Anonymous 12/01/14 (Mon) 13:54:53 ab5748 No. 3310
Can we have a notes thread? I mean they are the last thing our loved ones (as few as they are) get to see before we bail on them forever, might as well make sure they are good right.
http://pastebin.com/U6dtqHxu still debating whether to hang myself via extension cord or just sit down on some train tracks
Anonymous 12/01/14 (Mon) 19:26:53 231dba No. 3312
I spent my entire life hiding everything that I ever am or was from those hillbilly normalfags. Why would I want to leave them a final message when the main reason I don't have a facebook is that I'm horrified at the idea of them knowing anything about me?
Anonymous 12/01/14 (Mon) 23:53:39 87e0ff No. 3316
"No, thank you."
TheSoviet 12/03/14 (Wed) 04:39:18 4bb843 No. 3338
Delicate line between heaven and earth…
Anonymous 12/04/14 (Thu) 01:56:45 1ec02f No. 3353
How the fuck do you misspell "scared" three times in a row?
Anonymous 12/04/14 (Thu) 03:07:45 8f4a14 No. 3358
>redditfag
Anonymous 12/05/14 (Fri) 06:35:24 4ab386 No. 3382
>>3312 You may as well could give them a final fuck you.
Anonymous 12/06/14 (Sat) 00:35:12 97e0c0 No. 3389
As someone who works on the railroad, please don't do that. This job sucks as it is without me having to discover/clean up your remains.
Anonymous 12/06/14 (Sat) 08:09:14 ab5748 No. 3397
>>3353 One time i took LSD at a party, it was alright
Mescaline is fun i have done it a couple times
DMT i have only done once because i don't know a dealer, and i say a female seth green with pitchers 10/10 would suggest it
>>3389 Is there some one you don't like? time it will and my death could be a prank for you
TheParanoidSurvivor !a/SzKDh6QA 12/06/14 (Sat) 17:15:11 1171c6 No. 3408
>>3310 OP, I wish you well with your intents but please, for the love of fuck, go out looking like a classy gentleman.
Before I get into the purposes of why I did this, let me first tell you that I am more distraught over the thought that I will never get to know what the fuck Howland Reed is doing. This might have been one of the few reasons I held on so long, I swear to god fiction is a good way to keep people alive. A few more things I am a little saddened by my new lack of opportunity to see include Pacific Rim 2, a good american Godzilla, the end of Deadly Class(though my bets are on Marcus killing himself), I never got to do DMT, I never got to go on a train ride with all my friends, I have never been to Disney land, I never got to tell Emma my feelings for her.
Now if you are wondering why I included that list here, please look at it again, look at what's missing. I am not sad that I am missing my own college graduation, I am not sad that I will never be married and I am not angry at the state the world is in as I leave it. The fact that I have never held a job worth more then 8 bucks an hour. The reason behind these things not bothering me is, I think, that I never really thought I would do any of them. You can't regret something you never thought would come to pass. In this way I feel vilified in knowing that I never had a spot of maturity, despite being an eagle scout I am still a lazy piece of shit.
I bet you're wondering at this point: “Holy fuck, why the fucking fuck did he kill himself? Why on earth would he do that???” Well the answer is simple: Fuck you that's why!
Though I will say, it's funny when you think about it, my indecision was a trait I knew people found the most annoying(or maybe not who really gives a shit at this point none of my annoying traits matter) so the irony of me making a decision no amount of begging or anything else can ever change is quite an unusual step for me, but as I swing you should all know why I was indecisive. I was scared, scared someone would notice how much I was fucking shit up and scared someone might catch on to what I was doing. In the last 2 years I think I was just working until I got enough courage or enough self loathing to make this loop out of extension cords and die.
Anonymous 12/06/14 (Sat) 18:06:07 287944 No. 3412
does dmt really make me happy
Anonymous 12/06/14 (Sat) 19:30:12 cef877 No. 3416
>>3310 too long and unnecessary, i'd go with something like:
if you have the slightest bit of care and respect for me, you should be happy I did what I did, since for the past few years, the bare thought of killing myself has brought me happiness. cya never fags
ayy lmao
Anonymous 12/06/14 (Sat) 20:38:36 231dba No. 3417
>>3382 I don't want to give them any sort of fuck you. I just want to extract myself from them and live a life of art and ease but I lack the money, looks, and social skills to do so.
If I leave any sort of note at all, it'll be "the pile of books i left on the table are worth over a hundred each, so don't throw them away. here's my steam account details, there's a few hundred games there. cremate me."
Anonymous 12/08/14 (Mon) 06:30:08 b0c2be No. 3438
>>3412 LSD makes me happy friend, it's the only time I feel blissfully happy. Good luck finding it if you live in Cali it's a bit hard to come by here.
Anonymous 12/08/14 (Mon) 06:31:56 b0c2be No. 3439
>>3397 It was either a shitty ass tab or one of the research chemicals that imitates LSD
Anonymous 12/08/14 (Mon) 20:03:20 5403d1 No. 3451
>>3310 Dude, don't mention pop culture in your suicide note. I can see where you're coming from, and I remember thinking the same thing when Lost and BSG were on the air, but leave it out of your note. This is the most important thing you'll ever write. Don't degrade it with shit like this.
Anonymous 12/09/14 (Tue) 07:03:27 ab5748 No. 3477
>>3451 See, i am doing to it to make them know how pointless my life is at this point. when pop culture is the thing i am talking about you know my life was shitty
Anonymous 12/09/14 (Tue) 23:14:31 72f3ed No. 3493
I'd like to end it on a simple, yet grim, note:
Anonymous 12/10/14 (Wed) 00:03:30 72f3ed No. 3497
Here are some last statements from Texas:
http://www.goodbyewarden.com/ My favorite is:
>"Let's do it, man. Lock and load. Ain't life a bitch" G.W. Green
Anonymous 12/10/14 (Wed) 00:41:14 249756 No. 3501
Anonymous 01/30/15 (Fri) 03:02:30 2fc155 No. 5126
"See you, Space Cowboy"
Anonymous 01/31/15 (Sat) 07:06:10 fa1459 No. 5209
'; DROP TABLE lastwords; –
Anonymous 01/31/15 (Sat) 16:57:35 7e830f No. 5228
Don't fucking lie on tracks in front of a train. I know one of the poor bastards who'll have to scrape your sorry ass off of it.
Anonymous 01/31/15 (Sat) 20:17:37 fa1459 No. 5237
>>5228 Tell him to upload the video to Best Gore
Anonymous 01/31/15 (Sat) 22:48:22 d1039a No. 5240
"This is my choice, probably the only real one I ever had."
John Doe 02/10/15 (Tue) 16:14:56 aa0ad2 No. 5791
John Doe 02/11/15 (Wed) 08:02:25 5a4965 No. 5834
John Doe 02/21/15 (Sat) 02:05:27 be4def No. 6144
Writing mine right now. I'll post it here when I'm finished.
John Doe 02/21/15 (Sat) 04:00:58 354775 No. 6149
I won't leave any notes, not because I don't have anything to say but because after I die that won't matter anymore.
John Doe 03/09/15 (Mon) 23:26:43 1f1a67 No. 6680
i'm sorry. it's not fair that the end of my suffering spells the beginning of suffering for others. there's nothing i can say to minimize that suffering, but i feel compelled to explain myself anyway.i wrote this like 6 months ago, edited it a bit last month, still haven't even bought supplies for doing myself in. all in due time, i suppose.
John Doe 03/11/15 (Wed) 18:06:06 6adcbc No. 6715
"To whoever has to clean up: I apologize for the mess."
John Doe 03/16/15 (Mon) 13:27:50 c124fa No. 6876
one FB post "Take me to the Lazarus pit"
John Doe 03/17/15 (Tue) 21:47:50 db4562 No. 6944
Another organism bites the dust.
John Doe 03/18/15 (Wed) 04:53:15 e65682 No. 6953
Have you thought about a video message as "note"?
John Doe 06/21/15 (Sun) 15:28:36 4bcded No. 9363
"Fine"
(Perhaps a video)
It was all a facade. Things never improved. I feel like I'm missing something, but I don't know what. I think I'll find out, I think that they're waiting on the other side.
I'm not the sam(n?)e person I used to be. I used to be so much more insightful, eloquent, intelligent. I had a lot more energy too. My academics are fine, money is not a worry, and I live a pretty easy life, objectively speaking. Yet on the inside, I am purely miserable. I see no hope for the future, especially not in a place as fucked up as America. Any enthusiasm I once had is long gone, even recreational activities prove to be a chore. Euphemistically speaking, I was dealt a great hand. I just don't know what to do with it. In this case, I think I'll fold. It's been a real fun ride, but I just don't see any point in living on.
John Doe 06/21/15 (Sun) 15:55:52 ec6c44 No. 9364
>>9363
Have you ever experimented with psilocybin mushrooms or LSD-25 before?
John Doe 06/21/15 (Sun) 16:06:40 9760b4 No. 9366
>>9364
Yes, I've tried LSA, LSD, Shrooms, and 2C-b
John Doe 06/22/15 (Mon) 20:47:49 454a5b No. 9396
>>3310
"I bet your wondering at this point “holy fuck why the fucking fuck did he kill himself why on earth would he do that” Well the answer is simple: Fuck you that's why."
Come on man, if you can type on a computer chances are you have someone who doesn't deserve a fuck you. Think of all the people locked up in prison right now.
I'm leaving the world with the words "the end" or "i didn't ask for this" or "too much, too young"… I don't want to burn any bridges even if I'm dead.
John Doe 06/23/15 (Tue) 23:14:00 e37c1c No. 9431
I wonder how many of the people who wrote these notes are looking back now like, fuck I had more to say. Hang in there faggots. Dont be a pussy. I got through over 20 years of suicidal thoughts and while they still come up every hour most of the time I have balls of fucking steel.
John Doe 06/24/15 (Wed) 20:54:47 4bcded No. 9455
>>9431
Dude, fuck right off with that. I think we've all heard "you just gotta set your mind to getting better" type shit more than enough.
John Doe 06/25/15 (Thu) 05:50:53 ac91e5 No. 9464
>>9431
Says the pussy who spent twenty years wanting to die, then claims to have turned it all around. Yeah, go masturbate your demons somewhere else. If you want to provide people with real advice on how to fix smaller problems, cool, but not everyone is here because of some dumb slut waxing every dick in the county behind their back, or because mummy slapped them for screaming for more chocolate milk.
John Doe 06/25/15 (Thu) 09:12:49 3c2b79 No. 9465
>>9431
I think more people just need to bee themselves.
John Doe 07/06/15 (Mon) 20:29:04 4bcded No. 9740
I am not the same person that I used to be. I am whatever's left, standing in the shadow of anon, crouching in his grave half dug. The idea of ones self can only survive so much twisting and rearranging before it emerges something new, and the idea of Anon has turned to something different. Under the habituation of psychotropic medicine, I am reborn.
The death date on my tombstone is months off, possibly years. Anon died mid-winter, in the budding segment of 2015.I am told that my true thoughts are not safe. That I am only a well-functioning individual when under the heavy blanket of medicine. I'd argue that how I feel off medicine is more my thoughts than any fleeting ideas I feel on medicine. My mental state has fallen so far, I feel so close to a psychotic break. Perhaps I've been living one for the past 8 months.
Be happy for me. I'm moving on the whatever's next, for better or worse. (Please cremate me and sell all my stuff to pay for the funeral, I love you mom, dad, and Anonston, Anonette)
I hope it's quiet there
John Doe 07/06/15 (Mon) 23:20:43 781a8e No. 9745
definitely not leaving a note
no matter how full and honest you think you are being, it does not answer your families questions, they will obsess over it forever
what the hell can you say anyway, suicide will never ever make sense to a normal human being with something to live for
"brain 2 rekt 2 live"
John Doe 07/07/15 (Tue) 01:04:31 781a8e No. 9756
Done some more reading and apparently the majority of suiciders do not leave a note.
However because the note is a big occurrence in tv/movies/books, families have come to expect one. They go mad looking for notes that don't exist for months and years even.
That makes me feel awful.
But on the other hand, when notes are left, most people just use them to leave instructions. Families read them expecting huge answers, but they mostly just stuff like "please take care of my dog kthx". They don't get any sort of answers from this crap and it brings them no peace.
Not sure what to do now. Leaning towards no note.