Last week my opsec was broke. My wife found out about TRS, the inside group, my youtube channel, everything. I eventually had to confess what I was doing despite initially denying obvious evidence of my alt right activities. I had to delete everything in a frenzy. It was made clear that I have to stop doing this or risk a likely divorce.
Not to say my wife is a blue pill. She was terrified because of the risk I put myself and my family in. While she isn't as aware of everything going on in the world as I am, she thought the fact that I was interacting with so many people I didn't really know and doing so many things considered socially unacceptable, I put my career and family in unnecessary risk. Better she found out than our enemies. How did she find out? Apparently I logged into my alt right facebook on the family computer and used groupon. Groupon somehow remembered the account despite me logging out of facebook. "Who's Kenneth?" spelt the end of my participation in the alt right when my wife went on to look for a family activity for the weekend.
I love my wife dearly. I regret keeping this from her and lying to her. But she has a point, there wasn't a great endgame for all this. Either she found out and got very very hurt (she was worried I would cheat on her as her ex did, but was also very mad I kept a secret from her) or someone else found out, or, who knows.
Being a married family guy in his late 30s and getting involved in this game is risky. (having a lot to lose, my bar license, my career, my home, my family I'm still 80K in debt from law school and I graduated over 10 years ago) Which is why being mocked for anonymity is such a biting insult because public figures with walking away money can't appreciate the risk of losing literally everything. If I lost my family I don't know if I could ever have another. My own family is largely dead.
With that being said this is a young, single guy's game. Either that or you have a spouse who is in it from the ground floor. I am neither, so it was a losing game from the start. I enjoyed it though. I really did. I found some sort of kinship with people I never saw and only occasionally spoke with. Which is kinda fucked up in a way.
I did learn a lot though, and I came to understand the world in a different way. I am not Mr. 1488, heil hitler, gas the kikes, race war now. But I am a lot smarter and very aware of who really runs things.
I am very very worried about the state of the world, but my belief in God and Jesus tells me that things will work out for the best in the end. All these things are meant to pass at some point. I just wanted a chance to make people laugh. Just a few parting notes for the people I interacted with most: