I'm in my mid-twenties and have tried a few times during my life since I was about 14/15. First few were uneducated attempts based on hearsay methods, which subsequently failed because bullshit information and I didn't know what I was doing. Last attempt in June '15 was well-planned and should have killed me, but when the time finally came I was so desperate to get it done that I rushed it and failed. I did come extremely close though and am probably quite lucky not to have brain damage from it.
Anyway - after a suicide attempt, I feel…'okay'? I guess. It's hard to explain but the urge to die goes away for a couple of years, like I've blown off steam and relieved the pressure or something. But I can still relate to the desire of others to end it all, so I figure that while I'm still alive for the timebeing, I may as well be useful and stay here to offer advice and make sure others don't fuck up like I did. I read about the plans of others, research their methods, find any potential holes or flaws, advise them what to do instead.
So tl;dr I've been here for a long while and will continue to be here until the black shadow catches up with me again. Next time I intend to be successful, just a question of when next time is. Could be several years, could be several months.
I have no way of knowing if any of my advice has ever been useful to anyone but I like to think that there were a few people out there who've shuffled off this mortal coil a bit quicker and more peacefully thanks to things I've told them.
We'll all get there one day, /suicide/.