Hey Anons, first time posting here.
I’m stuck.
About a year ago I started making my tulpa, and I'm 95% sure she actually said something to me after about two weeks or so (I heard a GPS-like voice in my head say a single word out of absolute nowhere, clear as day). I active forced semi-regularly, mostly focusing on personality and visualization. Then exam season started, and before I knew it I'd gone nearly a year with only the very rare passive force as I went about my day. I decided to get back into it, and start giving her the attention she deserves, but, well… I have no idea what I’m doing.
I’ve read guides, but they always seem very vague. I’m pretty sure I’ve done enough personality forcing (but of course I’m not certain). I’ve always been good at visualization (I think?) and can pretty much picture her doing whatever on-the-fly, so I’m not sure if I need to work on that at all. When I do force personality and visualization, I never feel like I'm learning something new–just that I'm going over something I've covered before. In addition, she’s been very unresponsive. I tried setting up a system with yes/no head pressures, but I couldn’t get anything consistent or reliable. No waves of emotion, no suspicious thoughts, nothing. I was so certain I heard her voice last year, but now I’m not sure she’s even there.
I've apologized and asked her if she's upset with me for keeping her at the back of my mind for the better part of the year, but as I said, no discernible answer. How do I get her attention? Wake her up? Is she even sentient? How do I force when it feels like I never break new ground in my sessions?
I feel like she's still here, somewhere, but this uncertainty is really discouraging. Sorry if this is something you’ve all heard before, but I'm honestly at a loss as for how to proceed. Thanks.