/suicide/ - Suicide Tips & Tricks

>>11393

Everything you've described shows that you do have some form of depression, possibly in conjunction with something else. I've got bipolar type II, for example.

The feeling you've described is something I know pretty well, although I still want to kill myself. Basically you enter this kind of slump where all you're doing is waiting for something to happen, whether good or bad, and you don't see the worth in trying anything anymore. You basically step into the river and let things be as they may.

Being in that position and NOT wanting to kill yourself sounds like pure hell, but I'm sure you'll fix that eventually.

>>11393

Nah, I've heard a few people say things to that effect (not that they believe they skipped over something though). "Ugh, I'd kill myself but suicide is such a hassle". I mean I sort of get it myself, I feel too dumb and tired to do anything including put serious thought into suicide. It's almost like a have an emotional barrier (maybe from the meds? Who knows anymore.) keeping me from considering it. I think that's just how a good amount of people are, they can't do it unless they have a sudden spike of despair and then do it on impulse (resulting in some awful "Jesus, why would you want to go out like that?" death).

>>11393

People kill themselves because they see it as something positive compared to their life, if you don't like anything, you probably won't want to kill yourself either… though I'm curious, if you really are completely apathetic, and don't like anything, why even eat, why even move, why even post on here.

Because if you really were completely apathetic, you wouldn't live, humans need negative and positive emotion for survival, for motivation to do anything really.

>>11401

>humans need negative and positive emotion for survival, for motivation to do anything really.

But that's wrong. You don't need emotions when it comes to the most basic survival instincts.

>>11405

Are survival instincts logical or biological? If they're biological, how can we override them to die and how do some do that?

I don't give enough of a fuck to do anything but post on 8chan and sit on my ass in this chair all day, much less plan a suicide. That doesn't mean I don't want it to end though. if there was a button i could push to die, i'd do it in a second…

hard to imagine being so far gone you don't even care about suicide anymore

>Am I full of shit here or does anyone else know what I'm talking about?

I can relate to what youre saying. I found out I do have some degree of control over my mind. Enough to trick myself into believing the little pleasures anime and porn were reasons enough to live, but not enough control to stop the pain. So I kept living lazily for some months thinking it would be ok. Being so depressed I didnt even care about dying.

But thats about to change when I get kicked out.

>>11407

I don't understand what you're saying by "logical." Of course they're fucking logical, it makes sense for your body to keep itself going. Make some sense, you fucking donut.

The thing is that you cannot override them, you have to work around them. This is why exit bags exist.

>>11431

I'm wondering if I don't have those basic survival instincts. For one, I'm asexual, so my reproductive urges are at least null - but they were stronger in my younger years. Maybe I simply lack any form of survival instinct and it took till this year to realize it?

Maybe there are birth defects that leave you born without it? I don't know.

As someone who'd be willing to survive this but doesn't think he can, I'd like to think those survival instincts are in every human… But I'm not sure they are anymore

>>11433

Does it really matter? Seems like a blessing if you could motivate yourself to do what you wanted.

I just wish I'd have a huge burst of ballsiness to do it.

I think I'm a bit different because I feel so hopeless that there is no point even trying to commit suicide without the right resources. At least years ago when I was depressed I would try to do it all the time, but now it's hard to try even though I want the suffering to end. It's like I'm not even living just dreaming everyday that suddenly euthanasia will be accessible when I wake up or I can get help somehow to do it..

>>11526

Pretty much any method can be made smoother with access to alcohol. I'd get my hands on some ahead of time and contemplate which methods will work best with it, if I were you.