/suicide/ - Suicide Tips & Tricks

>>3940

Cuz . i live in Egypt .. Between Fucking Muslims where sex, food and water from dawn to sunset , music , science .. are forbidden >> cuz some Psycho 1400 years ago called muhammed told them so .. i need a smooth way please .. i can't take it no more ..

>>10023

If you're a non-religious person then I'd suggest moving to the West.

If you absolutely positively cannot escape Egypt then yeah, suicide would be the best option. I don't think I could live in a country where all that stuff (plus booze and drugs) are forbidden. A fate worse than death.

>>10032

>I'd suggest moving to the West.

dude Libya is an even bigger shithole

>>10019

>>10023

>>10032

Sorry to hear that!

Health failing, STEM degree is worthless, it no longer hurts me to go two or more days without food or water, I have no hopes, I only work to stay alive. I don't make enough to move to somewhere that would be less expensive to live. My savings are always knocked down to "lunch" no matter what I do.

I don't drink, smoke, do any drugs at all, take painkillers beyond ibuprofen once a week, don't play video games, don't do much of anything but lurk here until it's cool enough to sleep for more than an hour without waking up feeling sick.

The usual, basically. Nothing brings me joy, and no matter what I sacrifice, I gain nothing, even losing more for my efforts. My heart is getting worse, my knee is agony, and I've started hallucinating constantly.

Because I hate my past. Now, when I need so much, I realize how terrible of a situation I put my old partner in, when they had the needs I do now. I failed, with a smile, and complete oblivity.

After that, I kinda just fell. I stumbled right into depression, and barely tried to fight it. It's much easier not too. Sucked the life right out of me. I used to be so happy. At this point, the minds basically dead, I'm just finishing off the body.

Ended up living for suicide. Living in a way that's far too fast to be sustainable. Drugs, destroying my health through that lifestyle, taking huge risks that most people would dread.

And here I am, at the end of it all. I know there's a pretty big push here about not killing ones self over another person, yet here I am. It's not even them anymore. I've gone too far to go back, and I can't keep going forward.

>NEET

>Have to work for everything I want in life

>Don't really want anything except for Bad Things to stop happening

>If I shut my eyes it will all just go away

Basically sheer laziness, not in2 human existential dynamics

Maybe I'm being stupid

I don't know

Had to drop out of school twice due to mental illness. I was in an enriched math and science program the first time too, so I lost everything. I fell in love with this girl but she left me after a few weeks. That was over a year ago. I'm still not over it and I'm trying to get her back. She told me she fucked 4 different people multiple times this summer alone and she's started doing meth. So pretty much everything I had to live for withered away before my eyes. Depression is the main reason I guess, I don't enjoy or find meaning in anything. I just want off this ride.

>>10017

>I'm a worthless human being

>Life in its self is shit

Depressed with anxiety for a very long time. I seem to be unable to form any kind of relationships, be they friendships, romantic or otherwise. I'm constantly rejected by women. The ones I meet online, if I can get them to talk to me at all, will go one one date and never respond to me again. Or I'll get the usual "I've just got a lot on the go right now. I didn't mean to mislead you, sorry". Without hyperbole, I've been on 50 dates in the last year and not one has made it past a first meeting. I'm so tired of being rejected. It hurts to the point I've started cutting myself to make myself forget the emotional pain. I know I'm not attractive. I have a good paying job in IT, own my townhouse and vehicle and I have ambition… Going to school to get a second degree. I'm loosing that, by the way.

I don't have a single friend and I can't seem to make one despite working in an office and going to school part time. I try so hard to be pleasant and talk to people but when I ask if they want to do something, they have other plans.., always. I don't know what it is about me that people hate so much and no one will tell me. The only person I can talk to is my mom and it's not much use. She says the same thing over and over " I love you and everyone else does too" then she prays for me. Which does as much good as praying away a knife in my thigh. I've tried psychologists but I've gotten nowhere after two years. It's all the same stuff… Eat right, excercise and think positive. Tried the pills. They numb my mind so I can't feel anything. That's no way to live.

I'm so tired of the rejection. So tired of hurting my mom. I can see her try to help and get frustrated with me. I'm thinking about ending it all because I can't suffer like this anymore….

cause i dont have one fucking friend in the whole world, i have epilepsy and can barley function, i do nothing all day.

i never tried to kill myself before i always had hope things would get better but im just about ready to give up im desperate at this point.

>>10205

>when I ask if they want to do something, they have other plans.., always

I fucking hate people like that. I've seen them do it to nice people. They're assholes. I don't even wish death on them, because I don't want to see them in the next life.

Mental illness and a family of liberals that I'm stuck living with because I'm too much of a worthless NEET to move out.

NEET

Can only get a job at walmart

College dropout

Forgetting stuff, wouldnt be able to go back to uni

Eyesight has strings in it

Tired all the time

Becoming alcoholic

Stuck in a bedroom with a woman i have grown to hate

Edgelord alert: i hate this world. The way things are going i feel like the world has failed me almost as much as i have failed in it

The usual: nothing entertains me in life, people avoid me, I'll never have a partner and will live a miserable, lonely life, I'm too unstable to hold down a job or to complete studies and will end up homeless in a couple of years at this rate. I'm just a failure of a human being, and I understand why people don't want to be near me, I'm negative and everything would be better if I died.

>fucked up too much in highschool

>cant get into an actual good college

>ill never get to do drafting for anything other than cookie cutter suburb homes

>ill never own the house i want to create

>ill never live where i want to live

>ill never be able to afford the technology i want to have

>ill never have the car i want to have

I just fucked up too early, i want to try again and see if i can get it right this time.

>>10648

>try again

That would only be a worthwhile option in a better world, like 2D or 3D with actual meaningful purposes to fulfill while you live. Exploring, fighting for important things, etc.

Or living without any disadvantages like mental illness.

Why? More like why not. Nobody loves me, my interests and desires are fleeting at best, I'm just not happy anymore, and the world expects me to work 60 hours a week to barely stay afloat. Nobody will miss me if I were to just vanish right now. I enrich nobody's life, I've never contributed to anything important nor have I ever created anything nice. I have no talents or skills and while I've tried learning, it went nowhere. I'm painfully generic and have no personality. It's not so much about why I want to die, it's more that I have virtually no reason to live.

>>10654

I won't miss you now, but maybe we'll chill on the other side. Good luck anon.

>>10656

T-thanks…

It's gonna be a little while, I wanna do some nice things for some people I like so it will probably take a year or so before I get there. I hope my obscene, gross fetishes don't bother you too much in the afterlife.

I hate the world and the people living in it. People are simply too son of a bitch with the other. I think, that I was born too late or too early.

Simply I was not meant to be here.

>>10654

Sheeeit, I could have written this. See you on the other side anon.

I have to, otherwise it won't be a pleasant death.

It's not a matter of wanting to commit suicide, it's a matter of having no other option to live life with dignity.

>>10657

We are who we are. Judging others serves no concrete purpose and doesn't belong in the afterlife. I'll like you for you, anon.

>>10017

Society won't let me have my rights, so I will take it by force.

>>10801

Thanks anon. If this afterlife stuff works like I hear then I'll probably look like a cat so you've got your identification cut out for you.

I cannot handle normal day to day life. too stressful and even when it's done, it's not rewarding enough.

It's not that I want to die, it's just that I really don't want to put up with all the bullshit reality puts you through when you're mentally ill. So I bide my time, using escapism and mind altering substances to wait and see if Texas is seceding so that I can at least make my death count.

>>10830

>dying young as opposed to living and then eventually dying as a wrinkled ballsack

The former, please.

>>10833

>you will never be a part of something much bigger than yourself, something meaningful, something actually worth dying for

Born too soon/too late/at all

Being a burden on everyone I know.

I'm unintentionally manipulative and I feel like I'm a rock on my fiance's back that he chooses to ignore, but lets face it, the time will come down the road where he's at a bar wondering what the fuck he did with his life.

I hate being a burden. I feel like I can't stop being a burden. I'm young. I haven't fully established myself in the world. It just seems hopeless.

If I ever kill myself, I'll probably go out to this little island in my local lake and just go exit bag.

One of the only reasons I haven't killed myself yet is out of fear of pain, what exactly is on the otherside, or that little thing that happens in the brain where you realize you're dying. It's….scary.

I think I'm bad.

Every person that gets close to me tells me I'm a terrible person.

Every time I get close to someone, I hurt them.

I don't like that.

>>11450

>you're not ugly in this picture at all

Wut.

That guy is ugly.

>>10205

Use meetup.com to go find people who're cool and share your interests. Lots of casual meetups. Talk to people about what they're interested in and you'll make some

>>10017

A couple of reasons.

Obviously depression.

Another one being is that this world will never grant me the right to terminate myself because I am mentally ill. They will deprive me of my natural right simply because my decision isn't a "rational" or "logical" one.

I don't want to live in a world where I am deprived of the right to self-terminate, even if I exercise that right in an irrational or illogical manner. Thus one needs to take their right by force against the will of society.

>>11732

Hah. Without the internet to supply me with distraction, it would be worse. When I have nothing to do but think, holy hell.

Anyway, I suppose the answer would be clinical depression. I don't feel sad or some dumb shit, I just feel nothing most of the time. I get minor manic episodes here and there, but it's not a default state or anything. Living is suffering differently every day. Hurts to stand, hurts to breathe, and stabbing headaches are fun too. I only work so I can continue to live, and nothing I buy brings me any joy. Anything I achieve, no lasting satisfaction.

But at least I have a .45 caliber exit ticket. It's calming, having a 1911 on my desk. And a 12 gauge leaning against my desk.

>>10850

If the TNM's petition doesn't work out, I'm just going to put a tourniquet around my neck.

>>11732

Posting a generic, low-effort response and then patting yourself on the back is worse than not posting anything at all. You're not helping.

>eventually, you will find a girlfriend, believe me

How? Magic?

b/c the voices don't manifest into real people that I can have a normal conversation with, and tfw no alien gf

>>10049

Health went from top-tier to shit-tier in just 3 years. At least you got past high school and went to uni.

I suggest you try weed, get the munchies or something. Find a way to ignore your shitty situation; learn to avoid seriousness (be srs with your education and work ethic obviously)

but the truth is, the whole fucking world is a joke. Learn to be psychopathic and selfish, everyone else is. You owe the world nothing. It's just a playground. Take what you can from it, when you can get it.

>>11732

Kek.

For me its pretty much just chemical clinical depression. My emotions and empathy turn right the fuck off for weeks at a time. I switch between numb anxiety, regular numbness, or occasional burst of feeling okay. I also have concentration and focus problems out the ass.

The really sad part is the only thing really fucking me up is the incompetence of most psychiatrists. Money is tight, but by most metrics my life is awesome.

Good programming job.

Successful modder on steam with a reasonably popular workshop.

Lots of good friends.

Get to play D&D all the fucking time.

Hang out at sex/bdsm clubs on weekends relatively often.

But still feel numb a lot of the time, or at best just kind of vaguely amused at everything. The rest of the time its crippling anxiety and fear. Which is hilarious because I'm often too paralyzed to snap out of it but once I engage in a social interaction I can put on a happy facade and make people laugh.

But even with life being mostly good, I'm routinely disappointed. With myself, with society, and with women. I'm too weak to keep going and fight past this, and I'm still not fully functional and haven't been a long time.

And I'm angry all the time at society and women and people who have no fucking sense of ethics. As a result I find myself shying away from real relationships with women because of how many of them are superficial, manipulative, or dishonest. I don't give a fuck, if you're cheating on some guy, I don't want anything to do with you. And all the women I meet with a few exceptions are like this. My standards are not high. I'm okay with dating a hamplanet if she's cool and ethical, but nobody in this day and age is, so I keep emotional distance.

And society? Fucking jokes. We're witnessing the fall of Rome. Even if you can make your own life work all around you are social parasites weakening the system and eroding the support systems of society. It infuriates me.

So yeah. Mostly chemical shit, buf nobody will give me the fucking drugs I need so here I am.

I have no ambitions at all, and I really never have, which compounds itself because I want to have a hobby or goal, but can't find anything. Any time I try to enjoy something, be it a book, game, music, movie, etc, I quickly grow bored of it.

I feel lonely all the time, but don't even have the desire to go and make friends. This extends to romantic interests, where even though I don't have the desire to find a nice girl, I still feel empty and deprived of that connection.

The anti-depressant I use doesn't really do anything other than suppress all of my emotions, so I still feel awful, just less awful. This is balanced out by the fact that I don't ever feel particularly happy or angry or whatever emotions you want to toss in there.

My self-esteem is pretty fucking low, for good measure. I'm lazy, ugly, boring, and I just don't have the willpower to change these things even though they cause me no end of grief. Can't bring myself to care about my college career, so I put in just enough effort to keep my family and peers happy, but that's causing me to resent having to constantly keep up a facade. So, I'm a pretty all-around shitty person. I've been getting more and more unpleasant in normal conversations, and find it increasingly difficult to curb my language and opinions to the situation.

And, to top it all off, life is just really fucking bleak in a political sense. Bread and circuses. Increasingly manipulative, powerful mega-corporations. Rampant corruption. Fucking political correctness, holy shit. I seriously feel that most people are selfish, easily manipulated, and ignorant, not that I'm an exception to this.

I think the only reason I haven't killed myself is lack of knowledge of and access to a totally painless, low-risk method. I really wish physician assisted suicide was legal here.

Going over my list, yeah, I'm not too much different from the average here. Just a general shroud of self-reinforcing apathy and depression.

I have been depressed since my teens and I have gotten permanent health damage from an illness now, so I will probably end it all soon.

cuz life is bullshit, I don't care anymore

Tired, just tired of all of this shit.

tl;dr I just suck. Anyone saying 'durr hurr you can improve, practice makes perfect' is full of shit. Some are just never meant to make it. Fuck it.

If one of you shoots me tomorrow, it would be great.

>>11631

>Wut.

>That guy is ugly.

White woman detected.

Just the usual… No job or future, parents have had enough of me being NEET. I'll probably get kicked out soon. I've just sent my last batch of job application. If I didn't get any by the end of the month I'll just hang myself. Lol I probably should've put that in my cover letter, "I can use x, y, and z softwares and also if I don't get this job I'm going to kill myself, sir."