/suicide/ - Suicide Tips & Tricks

>>9201

I'm 84 yrs old and been thinking about it for nigh on 70 yrs

It's a gonna happen one of these days

>>9201

>Do you want to die, mommy?

>"No"

>Me either, because if I want to die then I'll go to hell

…

>"Wow, what a strange question coming from a five-year-old. My son must have a learning disability."

It's a good thing you can't get a driver's license until you're 16 or so. My first suicide idea was driving as fast as I could in the wrong direction on the highway. That was what I wanted to do for a while when I was little. Pretty fucked up for autism.

I've got far safer ways that I can die now if I choose to do so. In fact, my death will reduce the harm that I cause to others.

>>9206

If you're not lying and you really are 84 then that's pretty depressing. You're 60 years older than me. It really never does get better, does it?

Don't remember the first time I truly contemplated suicide but the first 10 years of my life were filled with thoughts of just wishing I wasn't alive. Had a pretty warped and twisted childhood living with a mother who just wasn't stable mentally who made us live in filth and literal shit.

Back when I was 12 I already had been trough 3 nervous breakdowns/ burn-outs. That was when I decided if life would suck for another 12 years, I'd off myself. Since then it would have officially have been more than 50% of life suffering.

My method back then would have been drowning. Just going for a swim with a nice piece of concrete.

>>9210

How will your continuing living on harm others?

I was 12. I thought about hanging myself a lot. I also tried starving myself at that age, got around 4 days in, was feeling well enough, but the will to live reared its ugly head.

I should try again.

>>9240

Drowning is actually supposed to be pretty quick and painless once you get past the gag reflex and panic.

>>9250

It's funny when you feel how strongly your body wants to live even though your mind doesn't.

>>9253

Drowning is still pretty attractive, but helium seems even better nowadays.

>>9263

See >>8615

>>9225

>70 FUCKING YEARS OF PAIN because he's too pussy to kill himself

>pretty cool

>>9253

I think I would prefer argon, it's a Nobel gas so it will be scentless. Basically you suffocate without knowing

>>9270

Any of the inert gasses work, Ni, Ar, He are all common choices. Nitrous oxide would be pretty cool, but it's somewhat regulated and if people started offing themselves with it the red tape would get a lot strict (like what happened with cyanide after that bored Bong girl killed herself with it).

Not really suicide, but when I was about six I made up my mind that when I turned thirteen, by then I'd be dead. Didn't come to pass, unfortunately.

When I was a kid and realised that no matter where I went I would be bullied and people wouldn't stop being scum.

>>10177

If it's just other people directly antagonizing you, that can be dealt with.

I've thought about it for as long as I can remember. I thought about jumping in front of cars, jumping out of them, or drowning myself. Nowadays, I'm planning on shooting myself in the head.

i don't remember how old i was but i could not have been older then 7, i was on this cliff over the ocean with my sis and her friend and my sister left me with her friend to go do something i don't remember and i was standing at the edge looking down at the sharp rocks and my sisters friend told me not to fall cause she would go to jail if i did or something like that and i thought about jumping off not cause i was depressed but because of the apathy i felt for life, i ended up not doing it cause i would have felt bad if she went to jail for something i did, i think back now and wish i would have jumped

about 13. that's about the time that i realized mood swings and having been raped a lot wasn't normal. being on prozac triggered the lingering, permanent feeling when i was about 14.

Was about 8 years, my family always fought and yelled. Couldn't sleep good for weeks. My dad abused and beat the shit out of my sister as well as my mother. Hated everything looked for a way out, thought about jumping off this huge highway bridge near my house

I was 13 when Mohamed Bouazizi killed himself sparking protests in Tunisia. I wanted to do something similar.

>>10260

>having been raped a lot

>boo hoo my vagina has had dick

You know, some of us have had babysitters touch our junk and throttle our dicks at 9. I've even met women that were molested and liked it, did nothing about it. Society's a fucking retard when it comes to that. Come back when you have real problems.

>>10295

>rape

>not a real problem

>>10297

Women can't be raped - their vaginas were literally designed to have a dick go inside of them, and the fact that the overwhelming majority of women have an orgasm during surprise sex indicates that it is a perfectly natural thing for a man to do.

>>10315

Well, imagine getting shagged by a filthy 70 year old woman. You might still orgasm but you wouldn't enjoy it beyond a basic physical level.

I've wanted to "disappear" for as long as I can remember.

It was only when I was twelve that I put two and two together and realized killing myself was an option (which was because I was a fucking retard afraid of going up).

9 years old. I would sit in class and fantasize that there were four shotguns in each corner of the classroom precisely tracking my head, ready to end the misery of being me at any time I decided it was time.

>>10342

>>10315

That's actually incredibly fucking stupid. No one should be forced to have sex if they don't want it, ever. Curb your edge.

I jumped off a slide head first when I was 6 or 7

>>10295

>>10315

some of you are really fucking autistic, no wonder you are girlfriendless virgins…. just bc you can't get poon…

>>9206

You've already waited for 70 years. At this point I'd just live through the few years left. That's like trying to swim across a river, give up halfway and come back. Seems pretty pointless at this point.

>>10356

I don't know, man. I don't know the status of that guy's health, but if it's not failing already, it's going to start soon. I would bail before that happens because I hear failing health sucks balls.

It's impossible for guys to get raped by women, they can only get hard if they're turned on, it's simple science. Plus women are weak and it's easy for a guy to stop her from raping him. - coming from a female poster :)

>>10371

wanna fuck?

I had a short period while I was 11 when I was homeschooled which I spent, among other things, reading my first Nietzsche. For the first time, I was really awakened to the full freedom of action; I could feel myself jumping in front of every car, stabbing everyone I passed with my knife, stealing everything I could fit in my pockets, and generally doing all the things most people don't even consider because they're "immoral," as well as some more that just aren't thought of. Ever since then, whenever I walk up to a steep precipice, I know I have a choice to jump off or stay put. I've always chosen to keep living, but I feel in my gut that it's something I've chosen to do many times, a couple times earned through skill and fortitude, not just the default. I could leave whenever I wish with the hunting gun in my closet, so every moment, the choice is there.

I spent some time reading posts on a newsgroup for suicide discussion when I was nearly out of my teenage years in the early 2000s. It wasn't an especially consuming thought for me then, as I still seemed to have a future ahead of me. More serious thoughts of suicide came a few years later, and the method I thought of most highly, not that I had the chops to build one, was that of the DIY guillotine. I imagined incorporating some sort of timing mechanism that would dispatch me in my sleep. The point of this was that, in the unlikely event that every step went right, it seemed to be the most effective, least painful method that I could possibly have access to, while at the same time leaving a salvageable facial situation for the undertaker to deal with in the event my family would like to see me one last time.

As you can imagine, as inert gas has become more well known in recent years, my preference has shifted to that one. If there's an afterlife, a lot of the suicides, on meeting some of the new arrivals in their section, must be asking themselves, "Why the hell didn't I think of that?"

>>10417

I used to think about a guillotine at one time myself, but like you I have also come to the conclusion that inert gas is definitely the best way to go.

>>10419

You need some serious fucking skillz to build yourself a guillotine.

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/uknews/1428408/Suicide-by-DIY-guillotine-and-an-ingenious-timing-device.html

Amazing dedication. This builder quit work 3 MONTHS before his death to build one in his own workshop, so he could die in his sleep.

>>10421

But he didn't die in his damn sleep. Consciousness and slow suffocation via exsanguination are what await those who are decapitated.

>uhhhh buhhhh how would you know

When your heart stops working for an extended period of time, your body is basically NOPE, NOT THERE, CAN'T FIND IT to your brain. Then the brain starts shutting down. The last light turned off is panic without a rational mind to govern it.

So you're better off using a shotgun or explosives to paste your brain in as short number of milliseconds as you can manage.

>>10425

Decapitation results in immediate loss of blood pressure to the brain, with unconsciousness following in a few seconds. Ligature strangulation method works on a similar principle by compressing the carotid arteries.

I was sort of depressed all my life. In middle school especially. I was a loner. My only friend was an older guy I met online. We connected because he dealt with depression as well. One day he killed himself while I was watching. That's the first time I thought about suicide.

I can remember as early ass 8-9 years old thinking about shoving a big kitchen knife through my chest.

7 years old.

I was mercilessly bullied in school and I thought a nice way to go would be hanging myself with jump ropes in a secluded area on the playground. I actually went through with it but was unsuccessful "obviously"

>>10342

you are incredibly embarrassing

i remembered being about 3 and thinking about shooting myself. my depression continues. i cut still.

>>11661

edit: ive had depression all my life also.

It's possible I thought about it earlier but the earliest I can think of now is age 11, back in 6th grade. Feels fucked up how early it is, like I cheated myself out of good teenage years and even childhood.

>>10295

This guy is a fucking faggot.

>>11690

>mental illness

>cheating yourself

Blame your parents for bringing you here in the first place.

Probably 11, when I was abandoned by my mother, and ended up homeless. The only thing that stopped me was the knowledge that I didn't know how to guarantee a quick and painless death, and didn't want to end up a quadriplegic on a morphine drip.

when i was about 16-17 i was thinking about stuffing my school backpack with rocks and walking then swimming out as far as I could go at low tide so no one could recover my body

Age 8. It's called moving to New Mexico

When I was 11 and my parents told me that they couldn't home school me anymore and I had to go to public middle school. I was home alone, holding a kitchen knife, sobbing and wishing I had the balls to slash my wrists open.

>>11793

Are you a Pat the Bunny fan?

I don't remember exactly because my memory is patchy as fuck (thank you drugs) but I do remember being 16 being friendless, bullied, failing school and my mum said something like 'you're gonna be in deep trouble if you keep failing and get kicked out' and I said something like 'i won't be here much longer anyway so it doesn't matter'.

I waa cutting and depressed as fuck at that point so suicide probably crossed my mind before then but I don't really remember much about my life prior to 4 years ago. I also told my mum I was gonna kill her when I was like 8 so death was always something I thought about while young.

I've always entertained the idea of suicide as long as I can remember, at least as early as the age of 8 or so. Didn't really try it until I was 16. I used to be sorta miffed I didn't shoot myself back then but these days I realize I was aiming the gun in the entirely wrong way and I probably wouldn't have actually died. Still have that gun though, I will probably try it out again sometime soon.

>>10371

This is bait right?

I was about 9 when my bright, happy vision of the world faded, and at age 12 I realized I was depressed. At age 13 I was depressed as shit, but not really suicidal. Age 14 and I want to die pretty much, life is going meh but I feel bleh. 15 and I am contacting a friend with a gun and saying bye to my other friends. Nothing left for me.

>>9225

Except he's waisted the last 70 years of his life thinking about suicide, instead of actually living.

I think I was 14 and had sex. Consensual non-rape sex, I should admit. I've been self harming at that time and family was trouble - but there was no abuse or rape.

He was the second guy I had sex with and 9 years older. (Germany here, so this was even pretty much legal). He choked me. Put pressure on the blood vessels. I faded and woke up soaking wet. From that point on I realized that I wanted to die. The thoughts started to become suicidal soonish afterwards.

But up until now I didn't found the guts to do it. Probably I'll never have. But the thought will stay at my side.

I was 7 years old when I put a gun up to my head and pulled the trigger. To my dismay, it was an airsoft gun that my siblings painted to look like a real gun and it only hurt my head.

From what I remember, there was some significance of the number that doubled my age (in this case, 14), and I got it in my head that I had to die at that age (7). I think it was something like I couldn't imagine being alive at 14, but I could imagine 13 and 15. Somehow I think that turned into the world needed me to die at a specific age. This idea happened again when I was 9, 10, and 12.

I wonder if I'm still schizophrenic.

ever since a year ago.

It took me many months to get over the fact of how much harm it would cause to my family, but then it got to the point where it was so bad that i didn't care about any of that anymore, and a while after that i started trying to die.

i haven't succeeded yet but i'll get there. hopefully.

>>9201

I was like 10-11

I wanted to run in front of the cars in front of the playground.

I tried strangling myself with an electrical cord at age 8.

>>9201

I don't know, 8 or 9 years old or so. Ironically it was after I got started on antidepressants. Before that I was an extremely creepy and weird, but harmless kid. I wanted to strangle myself or rip my eyeballs out, but even then I knew that the eyes alone wouldn't be enough to kill me.

>>10291

Forgot to mention, I meant the Arab Spring

Since I graduated high school and fell behind the rest of the pack.

I feel particularly suicidal when a friendship has/is going to shit.

>>12353

woops

I always would just take my dad's gun and shoot myself. That or jump in a frozen ass lake

At 10 I remember my first attempt being trying to jam a dull knife into my chest and hitting my sternum. I wasn't a smart child, but I was spunky.

I was 13…8 years this bullshit

Tried strangling myself with an extension cord when I was 9. Managed to knock myself out for a little while. I wasn't the brightest kid.

>>12456

didn't realize i already posted lol.

I can't remember, was i 8 or 9? 10 maybe?

Held a knife to my throat a few times when i was around 12-13, didn't go through with it because i didn't want to make my dad sad. That is still the only reason why i havent done it. When he dies, i'll probalby do it. My only reason to live for many years, have been the feelings of other people, and people still have the nerve to call me selfish.

When I was 13-15 I remember i took a power cable from my electronics department stripped it and replaced the fuse with copper wire so I could put it in a bathtub of salted water and boom

>>9201

12 I began self-harm and decided I should kill myself before I turn 13

Because I had gotten used to cutting I thought I would do it that way

I can't remember exactly. I remember being 13 and distinctly planning how I wanted to disguise my suicide as an accident when I was 25 by driving over a cliff.

>>10315

>Men can't be raped - their assholes were literally designed to have a dick go inside of them, and the fact that the overwhelming majority of men have an orgasm during prostate exams indicates that it is a perfectly natural thing for a man to do.

kill yourself

Surprisingly, I never thought about suicide as a child, despite being depressed as long as I can remember being able to form thoughts.

My first serious thoughts about killing myself didn't occur until I was put on antidepressants. The first time I skipped my pills, I became all out psychotic and remember crying and wanting to die for no reason (yet every reason.)

I wish I had never taken them. Sure, they stopped he constant panic attacks that caused me to drop out of school, but my brain was irreparably damaged in the long run.

i remember having thoughts about it since i was about 16, though the first time i actually seriously thought about it was when i was 19, and so far it has been growing stronger and stronger

>>9201

I remember choking myself with a piece of fabric in class when I was about 11 (latter half of 5th grade). I was nearly unconscious when the teacher took it away from me, and was coughing pretty badly a few seconds later. Nothing was really done about it outside of that. I got into emo shit at the ripe old age of 17 and started cutting myself yes, I know I'm a faggot and thought a lot about it back then, though I probably never seriously contemplated it. Now, I really think it's just a better alternative to being a loser for the rest of my life.

>>10177

Feels. the problem was/is us, though