>>6454
Damn, Looking at the top part of this picture wakes up interesting feelings in me, all of a sudden. Is this normal? Do you have more pictures like this? I never thought of suicide much because I've never had much worries in life.
But I'm 23 and I haven't achieved anything in life, no skills, no friends, never had a girlfriend etc. and although I'm generally happy in life, I think I will face some harsh reality sooner or later.
I think there will be a point in my life, maybe next year, maybe in 10 years or 20 years, that I'll just have to go up there and jump. Maybe when I will find myself with no food or shelter, I will just go and jump, simple as that.
I think might be stupid. In high school I'd do math with my mom for hours every day for months, and then I'd barely pass the exams anyway.
Again, I'm not depressed. I don't feel much when I think about suicide except sadness, which isn't even that strong. When Iooked at this picture I got very sad, but 20 minutes later I feel better again.
I think it's strange because I spend most of my time listening to music and I feel very intensive emotions then. But again, not sadness. It's usually happiness or melancholy, sentimentalism. Not much sadness or depression
The things I feel sad about when I look at this picture is that I'm disappointing and hurting the community. This high building I stand on was built by humans who had ambitions. The people down there are going somewhere and there is probably goodness in them. I don't want to ruin their days. I want to do good, but I'm lazy
I feel almost at peace now. Damn, I'm pretty fucking happy in life, why