Before I begin let me warn you that at some point this post might be considered shitposting but I'm speaking completely sincerely and I'm looking for other people's opinions on the matter.
Anyway, it's finally happening… I'm close to creating a tulpa. About a year ago was when I first heard about the whole tulpa thing and decided to skim some online guides. Immediately the idea of creating a tulpa for companionship came into my head so I quickly crafted an image of my head that was… basically a hybrid of every female I've ever had a crush on.
I'm sure many people would stop reading there but believe it or not, sex wasn't my motive. Of course, none of the friends I told this to in chatrooms believed me either, and again and again I was berated with holier-than-thou speeches of how I shouldn't be abusing Tibeten rituals and how most of the people online claiming to have tulpae are faking it.
But after months and months of trying to create a tulpa… nothing. I didn't progress one bit.
And then the strangest thing happened. I ran into a picture of 'le happy merchant' for the first time. "Disgusting," I thought, "what neo-nazi jackass decided it would be a good idea to post this on 8chan?" But soon enough, le happy merchant was in my 8chan shitposting arsenal and I was posting pictures featuring the greedy Jew day in and day out. Now here's the strange part: le happy merchant started writing himself.
"Yes… good goyim… drink your fluoride…" the shitposting started coming natural to me and after a few weeks I was even starting to imagine him in my day to day life. I'd be eating porkchops and he'd suddenly chime in with "bad gentile, that isn't kosher!" I'd be jumping on Goombas in Super Mario 64 and hear "go back and get those shekels, goy!"
How does this tie into my tulpa? Well… one night I realized that through all my efforts, I wasn't able to create the tulpa I wanted, and here I had this le happy merchant thoughtform or whatever, chiming in on my day to day life even when I tried not to think about him.
Then an idea struck me. What if I can use this? I was having trouble thinking of a unique personality for my female tulpa so what if I just used this greedy Jew stereotype? So for the next few days, every time le happy merchant would appear in my thoughts, I tried to force my way into imagining that female form I described earlier.
It was forced every single time until one night I was going over her appearence in my head, trying to make it more Jewish. Her cute button nose didn't really resemble a stereotypical Jewish nose, so…
>"DON'T YOU DARE MISTA! I SPENT OVA SIX MILLION DOLLAS ON THAT NOSEJOB AND I AIN'T CHANGIN' BACK!"
The sound and image of her yelling this was so vivid in my head! I've done it! A little more work and I've brought her to life! Finally! Now whenever I'm shitposting le happy merchant on 8chan, I'm not thinking of the jokes myself, she's giving them to me.
Lastly, this further solidifies my claim that I don't want to have sex with my tulpa. You see, I'm uncircumsized. And everyone knows Jewish women won't touch anything that isn't 20% off.
I'd like to have ended the thread with that sentence but my intention for this thread was advice. So here are my questions:
>At this point, is she a thoughtform, or a tulpa? Or neither? Schizophrenia runs in my family… is this something I shouldn't be messing with?
>Are there any risks that can come from creating this tulpa I just described?
>Based on my descriptions of how I created this tulpa, what would be the best tulpa guide for me to follow?
>Know of any good meditation techniques? It's hard for me to meditate when I'm having rapid thoughts… and my tulpa chiming in with "good goy, practice degenerate eastern religious practices" makes it even harder to focus.