I have never shot a gun in my life. I wear glasses so I don't know if I could fit my eye to a scope without problems. It has can see difficulty with microscope and binoculars in past.
I have little hope of finding a worthwhile mate for LTR. I like girl anime and lolis and cannot think of a feasible way to find a girl who does. I like adult succubi but would not be happy hiding myself.
I fear if I could find a job I would not be able to make a career out of it. I have a lurking fear I will be found out as a lolicon and blacklisted. I have already changed my legal name once because someone doxed me and called my mom. Luckily it was just to mess with me and they didn't tell her anything.
Police showed up at our old home years ago. Luckily for me it was when mom was at work and bro doesn't answer door. I spoke to them and promised to come to cop stationimmeditely for interview.
Ran all the way there. They were only interested in trying to get me to confess to something. Someone contacted them and fed them BS like I made cp or some crap. They did not care I was but ng stalked and harassed. Bad vibes. Guy told me sternly to sit down in lobby hen I was reading a poster on the wall. Even though I came voluntarily. Interviewer wanted consent to invade our home and take my Como for a week. I lived on my comp and was afraid they would plant CP to fill quotas so I said no.
I had signed up for a gun forum and never posted. Cops wanted to know why. I said it seemed cook and maybe for self defense and at one time I considered being a cop. This was true. Guy told me I should scratch that off my list because of my interests.
References from past employers are useless to me. Changing my name means I cannot use them without explaining the change. This will lead to goggling me and finding out my dox and loliconism due to the stalkers.
Building a good guy reputable career seems pointless now. It can be ruined instantly at a whim. I need employability not so easily taken away.
I.thought a sniper would have this. Clients don't care if you like DFC so long as you terminate their targets.
What other jobs are like this? Is there a way other than killing to earn money anonymously without having to give out your name? Is there a way to build references that cannot be compromised?
Is there a trade one can learn with skills quickly demonstrable that bypass the need to references entirely? A way to earn money in little time so I have amany hours to spare for anime?
Is all I plan to do at this point. Most succubi will want safe guy with good rep. Those that don't are probably bad.boy chad chasers I have no interest in and.am disgusted by.
I thought maybe if I learned other languages to go to other countries but I amnot good at them. I do. Of know if I would have the discipline to be a Japanese salaryman.
I most wanted to be an scientist but unless I can score some top secret work, science seems to be about making a name for yourself and veting referrals and I am afraid of bing blacklisted.