So, a short background first and foremost… I live with extreme PTSD, anorexia, bulimia, depression and anxiety (both coupled with the PTSD), bipolar disorder… Basically I'm just fucked in the head. I try and try to stay sane enough to make it through my life but I live a life void of any happiness or feeling. I cut and burn myself to just feel something.. No matter if it is pain… No one really knows about that, though. Now, getting to my original question, I need a way to kill myself that is inexpensive and it needs to look like an accident. My younger brother is coming of age and I just feel like if he knew it was a suicide, him and his hormones might later make a rash decision to follow in my footsteps.