>>4364Thanks for your answer :)
>and that the post ejaculation haze could make me not have desires that haunt me, I forgot about the way that I felt, the desire to be a girl.i felt something similar, after ejaculation, my sexual desires almost disappeared, but not at all, i felt confusion thinking things like "if i´m a boy why i want to be like a girl?" also made me lots of promises of don´t thinking about being a girl but always continued doing it…
>Now, I'm turning 20, a little overweight, broad shouldered and hairy. My body feels disgusting and I hate being in it.i feel the same, but i must say i don´t hate my genitals, so i would´nt go for a SRS
>Another confusing part for me is that I am mostly attracted to women. In my visions of life, both as a girl and a guy, I see myself settling down with a woman. I feel perverse for simultaneously wanting to be with a woman, and to be a woman. another thing i feel identified with you, i feel emotionally attracted to girls, but sexually i want to be a girl, also physically i´d prefer to be a girl
>I want to transition, but I'm afraid it will ruin my lifei´d love to transition too but also i´m afraid of doing it, the last year i tried to do a test, but unfortunately i did´nt found the hormones easy, only found the t-blocker but this was too expensive so it could be difficult for me to stay buying both u_u…
someone said me to make a try by 2-3 weeks, she told me if by that time i still wanted to continue that was the signal to do it, but if not, i must stop immediately, sadly i couldn't do that try so i still confused :S
another thing i must say is not always think about being a girl for erotic reasons, i don't need to have an erection thinking of it , also when i think about being a girl i feel invaded by a type of anxiety, i cant explain exactly how i feel