>>11594
>I'm a pussy when it comes to uncertainty.
Don't be. You're not alone in this desire or this life. Even if it is the smallest of consolations, know that you aren't alone. I'm feeling jolts pretty frequently now that I've decided to carry out my attempt this week. I'm scared of failing, scared of the consequences of failing, and I'm uncertain about the other side as well.
But I let it go. I force myself to be calm, I force myself to be brave. The moment I back down from this is the instant I sacrifice my greatest opportunity. It's the same for you and everyone else in our predicament.
Don't be afraid of Hell. I'd trade places with you there in a heartbeat, and not just for my own ego. If your fear eclipses mine, then that'd be the right thing to do. It'd be the right thing from the start. And even if that isn't an option, then you wouldn't be alone even in Hell. I'd be there with you, along with everyone else who felt as we do.
I know in my heart without a doubt that we will be forgiven for everything. It's not an excuse to do what we want to do, what we believe in—it's a reason to have hope in a truly hopeless world. Just have faith and never let go of your love.
I *will* see you on the other side, that's a promise.