/suicide/ - Suicide Tips & Tricks

If you're still alive, OP, that needs to be your suicide note. Also, I'm pretty sure that amounted to "talking about your feelings", but I don't give a fuck about rules on chans, so meh.

>>12359

I guess "suicide note thread" would've been more appropriate. Wasn't trying to go "muh feelings," sorry.

I'm not sorry. Was raised with a dad who failed at it, then lucked out and left early. Mom: you do your thing, you won't get this anyway.

Good people: It's not about you you selfish fucks.

Everyone else: Consider it. Don't be afraid of another option

good thread, i personally feel that you dont really owe an apology to your family. who's at blame for how things played out? nobody

Before I die, I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I ruined every life I've ever touched. To each and every person who has had to touch my cursed existence, you didn't deserve it. Especially to my old friends, I know I ruined everything good between us with my bullshit and self-hatred.

After my death, I'm sorry, to anyone who feels responsible. It's not your fault. It isn't.

Sui note thread? Okie.

To my family you're nice people and all and I know you tried to help me and be there for me but I don't feel as if anything can be done from this point. Most of what I feel is the need for death and there's not really a day where I don't think about killing myself. I'm sorry you raised such a depressed lazy cunt. If you could tell Brendan (He's on my Facebook friendslist incase you don't understand what i'm talking about) and Bree they mean a lot to me as do you all but I don't want to be here and i'd prefer not to live for other people i'm too selfish for that. None of this is your fault and I have had a long time to think everything through and this is what i'm happy in doing. Goodbye.

Give or take that'll be my note. Seems a bit long so I may cut it down in the real scenario.

Mother, I'm sorry for not meeting your over-the-top expectations, for not stand up for myself when you smothered and humiliated me in public, for not bitchslap you when you were too overbearing, for being a pussywhipped coward like the inferior shit I have for a father.

I really, really hope there's a hell like you had been threatening me for years, so I can drag you inside by the hairs and torment you myself for all eternity. You and me, bitch.

>>12427

KEK

Mom, I find it peculiar that you cried your eyes out when your brother committed suicide two years ago, but didn't even raise an eyebrow when I've said many times throughout my life that I wanted to kill myself. Maybe this will be the wake-up call that hiding from your problems just makes them worse.

Mom: I love you more than anything. I'm sorry it turned out this way. Even though you saw me everyday, you had no way of knowing the constant, devastating pain I feel. Tell the rest of the family I love them, too.

Grandma: You're a real bitch. Maybe you should have acknowledged that I was depressed instead of making me feel even more worthless than I already did. Treat the rest of your family better. You've got a son living down the street from us who will probably kill himself, too. Enjoy hoarding that sweet inheritance cash until he's out on the streets.

Dear mother: you think you tried to do what was best for me, but you only made things worse. I know I'm a disappointment, don't pretend I'm not. You weren't a bad mother, I've just struggled with everything for too long now

dad: You were absent for the first 9 years of my life, working on and off oil platforms, and once you were home you were emotionally absent, and that hurt.

Siblings: N, you treated me as a piece of shit, and you're part to blame, for all the years you did the shit you did to me, you caused me to hate myself more and more. I: I'm so sorry I was so shitty to you, but it wasn't easy to be supposed to be a good older brother when you've been through so much shit as me

H: You were my closest friend for a while, and I want to thank you, sadly, I've never really been happy, and this was inevitable

S: You were like a sister to me, and I know this came as a shock, and that you've been through quite a bit, but you're strong, and you have the capability to go far

D: I thought we had something going on, but then it turns out that there's another "boyfriend-ish" guy in your life… fantastic. I told you I'd probably off myself some time soon, and that time is now. I want you to know though, you have a great artistic style, and it's a shame I don't get to see how far you get with them.

Hey mom, I know you tried your hardest, but i guess sometimes things just dont work out for the best, so im sorry for that. Dad, I'm sorry. you raised me to be better than this, but in the end im just a failure and im sorry. To my brothers, i guess youll have to live without me for a while, wont be too bad right? to my friends, my bad guys, didnt mean to put a damper on your mood, but i felt this needed to be done. See you all on the other side.

>>12443

There are some awful fucking people on this planet right now, anon. You don't compare to them at all, not one bit.

I hope to find you smiling on the other side.

A - You were probably the only person I could never live without. I know you will be hurt and I you will blame yourself. I never wanted that, as anyone ever tells you you're a swell person. Please understand (as I know you can to a degree) and don't feel sorry for anything.

B - You're pretty much a useless person but I bear no ill will towards you despite your bullshit. Kinda wish you'd have died awhile ago, sorry about that much.

C - You lost your best friend and now your brother. As angry and mean as you can be you don't deserve so much misfortune.

D - I think we got along about as much as the average friend. Friends suck to lose. Sorry, that's all I got, nobody else's is much better.

E - We never got along and you weren't wrong that I never much liked you. Nobody deserves to feel like an outcast though and if I were a better role model you wouldn't have had to.

F - You I probably feel the most guilty about. You have nobody and I'm taking even more away all the same. I hope beyond hope you find the secret to happiness.

Bulied kids growing up - Sorry I never defended you or even betrayed you, I was probably even weaker than each of you if you're still alive.

Girls I was creepy towards - Well you were pretty and the world has sad lonely people. I'd have rather not given you one more person's worth of discomfort though.

Everyone else - Sorry I'm so goddamn indifferent all the time. I've got a bad brain and don't manage things well. You probably deserved more respect. -unless you were an asshole. Maybe reflect on that.

To the family: I'm sorry that I was never good enough. That I was a waste of space who couldn't pass a single exam and get a high paying job as soon as possible. I'm a failure.

Mom: You tried your best, I know you did. You cannot blame yourself for this. This is my decision. Shit happens. You can't control it, I just got the straw that broke the camel's back. Stop pretending I was a poster child, and can do nothing wrong. That shit is old. Other than that, I wish you the best of recovery.

Dad: You have had so many chances to drop dead already, and you fought through each one. I guess I can understand. If I was nothing more than a soul stealing stain to absolutely everyone I ever interacted with, I'd fear a god too. I can't think of a single person who would refuse to dance on your grave. Good luck trying to pass the blame off yourself on this one you disgusting incubus.

aunt/uncle: you two are the rock of the family. I feel sorry for you always having to support this enormous family. I hope I can alleviate some of that burden. …Mother will need you more than ever.

aunt/aunt: Sorry I can't make it to he wedding, You guys were the kindest, I wish we spent more time together.

Aunt P: I miss you and R the most in my everyday. I'm sorry I haven't kept in touch, but you know how father is. I trust you to keep R safe. I always saw her as my own daughter, and it's been absolutely painful to have to part from you two. You are a saint.

J: Thanks for trying man, but things don't always work out the way we want. Everything else has been said before.

N: Please, please do not blame yourself. I know this will be tough for you. I want to show my gratitude for everything, but most importantly, you were there for me when no one else cared. I still consider you a sister, and have always wanted to see you succeed (perhaps even in my place). Tell S whatever you wish, I can't say I cared all that much. I hope you find happiness in life. Goodbye.

Everyone else: Thanks for the memes. Been a good run. Peace, ya plebs.

Mother, I am sorry that it has come to this. I know that father will blame you, but the truth is is that I am an adult and I make my own choices. You gave me everything you could, your time, your love, your wisdom, your money… I know that now it all must feel like I waste. But it wasn't. Your support has meant the world to me, and you did make me happy. I hope that you can be at peace and remember the good times we shared, before the weight of the world and responsibilities crushed me and turned me into this hunchback creature that is writing you this note. I love you, and I do not leave you lightly, but I have to be selfish. Life has become unbearable and for a long time I felt as though I have lived too long. Twelve years of anxiety and depression has been more than enough.

Ana, I am sorry that I broke the promise I made to you. I don't think for a second that this will be easy on you, but I can't go on living for you or mother, no matter how much I love you both. You were the shining beacon of my life. My best friend, and the only person that truly knew me. And you accepted me as I am, with an open heart. I don't know what I did to earn your love, but I am very grateful that I had you in my life. The time I spent with you has been very precious to me. You made my life rich in a way that no one else did. But life isn't all good times, and unlike you, I do not have the will nor strength to weather the bad ones. I'm sorry my friend. If there is an afterlife, be sure that I will miss you everyday. Live well, and know that I never doubted that you can.

I'm sorry that I never got close to you father. We were just too different. Thank you for your support, you've done a lot for me even though I was a shit. Enjoy your grandchildren, and please be good to mother. It's not her fault that I turned out the way I did. I'm sure she's in enough pain as is, there's no need to add to it. I believe that you can handle this with grace. Your wife, brother, children and grandchildren are still with you. Let them give you strength.

Are they any good? I don't want anyone to feel guilty, or like they could have done something to stop me.

Dear Angela,

I'm sorry you hated me so much. I tried to give you everything you could have possibly wanted, but I guess it wasn't enough. We had a good relationship for years and years. Everyone loved us, we were a power couple. Toward the end things started taking a turn for the worse, but then you started bringing all these people in? I guess I can't blame you, a woman at your age would do anything to feel not so alone. Regardless, what's done is done, and I see no other way out.

Sincerely, Germany.

>>12525

>and turned me into this hunchback creature that is writing you this note

This was the only part that I felt would make your mother sad. I wouldn't leave it in.

The rest of it was really good.

Maybe to your father, expand on how he supported you if you want him to feel less guilty. Maybe delve into a memory with him, and how it also made you happy.

But overall I think you expressed it in a way that really takes off a lot of guilt from your loved ones.

Maybe add more to it, if you can. Personal memories, or details, but otherwise its really good. You don't get the feeling of guilt from it.

>>12533

Yes

Suicide note?

bye

that is seriously the only thing I have to say to this world, it was fucked up since the beggining and only got worse no matter how much I tried in the end it didn't even mattered

I don't know if I will do it, but it's good to have the note ready just in case.

Mom and Dad: This will be the third child you lost. Maybe because you lost the first two you became really attached to me. You were smothering and you spoiled me. However you made an immense effort to make my life good. You sold our house and most of our belongings to afford to immigrate to this country. You came here with almost nothing. But you worked hard and now we live in a good house, we have two cars, we have good internet and many TV channels, among other things. You work multiple jobs to maintain all this. It is deeply regrettable that everything was ruined for me by my disorder. I don't want to live when I keep on relapsing and I can't even finish high school because of that. What a pitiful existance I would have had if I didn't do this. Trust me, essentially I did the math and I figured out that exiting now will save me a lot of pain and suffering. In a way I'm sorry. I converted my future suffering into your current suffering. But in a way I'm not sorry. There is an inequality. Your pain will eventually end with time, while mine would have remained. Goodbye. You may look at my pictures on Facebook to see me, and you may view my match commentary video on YouTube (the channel is my name) to hear me.

E: I loved you, even though you're much younger than me. We had a relationship kind of thing (probably doesn't count) for just a short time. It was my only one ever. I liked other girls after you but it didn't work out with them. Besides, they're not you. You are cold, by your own admission, and it was demonstrated most when you ignored me then insulted me after I told you I want to kill myself in the summer of 2015. I actually attempted within minutes. You do hard drugs and you are really promiscuous. Somehow you've kept both secret but I doubt you will be able to do so for long. You blocked me, but if you end up seeing this post I know you will deny what I said to keep the secret. Despite all this, I love you. You will never love me back. I doubt you will even care for long that I'm dead.

L: You almost made me not do it. You're my cousin and you're really young at the time of me writing this. I hope you don't find out what happened to me until you're older. I love you more than anyone else. I hope your life is more successful and happy than mine. Keep in mind that if there is something on the other side, I will watch over you always.

Ş: I broke my promise to you that I wouldn't attempt suicide again. I guess ultimately it doesn't matter, like everything else. It is better this way for me.

B: You're my favourite grandparent and I think I'm you're favourite grandchild. This will hit you very hard, especially because you already lost your son last year. I will say it again, this is for the best.

>>12533

10/10

>>12358

Mom, you are the only person I stayed alive for this long. Everyone else I either didn't care as much about, or just flat out didn't like. I knew that my suicide would destroy you, so I forced myself to keep going. I'm sorry, but I can't stay anymore.

Brother, you are the worst person I have ever met. The worst human being in existence. You are a narcisistic piece of fucking shit, and I hope that if there is a Hell, I go there, and when you come here, I will be the first one to greet you at the gates, so I can push your ass over the edge into the pits myself. You are the most laziest piece of fucking garbage ever, and that would be fine if you didn't act so fucking entitled and fucking smug all the time. You got yourself fucked over in life, but instead of trying to fix it, you just blame everyone around you and treat everyone like shit. I can not even begin to formulate my thuoghts as feelings towards you, as it will take forever, and I'm tired of thinking about it. I hate you. That is all there is to it. Plain and simple.

I hate you.

Sister, you're a cunt, but you're also young. I hope one day you grow as a person and change to be better, as honestly, you're pretty much on the same wave length as your brother is at this point.

Brother, see you in Hell.

Mother, sorry.

Ata: Yeah I know that I hurt you over and over again, without saying a word of thanks, I stopped caring due to the shit I have to put up in my life, my word is collapsing around me, gullibility and stupidity is something common in this day and age. Internet is censored, controlled and filtered. I am sick of that stupid shit and Mark Suckerberg's Kikebook. So sorry if I didn't fit in and enjoy my life in that little cesspool.

Everyone else. There are few people that actually tried to care, rest of you sociopaths can kiss my cripple ass, you don't deserve or need any apologies, being manipulative little ass-kissers that you are your words for Ata always weighed more than mine.

And yeah sorry for not being gullible, fake happy and all that shit.

Mom, I'm sorry I couldn't meet your expectations. Please don't dwell on this too much. I've been dealing with this for a long time and it's really not anyone's fault.

J, you were a great friend. Thanks for trying to cheer me up the few times I let slip how terrible I was feeling. Please don't feel bad about having not noticed; I've been hiding these feelings for well over a decade. I was good at it by the time we met. Cut down on the video games and keep studying and you'll be fine. Please don't blame yourself.

You all did your best to care for me and each of you were patient and kind in your own way. So if anyone is at fault, it's me. I'm sorry I was selfish and repeatedly hurt all of you. The shame has consumed me for years.

The reality is that I truly have nothing to offer: I can't have a family or deeper friendships. I don't have a skill that makes others happy. My health is making it harder to function.

We tried to change me for years, remember? I'm sorry for wasting your time. I know I'm selfishly hurting others by doing this but please respect my decision because I did it out of love.

I'm sorry that I have to do this despite all the love you gave me, mom. You were perfect, the only perfect part of my life, my guardian angel. I love you, but I hate your world and cannot be a part of it for your sake.

Ex, I know you vehemently hate me but its all a misunderstanding. Yes it was painful but get over it. It already happened. I did love you even though you think otherwise, and this pent up aggression isn't good for you. You need to free yourself from the past for your sake, not mine. I'm sorry I allowed basic instinct, aggression, distrust, paranoia, hatred and confusion to destroy us.

Soul sibling, we both feel the same thing right now in different ways. You seem confused and so do I. Love you, hope things work out. I have never met anyone who was so much like me like you are. I'm sorry for straining our friendship when it was unnecessary. I truly regret that.

I'm sorry I couldn't live up to your expectations, uni was never going to work out and now I work overnight as an excuse to sleep all day and avoid people. I sounds have done this sooner but I kept telling myself "just a few more months maybe it'll get better, it sure can't get worse." Escapism is what I've always wanted, there ain't much more I can do in this world so maybe I'll do better in the next.

Mom, you always provided for us even at your own detriment. You shouldn't have, you deserved better. I'm sorry I was a burden for so long. I'm sorry I wasn't able to pay you back.

Dad, I never doubted that you loved me. I'm sorry I couldn't be a better son.

Charlie, I'm sorry we weren't closer.

Lola, I'm sorry I didn't die with you. I miss you and I love you. I'm going to see you again. I'll make sure of it.

Mom & Dad, I'm sorry for making you go through this. You once told me suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Life is a permanent problem. I love you both and I hope you can understand. I'm sorry your only child had to go so soon.

Justin, Love you man. You're the brother I never had. Sorry I won't be around for you when you were always there for me.

Marty, You went before me and took the leap I couldn't. I'm right behind you bud. Maybe I'll see you after.

Kiersten, I love you…

I wish I could have done better. I'm sorry own, I know I acted like a distant man but all I wanted was to be closer with you. Friends are not a familiar thing to me, so I guess I just wanted to make you laugh. I'm sorry I acted like a cunt about your girlfriend an' all, I just didn't want anyone in the way of us, maybe i'm physically attracted to you or somethin', iunno. I could never be the friend I wanted to be.

Dad, i'm sory I never called you dad. You did some awful shit, but I forgive you. You regret it every day, and that's not ok. You should be able to live knowing you at least raised a good kid. I'm sorry I couldn't give you that.

Mom, I love you. Very much. Never forget.

Mom, I'm sorry I never really tried to do anything. I just became apathetic with life after a while in High School and just slowly began giving up after that. Maybe you're right, maybe the divorce fucked me up a little bit and caused me to become who I am now. Maybe if I tried my best and got that 0.1 point extra in my Finals I would've been better off. Maybe if I was born 10 years earlier I wouldn't have been completely enthralled by computers and games and I would have ended up better.

But the world doesn't revolve around "Maybe", it revolves around what happened. And what happened was that I was a lazy fuck who never really tried anything, I always said I did try my best but I never fucking did. I'm sorry for that and wish I was a better person, someone you actually deserved as your son since you're always running your ass off for me.

Grandma and Granddad, I'm sorry for how I acted up to this. But to be honest, you guys weren't the easiest to live with too. You did try your best with me too but eh, what can you do right? Honestly, must suck to see your grandson die before you, but I honestly can't go on anymore. I'm just tired and afraid of what will happen in my future.

Sis, I was always jealous of you in some way. Mostly in the fact that you had friends where I was just stuck with random fucks on the internet with whom I shitposted my ass off.

Just know I never meant anything I called you, you're gonna grow up to be great and so will your kids. Trust me, you have the drive that I lacked so I know you will.

Dad, I'll probably see you in hell or the void you fucker. I'll be there, waiting on your ass to make sure you'll suffer for eternity. You always acted like a cunt and like some sad sack of shit. Hell, partially why I'm killing myself is because I don't wanna end up like you. Knowing myself like I do… I probably will.

Job, you were the only friend I had outside the random fucks I talked to on the Internet. I wish you the best of luck in your future too, I know you felt bad for me and you probably won't be shocked to hear that I offed myself, you were one of the few people who actually gave a shit about me and hey… what more can I ask for? Just kick your brother under his ass and use me as an example so he doesn't end up like me.

Bleak, mate. Good luck with the forum and shit. I hope everything's gonna end up great for you and your coding, even if you fuck it up most of the time, and hey, maybe you'll get a good job in IT? You probably will man.

Jokk, man… I'm sorry. I know you tried to pull me back but it didn't work. You were one of the best friends a guy could ask for and it sucks that another of your friends has to go like this… work a bunch on your art though. Shit kinda looks cartoony but it still looks better then anything I could do.

Ghost, you tried to help too and like Jokk you failed too. Honestly man, you are fucking amazing and I hope you live long enough to see actual robot legs so you can complete your Adam Jensen look.

Psycho, honestly man. I got nothing to say about you, when the Kebabs start pouring in you'll probably be able to join the army because they'll need every single person. Until then, I wish you the best.

Blue, I'm sorry for doing the things I did. I'm sorry for acting like a moron, I'm sorry for acting like I did really. I tried to change but I never was any good at changing anyway, so the best I can say is… sorry for disappointing you. Like with Jokk, work on your art. You're fucking great at it, hell even better than Jokk to be honest, and I'm still staring at the doodle you made for me before I fucked everything up. Maybe I become some god after I die and can create a world where our characters are real and I can see their awkward life blossom and meet. Also, told you I was more like Kehr.

To pretty much all of you, and the few I didn't mention. I wish you fucks good luck, I'll see if I'm wrong about there being an afterlife and if there is, wherever I'll end up, I'll watch over you guys and try to influence anything I possibly can to give you guys a better life. That's the only way I can pay you guys back for putting up with me and well, this.

I probably won't kill myself anyway, too pussy to do it. But hey… it felt kinda good to write this. Kinda puts my mind at ease, knowing that it's here if I ever stop being a pussy. Might need to update it before I do it, but I already have the basis.

to mom: i know the death of dad has been hard on you but what i am aboit to do is not your fault, you tried to give me the best times of my life but i just dont see it anymore. me buying all that shit with my only money and getting myself in debt is my fault and not something you should blame yourself on, im also sorry that i couldnt live up to your standarts as the perfect learning son you wanted. im sorry that im hurting you this way.

to my sister: Fuck you, you have made my life a miserable hellhole, beating me up, stealing moms cash and blaming me so that i got in trouble. i hope you die slowly and painful. you dont deserve to live you fat fuck

to mu brother: you were there for me when i needed it the most, you supported me, made me follow some of my dreams, sorry that i have to leave you so soon and that i couldnt be the best bro you had, live a long happy live unlike me.

Lol, this is like a condensed version of shitty, self-entitled feels to ever spawn forth from humanity. I just want to point out out one thing, if you're truly sorry, it's about something you did, not plan to do. All this regurgitated apathy serves a sole purpose of making you feel in control. I guess it could be considered morally low, but this thread is a kekfest. Oh, you're sorry but it's best this way, and hold up let me lambast you with all the shit I couldn't say before because I'm a coward who needs you're validation even though I'm fucking dead? What a bunch of shit, this thread depresses me by its existence, not content.

In death what is true is not seen, and silence is what sound really means, what apology needs heeding, when worms need feeding and If I die do not cry, because I is lie.

Reading this thread has been surprisingly therapeutic.