way, another country, easily accessible.

codeine suicide

Can I kill myself with codeine? I read online that 800-1200mg of codeine is the LD50 for humen, I also have about 600mg of valium and of course alcohol, if I take them all will it be a safe suicide?

I also considered using TATP but I dont want anyone else to get hurt…

help me please?

nutmeg of love

Hey guys. Since I'm a pussy and fear pain, I wanted a death that was quick or painless. Today I discovered this boy nutmeg, findable everywhere. It is said that two of these goat shit can kill you, with as side effect nausea, dizziness… I've seen more violent shit, and since I love taking drugs to escape from this shit-ass world, i think it can be cool to die while being high af. What do you think about it?

I remember when this board was on the front page of 8chan

I wonder what happened to the userbase :^)

Will 60mg of hcl fentanyl, 20mg of xanax and some alcohol kill me? I'm 161cm and weigh 50kg, no tolerance. Also what is the best anti emetic?

Overdose

Would it be possible to commit suicide with these pills? How long it would take to die?

>70x of 50mg sulpirid

>40x of 25mg kvetiapin/Quentiapinum

>40x of 100mg Sertralin

>60x of 1200mg of piracetam

>10x of 20mg Citalec

What if I ate all of this and drank one liter of wiskey/vodka/whatever strong alcohol I have, would it kill me?

Ultimatums

Has anyone set themselves an ultimatum? I have been thinking of suicide for the past 8 years, it has consumed an enormous amount of time and caused me a lot of grief. Finally I have set myself an ultimatum, if I don't accomplish a certain goal in 1 month of time, I will end my life. After setting this ultimatum, I feel life has become a lot simpler, I don't worry anymore, I'm not afraid anymore, I either make it or die – no compromises. For the first time in many years, I feel my mind has become clear and sharp. People fear death only due to uncertainty, uncertainty of when and how it will occur, when the method and time is known, there is nothing to be afraid of, it is inevitable, no longer an abstract concept, death becomes real.

I have considered that I might not have the willpower to go through with it when the date comes, however, the only thing I fear more than the process of dying is disappointing myself yet again.

The name of peace is sweet, and the thing itself is beneficial, but there is a great difference between peace and servitude. Peace is freedom in tranquillity, servitude is the worst of all evils, to be resisted not only by war, but even by death.

Best way to commit suicide

I think best and painless way to commit suicide is to hang himself. Suddenly you lose consciousness (in ca. 3 sec.) and die. I bought rope and wait for bad time or some impuls to go to other world. This method is painless but fear is big. And what will happen when I reach other side?

Out of curiosity, are there any of you who still see suicide as a looming taboo? As I see it, the resolve to kill one's self necessitates a view that death – including death by one's own actions – is simply natural, and, therefore, nothing out of the ordinary — or anything to be afraid of.

I'd like to believe I've come to this view, and there are only one or two unrelated reasons why I'm not, at the moment, decomposing — Otherwise I wouldn't be posting this. I'd think most people here share a similar mindset, and have reasons themselves for not being dead, so I'm curious: To those of you still trying to come to terms with yourself, what are you struggling with? Do you want help accepting your decision?

The "loved ones" problem

Has anyone come up with an effective solution to this?

There's gotta be some crafty secret that few have thought of somewhere out there.

Do you get scared trying to imagine what happens after you die?

It's the biggest thing keeping me from doing it. I am absolutely terrified at the magnitude of things that can happen

http://youtu.be/nyXtHeHNldE

I caught with an old high school friend who I hadn't seen since last winter break. We were very close in high school and part of that was depression and just me being really empathetic. Its been probably 9 nears since we were very close at all, although I feel like we could fall back into some sort of emotional mess of a relationship.

Anyway, that friend has been going downhill for a couple years with bipolar disorder and chronic depression. They've been hospitalized twice in the last month for being suicidal, panic attack type situations. But they are cry-for-help type things. Like text everyone goodbye, then down a bunch of pills, sit at her house and wait for people to show up.

She is really unstable and I'm worried about even saying honest, pessimistic stuff will push her into more cry-for-help, acute problems (I've also had severe depression for a long time).

But when she is stable, I'm thinking I'd like to give her (off the record, in person) information on methods that work like nembutal, fentanyl cocktails and whatnot. Do you all have any thoughts for me on this? I feel like I would be doing the right thing, and it would help me be more comfortable with my own death.

I've also thought about a pact, but my antidepressants are keeping me going, a day at a time, right now. I'd be in the right mind set if I just stopped taking them, which I did before to make things worse.

If this was six months ago, I would've loved it if I could have gotten her to just come find me after overdosed in hole in the woods, and just cover me up. Going that way has been my dream, not being probed in the morgue, paraded around by family and stuck in the ground by a bus stop. Just gone.

But yea, has anyone here provided method info to close friends? I'd love to hear stories on this.

Hi guys.

Hey, I really want to commit suicide, these are the drugs I have:

buspirone orion - 500 mg

fluanxol - 100 mg

mirtazapin - 900 mg

quietapine - 5000 mg

I don't know how lethal this combination is, I realise it might not be very lethal at all. However, I would appreciate any input. I could probably double the amount of most of the drugs I listed, in a relatively short time. If possible, please reply by private message. Thank you.

Hardcore as fuck

Meanwhile, on /suicide/…

>I want a painless and quick method

>I don't want to suffer ;-;

Meanwhile, in Detroit…

>A 22-year-old mother deliberately climbed a fence to a backyard and allowed herself to be mauled to death by vicious dogs on Thursday in Port Huron, authorities said. Rebecca Hardy died at a hospital with extensive injuries to her face and neck. The death was ruled a suicide from injuries caused by multiple dogs mauling her.

>Investigators have said Hardy climbed over a fence into a backyard at 1721 Tenth Street in Port Huron, where she was attacked first by a pit bull and then by a pit bull-husky mix. A witness attempted to stop the dogs from attacking Hardy. The dog owner eventually was able to subdue the dogs and provide aid to Hardy.

>After the attack at about 4:45 p.m. Thursday, Hardy was taken to Lake Huron Medical Center and later flown to Beaumont Hospital, where she died, the Port Huron Times Herald reports. The two dogs and a pit bull-husky mix puppy were euthanized the next day.

>The medical examiner said he didn't immediately know whether there were signs Hardy resisted the dogs' attacks at any point. He said his office's investigation shows Hardy had recently been kicked out of her house and had attempted suicide in the past. Hardy had an 18-month-old daughter with her fiancé, Matthew Grattan.

https://archive.is/YnrDk

The majority of female suicide attempts are usually cries for help/attention rather than attempts committed with the purposeful intent of dying ("I took 5 more ibuprofen than the recommended dose, goodbye everyone ;-;") and I've seen some people suggest that of those women who do die from suicide, a substantial minority of them likely didn't mean it. But this woman…fuck, that's fucking brutal. Voluntarily torn apart by dogs.

I can think of a few other amazing suicides that match up to this, such as the Japanese woman Kiyoko Matsumoto in the 1930's who killed herself by jumping into a fucking active volcano: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kiyoko_Matsumoto

And then there's a somewhat infamous gore picture that you sometimes see posted of a guy who deliberately cut himself in half at the waist with a bandsaw.

Anyone got any other examples of utterly absurd and hardcore suicide methods that people have used?

is this legit?

Home made nembutal

Equipment

-hotplate

-stainless steel cup

-small cooking pot

-thermometer

-clamp-stand

-filter

-stainless steel stir rod

Reagents

-26.7 g of clean metallic sodium

-400 g of anhydrous (dry) Ethanol

-32.7g of Urea, molecular biology grade, CH4N2O, FW=60 g/mol

-Solution of 100 g of 1-methyl butyl-ethyl malonic ester(Propanedioic acid)

-Water

PROCEDURE

1) A hotplate was rested on the base of a clampstand. A cooking pot containing 400 g of anhydrous (dry) ethanol is placed on the hotplate stirrer and 26.7g of clean metallic sodium is dissolved in it.

2) Into the stainless steel cup there is placed a Solution of 100 g of 1-methyl butyl-ethyl malonic ester(Propanedioic acid). The cup is then placed into the small cooking pot containing a mixture of the Ethanol and Sodium and secured with clamps to the clamp stand. The end of the thermometer is placed in the pot and positioned as close to the cup as possible.

3) It is warmed to a temperature of 170°C for 10 minutes to remove any residual moisture. Throughout the reaction the temperature of the mixture is kept at 170°C and stirring is done frequently.

4) 10.9 g of urea is added slowly, one scoop at a time and with good stirring. During this moisture (water) formed making the mixture damp. Over the course of 20 minutes the mixture gradually dries out and the amount of released gas lessens.

5) Another 10.9 g of urea is added and allowed to react for 35 minutes.

6) The last 10.9 g of urea is added and allowed to react for 30 minutes.

7) After adding the total amount of urea over 1h 25 min, the mixture is dry, contained yellow and off-yellow-to-white granules, and still damp with the water and alcohol. The product is then heated at a temperature of 280°C directly on the hotplate for 1h 20mins. During this process the mixture is stirred every 15 minutes and off-yellow-to-white granules became more prominent and as yellow ones lessened. The precipitated product is washed with cold water , filtered and heated again for about 40 minutes at a temperature of 127-130°C until all the water is removed and the white powder(Nembutal Sodium) is formed .

8) The Nembutal Sodium is allowed to cool and weighed. Yield is 23g. The product is 95-99% pure. You can also use a test kit to Check the purity .

For all those searching for more information on how to make their own Nembutal or needs guidance during the process , contact us now:

About to go to prison

There's a high chance that I'll be found out and going to prison. It's nothing dramatic, but it will ruine my future plans, and my anxiety and depressions will fuck me up in there for sure.

How would you go about an heroing in prison?

sick of ambivalence

i'll start deleting files on my computer, finish my notes, and set a time to go to the location where i plan to do my method, and then suddenly just be like 'nah'. how do i make myself feel like complete and utter shit during these times so that i don't keep going back and forth. i know deep down that i want it to be over, because i hate the times where i am not full swing suicidal, but survival instinct gets in the way.

The courage

Hey everybody. This actually is my first time ever post on infinite chan (even tho i lurk from quite some time),and the fact that i came here specifically to this board,isn't a good sign is it? ahah

Btw,short story on my situation,so i can help you understand better,what im going to write,plus i'll apologize in anticipation for any grammar errors,because when im about to write something long,i'll always do it:

>be me,22yo white eurofag

>at home since 5 year,playing vidya all day along. smoke weed some times

>trying to search for a job,never got call once

>people around me keep bullshitting on my aspect

>change aspect,thrim hair,make my self good looking

>nothing

>after years of trying,i decided that i give up on everything

>literally staying at home rotting,without even thinking for my future

>…

>time-rollback to 5 months ago

>discussing with my sister,20yo

>getting into a violent discussion where intimidate her to cut her troath with a pocket knife

>minute's passes,things settle down eventually

>decide to go to police station by myself and my family tagged along later

>admit that i threaten to kill my sister

>talking to bunch of cops,some understand my shitty life situation

>others blame it to my parents,kek

>skip to 4 months later

>visiting a psichiatrist and a psichologist for medication and consulting

>get Daparox as prescription

>2 month's passes as im telling to psichiatrist the med doesnt do shit

>4 month's passes and still no effects,meanwhile have to wait another 2 weeks to see the psichiatrist for telling him

I literally have no reason anymore to live. I can't do anything on my own,im even too lazy to try suicide. I've finally found a rope,wich im eventually going to use to hang myself,but there's something that..i don't really know how to explain. When i think about my suicide action (hanging w/ rope),i feel a little sad,think to a variety of things,and than when i should suppose to go and take the rope,something really stops me. (don't try to bullshitting me with god fantasies and other religion shit,im atheist so ur literally wasting ur time).

It's like…a living torture. Want to fade away,but i cannot because i miss the courage. I literally don't have the nutts,and this..ITS REALLY FUCKING FRUSTRATING. Please help me to delete this block,so i can finally leave everything behind. Thank you

I can get 30mg pills of DXM only, used them before for 3rd plateau trips, learned that 3000mg+ (without tolerance, be carefull, long term tolerance builds up on DXM and I mean years lasting tolerance) should do the job, especially in combination with alcohol and weed (to not throw it all up)

Anyone else though about this method?

Going away while tripping insanely? Sound like fun, seriously considering this

afterlife

Music to go out to

I need music, sad depressing good music. I want to make a playlist to slip out to when I do it. Anyone have any YouTube links to give me. I can't find anything. Here is Some Irish countryside photos for you

Whose new year's resolution here is to die?

Anyone waiting for 2016 to get their guts up to finally do it?

silly 120 chars rule… I really don't have much else to say

Tell us your story.

>it all started in 2nd grade

>everytime my mom brings me in, I hold on to her hand and cry not to go

>fast forward, 4th grade, no problems with anxiety, depression etc.

>dad commits suicide via overdose

>hit me hard

>can't attend school for weeks

>begin pulling out my hair

>become diagnosed with trichotillomania (hair pulling)

>begin taking antidepressants

>they work for a while, but that feeling of unaware happiness always goes away

>6th grade

>same problem, miss more school.

>7th grade

>the cycle repeats

>8th grade

>get hit real hard this time for some reason, missed school for about 3 months

>get tutor

>sweet lady who tries her hardest to keep me happy

>i always felt like one of those special needs kids

>i felt unattached

>i felt alone

>the only one there for me was my mom

>problems continue

>the cycle repeats…

I plan on ending the cycle late tonight.

Tell me your story.

rate me method

hello, i seek some critiques/suggestions for improvement on my plan to kill myself:

>60 mg diazepam

>maybe 800 mg tramadol

>unlimited codeine

>antiemetic (benadryl)

>alcohol, ie whiskey/vodka

I am thinking to take these on a fairly empty stomach and either sit in a sealed bathroom with a CO grill running OR go into a river with a weighted backpack and wait to become unconscious. Thoughts?

What ammo?

>approach girl

>get to know her

>ask her out

>"sorry anon, I only date white guys"

It was not until this moment that I realized how fucked I am. I knew then and there how utterly nugatory it is in this body to attempt to get a gf.

I simply will not be able to attract a quality woman of my own or any other race unless I am white. This is a cacophonous, nightmarish epiphany, and I think I'm going to end it.

Which is better for suicide? Buckshot or slug? Sources and searches aren't giving me anything but success rates w/o detail.

Planned Obsolescence

This is pretty much my idol right here:

https://www.washingtonpost.com/world/healthy-british-nurse-ends-her-life-in-a-swiss-clinic-because-of-fear-of-getting-old/2015/08/03/78c65680-39ab-11e5-9c2d-ed991d848c48_story.html

Most people here are here because they want to kill themselves relatively soon. I feel like I'm in a rare camp, because really, I want to do something of a Logan's Run to myself. Why bother living such a painful and horrible end? Why should I save for an enormous amount of medical expenses in my old age, when I can have a fuller life now and work less at the expense of offing myself before those expenses become increasingly statistically significant?

I'm here just so I'm prepared for the moment before I start to become horribly incapacitated by life.

How will you spend your last few days?

I'm currently just planning business as usual and still attending classes and all that. Maybe go around and eat some food that I like for one last time and play games.

Does anyone else have any particular plans for how to spend their last day/s?

Suicide Pact North Americas

Looking to pool resources to make a fool proof, painless, and peaceful exit from this world to the next. North Americas, Serious inquiries, lets get this shit done, theres gotta be something better after this shit, and if not, It wouldn't matter if we sticked around, the abyss consumes all.

Please, tell me how to get morphine. I can't take this ride anymore. I'd even be willing to explore the dark web for it, but I don't know how to really. I just don't see a future for me any more.

I live in Doha, I'm 18.

I don't want to be too specific because I'm afraid if anyone here happens to be close to me finds out they might try and reach out to me and "save" me.

Does anyone know of a way for me to have a painless death in my circumstances?

For a daily active channel join rizon #suicide or rizon #8c/suicide/

https://kiwiirc.com/client/irc.rizon.net/?nick=n?#8c/suicide/

WELCOME TO 8CHAN /SUICIDE/'S W.W.S.C [WORLD.WIDE.SUICIDE.CLUB] THREAD

Are you ready to throw in the towel but do not wanna go alone?

>What is a suicide club?

GOOGLE; SUICIDE CLUB

>SUICIDE CLUB MOVIE

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pzgONy9fkec

MAP: https://www.zeemaps.com/map?group=1192562

IRC: webchat.freenode.net

channel; paokdawwawlpoi

MEETING #2 - 3

http://pastebin.com/9XExhxVq

NEXT MEETING: UNKNOWN [ FOR NOW ]

OLD THREAD

>>https://8chan.co/suicide/res/569.html

Suicide music

I really like music.

Shooting some heroin and later adding some Fentanyl to some good music sounds like a great way to end it to me.

Pills here!

Trapped, alone and in pain.

I'm the same disabled fuckwit from months ago. (The dyslexic one handed anon)

My old problems still remain and I have new problems on top of my old problems

Country is collapsing, no-one gives a fuck. My family turned into complete mouthbreathers and no-one believes me.

Life is fucking with me and is denying the exit that I deserve.

PS: Santa can you kill me for Christmas? I have been a good boy

Anyone have paranoid thoughts where you just say in your head: Kill yourself, Kill yourself now!, you were supposed to kill yourself weeks ago. With hyperactivity paranoid symptoms?

Wolfsbane?

Has anyone looked into using this for suicide? My friend was looking into this and I was thinking of using it to end my life. I've had bad luck with overdose in the past.

Made up my mind

Been mulling over the idea of ending it, and always end up deciding it is the only option I want for myself.

Already written my note just in case an easy oppurtunity pops up, but most likely I'll either take the jump or drop hang.

Never felt so at ease.

In case nobody replies to this before I go through with it, thanks for your help, you didn't convince me to kill myself, but you made it a much lighter burden to decide on. Thanks, and good luck to you.

Hello /suicide/, I came here to ask about partial suspension hanging.

I've tried it to no success before. I used a belt, and a door to hold it in place. Thing is, even though I felt like I was choking, I wouldn't feel lightheaded or my vision fading away. I figured I was doing something wrong, so I came here to you.

Can some kind Anon advice me on how to go through this? Thank you.

Ok, let's say you've now got a gun. Tapping the trigger with it pointing at you will guarantee a full, instant, painless death.

Would you kill yourself immediately upon grabbing it? Do one last thing like write a note first? Or just keep it, and wait?

I just took three bottles of unisom… I wont wake up, right?

I didn't do much resurch on this, it was kind of a "of the moment" thing. I wont end up brain dead or anything, right?

Does suicide provide a societal release valve?

I saw a post a while back that it was o.k. to post about the politics of suicide.

I was looking through homicide and suicide rates for various countries, and while there do exist countries with lower homicide and suicide rates, I was not able to find a country with high homicide and suicide rates. A country with a high homicide rate tended to have a low suicide rate, and a country with a high suicide rate tended to have a low homicide rate.

So, do you think suicide provides a societal release valve? That if suicide is not permitted (through use of Baker's Acts, gun bans, etc.), that it will instead find its way out through homicidal incidents?

to make death look like an accident

So, a short background first and foremost… I live with extreme PTSD, anorexia, bulimia, depression and anxiety (both coupled with the PTSD), bipolar disorder… Basically I'm just fucked in the head. I try and try to stay sane enough to make it through my life but I live a life void of any happiness or feeling. I cut and burn myself to just feel something.. No matter if it is pain… No one really knows about that, though. Now, getting to my original question, I need a way to kill myself that is inexpensive and it needs to look like an accident. My younger brother is coming of age and I just feel like if he knew it was a suicide, him and his hormones might later make a rash decision to follow in my footsteps.

Suicide Mental Preperation Recommendations

So I'm going to be killing myself some time next week on Aug 25 - 27.

Do you guys have any recommendations on what I should do in order to keep my nerve up and remain focused on the goal during this week?

One guy in another thread recommended listening to Alan Watts.

Chloroform + Plastic Bag

http://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S1752928X13002758

So, other people have managed to kill themselves by knocking themselves out with chloroform and putting a plastic bag over their heads. Chloroform can just be bought online or easily made from bleach and acetone (http://www.dailymotion.com/video/x2ur3d2). And, if you fail, then I'm not sure that it'd really fuck you up past the potentially inevitable cancer later on like other methods could.

This seems like a pretty legit way to go. Am I overlooking something?

Morphine

I am wondering. I have 4 pills of morphine, each is 200 mg, slow release. Will it be enough to die if I intake with some xanax and tramal to keep the liver busy? How soon will it work after swallowing it? Is there a great possibility that I might start womit it out?

I am sick of life. Medication hasn't helped, nothing has. I just want to end it. Any tips? I am poor and I can't get ahold of a gun or anything like that. What is thought to be the least painful and quickest?

/suicide/ meta

This one is for board news and related stuff.

ADHD faggot plz help me die

If you don't want to seriously help me then fuck off.

I have ADHD, and I'm 18. I have lots of trouble reading LOL SO RANDUMB XD XD If you don't believe in adhd,read Russell Barkley. ADHD is almost as severe as autism in it's own right. It causes serious issues in major areas of the brain, and seriously impacts executive functions. Anyone with my compromised level of functioning should be euthanized.

I would like to obtain a gun, but don't think that's an option.

As a side effect of my disorder, and other complications, I don't trust my motor skills. I don't trust my "attention" either. This means more than you might think.

It affects more than my ability to know where I am or what I'm fucking doing. I would definitely fuck up the exit bag and puncture a lung, or something (Read Barkley if you care.) I need options for someone with my age and money. I want as guaranteed a death as possible, and it would be great if it looked like an accident, but It doesn't have to. I'm in the suburbs. Give me some options, please. I'm not being lazy, externalizing problem solving is the best way to consider my options. If you need me to read something absolutely important, i'll do it

Please help me die, it's only natural. Have compassion.

for those of you that might not be convinced, none of us live happy lives. There are lots of statistics out there.

If you need convincing, or further explanation let me know.

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The potency of household chems

Will bleach kill me? I'm just wondering if common house hold chemicals and cleaners will get rid of me.

And how much pain usually ensues would also be helpful.

Slow suicide

I want to get a disease to commit a slow suicide… I thought about diabetes, but the only problem is getting it… Any ideas?

PS. I am planning on commiting actual suicide by overdosing on insulin shots

How much sertraline 50 mg would it take to overdose? More importantly, how long do you think it would take before someone else might figure out something was wrong? How long would it take for me to die? I'd like to do it while my roommates are gone, which is why I'm asking.

Gunz?

What is /suicide/'s opinion of guns? High success rate, easy to obtain in the US, but very messy and traumatizing for everyone else (only relevant if you care about anyone else). And in that offchance it doesn't work, you're either paralyzed, missing a chunk of your face, or are brain damaged and retarded, all of which I consider worse than dying.

CO2 Poisoning

So, I have something like a 1 cubic meter metal box at home and I was thinking about sleeping inside it while lighting some candles and and dying from CO2 poisoning, from what I read it seems like a very peaceful way to die since I'm most likely gonna unconscious or sleeping. I might also eat some cherry pits before going in to make sure I kill this body.

The question is: how effective is this method?

Does anyone in the continental United States want someone to kill them? Preferably with a gun so I can shoot myself afterwards(criminal record so I can't purchase one).

Suicide locations

Idk about ya'll but the location of my suicide always had a great importance to me.

For 15 years I have been dreaming on and off to die somewhere in nature.

Is anyone picky as well about their suicide location?

Pic is from the Yosemite national park.

mixing bleaches

I read that mixing clorox with vinegar or other bleaches that contain ammonia will release toxic gases that can be lethal, seems like a good way out

I have a twelve gauge and I want to know which shell is the safer bet? The slug or the buckshot?

Need help with carotid compression

So, i was trying to compress the carotid with the tourniquet, but i always end compressing the jungular vein and i fell that my head is going to explode, someone knows how to to compress the carotid and not the jungular? (PS: I know that is on the right side, best place below the jaw but i still not getting).

So what can I do to make it look like I died by accident like a disease or food poisoning or something like that

Can't think of anything that isn't obvious as hell

Pic unrelated

I'm terminaly depressed now, finally

While other people are depressed about being a virgin, or short, or fat, or stupid, I'm depressed about existence.

It doesn't go any further than this I'm afraid.

I'm completely indifferent now, and I'm ready to die.

I've read once that philosophy was preparation to death. It all makes sense now.

Remember kids, you're not really depressed until your very existence makes you so.

If you want to reach that level, I recommend reading Schopenhauer.

will this kill me?

I need to end my life within the next week. I have 390mg of codeine (in the form of 26 Tylenol-3s) and a lot of alcohol. I haven't taken any of the codeine, nor have I ever taken any opiates in any form.

Will this kill me? Do I need to take some sort of drug to prevent vomiting? How painful will it be?

Please help me.

I brought you a nice song, /suicide/

Hope you like it

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qBcCq-6KS24

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qBcCq-6KS24

Preferred suicide methods

So /suicide/, what is your suicide method top 3?

Suicide by Insulin.

So, people. Is this posible? I mean, I know it is (I'm type 1 diabetic)… But can it be a reliable pain-free method?

Drugs

What are /suicide/'s thoughts on drugs?

I mean, if you're suicidal, why don't you take all kinds of wonderful drugs?

And after that, you can live on, with or without drugs, or see it as your last joyful moments.

What do you guys think about suicide by butt-chugging? It's apparently much more effective than "normal" alcohol poisoning, do you think 2-3 bottles oughta do the trick?

Suicide Notes

my situation:

-guns are illegal

-imports are heavily restricted so I can't get nembutal/fentanyl etc. you have to pick up your package at the post office where a customs officer will open it up in front of you to make sure you're not buying anything illegal

this leaves me with very few choices

-hanging, jumping off a building (too painful)

-helium (too complicated)

-poison

so I've been looking into different poisons I can use and distilled nicotine seems ideal. but then I found this link that says it's not actually deadly

http://blog.rursus.de/2013/12/attempting-to-commit-suicide-with-e-liquids-witless/

>Three cases… In one case the patient ingested 1500mg nicotine and thus more than 25 times the presumedly lethal dose of 30 to 60 mg. The only symptoms were nausea, abdominal pain, shivering and voluminous vomiting.

is this legit? what should I do?

Suicide News Thread

Is suicide via lorazepam a bad idea? Would it be painful/slow?

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Pure Helium Tanks

I've been seeking out a helium tank and noticed that some tricky little fucks have been diluting their tanks with 20% oxygen. Does anyone know where to obtain a tank containing pure helium. Was only able to find expensive industrial sites which sell en masse.

The Story of Your Enslavement

We can only be kept in the cages we do not see. A brief history of human enslavement - up to and including your own.

Suicide or going innawoods is the only way out.

suicide that doesn't look like it

Let's think of ways to kill yourself that will look like an accident rather than a suicide.

I'm sure many of you want to get off the ride without crushing your loves ones with guilt.

Suicide in style

Imagine the most ideal suicide clinic. How would you want them to work? What would you like them to do? Would you like them to be something like the Futurama suicide booths? Simple, procedural, standard, ordinary? Or something like from Soylent Green? Some nice last moments, people who know wtf they're doing, and the knowledge that your corpse will make great food.

faking suicide

Basically i want to attempt suicide, but i want to make sure i fail at it, with little to no consequences on my body/mind. I would like to be found unconscious somewhere. What would be the best way to do it? I can explain the reasons later…

Keeping it simple: will 400 mg of slowly released morphine work if I just bite them and swallow? I read these can cause unbearable itchiness, sensations and eventually pain attacks, while I'd rather have it nicely and in good mood in the end.

Dignitas responded to my email. They want 3500 us dollars just to evaluate my case and said my chances are low because my condition isn't terminal. What a scam.

ITT: Pussies

Post ITT if you want to kill yourself, but you're too much of a goddamn pussy to actually do it

What is it? Don't want it to fail? Afraid of what's waiting for you on the other side? Why you such a pussy, pussy?

I bought a packet of 20 nytol sleeping pills today. The most I've taken together is two and the experience was sort of trippy followed by inevitable sleep. (50mg tablets of diphenhydramine).

I've also done some research into what can happen with a sleeping-pill overdose and I don't like the idea of taking 20 and waking up with liver and or kidney problems in a hospital bed along with compulsory psychiatric evaluation. How many would definitely do the trick? Preferably, i'd like to fall into a deep sleep and never wake up (not a coma).

How are you supposed to swallow so many pills in such a short time, when killing yourself by drugs? Does it matter if you chew them up?

What's the order in which you take the pills in the Chloroquine Cocktail? The wiki page for it just gives the ingredients but no actual process.

I'll try to keep this short. I've been living with some room mates for almost a year now. One has serious issues with depression, goes to therapy, is medicated, considered ECT type shit. He is familiar with major depression.

I honestly didnt know I appeared any more depressed than normal lately (honest), but he and his girlfriend just sat me down tonight, basically said they're extremely worried about me, and are going to do whatever they can to help me get better. Last week for several days I basically stayed, out of sight, in my room for two days when not at work. More than normal. He was really paranoid I'd killed myself, and couldn't bring himself to do a welfare check for almost 48 hours. Just knocking on my door to ask a question. He was crying a bit during a lot of this. He said he has had three friends commit suicide in the past and isnt going to let me.

I'd posted before, I'd been on a timeline of the next few weeks. I'd been ironing out the details, tying up the loose ends. Actually drafting a suicide note. Scouting the location. Shopping for the method.

Has anyone ever worked themselves out of a situation like this? I guess I have to pretend to get better, then pretend to move away for some sort of bright future opportunity? Regardless this pushes my timeline way back. Unless I just rudely do it anyway. Fuck.

/suicide/ - I want to know if any of you had a similar or comparable history of thinking about suicide.

I have the strange tendency to overanalyse my behavioral patterns.

One of my patterns is my inherit and strong wish to die. I have been drawn towards the thought since my teenage days, but I never ever tried to kill myself. This is due to a reason.

I seem to have a narrative pattern in my head. Some kind of "perfect death scenario". I am not depressed. I am in a good living situation. I have a relationship and everything. But I just don't want to live and grow old. I like to live. But if I genuily believe that - if that scenario in my head was becoming reality - I would not bother a second to let it happen.

Over time, as I become older, the narrative has multiplied. Nowadays I have at least 7 acceptable scenarios and methods and some more "I'd probably consider this option if I was not in my normal but in a bad mood." scenarios.

By now all my scenarios are scenes of assisted suicide, but I am working my way up to the possibility that I will put hand on myself if I find it impossible to find someone to make my narrative real. I want to avoid to realize that at some point it is to late because I feel like I am responsible for other human beings or because I am fucking too old to kill myself without getting caught and humiliated.

Does this sound familiar for some of you? If yes, have you reached the point where any (well almost any) death is a perfect death scenario? When did you reach it and / or why?

fear of death

I'm suicidal but I still get really scared when I try 'it'. How do you overcome the fear of death and pain? (my method is supposed to be pretty painful) I want to go out peacefully, not scared.

apple seeds

http://www.healthline.com/health/food-nutrition/are-apple-seeds-poisonous#LethalDose3

"The tiny black seeds found in an apple’s core are another story. They contain amygdalin, a substance that releases cyanide when it comes into contact with human digestive enzymes.

Apple seeds have a strong outer layer that is resistant to digestive juices. But if you chew the seeds, amygdalin could be released in the body and produce cyanide. Small amounts can be detoxified by enzymes in your body, but large amounts can be dangerous.

According to the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention, 1-2 mg/kg is a fatal oral dose of cyanide for a 154 lbs. (70 kg) man. You would need to finely chew and eat about 200 apple seeds, or about 20 apple cores, to receive a fatal dose."

could this work??

seems like a stupid idea at first thought, but if you collected enough seeds you really could die from it, couldn't you. it's the perfect way of suicide for people without access to better methods, i mean like, everyone has access to apples.

this might be how i go out, combine apple seeds with a healthy sized medication overdose.

Hyperkalemia

So I take a medication that puts me at risk for hyperkalemia, basically, high levels of potassium. At high enough levels, this can be fatal. Part of me thinks it would be feasible to just eat potassium rich foods very very frequently and "accidentally" die from it.

I know that average levels are between 3.6 and 5.2 millimoles per liter (mmol/L), but I dont know how to figure out to what extent potassium effects mmol/l.

Either way, it seems like a nice stealth way to induce hyperkalemia and sudden cardiac death. People would think "Oh, anon died because she forgot about about one of her medication's side effects." Nice and easy, possibly.

is slitting wrists upwards really effective? not alone, but i might combine that with other things if it helps. i don't have access to a lot, but what i can do is a combination of a drugs (some prescribed to me, some not) overdose, alcohol, drowning myself, and cutting (depending on what you guys tell me i guess)

You guys seen this yet? The leading manufacturer of disposable helium cannisters (e.g 'Balloon Time' tanks) is now officially diluting with oxygen. They no longer contain pure helium.

Balloon Time helium is no longer a valid option for a peaceful way out because that oxygen in the tank will keep you alive. What the fucking fuck.

http://www.worthingtonindustries.com/getmedia/cdbb5ee7-d6a9-4e44-b5c5-4010ad4cd10a/BT_Eng-sell-sheet-011515_web.pdf?ext=.pdf

How good of an idea would it be to get extremely drunk, to the point of almost blacking out, and then jumping of an extremely high building?

It will hurt a little but it'll end fast

Making my suicide seem accidental with insulin

Here's the basic gist: I was placed on insulin for my diabetes, it's a long acting insulin called Lantus, and it works well.

Usually my levels are low in the morning, real low actually, usually ranging from 60-75.

My family seems to think this is dangerous and I should have the dose lowered, but this has me wondering…

What if I overdose on my insulin, and then go to bed at night and die in my sleep? That way, they would think my death was an accident from being placed on too high a dose. It sounds perfect.

Now here's my problem - I have no idea how long it will take for the Lantus to kill me.

Any assistance?

Hunting Rifles?

It's just about hunting season here, which seems like a perfect time and excuse to finally blow my brains out once and for all. Getting a hunting rifle is gravy. There's no waiting period in my state and the purchase won't look suspicious.

What I want to know is a hunting rifle as effective as, say, a shot gun? I've never been hunting, and my knowledge of firearms is mostly restricted to video games. I know any gun can kill you with relative ease, but with my luck I'd be the 1% to potato myself trying. I want to minimize the chance of walking it off by destroying as much of my skull in the process as possible.

So, good idea? Bad idea? What kind should I get? Money's not too big of a deal. I've got a decent line of credit, and I don't need it where I'm going.

i had idea to over dose on seizure medication i got prescribed lamotrigine

so i was wondering what your guys thoughts on it was

Assisted suicide

I attempted suicide last week, but for whatever reason (not ready, I guess?) I stopped partway through. That, combined with my interest in attempting to become a hitman (hasn't worked so far, go figure) made me think about assisted suicide. It's really a win-win if both people are serious, right? There is no risk of failure, or brain damage or anything like that, because the person doing the work is going to make sure… unless they pussy out, I guess, but you're no worse off than you were in that case.

I thought about this quite a bit, and it would be excellent for both people - think about it: You gather all your identification, drive to a secluded spot, pre-dig a grave, do the work, hude the body, sell the completely valid identification. The person doing the work gets paid even if the person dying has no money, and the person dying can't chicken out, and has no risk of accidental retardation.

Crossbow

I've tried hanging/asphyxia but it either wouldn't work or I'd pussy out. I don't have access to firearms because I'm 20 and only people aged 25 and over can legally acquire one in Brazil. I only know one person who has a gun, but I don't think he'd ever let me shoot it.

Still, today I entered a gun, sports etc shop and bought a crossbow, cheaper than the prices online. It's a 50 lbs one (pic related) which came with 5 metallic tip darts (I also bought some replacement ones though). I shot my bed once and the dart perfurated the 3cm of wood (almost passing through the wood), so it looks pretty lethal.

Man commits suicide by shooting himself in the head with crossbow: http://www.mirror.co.uk/news/uk-news/andrew-budd-man-commits-suicide-5595825

Maybe I will shoot myself tomorrow, any tips? Should I buy a more powerful crossbow? Where should I shoot myself?

Getting in the Mood

I can't motivate myself to do anything including suicide. Half of that is mental illness but there's also the normal stuff. Every little pleasant thing like the bed you retreat to, the foods you like, the people you feel obligated to keep happy, little sensations that appreciate because you're alive- All of it makes you think "No no, I can't give that up." even if it isn't logical when you're trying to die. When I'm finally able to reach a point of despair when I tell myself it's gotta happen now I want to know how I keep that conviction and not second-guess myself and trap myself all over again. So my question is how do you forget everything that holds you back? It's a bit silly to ask this of the living I know but someone who failed in their execution of the act might have some insight to the emotions involved.

Depression turned Rage?

Has anyone else experienced this? Recently, my depression has begun to turn into a violent swirl of rage on the inside.

I have told my family over and over again how bad I feel but they ignore it and don't take it seriously. I was sad about that and upset, but that quickly turned to anger. What the fuck is this? Why the fuck don't my fucking parents give a shit how the fuck I feel? That's bullshit.

Been writing a fucking journal kept on a private pastebin with privated pastes that I'll write the login details into a note when I kill myself, so whoever finds it can log in and see the shit I've fucking left there.

I usually write to dump my negative feelings in, and so far I have about 11 entries, and the account was started on the 10th.

It's not full of depressing bullshit, it's full of a little of that, but it's also full of the raw hatred and rage that I feel boiling underneath my fucking skin. I can't wait for them to read and it and see what the fuck they did to me.

I'm thinking of picking the most violent and gruesome method that I can think of, probably something involving a sharp knife. Yeah, a knife… I'll take that fucking knife, a machete or a kitchen knife, doesn't matter, anything sharp, and I'll slash that shit across my throat, cutting DEEP every fucking time, letting the warm blood squirt all over the fucking bathroom, CUT CUT CUT, over and over again until I fucking gargle on my own blood and drown in it and fucking die.

You know those horrible awful sick assholes who go on rampages and kill people? I think this is what they feel like, only I'm not going to kill anyone but myself. I swear on that.

No - killing other people is a terrible terrible atrocity. I'd rather inflict pain THIS way, by brutally slaying myself in the most horrible way I can think of, and leaving a journal containing the horrible thoughts of my sick mind.

I'm not just angry at others though, I'm angry at MYSELF for feeling like this. I'm being eaten on the inside by this horrible shit, and this is the only way I can stop it, by slaying myself. Not killing, but slaying.

Myths

How many of these are just myths?

1 - Helium canisters have oxygen in them so you can't kill yourself with them anymore, you'll just wake up with brain damage.

2 - If you shoot up and through your jaw, you'll just shoot your jaw off instead of killing yourself.

3 - If you try to shoot into your mouth and back, you're likely to miss the brainstem and somehow survive.

4 - Shooting across the temples is less preferable to shooting in the mouth pointing "up."

5 - If you try to suicide off of a bridge or building, you're very likely to get caught and 401'd.

6 - Ligature suicide is a myth, you'll just end up really sore.

7 - If you don't secure the exit bag very well/use a CPAP you'll end up undoing it in your unconscious writhing and end up with brain damage.

8 - Cutting methods are very very slow and likely to end up with someone trying to "save" you after you've essentially handicapped yourself.

9 - Suicide by pill X (where X is aspirin/methadone/whichever) won't kill you and just leave you with severe stomach pains/a fucked up liver.

10 - Suicide by a drop hang has to be X feet high (where X is twice your height or whichever folklore you've happened to hear), otherwise you'll slowly suffocate for the better part of Y hours.

11 - That suicide by hanging takes ridiculously long.

12 - Drowning/Freezing to death is excruciatingly painful.

13 - Death by illegal drugs/firearms is impossible to obtain, let alone do.

That's all I can think of off of the top of my head, but these things usually come up quite a bit.

Willing to sacrafice

Stumbled upon this thread and was wondering. Is anyone here willing to let another person kill them? If so, how much fun would you let the killer have? Sex? How long/fast do you want it to take?

DO NOT REPLY UNLESS YOU'D SERIOUSLY BE WILLING TO OFFER YOUR LIFE TO ANOTHER.

How the fuck do you overcome this? Just when you are ready to check out and you got the method prepped, ambivalence takes its hold and you end up paralyzed in fear. How does one overcome the instinctual desire to survive?

Is anyone else completely over the edge, but the timing would be terrible for the people close to you?

I'm absolutely ready to go.

But a sibling is coming home soon after years abroad, haven't seen them in forever. So I can't ruin that. And I have to wait until well after a relative's wedding in a few weeks. Realistically I'm looking at early November.

I went and looked at shotguns today. A twelve gauge is under $200. God bless Walmart.

I also think I might be bipolar. This is going to be a long couple months.

What should I expect from a hydrocodone overdose? Will it be painless? How much do I need?

My friend is selling it to me

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Do you plan to erase or encrypt all the data on your computer before you die, or will you just leave it for whomever to find?

idk

this is how I want to die I mite change my mind but for now i must strive to reach my goal

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w-jcE8kqK9k

What music do you listen to

HI \suicide\. Do you listen to any depresive or dark themed music? If so can you give me some song or bands?

I want to make a playlist to listen to when I'm in my heavy mood.

Dunno what more to say to fill up to 200 cha

So, /suicide/, what do you think happens after you die? I mean, will we be happier after we die or are we just jumping ship to unburden the people around us? Are we headed to some kind of afterlife or are we just fucked into reincarnating here or something?

How to with a gun for retards

How to with a gun for retards

featuring stupid questions that might be googleable but don't seem to be:

1) do i need to practice at a firing range first?

2) how do i not trigger suspicion if my first purchase is a shotgun? or is it just super easy in america?

and the MOST IMPORTANT question of the day:

3) what gun would be easiest to use and 100% successful, as I don't want to blow my face off and live to tell the tale.

i know a shotgun, blah blah blah, but specifically, is there a gun nut here who can give me 100% confidence in success if i buy xyz gun.

lastly:

4) where do i am said gun that should produce 100% success?

thank you for your cooperation in ridding the world of one less retard.

Thinking of going out by automobile crash. I have found a great spot with minimal risk to other motorists. I can accelerate at least 120km/h and hit a brick flat wall head on off the highway. Car doesn't have air bags and is quite old.

Any thoughts? I'm in AU so guns are out of the question unless someone knows where to get one in Sydney illegally.

Yes, I'm obviously fucking insane

Could we get a pills thread here? I've read so much bullshit here in the past. Starvation, hanging, fuck that I don't want that sensation. My girlfriend went the pills and booze route and she fucking succeeded. I was the rebound guy, she was married, blame the husband. I do. I've been trying to drive around and find a secluded spot, fuck this city. Damn buildings and "this is my land" bullshit all over the place. Fuck me. I just want the fuck out of this forsaken piece of shit life. I have tried the easiest damn way you're supposed to go out, charcoal suicide. I tried it a few times, and every fucking time this faggot survival instinct kicks in when I'm half retarded and out of it, then I claw my way out. Maybe my brain's either more intelligent (doubtful) or just more psychotic and superior to those asian bastards that actually do themselves in with the great CO poisoning fun I never get to leave with.

CHARCOAL BURNING, SURPRISE, FUCKING BURNS. YOUR EYES, YOUR THROAT. YOU KNOW HOW LONG I'VE BEEN SMOKING? I CAN TOLERATE IT FOR HOURS ON END, BUT JUST WON'T DIE.

Now there's pills and booze. She succeeded where I failed. That's a sure fire method, because of the obvious success. I went to the fucking funeral, that was the EVIDENCE. It's been months, fucking MONTHS. I have tried dumbass painless ways out. Pills and booze will hurt like a motherfucker but I've got no choices left. I'll leave you with some quotes from Marv, Sin City. Give me the best pills method while you're at it.

"These are the old days man, the bad days, the all-or-nothing days. They're back! There's no choices left."

"Hell's waking up every goddamn day and not even knowing why you're here. But I'm out now. It took someone who was kind to me getting killed to do it. But I'm out. And I know exactly what I'm gonna do. "

571

It's never enough. And everything I want, moments like this make you almost glad to be alone. 571 coming.

see you later

-rdh

What's the best opiate for suicide? obviously there is the risk of throwing up but it's reduced with the aid of anti-emetics and sleeping pills. What sleeping pill would kick in faster than the opiate you recommend to minimise the risk of throwing up etc etc

http://hollywoodlife.com/2015/10/04/cathriona-white-took-jim-carrey-pills-girlfriend-suicide-overdose/

"she had three prescription bottles next to her, all prescribed by the same doctor: Ambien (sleep aid), Percocet (a strong painkiller) and Propranolol (blood pressure/heart medication)."

I also read somewhere that a Zofran (anti-emetic) bottle was found next to her.

better suicide cocktails exist but props to her, she attempted in 2012 and failed. Her toxicology report hasn't yet been released though.

"Since Propranolol isn't a controlled substance (neither are

Chloroquine Phosphate and antiemetic tablets) you can legally

purchase them from online sources without a prescription if you reside

in the U.S."

Personally, I don't think ordering these drugs elsewhere would be an issue, other than packages possibly being seized by customs… 10grams+ of Propranolol would be lethal but I wouldn't trust it on it's own without a large amount of sleeping pills (500 mg valium) and a good anti emetic taken two days beforehand and before the ingestion of pills, maybe add in some alcohol for good measure. Oh and you'd want to crush the capsules up and put the powder in gelatin capsules, they taste like shit dissolved in water, apparently and I'm guessing they're slow release if not crushed.

Anyway, there are some threads about propranolol on narkive, the easiest way to find them is google 'propranolol narkive', searching for buzzwords on the website itself is annoying.

http://www.alldaychemist.com/ you can find anti-emetics, propranolol, some other blood pressure meds etc here. It's a legit website but don't rely on just blood pressure meds.

The Tale of Carpraux

Share stories of suicide done right.

Jean-Francois C had recently received his doctorate, and thereafter was not able to publish anything. He couldn't get any teaching or postdoctorate position. So, figuring that he wasn't going to make any difference in the world anymore at best, and likely to strain his relations with his family and his friends at worst, he jumped off of a bridge and killed himself.

What happened afterwards?

Other mathematicians published up his work. His family and friends remember him longingly. He did not overstay anyone's welcome.

It just feels like he did suicide right.

Golden Gate Bridge Suicide

Seems jumping off it is pretty effective, as long as you don't mind coast guards and coroners handling your wrecked body.

http://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2003/10/13/jumpers

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ryV4rhYdc9I

good results?

I performed the MPT and the ACT test on my sample. Results are as follows.

MPT:

129 C - The ppt starts to melt

130 C - The ppt is completely melted

ACT:

60 to 75 %

BAR test is positive but I didn't bother with the rest of the dilution test.

So are these results okay or not?

Best methods

My voices tell me to kill myself and last time I was on here I tried the tourniquet method (obviously It didn't work), I ended up in the hospital then the asylum. What is the ABSOLUTE BEST way to kill yourself?

Looking for suicide pact buddy (UKFAG)

[UK - LONDON]

First time poster. Wanting to commit suicide with either huffing gas or hard drug/opiate OD.

Looking for a likeminded individual that can help get items or let me crash with them for a day or two until we seppuku pact. I won't consider it until I've talked to you both online and offline at least once.

I literally can't really give you anything and don't have anything to offer apart from having someone be there with you when you die and the mutual respect there.

It's fucking hopeful and idiotic but it's my second to last chance and this is the only one I see happening.

Will give info if need be in later comments.

This is why otherwise healthy people get suicidal in modern society.

I have type 2 diabetes(hyperglycema) and I have no access to insulin.

Can I kill myself by drinking a sugary solution and inducing a diabetic coma, or is that too easy?

(For some reason I need 200 characters in the op to post a fucking simple thread so here you go aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa)

Starvation is Not Painful, Experts Say

After suffering through cancer, the middle-age woman decided her illness was too much to bear. Everything she ate, she painfully vomited back up. The prospect of surgery and a colostomy bag held no appeal.

And so, against the advice of her doctors, the patient decided to stop eating and drinking.

Over the next 40 days in 1993, Dr. Robert Sullivan of Duke University Medical Center observed her gradual decline, providing one of the most detailed clinical accounts of starvation and dehydration.

Instead of feeling pain, the patient experienced the characteristic sense of euphoria that accompanies a complete lack of food and water. She was cogent for weeks, chatting with her caregivers in the nursing home and writing letters to family and friends. As her organs finally failed, she slipped painlessly into a coma and died.

In the evolving saga of Terri Schiavo, the prospect of the 41- year-old Florida woman suffering a slow and painful death from starvation has been a galvanizing force.

But medical experts say going without food and water in the last days and weeks of life is as natural as death itself. The body is equipped with its own resources to adjust to death, they say.

http://www.redorbit.com/news/health/138158/starvation_is_not_painful_experts_say/

i have a problem in my body i was born into a semi potato state , only my left hand is working not strong enough to do shit , all i have to commit suicide is a PC and a bottle of water , i tried throwing water on it but the fuck it didn't electrocute me

any ways to commit suicide with a bottle of water and pc , i can't reach the knife and my shitty ass of a father that lets me live cause of the government support money which i don't get shit of , i don't have pills near me , i'm penniless , all windows are sealed off with iron bars , my dad banned all my relatives from visiting especially little kids

Why do you want to commit suicide?

What are your thought?

kill yourself

charcoal grill suicide (CO poisoning)

Don't have a car, my room is about 8x9x12' (guessing). Quantity of charcoal required to fill the room w/ lethal CO? How not to burn down the house? Pic unrelated

http://www.liveleak.com/view?f=a35b519150de

Prisoner uses ligature suicide method after a year in solitary confinement, and 5 years total in prison. Its inspiring how quick it is, she doesnt seem to move around at all, change positions.

Charcoal suicide

hypothetically

>You are about to off yourself

Where do you wanna wake up in the afterlife?

>inb4 hell

just watch the news for an hour IF you wanna see that.

Greetings /suicide/, it's your friends >>>/grim/ here.

I wanted to extend an invitation to you to the first annual /grim/ Halloween horror movie marathon - a month-long bi-weekly triple feature streaming event in celebration of the most magical and spooky time of the year. I'm going to be streaming a total of 24 fucking movies this year, many of which I can confirm as being great because I've seen them myself, some that I am seeing for the first time.

This week we're starting off in the beginnings of horror, with the German Expressionist film movement and the classic Universal Studios films inspired by them:

German Expressionism: 10/9/15

The Cabinet of Dr. Caligari - 20:00 PST (UTC - 7:00)

15 min break

Nosferatu - 21:30 PST (UTC - 7:00)

15 min break

Vampyr - 23:20 PST (UTC - 7:00)

Classic Universal Horror: 10/10/15

Dracula - 20:00 PST (UTC - 7:00)

15 min break

Frankenstein - 21:40 PST (UTC - 7:00)

15 min break

The Black Cat - 22:05 PST (UTC - 7:00)

Check out this thread for the full schedule, and feel free to post suggestions for movies for the weeks following the next one (I still haven't decided entirely yet on what to stream for the 30th and 31st):

http://8ch.net/mod.php?/grim/res/320.html#320

Streams at: connectcast.tv/n1x_

Hope to see you there. Sorry for the short notice or if I fucked up the UTC times.

Gun-owners in Melbourne?

Are there any anons out there who live in Melbourne and have a gun (preferably a shotgun), or access to one? Thanks to the gun laws in Australia, it'll take several months for me to be able to get one of my own, and I'd really rather go out this week if possible. There's only so long I can keep up the facade of my daily life, and it's already crumbling out of control.

I want to quit this world with a stylish bloody death but too pussy to go through all the agony of taking down my intestines, any medicine that could help me realize my personal quitting way? How about stabbing my heart that's quite bloody too but is it safe to pull out or can I end a vegetal?

http://www.scientificamerican.com/article/the-origins-of-suicidal-brains/

https://www.newscientist.com/article/dn23566-suicidal-behaviour-is-a-disease-psychiatrists-argue/

http://bjp.rcpsych.org/content/183/4/282

Welp. This is certainly something.

Some of us might want to but be unable, some of us might be compelled to beyond reason but not want to.

Is there a lethal drug combination that isn't impossible to find/ expensive as hell? I'm only able to find Midazolam from one site and it's nowhere near enough, and costs the earth.

I was sure I would have the courage to kill myself in this way, but now I'm struggling to even figure out how to get the materials in the first place.

Kid killed himself at my highschool school last year, pretty sad but no one really talks about it. After you kill yourself people don't care after a month unless you had caring parents, siblings, gf/bf, etc. I would personally like to go out at school in front of everyone but I can't get a gun and the easiest option is the GG bridge. I might set a date since I've been depressed for 3 years and my mental state is getting worse in that I most likely am schizophrenic. I fear I may hurt others ie. A school shooting but I'll off myself before that. Do you think that at school or bridge is better? If not I always can do pills like the kid at my school did.

Trapped

Does anyone feel like they cant change their life for the better. I'm in thousands of $ worth of debt from school and I'm not interested in my major anymore. If I decide to get a different job, I'll be in extreme debt for the rest of my life…feels bad man

Methodology

Hey all. I just bought a lethal dose of caffeine pills, ready to go. From what I've read, its a rather unpleasant way to go, but has a pretty high success rate (also it's super cheap). I tried ligature, but I couldn't get it to keep tension. Helium can't be trusted due to shitty tank control. Anyone know anything a little less uncomfortable yet easily executed?

Let's make a motorcycle gang!

Hey guys, I got an idea.

So motorcycles are dangerous. Really dangerous. Anyone who rides regularly is pretty much guaranteed to get in an accident at least once. And if you don't wear a helmet, it's really likely that you'll die. Let's all get one and ride around!

Motorcyclists that die in accidents are prime candidates for organ donation (since they're usually healthy besides what killed them, obviously), so your body can be useful for something even if you're not! Just make sure you mark that organ donor checkbox on your license first.

Another bonus is that since your death will be an accident as far as they know, you also have the added benefit of whatever insurance policy you have being able to take care of postmortem costs (many companies don't insure for suicide unless you're, like, in Japan or something). No one's gotta pay anything to get rid of YOUR dead body.

Plus it's really fun. And we could totally get matching jackets.

>prohibition on suicide by society on the mentally ill because "they can't think clearly/logically/rationally"

How do you overcome said prohibition on suicide? Just YOLO it? Secure your right to death by force against the will of society?

Just want to say respect to all of you and those who once browsed this board who have fallen. You are all really great people and I will respect you all till my final day. Sorta sappy shitpost but fuck it you're all good people and I wish you painless and fast deaths. Unless ofcourse you want a slow painful one then good luck to you whatever gives you satisfactions.

(Pic mostly irrelevant)

Heroin overdose

I plan to get some heroin off the a TOR based market and OD with it, but this site says it's almost impossible to do:

http://www.peele.net/lib/heroinoverdose.html

Should I buy fenatyl instead or use a cocktail of drugs?

Ever since hearing that story about the guy who fucked up shooting himself and ended up slowly dying in agony over 5 minutes while half his head was off, or that fucking suicide statistics chart (pic related) seeing that somehow one out of a hundred manage to fuck up suicide with a shotgun, I have been somewhat irrationally afraid that I will be like Stalin's son and fuck up my suicide. I mean, all it takes is to slip a little while pulling the trigger and blowing off your cheek instead of your head. Knowing my luck, I'd do something asinine like that.

So, this thread is about improving it. Making it fucking foolproof. I came across this:

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tannerite

So, what if you do this: take a tannerite charge and put it at the end of the muzzle of the shotgun before blasting it in your head. Surely, the high explosive would fucking vaporize your head, right? And if it didn't the actual shotgun blast would likely do the rest.

So i need some ideas here. Without getting into some shitty blog post, I'm currently severely restricted by:

>Near constant supervision, only real alone time i get is when i go to take a shit

>Agoraphobic, can't leave the house, doing so would also just raise suspicion

>no guns, Im in the UK

What i have access to:

>Alcohol, about 36 beers

>Sertraline. Shit loads of it, im on 200mg a day

>Belt

>Shoelaces

>lighter

>Knife (Not cutting though, im desperate but not stupid)

>Possibly getting prescribed lunesta soon, unsure how many i will be getting though

Given this, whats the best way i can go out? It needs to be relatively fast, and require little prep as to not arrouse suspision

Why are drugs such a pain to procure? I've spent hours upon hours researching this stuff, and now I'm getting stuck at the Bitcoin stage. You have to set up an account, find a seller, send them a photo of yourself with ID and bank card, then somehow you get the bitcoins. Then you have to send those to another Bitcoin wallet, then tumble the bitcoins and have them sent to another wallet, and then you've got to figure out how to send them as part of the purchase of the drugs. It's a nightmare and is seriously inhibiting my plans.

I can't find a location to do the hanging. It's like outside there is not enough seclusion and i greatly risk being found before i successfully ctb. Even when I consider home, there is no place i can see where i can perform the hanging. Are there any sources you guys can recommend to help point me in the right direction?

I am in physical pain 24/7 and everyday is torturous, so i need to go this route. Thanks.

Overdose

How do I score heroin? Are there any deepweb sites that are guaranteed to deliver? I figured overdose would be a good method to go out high as a kite. I've never even been drunk so I might as well go straight to the hardcore drugs.

I see the only source of reliable places to order suicide drugs online is the Peaceful Pill Handbook, but the thing costs $85. There must be another place. This seems like the kind of information that is shared around a community.

hanging

How the fuck do you hang yourself successfully? I just tried a test run and I couldn't last more than a couple of a seconds because the constricting feeling was absolutely unbearable.

What's the trick to hanging yourself successfully?

Post-suicidal Depression

I have a question for you anons that I hope won't be too off-topic for this board, since I realize you are primarily focused on solutions and not BAWWing blogpost bullshit. But this is the only place that I feel I could ask about this kind of thing and get any useful responses: Is it possible to be so depressed that you don't even care to commit suicide anymore?

I feel broken. About a year ago, I went through a very deep yearlong bout of depression that probably could have gotten to the point where I would have tried to kill myself, but I never ended up doing it. Superficially, one could say I recovered from it, but I think something far worse happened. I think that I missed my chance and died on the inside instead.

Granted, I've not bothered to get diagnosed, so take this with a grain of salt, but I don't feel as though I'm not depressed. I still have the classic symptoms, but instead of a tragic and dramatic feeling of wanting to die, I just feel completely empty and apathetic. I can scarcely get myself to give a shit about anything, and I don't enjoy anything. I spend all my time on 8chan just because it passes the time. But I don't care anymore to even try to kill myself. It seems like a waste of effort to even go through the trouble - it's like I'd be implicitly valuing my life by choosing to end it.

Am I full of shit here or does anyone else know what I'm talking about?

pacts

365

Giving myself 365 days to kill myself. If I haven't died by then, I'm slitting my wrists in the bath.

Any self-harmers?

Who here lives in Brisbane, Australia?

Fuck it guys, I don't want to go on, please tell me the easiest way to get morphine, its the only comfy sounding suicide to me.

Im not joking around, please help me out.

My girlfriend killed herself on July 2, 2015. We have both been struggling with mental illness for all of our lives. She was the light of my life and when I found her in that room I saw my whole world go dark.

I'm going to kill myself. I've had enough and I can't do it without her. I don't want to live by coping, I'm done with hoping.

My plan is to buy 100 pellets of Etizolam, wash them down with 1/5 of vodka, and then hang myself. I just want to make sure I do it right.

I'm going to use a slipknot for the noose and place the knot high on my neck and slightly to the left. Hopefully this cuts of the circulation in my carotid artery causing a less painful and quick death. It should also prevent the physical distortion caused by closing off the jugular artery.

Anything I missed?

done with life; fentanyl or H

Don't pussyfoot around with me /suicide/

I'm done with life.

How much fentanyl or heroin would I need to overdose? (for each?) (I'd rather order more and be guaranteed death than get some stupid 'here-nor-there figure) I'm an idiot when it comes to IV administration so a guide to using a needle would be great.

Also people harp on about barbiturates but I haven't been able to find a supplier; where is this magical place? Please keep all bullshit methods (ibuprofen pills, small cuts on the arm, holding your breath) the fuck out of here.

My plan is to use the forest method someone posted around here (IE dump car, come back in taxi few days later, walk in until I feel like I'm away from roads and shit, do the deed, done)

Gonna clean out all my crap, anything to make it easier on my family logistics wise?

>Uncle killed himself today

>Now I can't suicide because everyone would think I'm following his example

>I don't wanna upset my parents with another death so soon, especially since grandma has cancer and can't make it into next year

Is a 9mm handgun big enough to ensure instant death? And is it better to aim through the mouth or to the temple? I have heard both answers on various websites and want to be sure

I have a gun but I don't want to shoot myself, I live close to a tall bridge that spans a river and I think that's how I want to do it. The sheer serenity of falling, even for 2 or 3 seconds knowing this is it, seems amazing to me. The wind running through my hair and I'm relaxed falling like a rag doll, eyes closed earphones in blasting some music.

A gun is too instant, it is a good back up, but it is too instant, I want to enjoy my death, I want to know it is happening.

I was just wondering how many people on here were self harmers? Im not just talking about emo cutters i mean self harm in general.

i figured self harm and suicide go hand in hand more or less and i am curious how many of you have ever tried it.

How badly do you want to kill yourself?

I hang myself today, every time i try it puts pressure on my throat and i need to throw up.

So i just put my head in the sling tonight and drink wodka until i pass out.

Sounds like a great plan to me.

Flowers

When?

When are you going to do it /suicide/? When are you going to off yourself? What is going to be the straw that breaks the camel's back?

Me, I know I'm going to face some serious health issues, so I want to do it just before they get so severe that I no longer have this option.

suicide methods

Search up darvon cocktail recipe and the drug fentanyl. Learn how to use the deep web (google how to use it, I haven't but my friend does and she gets drugs off there). Apparently it's reliable and bc anonymous the most that can happen is your parcel gets intercepted at customs and you don't get it and you mostly are refunded half of what you paid. Use a proxy, buy off respected seller and try buy nationally so you have a better chance of receiving the drugs. Nembutal and seconal aren't available on there but the drugs in the darvon cocktail will kill you and it's supposed to be painless, fentanyl is one - or the most powerful opiate around. Methadone, morphine, heroin etc lethal dose should do it too. If you're too scared to get drugs then search up how to hang yourself and restrict the carotid artery with enough pressure applied. You lose consciousness in 15 seconds max so when you do it take a breath before and you will barely suffer, also take meds to lower blood pressure before if you do, I hear it helps? I was reading a thread on reddit about attempted hangings and how the person went out quick and wasn't in pain - make sure it's a suspended hanging. alt.suicide methods is good for info. Research pls.

Not a joke, just broke, give me ways to die painlessly.

I have thought of shotgun suicide but I have little money and I doubt I would pass the background check (Told psychiatrist I was suicidal and depressed. I don't know if thats permanent, but it won't matter.) so I am looking for other, painless, AVAILABLE methods.

I live in the US, if that helps.

I was thinking about the "exit bag" method but apparently they put oxygen into the helium tanks that an average person could get to prevent suicide. That sucks. If you have a step-by-step guide thats retard proof then please post it for me. And if you know where I could get pure helium to do this with, that would be super too.

But I have a feeling I won't be able to do either. So please, share some other painless methods of suicide to help me out (and whoever else is reading).

Plainville teenager charged with manslaughter in former boyfriend's suicide

I know how everyone here always talks about going out painlessly, instantly, or in such a state that you don't even realize that you're dying.

I don't want that.

I want to feel death come.

I want to feel the pain, I want to feel the coldness and calmness overtake me as my body and mind decide "this is it, it's over."

I want to feel the sensation that people who've had NDE's describe. That feeling of overwhelming peace and acceptance, right before they lose consciousness.

I don't claim to know about what lies after death, but assuming it's anything other than something on a spiritual level, then taking the instant way out like decapitation or something like that is robbing yourself of that last few moments of peace you will ever have. Even if it's only for a moment, you'll feel at peace. Comforted. Like it's okay, and there's nothing to be afraid of. Acceptance. That's what people with NDE's describe, and I want to slowly drift into that peaceful feeling, even if it only lasts a second.

I want to, for even one moment in my life, feel peace.

My question to you all is this: What is the best way to achieve this? Any death that isn't instant is going to be painful, so I have come to accept that I will feel pain, but I'd like to feel as little pain as possible. How can I achieve that feeling of my life slipping away, without being in sheer agony?

Special Snowflake's way out

Is it possible to commit suicide by dehydration while still eating food?

Jumping in front of a train

Are there any tips on doing this method? I heard it's best to lay your head on the track so decapitation can occur. But I feel like it doesn't matter if you just stand there or lay down. I'm sure both ways will instantly kill you. But I still want to hear more insight on this. (I prefer to just stand there though instead of laying down)

Also is there a minimum speed on how fast the train should be going?

Is a .22LR enough?

How to make your death look like an accident?

Aging/Getting Old

How do you guys deal with the idea of becoming old and withered?

Does it spur you on to try to go through with your desired method of suicide? Does it scare you that with all your procrastination and fear that you may in fact be old and alone still telling yourself you're going to kill yourself?

I turn 24 this year and although it may not be considerably old, I've lost the last 7 years of my life to near daily harassment and abuse and have made the realization that things will never get any better. I'll only get older now, my hair will thin and my bones will ache while my skins sags over my mouth and cheeks.

It really scares me, and while I keep telling myself I'll do it, the fact that I haven't had the nerve or the real means to go through with it in the 23 years I've had to struggle makes me afraid that I'll be making a thread like this 10 years from now.

And the award for most beautiful person to kill themselves goes to...

Who is the hottest person to commit suicide?

Male or female.

Post pics.

Here are some nominees:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Brian_Bianchini

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lucy_Gordon_(actress)

I think tonight is the night

Waiting till my family goes to sleep, getting the grabbing my shotgun going for a drive and ending it in a parking lot.

I'm leaving a note for the police to give to the gun seller who sold me the gun cause the police might go question him, its gonna read "Don't blame yourself, you wouldn't have known, no one knew. I might be gone, you may have sold that gun to me but don't stop what you do. You save lifes, you give an abused mother protection for her children, you stop women from getting raped, you stop people from losing their families. You provide protection, you've saved lifes and will continue to save lives. Don't be discouraged. God Bless."

But all this thinking about death has me thinking of the afterlife. I don't believe in hell, not so sure about heaven. But if I had a choice, I wouldn't want to go to heaven yet, I would wanna go back a few years ago, summer of 2013, I was the happiest I've ever been in my life, it spiraled from then on out. What happens when you die? I hope I just go back to the happiest time of my life and get to relive it over and over and over again, that would be amazing, that would be my heaven, not angels and halos. Just a time when I loved the world, I loved life, I loved everything and everyone.

till we meet again.

Pic not related, just was lazy.

Is death by falling painful?

If I fall from 400-500ft onto rocks or concrete, will it be painful and for how long? Do I need to worry about vegetable/paralysis (really really don't want that)? What are the odds in each case?

I did a bit of research but no definitive answers yet.

I really want to kill myself but I'm scared I will be reborn even uglier and poorer what the fuck do I do?

I'm gonna die anyway someday right so why the fuck am I so scared of that? I'm not scared of actually dying and never living again, I'd love that. I'm scared of dying and being reborn. Most people already live shit lives as it is and never get to even experience a fraction of the things that make life worth living and someone with good genetics and money would experience.

What the fuck do I do? Every sober moment of my life is just pain, extreme displeasure. I've felt extreme amounts of physical pain and let me tell you it's nothing to this.

Sometimes I just bang my head really hard and punch myself until it hurts like fucking shit just so I can focus on that instead of my extreme depersionalization.

Can't really afford much drugs. Fuck

Can anyone actually tell me what would happen after I die? I'm scared as fuck imagining being born as an indian, I'm not a racist but lets not joke ourselves outer appearance is EVERYTHING and indians are repulsive and will live shit lives.

Goodbye

Too pussy to kill self crew? Who else?

Literally every single day is pain and suffering for me, usually mental but sometimes it goes physical as strong pain in lobes and killer headaches, chest pain and various other upper body pains because my thoughts are constantly bringing me emotional pain.

But I am too pussy to kill myself and I got a family that I really don't want to hurt, they almost had a heart attack when I told them I'll get a vasectomy and never gonna have kids (even though my brother and sister have their own families and gave them grandchildren).

I am hoping everyday I get hit by a car, I always cross the street on red light and don't look hoping a bus runs me over.

I'm not afraid of the pain or whatever, once it gets started I'll take it till I bleed out or whatever and die, I just am too pussy to jump or cut my throat. If I had a gun I'd do it but I can't get one.

Who else feels like this? Want to talk about it here? Nothing wrong with venting and talking about something we don't have anyone to talk about to wtih.

dying a virgin

A year and a half ago I told myself that I couldn't kill myself if that meant dying a virgin…. I'm about ready to give up hope on that….

all I ever really wanted was someone that loved me, someone who wanted to be with me… guess that was a stupid idea.

any of you also going to die without having sex?

Is there a way to induce terminal cancer?

Advice on wrist-slitting

I'm planning to go the pussy's way. I know that the correct way to do it is down the street, not across the road and better in the shower to avoid cicatrization. But I'm aware of the risks of not getting it right. So I want to know any tips to maximize efficiency.

e.g: Should I drink shittons of water for x amount of time and not eat, or something? Should I lay under the shower with my legs up to increase the blood flow towards the upper half of the body? Is it couterproducing if I drink a lot of vodka while bleeding?

Also, I'll take any other tips.

Yes, I've read the useful links, and that's one of the reasons I'm here.

Also I can consider slitting other vessels, but since I'm scared shittless of pain and shit, I'd prefer not to have to drive a knive through 1Km of muscle and serves to get to, say, the carotid. But if there is any artery or major vein that I can easily access, please tell. Also, any pics and links will be appreciated.

>And no, I don't want to tell my story.

What would make you happy?

Slitting your wrists? Think again

Now, I'm not telling you not to kill yourself. By all means, this life is fucking miserable. But I've seen a few edgy kids here and heard them in real life, talking about slitting their wrists. Sure, it's briefly and sharply painful but your pain will end when you bleed out. However, think about what happens if you survive and someone saves you. I just split my fucking finger open, nearly cut it off in a machine today. I only had some stitches put into my finger, and it was an unholy hell of pain the likes of which you never want to experience. It didn't matter how much the doc stuck me with (Lidocaine, I think). The pain didn't numb. Shoving that needle through the meat of my finger was insufferable. Now imagine them shoving a sharp needle through the meat of your wrists numerous times.

Choose gas if life's an ass.

Choose a gun if you're done.

Just don't slit and get knit.

Hell

This may seem ridiculous to some of you; but being raised in a very Christian family my whole life, I have always been warned about Hell. A part of me fears Hell, no matter how much euphoric shit I read. I never really gave-up my Christian faith, I'm just losing the will to live because my condition is physical and may be permanent.

The story goes that people who commit suicide are sent to Hell, no matter what they've done in their life. If a person is a born-again Christian, then apparently they didn't have enough faith to stay alive. This seems like a shit deal to me, because some people have miserable lives and physical conditions, that are far below "standard" human health, and some can never live normally no matter how much they tried. For instance, if a Christian was paralyzed from the neck down and blind, would God demand that man to live for 80 years as a vegetable unable to experience the world or do anything meaningful? Meanwhile, there are militant atheists who are filthy rich and will live like kings, fucking a new bitch every night and going all around the world having parties, while they do their best to detract from Christianity.

TL:DR Why would God condemn a person to Hell for committing suicide, when their own life on Earth is devoid of joy and full of pain? I've also heard that the line about the "unforgivable sin" is misinterpreted. Does anybody have info on that?

who else has not been enjoying living since a little kid?

even in my earliest memories as a small kid I can remember just how unhappy I was but I had not idea why I was feeling like that, I thought I was normal and life would get better…

but its been getting worse since then and now its almost unbearable today I took a walk alone and since its spring the weather was perfect the trees and flowers were blooming or whatever in short everything around me was absolutely beautiful but I felt worse than I've felt in my entire life, worse than the highest physical pain I've experienced it was full of extremely hot jailbaits everywhere (eastern europe) and that made me feel 100x worse

I just feel bad all the time even if I take drugs I still feel horrible but a little good too

Am I just meant not to live at all? Was I born to kill myself?

WHAT IS THIS CRUEL JOKE GOD DAMN IT FUCK??

Why the fuck was I cursed with this shit why??

I want to die but I'm too pussy to do it I hope I get cancer or some terminal illness I don't believe in god but every day I pray I am one of those people that just die due to an unfortunate situation like a bus hits them or something why do I feel like this why?

When the weather is bad I feel 1000x worse I can't keep going on like this my future is not bright at all I don't want to work I don't like how the future looks, the past was pure shit and right now its bad i dont even got anyone to talk to just this forum

Why was I cursed like this GOD FUCKING DAMN IT WHYYYY AM I FORCED TO LIVE LIKE THIS FUCK I JUST WANNA DIE