/suicide/ - Suicide Tips & Tricks

>Where do you wanna wake up in the afterlife?

I don't.

I want the bliss of eternal oblivion and non-existence. I don't want to keep coming back.

Animu land.

Nothingness or a world where you can choose like in a MMORPG creator or >>9152

A dreamlike eternity of tranquility in which I have no needs or limits.

The last time was clinically dead for an absurdly long period of time, it was a tortuously slow descent into oblivion, then an agonizing crawl out of it. The concept of an afterlife is the dream of a craven coward that fears the void.

Having been dead, that's all I really want anymore, but extended misery has killed all of my wants, which is all that keeps me alive, I guess.

I want it to be like a lucid dream that stretches out forever

I want to wake up in this world, but just in another, better age.

>>9148

Wherever God wants me to end up, I'm fine with.

I don't give a shit if its heaven, hell, or nothing.

If its reincarnation I'll flip my fucking shit though

>>9310

Well, it was from my heart stopping, so it was caused by slow suffocation. After a while, it didn't really hurt. I was more aware of the fact that higher functions were shutting down, and some concept of pieces of the self were being shut off. Best metaphor I have for it is, imagine the whole of your self as a jigsaw puzzle suspended above a void. Pieces begin breaking off and falling into oblivion. The last piece isn't fun.

Then everything was off. No perception of time or anything. Not blackness. When you pause a movie, do the characters just idle around waiting for you to resume? No, it's just a slice of "no event". Brain was pretty much out of oxygen, no blood flow, no blood pressure, no respiration. So everything that defines "person" was shut off, and I suppose only the last vestiges of "meat machine" were on, if they weren't almost off as it was.

Then it all went in reverse order when my heart decided that going on vacation was a bad idea.

>>9337

Do you remember everything going in slow motion?

>>9337

Not in the slightest what I experienced haha

I want to be woken up with a kiss from Russell Tovey in Middle Earth.

>>9337

Thank you.

The place I was before I was born. I want to go back.

>Where do you wanna wake up in the afterlife?

I don't know. I feel like I'm inherently inclined to believe in some eternal "soul" (whatever it may be). But if my soul is eternal than death can only lead to more of the same thing forever.

Also when dealing with terms like "eternity" wether I die now, having spent only 18-ish (I'm 23 now) years being aware of how shit existence is, or spending 10,000 years of awareness of shit life, has no difference. In infinity every thing is neutralized.

eternal recurrence, nietzsche, etc.

>>9425

>my soul is eternal *(comma) then

>*whether

I'm drunk cut me some slack

>>9342

No, when my vision, hearing, and kinesthetic senses shut off, there was no perception of time passing, only a gradual decline in the capacity for thought.

>>9344

Like I said, my experience was caused by slow suffocation from my heart fucking off, not physical trauma or some other thing that can cause temporary death, so eh.

>>9356

Welcome. I did have some sense of oblivion right before everything shut off, but it's like seeing the light shut off as you close the refrigerator door, or perceiving infinity. Tensing some perceptual muscle. Hard to do for more than the most ephemeral of moments. I suppose I could describe it as being aware of the vast emptiness of the gulf between galaxies, but in an inversely small space, but only for an instant.

I should perhaps write about my stupid experiences, like being paralyzed, and being blind. Maybe put the anecdotes in a book with my custom cookie recipes and such.

>>9148

Either nothingess or to be a ghost that can just watch over random people and follow them around.

The idea of being invisible and following people around for their entire lives is really intersting to me, it sounds like endless entertainment. Until the world explodes or something and I am left with nothing to watch for eternity.

>afterlife = your dreams/imagination

I just want to fall asleep and never wake up. I don't believe in this reincarnation crap. The only thing I fear is that hell would turn out to be real. Idk I grew up in a religious home and suicide basically means you'll suffer eternal hell.

>>11284

Dad isn't some horrible, unfeeling monster whose only thought is to punish those who walk out early. All-knowing, all-loving, and all-forgiving doesn't exactly translate to, "Those who give up aren't worthy of going to Heaven."

Dad knows we're suffering, he knows what we go through 24/7 and he definitely knows that not everyone is going to have some kind of "awakening" where they suddenly fix everything and don't kill themselves. People commit suicide. People lose their battle against life. People walk out on it because they see the next day as inevitable suffering. I'm sure He gets that. He gets all of us, better than we even get ourselves.

If there even IS a Hell, it's not a place for the likes of us. The idea of Hell is completely flawed anyway, since the whole point of punishment is rehabilitation, not complete eternal oblivion. Personally I don't believe there is a Hell, but even if there is, it's not something you throw your kids into.

I wouldn't worry about it so much, anon. We're already in Hell.

>>11286

Yeah I'm with you completely on that he's a hypocrite at best. You feel pity for those who go through the worst things in life the last thing I'd put them through is more suffering.

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>>11286

>it's not something you throw your kids into

>We're already in Hell

anything is possible I'm 'noided

Indiana, 2001.

:l

>>9148

Nowhere.

That's the entire point of killing myself. To not have to deal with consciousness.

The astral/higher plane obviously. From where I'd go right to >>9152

An eternal peaceful dreamless sleep. Comfort forever with no worries, needs, urges, or ego. I want there to be a warming, loving presence there with me at all times.

But I know it will probably be oblivion and that is okay. I like that too.

Six years ago.

>>11484

This

There are many specific points I would go back to

But I wouldn't want to relive my entire life

I would like it if after I died I woke up as myself when I took that hit of DMT that "didn't work", and this all turned out to be a hyperrealistic dream

But I wouldn't want to condemn myself to staying here either, so I'm not sure

Oblivion. The only way I would be even remotely okay with any sort of reincarnation would be if I get to not have brain problems the next time around.

>>9461

>I should perhaps write about my stupid experiences, like being paralyzed, and being blind. Maybe put the anecdotes in a book with my custom cookie recipes and such

I would read it.

As corny and stupid as this sounds, I'd ideally like to wake up to wherever the guy I'm in love with goes. If he goes to oblivion then okay sure I'll take that. If he goes to hell though then I'd probably have to think about it, I love him and all but there's probably just gonna be a lot of screaming and stuff, I don't really see the relationship going anywhere like that.

>>11881

>>11880

Fuck, I same-fagged.