I have recently gotten fired, and also was on SSDI/SSI, and since I was fired I am no longer eligible for SSDI/SSI. I am trying to get an appeal going but don't know the whole process or how to do it.
I'm trying to find a new job fast, but if I can't then I'm going to try to off myself. I figure it'll either work, or I'll end up in the mental health ward, and be put back on SSDI/SSI.
I can't pay my bills without a job. I tried filing for unemployment, but they say I'm not eligible because I technically am still employed (through a temp agency) but they refuse to give me any new work, because my workers claimed I was drunk on the job, when I wasn't. I was given a new medication and it made me drowsy. They also claimed I smelt of alcohol, when my mother and my friend at work said they smelled nothing.
They said I could come back the next day, and just said go home for the day, but now they called and said I am no longer welcome there, so I asked for a new assignment, but they kept giving me the run-around.
I have Roughly ~387mg of Etizolam, 126mg of Clonazolam, plus a maybe half full bottle of 90, so maybe around 200, and then maybe 150 .5mg tablets left over in that pink bag. However the vendor even admitted some of those pills were bunk, which is why he through in an extra 100 pills.
I have 60 mg of Kpins (provided I don't take anymore of them, which is hard to do, since I do have legitimate anxiety social and generalized.)
Then I have 9000 mg of Seroquel (again provided I don't take anymore of them).
I know it is extremely hard to die from Benzos, and once I accidentally tried eyeballing some Phenazepam powder and I blacked out for 3 weeks. But maybe if I ate the entire bag of powder right away?
I don't really know how to do bitcoins, so I don't know if I could get anything from the darknet.
Plus, taking all those pills would take forever, and I might just vomit them back up
Would this work, or will this just land me in the loony bin again?
Oh, I also have another full bottle of 90 pills x.7mg Clon and 120 pills x1.2mg Etizolam on their way.