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1a4793 No.7733
I'm wondering what we lack. We share the despair, the feeling it won't get better, the feeling of burden on others.
Can you picture something that would make you happy? No matter how outlandish? I just want to be held by someone who will love me forever.
fcb1ae No.7739
I can, but it would be impossible to achieve at this point. I've pretty much been in pursuit of the same impossible (for me at least) dream since I turned 13. I just want to live a peaceful quiet solitary life. Schizophrenia took my solitude, and tinnitus stole my quiet.
fcb1ae No.7740
I really wish there were an afterlife that would return to me the happy life misfortune stole from me.
bab811 No.7748
> Can you picture something that would make you happy?
Some massive changes in society. I would be happy If people were not materialistic, if people asked why something should be done instead of how it should be done, if people followed the Law of Jante.
52ef67 No.7763
>>7733Not being a social retard, not overanalyzing interactions or how others look at me.
Not having social phobia or depression (though I suppose the two feed one another)
Having friends, a fwb would be nice.
Not wanting to jump out of a window everyday would be a plus.
545993 No.7765
If I could just go back 7 months, and stop it all from happening. But, I don't think happiness is achievable anymore.
187ada No.7766
>>7733I'd just want to go back to December of last year, I wasn't perfect then, but I was able to maintain myself and be myself even though I still felt pretty bad.
Things are just terrible now, I can't control my own thoughts, I'm mentally regressing in parts of my mind, I can't feel like I used to. I really have improved myself in the past three years but as of say, three months ago I've lost all that I've built up and my brain is just fucking me over. I don't want to be in the position I'm in now but my brain just keeps pushing new shit into me and expecting me to swallow it all.
If I could have a genie pop out right in front of me and offer me three wishes I'd only accept one and that would be to go back to who I was before all of this shit got worse.
712be7 No.7776
>>7733I'd like to know ._.
2c5d51 No.7777
facial aesthetics
2c5d51 No.7778
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facial aesthetics>>7777
check em
if any of you faggots had facial aesthetics you'd be getting ripe jailbait pussy left and right and you wouldn't give a shit about the 'reason' you wanna end yourself…. if you had facial aesthetics you wouldn't even have these 'reasons'… people with good genes and face don't suffer… the rock was a bum and just walked into a contract cause of his physical appearance, which was genetic
fcb1ae No.7779
3415a4 No.7781
Changing world nature laws and humanity live in a world where like in MMORPGS you could choose how you will be…but none of that will ever happen so there's no hope,no future,no happiness is all empty,ranking,violence and sex.
99241d No.7784
>>7733At this point, I just want to die. I'm tired of having to put up with life's faggotry.
If there's an afterlife, I'm going to be really pissed off.
9fd897 No.7789
7778
Thats the dumbest thing i've read. I get compliments for my looks all the time, still doesnt make anything about my brain better.
545993 No.7792
>>7778That's not even close to how it works. I don't think that being attractive is enough for most people dude, that's pretty ignorant to say all we need is to look good.
3183f7 No.7802
I just want to see her again. She took her own life. I am told that when you commit suicide you go to a "bad place". Well good or bad, if there's a chance to visit her, I'm taking it. I got closer to her than ever before, but I wasn't fast enough.
>>7778That's wrong. I've always had good facial aesthetics. Certain girls do flirt with me, but I'm the type who has to feel a connection. It's like I'm more in tune with this world. I can sense the hollow empty husks that some women are, and the rare ones full of life and beauty come along in a great while.
>>7789This. My brain tortures me about what I could have done to save her all day every day. The more light I could have shed into her life. If I was more positive and complimented her more often. If my consciousness could only travel back in time, everything right would've been done. Besides, my personality has always been like the terminator. I'll never make any girl feel better about herself. More might kill themselves as I awkwardly stare at them as they complain about their bodies or looks. I've had about enough of my awkward social retardation.
8a1058 No.7803
I just want to have my normal sense of touch back.
8a1058 No.7804
>>7740This too.
I sometimes imagine that people who commit suicide get taken to a higher plane where they can jump into their body at any point in their life, but with the same knowledge they had until the committed suicide; thus allowing them to correct their mistakes, etc.
3183f7 No.7805
>>7804This would be nice. However, I struggled to force out what I wanted to say the first time and never said all of it. What I did say, it wasn't enough. Somebody should make a movie of that. It could be Terminator: the Romance Chronicles. The girl tries to get herself noticed, and he just stares at her akwardly. Then she kills herself. That's my life in a nutshell.
d2c3a7 No.7807
I should be happy right now, but I'm not. been fucking anxious as fuck all day and on the drive home from hanging out with people I was full blown panicking for most of the ride. Threw up from anxiety when I got home and just laying in bed now. Nothing can help me but medication and therapy.
b07664 No.7812
If I were intelligent and had a normal voice, I'd be happy.
19ba87 No.7833
Love, acceptance, safety, freedom
And on the last point, more specifically freedom from other people other than a few likeminded individuals.
Also I wish I had more control over myself. All of these unnecessary insecurities, they feel unnatural and like they're just getting worse.
ac2cc9 No.7835
It would make me happy if I had an electrode implanted in my brain that I could activate as much as I want with a push of a button that would stimulate the pleasure center of my brain.
Kind of like this
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pleasure_center#Rodent_experiments bbf5ab No.7843
Someone to love
>inb4 "WIth a Little Help From My Friends" by the Beatles
d9a886 No.7852
I dont even know what happiness is, I vomit whenever I see overly cheerful people, not even in dreams could I picture myself like that and seems fake as fuck anyway. So im going to assume happiness is a state of mind where youre calm, satisfied at the current situation and ready to face the future.
If I had to choose something that made my life better and closer to happiness itd be:
Money, lots of it
Better genetics
But most importantly meaning, as in something not man made up (or at least something guaranteed to leave a longlasting effect potentially beyond humanity, like making some sort of groundbreaking scientific discovery, think going faster than light or something similar in meaning yet possible, ive always had a fascination with space and sci fi) to wake up everyday and struggle through this shitty life, I could go through hell and back and die in the most horrible way imaginable.
5906b2 No.7853
Getting away from all of the toxic people in my life, who have only ever hurt and abused me.
Having the means to do something with my life. Like the money to go to college and the intelligence to be able to get a good career out of that. I have neither.
Someone who will love me unconditionally, even knowing all the bad things about me, seeing my worst side, still loving me despite that.
Being able to somehow erase the past because I'm so caught up in guilt and hatred for myself, I can't move on. I can't even talk myself out of feeling this way because I know I am legitimately a bad person and there's no fooling myself.
139a35 No.7855
>>7835Pretty sure that would transform your pleasure center into pudding and then you'd be unable to ever good.
545993 No.7867
Drugs. Lots and lots of drugs, with a safe place to do them. Either overdose or kill myself when I rub out.
8241dd No.7884
>>7733I just want to get away from people. I hate most of them. Nothing but brainless drones, and most of them are sociopaths or psychopaths. I think those with empathy do 'an hero' eventually.
It's all pointless anyways, wake up, do shit to survive, wait for the next shit that comes out to take your mind off of death. I'm only waiting to fall asleep again every day.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=flz9WK3zl9A d1368d No.7888
>>7802>I can sense the hollow empty husks that some women are, and the rare ones full of life and beauty come along in a great while.And there are a lot of empty husk out there
Just women and men. But I would say 97% of women and 80% of men are like that.
2c8dc1 No.7916
A country that hasn't gone to shit with zero prospects of getting better.
>nowhere else to emigrate to
8d1970 No.7917
I have always thought that living should be a personal choice because not everyone might like living (I don't; it's merely an obligation imposed on me). It would make me a bit happier if people understood this.
52ef67 No.7926
Hookers and coke. Harem of sluts. I dunno.
ac2cc9 No.7928
>>7855
>Pretty sure that would transform your pleasure center into pudding and then you'd be unable to ever good.
No it's been done with animals before, they simply pleasure themselves to death. It's a win win, you get to be happy AND kill yourself
15ab9d No.7931
If I wasn't so clumsy. If I didn't break everything and ruin everything. I can't even keep a laptop for over a year without dropping it or something. I break every pair of headphones I buy within a few months tops of buying them. I disappoint everyone and every hope is false hope.
f8e821 No.7939
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HdiOPQLnHto
>Sometimes I dream about and island in the Mediterranean Sea with a lighthouse where I go on a boat at evening. I can see all the stars at night.
>And somehow, I feel forgiven.
15f7fd No.7941
Probably having prevented mental illness from ever starting ever since I was 11 and not having taken all those pharmaceutical and recreational drugs for 8 years.
Impossible now.
29f578 No.7957
>>7887
Ha yeah. I'm part of the problem, not for long though.
e11a41 No.7963
I literally cannot imagine any situation in which I truly believe I would be happy.
7247d8 No.7966
>>7733
I really hate admitting it because it makes me sound like a bitch but I'd be happy if I were female
8b1c2e No.7997
aa7cc0 No.8027
A world where people don't feel as if they have to die to be happy or at peace.
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b91585 No.8081
Freedom, friends, and lovers. In a nutshell that's all I want out of life. In detail, I wanted desperately to build a business so I could have financial freedom and be free from poverty and the life of a worker. I want friends. Real friends. Not internet friends, not friendly acquaintances, not a girlfriend/boyfriend. People who like me for me and want to be in my life. And finally lovers. Have you ever had sex? Scratch that. Have you ever had GOOD sex? Not to mention I'm a very sexual person. Sex makes me feel confident in myself and the closeness and feeling of being desired is a base need.
I suppose that's a lot to want. But I know that's what I'd need to be happy. Unfortunately, life stole my business, friends, and doesn't afford me many lovers. So I'm not happy.
855ee5 No.8093
>>7733
I want to live in a homogenous white country and have plenty of friends that genuinely want to hang out and not just be friends to get a one night stand with some girl or be friends with me for monetary gain.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RYbe-35_BaA
16af26 No.8501
I just want to die. Never really quite had an explanation. Sometimes when something good happens to me I ask myself whether I still want to kill myself and the answer is always yes. Been this way since I was 11.
e51a00 No.8502
>>8093
Hold on to that purity of mind, thou shalt not kill.
cdb5b9 No.8508
Non-existence.
Life doesn't hold any pleasure for me any more. I don't get any pleasure from it and I don't seek anything from it. An eternal sleep without a sense of being is all I want.
The only thing that scares me from suicide is the prospect of the possibility that I'm just going to pop up somewhere else sometime else as someone else and live all over again, forever and ever.
2ba896 No.8516
I think it's to late for me. I don't want anything. I don't know the concept of wanting anything, nor do I deserve anything.
Like my parents are going to a foreign country with their children (including me), but I don't understand why. Why would they want me. What can I bring? Is it some bizarre idea they have of the outcome, and that somehow I will be a positive contribution?
I don't want to do anything, it will only be dissepointing for all parts and it'll be my fault because "I'm not n ormal".
Why do anything, it's all an effort. Why would I get a job, when I don't believe that I could manage said job. Why would someone pay me for that? And all the "solutions" are doing shit that is really uncomfortable.
What would make me happy? I have no idea.
I guess living in a small commune with homegrown stuff, a beautiful white wife and a couple of other families and stuff.
0f6560 No.8608
There was only one person who made me happy, but she's gone now. T^T I just want someone to love and cuddle.
8f4e1a No.9360
>Can you picture something that would make you happy?
Heroin
00cd17 No.9980
>>7733
expecting an relationship to solve your problems is unrealistic
968c3a No.11124
It depends. In the realms of reality (though in real life it's impossible it would actually happen), be a US citizen, finished high school with grades that could get me into college, go to college, reasonable chance at getting an at least okay job and living an okay to good life if I work hard and generally a fair (in my opinion) chance at life.
Out of the realms of reality I mean I could go on building a utopia universe, though in this world, 150+ million dollars, though I'd probably only use around 5 million if not less in my life time, mostly probably on hobbies, firearms, cars, etc, the rest just there in case I wanted it. US citizenship. No mental health issues or physical health issues. As well because of having the money to support myself it would mean choosing a career I actually wanted to do, like a doctor, a vet, a pediatrician or not work at all and concentrate on other things like my hobbies if I wanted to, or just keep going further up in education. I think that thinking about these type of things maybe gives me a false sense of hope.
84b079 No.14123
What would make me happy?
> get off this shitplanet/dimension and into a better one
> be reborn in my ideal body and never have to deal with gender dypshoria or daily cancer pains again
> waifu is real – get married to him and live a blissful romantic life forever
> explore cosmos and go on adventures for eternity
Yeah, those are some high standards, I admit. But if I can't have that kind of perfection (even in an afterlife) then settling for a million dollars and a nice house would be okay, I guess (as well as access to a peaceful death, which I will inevitably need)