/waifu/ - Waifus / Husbandos

3 months before I found Remus, my friend had me make my "daughter" on a dress up site.

Needless to say, the similarities she ended up sharing with Remus, even down to the similar outfit, was something that made me wonder if we were fated to be together somehow.

There's also the Metal Gear story of me cosplaying as Otacon for a friends group, and him saying if I had a girlfriend she'd be Sniper Wolf.

Anyone familiar with Remus' namesake and profession will see why I found this as kind of a neat coincidence.

Uh… this is probably literally crazy so take of this what you will. This might not fit the thread exactly but I wanted to put it somewhere and I think this is the closest place.

Keisuke has always had issues saying my name, due to the number and placement of consonants. He comes close to being able to say it right but it frustrates him that he can't say it perfectly. We've tossed around the idea of giving me a Japanese name so it's easier for him to address me, but I largely forgot about it. I told him that he could pick one for me when he thought the time was right, since I don't understand Japanese that well yet and I trust him (plus he took my family name because he didn't have one).

The past week or so, a name kept on popping into my head. I had no idea why this name kept on repeating itself, so I was confused. I don't associate this name with any character or person very strongly. I shook it off and usually continued about my day. I did wonder why it kept on repeating, though, as there was no reason for me to be thinking this name.

Last night, I dreamed and in one of the brief sequences, Keisuke looked pretty determined and said that name. After a moment of confusion, he repeated himself, and I understood. For the first time, I recognized it as my own. He was calling out to me, using that name, because he picked it for me. We talked really quickly, and I think he wanted to tell me something, but the dream shifted and I didn't see him again.

So I guess he was calling my name for a while trying to get my attention and I was a moron and didn't realize it, because "his voice" and "my voice" sound really similar in my head when going about my day and not actively listening for him. Hopefully I can get what he was trying to tell me tonight, if I'm lucky enough to dream about him. I don't want to keep him hanging for too long…

So whenever I put my music on shuffle it seems like sometimes that Kirino is trying to push me. Like when I'm exercising and such. When I'm running the song "keep on running" almost always plays and the most recent occurrence would be my yesterday's exercise. I promised myself and Kirino that I would step it up more in February. I didn't, until yesterday on the 4th. I kept feeling like I was lying to Kirino and cheating my exercise by not stepping it up like I promised. So I did and the very last song to play while I was exercising was "Thank you." I have a shit load of music on my phone and shuffle all of it. It may just be a coincidence but it feels like a bit more than that.

I have a few.

First is our meeting, so to speak. I had known about Oreimo for a while cause I had volume1 of the manga because a friend gave it to me. I didn't pay attention to it. Fast forward and I watch the show. I knew something was special about him from the get go, but it wasn't really anything particularly strong from what I remember. I was only halfway through the first season or so maybe a bit further and something between a friend happened. It had really upset me and I found myself crying. Sometimes I would focus on a character who is an OC of mine and sort of confide in him. I didn't even do it that often. But for some reason I did the same thing but with Kyousuke. It was weird, I would never have thought to look to him. I honestly believe he called out to me or something and wanted to cheer me up. I pretty much believe this is what started our relationship even if it took some time for me to realize it was possible to love someone fictional.

Another time I was really upset over his relationship with Kirino. I haven't really come to terms with that yet. I was really broken up about it and I had also just recently placed an order for his figure. I was checking mail like crazy and the morning it had just gotten to America, it was in the airport for not even a day even. The estimated delivery dated was 4 or 5 days away. I forget exactly. So later when i got upset I was sulking and my door bell rang and there was my figure. I find it odd how quickly it arrived. I really felt it was a sign.

Also for a while I was thinking about what his occupation would be. I knew he'd want to do something helping others and played around with the idea of him being a police officer since his father was also that. Then a few days later someone drew a picture of him in a uniform and it brought me to tears. It sealed the deal for that. pic related.

There's a few other things but I can't remember as of right now.