How do I overcome my internalized strong misanthropy and anti-natalist leanings?
I want to stop hating everything so much but at the same time not turn into a cuck pacifist or a coward who fears conflict, I want to be able to face the world with a feeling of strength and vitality.
There is a real lack of love, belonging, shared purpose, etc. in my life.
I feel isolated, weak... and when I talk to most people I feel like I'm always having to assume a polarity I don't want to when I'd rather bypass it completely.
I don't want to accept thing as they are nor do I want to cower before the state of the world.
I feel that's the response of most people though. They either embrace this world and all the degeneracy in it or cower before it feeling guilt for desiring to fight it.
There's got to be some mental approach to the world I can take where I don't hate it, don't embrace it, but ... ah fuck it nobody is listening.