My girlfriend killed herself on July 2, 2015. We have both been struggling with mental illness for all of our lives. She was the light of my life and when I found her in that room I saw my whole world go dark.
I'm going to kill myself. I've had enough and I can't do it without her. I don't want to live by coping, I'm done with hoping.
My plan is to buy 100 pellets of Etizolam, wash them down with 1/5 of vodka, and then hang myself. I just want to make sure I do it right.
I'm going to use a slipknot for the noose and place the knot high on my neck and slightly to the left. Hopefully this cuts of the circulation in my carotid artery causing a less painful and quick death. It should also prevent the physical distortion caused by closing off the jugular artery.
Anything I missed?