I caught with an old high school friend who I hadn't seen since last winter break. We were very close in high school and part of that was depression and just me being really empathetic. Its been probably 9 nears since we were very close at all, although I feel like we could fall back into some sort of emotional mess of a relationship.
Anyway, that friend has been going downhill for a couple years with bipolar disorder and chronic depression. They've been hospitalized twice in the last month for being suicidal, panic attack type situations. But they are cry-for-help type things. Like text everyone goodbye, then down a bunch of pills, sit at her house and wait for people to show up.
She is really unstable and I'm worried about even saying honest, pessimistic stuff will push her into more cry-for-help, acute problems (I've also had severe depression for a long time).
But when she is stable, I'm thinking I'd like to give her (off the record, in person) information on methods that work like nembutal, fentanyl cocktails and whatnot. Do you all have any thoughts for me on this? I feel like I would be doing the right thing, and it would help me be more comfortable with my own death.
I've also thought about a pact, but my antidepressants are keeping me going, a day at a time, right now. I'd be in the right mind set if I just stopped taking them, which I did before to make things worse.
If this was six months ago, I would've loved it if I could have gotten her to just come find me after overdosed in hole in the woods, and just cover me up. Going that way has been my dream, not being probed in the morgue, paraded around by family and stuck in the ground by a bus stop. Just gone.
But yea, has anyone here provided method info to close friends? I'd love to hear stories on this.