/younglove/ - Pedophilia Discussion

The better question is why should you risk getting caught in the first place, nay?

>>23426

Because after everything I've been through i've been convinced to feel im all alone in this and I just want to know that there are others out there that have suffered what I have.

The only felony I was caught doing is hit and run.

I think I would just kill myself if I were ever outed. I would will myself to die out of embarrassment and shame and fear.

>be me

>be 11 years old

>using AOL early version Trial disc

>didn't know about browser history

>summer time so looking at porn all day while mom is at work

>mom comes home while in the middle of a download

>she is about an hour early

>quickly pick up the phone and cut internet off

>she tells me to get on computer and find something for her

>type in "C"

>auto-fill automatically fills in "child porn young girls having sex"

>red-face is red

>quickly delete letter and try to something something else

>auto-fill pops up my recent searches

>10 year old girls fingering

>15yo girl kiss 12yo girl

>young girl 8 pooping and peeing

>boy and girl kids having sex

>Mom tells me to go to the other room

>"B-but Mom I-i-i just"

>NOW she yells

>In the other room for about an hour

>She opens the door and has a belt in her hand

>starts whipping me all over my body and tells me things like why was I searching for that stuff and I could get everyone in trouble

>bloody and bruised up a few minutes later

>she goes back to room and prints what she needed and tells me I better delete everything off the computer or else I will get beat again when she comes back

That was when my mom caught me downloading cp. She didn't tell the police but I couldn't use the computer for 2 years. At 13 she was even hesitant for me to use the computer alone but I needed it for school as I was in AP classes and needed to do lots of reports

She saw how well I was doing in school and my parents bought me my own computer for school projects. Sadly the first thing I did when I was alone was download P2P programs and download more cp

I was caught maybe another 3-4 times until I was 17 years old. Nothing too bad just some nudist family pictures and child models. They would wipe the whole computer whenever they found something even hinting to child porn because they knew I would hide my files

Stupidest way I got caught was when I was 15 I was up all night masturbating to young girls. It was just a nudist video of a 8yo girl dancing. Maybe 10 minutes in length. She was just naked in body paint dancing pretty raunchy. I fell asleep and my school called my mom to report I didn't show up for school. My mom barged in and I was naked, in my chair, in front of the computer, while a still image of the 8yo naked girl was on the computer on Windows Media Player

She slapped me around a bit and made me take a shower and drove me to school. When I came back home the computer had been wiped

>>23440

Also just another thing I found funny looking back

When I was 11 and got caught. I actually saved a backup to a floppy disc and hid the disc in my room. It was in the closet under a whole bunch of old boxes nobody ever touches and inside the wall a bit

About 2 weeks later after getting caught I was a good boy and didn't go to those websites again because I had emergency nude pics on my floppy. I think 100 images maybe

Anyway my mom somehow found the floppy about 2 weeks later and in the middle of the night she came into my room and beat the fuck outta me again and broke the floppy in front of me

My heart was crushed. I had some really pretty girls on that floppy in amazing poses. I still sometimes wish I hid it in a better spot because those were all the very FIRST girls I ever laid my eyes upon

The memories of I still had it today would be nice

Even though I don't even own anything with a floppy drive

>>23440

Op here and while its sad to hear you went through that it's nice to know there are those out there that understand the struggle.

>>23441

Just out of curiosity how old are you now?

You're talking floppy disks so can I assume your in your late 20's/early 30's?

>>23443

Your assumption would be correct

>>23444

So it been a good few years for you then hasn't it?

My mistakes have been very recent.

Last few years recent actually.

>>23446

Yeah my mom/dad found out about me early on but as I said last time I was caught was when I was 17yo

After that I got an actual full time job and since then they have just either ignored my personal attractions or pretend not to notice

>>23440

How the fuck do you get caught 3-4 times before you were 17? Im 17 and I've never been caught and I've been watching CP since I was 13.

>>23448

You grew up with computers I didn't

So I didn't know a lot of shit

Plus I got caught twice in a stupid fucking way. The other 2 I still don't know how they found out. I just came home and all my shit was wiped (as they usually do)

How do you get CP actually?

Can a smartfag help a fellow pedophile out?

>>23452

are you in tor?

>>23453

yes

>>23455

thank you based anon

>>23455

>>23456

>sending a guy who's never even heard of tor straight into the lion's den

Congratulations, you've put another one of us in jail.

>>23458

he said he was using tor, he'll be fine if he doesnt try to download anything.

>>23462

He wasn't.

Even if he was in another browser, him posting the request with a legit IP already fucks him.

Oh well, it's not like it wouldn't happen anyways. If you want CP and you can't find it, then you're already beyond help.

>>23474

I doubt any police force will care enough to actually v& him over that comment (hotwheels doesnt record IPs anyway). They have bigger things to worry about

>>23441

>floppy

>100 images

>14.4Kb each

>256x256, 8bit bitmap, then saved as JPEG at 65% quality

How could your mom even see every they were?

>>23548

Maybe it was one of those high capacity floppies they introduced around the turn of the century.

>>23575

1.44MB was the high density standard.

I'm currently waiting a Youth Caution (UK)

I was arrested back in Feb, I was 16. Am now 17.

They found shit, but I was completely honest. I can't lie to police, too much respect. It's on/off whether I'm going on sex offenders list or not, if I am it's for a year. If not, then I just come away with a Youth Caution.

This shit was horrible for me, it's been an absolute nightmare.

I wasn't allowed alone with anyone <16, a family friend found out and spread rumours. (I used to look after her son, 7 years old an autistic) miss that kid every day, like family to me.

I've not seen my little brother (Not by blood, but I've known him since he was tiny. Closest I've got to one) since December.

I've been suicidal a lot of times, honestly. If you do watch it, even with a VPN or through the deep web. Stop it. It's not worth it.

>>24057

How did you get your ass caught?

>>24057

And the thing is, I never even once though of using them sexually.

>>24059

Finding traders on Omegle that used Dropbox links. I was stupid, I'd been doing it since I was 15. Dropbox had my IP, noticed I had CP on my acc and well that was that.

Had an intimate relationship with a friends daughter (12 and 26). His wife somehow got savvy that something was up. They found I had been texting her late at night via records online, but no content. The kid never gave up what we did, but her parents dropped me and sent her to a boarding school. We talked once after but she had gotten over it.

>>24057

Was getting caught part of your plan?

>>23710

They went up to 150 MB

>>24086

Don't you hate women? They always try to keep men from girls.

In men's countries men are happy to marry off their girl children. In women's cuntries women are always vigilante.

>I wasn't allowed alone with anyone <16, a family friend found out and spread rumours. (I used to look after her son, 7 years old an autistic) miss that kid every day, like family to me.

Look how women treat men.

>I've not seen my little brother (Not by blood, but I've known him since he was tiny. Closest I've got to one) since December.

>I've been suicidal a lot of times, honestly. If you do watch it, even with a VPN or through the deep web. Stop it. It's not worth it.

Do not kill yourself. Kill your enemies if anyone.

>>24157

I wasn't really thinking of that.

>>24231

Someone get this hothead out of here

>>24199

Shut the fuck up and kill yourself. I hope you get dicks shoved in your mouth, eyes, ass, and nostrils. You whiny pathetic cunt fag. Your mother should have aborted you. Go live in that country you stupid faggot, it will never be allowed here.

>>24200

>>24200

This is why pedo fags need to be killed. First off plenty of men would kill you if you tried anything with their daughters. I'm one of them. They plan on killing others, so they should be killed first.

>>24249

internet tough guy detected

>>24086

Don't you hate women? They always try to keep men from girls.

In men's countries men are happy to marry off their girl children. In women's cuntries women are always vigilante.

>>24249

>This is why pedo fags need to be killed. First off plenty of men would kill you if you tried anything with their daughters. I'm one of them. They plan on killing others, so they should be killed first.

Those men, men such as you, need to be killed. Daughters are for marrying. You marry someone's daughter, someone marry's your daughter. You need to be butchered, swept aside, and your daughters taken.

In old societies this problem often came up, so they would do just that to a neighboring village. They would cut your limbs off, burn you alive, and take you female children.

>>24059

I'm guessing we should adopt something like a Youth Caution here in the US, especially now that so many lolis and JBs are using webcams.

Never been caught in the act or while AFK, but one time in high school I was showing my mother something and forgot that my wallpaper was a JAB hentai drawing of Alice in Wonderland (thankfully a small window covered up the naughty bits).

OP, please elaborate on prison and sex offense programs, two things we should all be sure to avoid at all costs.

>>24249

>They plan on killing others, so they should be killed first.

wut

>>27009

>OP, please elaborate on prison and sex offense programs.

Not OP but can elaborate on both.

Prison, at least where I was locked up, isn't as bad as people like to make it sound. Fights are generally a couple guys bitch slapping each other before it's broken up by the guards. Actual violence such as shanking someone, or shower rapes is uncommon. Not saying it doesn't occur but not on the level most people think.

Sex offense programs are a joke. It's nothing more than them attempting to "treat" you through cognitive reconditioning. If you have a lewd thought about a loli you're supposed to punish that thought by doing something unpleasant, such as sniffing something that has a horrible smell, or inflicting minor pain on yourself in some way.

>>23440

the irony of being so disapproving of child abuse that you abuse your own child.

how is beating a child with a weapon til theyre bruised and bloody less harmful than watching CP??

>>24061

>Using Dropbox to store your CP

>>27009

>Your wallpaper is hentai of a child

You pedophiles really are retarded. Does pedophilia actually correlate with a decrease in IQ or is it just that only the stupid pedophiles congregate on clearnet sites?

>>24061

>>24057

Are you Roman Schukin?

>>27036

It's only natural that the ones that are caught are really, really dumb.

>>23440

Dude. You're a fucking bro.

>>27036

>hentai

loli is legal in the US and ive used that at a browser theme (chrome, there's a kodomo no jikan skin, trolled my friends with it)

>>27052

>>27052

>legal

Whether loli is legal not is on a judge's whim. If the judge thinks you're going against his morals he will do whatever he can to put you in jail. The issue is that cops don't always feel like this is an issue that needs to waste court money, so they might just ignore it, like all those rape accusations based on drunk consent. Some get through and get the guy jailed, many don't get off their feet because there's not enough convincing evidence for a successful prosecution. Same goes with loli, but if it does get through, you're not likely to get out with your skin intact.

>>23440

>>24057

I don't understand why people wouldn't hesitate to hit you with the pedophile label even though you're still underage yourself.

Isn't it normal for kids and teenagers to be attracted to other kids & teens around their age. I guess a 15-year old guy watching an 8-year old girl might seem a little bit strange, but that still doesn't mean they can't eventually grow out of it. Or were non-pedos actually never attracted to kids or something?

>>27036

Eastvold et al. (2011): “PEDs [pedophilic child molesters] had a higher IQ than NSOs [nonsexual criminal offenders] (p = .014), and there was a trend for NPEDs [non-pedophilic child molesters] to have a higher IQ than NSOs (p = .051). PEDs also had better SK [semantic knowledge] than NSOs (p = .035).”

Schiffer & Vonlaufen (2011): “no significant difference in intelligence quotient (IQ) levels between all groups”. Pedophilic child molesters: 108.5; Non-pedophilic child molesters: 107.5; Forensic controls: 103.2; Healthy controls: 110.2

Suchy et al. (2009): No significant differences. Pedophilic child molesters: 106.59; Non-pedophilic child molesters: 102.05; Community controls: 105.62

Strassberg et al. (2012): This study used two samples. Sample one: “The 3 groups (PEDs, N-PEDs, CNTs) did not differ on […] estimated IQ (M = 104.6, SD = 8.1, range, 84–121)”. Sample two: “There was a significant difference among the groups on estimated IQ; the criminal controls scored significantly lower in IQ (M = 96.92, SD = 9.94) than either the pedophilic child molesters (M = 105.89, SD = 11.32) or nonpedophilic child molesters (M = 104.46, SD = 12.57). The 2 child molester groups did not differ significantly on estimated IQ.”

Azizian, A., Hutton, S., Hughes, D., & Sreenivasan, S. (2015). “Cognitional impairment: Is there a role for cognitive assessment in the treatment of individuals civilly committed pursuant to the Sexually Violent Predator Act?,” Sexual Abuse: A Journal of Research and Treatment.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U7_zMdNRAmo

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8APlx9btTn8

These clips are several years old but still essential. You know we're making progress when you can say such things on podcasts or even on stage in front of people who laugh and applaud in agreement.

>>23462

Nope. TOR is exploitable now. The Feds can apparently use an exploit with flash to track your IP instantly if you access a compromised page.

https://www.documentcloud.org/documents/2166606-ferrell-warrant-1.html (Section 22 and thereabouts.)

If you have TOR and don't want to be V&ed, make sure Flash isn't allowed to run (not sure how). Encrypt your drives (Veracrypt, google it). Disable the cache, use Eraser (google it) to delete it (it's in %appdata% someplace), etc etc.

Or just take up Japanese comic books. Less chance of getting V&ned.

>>28759

Possibly related question.

Friend got V&ned yesterday. Can't go into details as it's early in the process (he wasn't charged but they siezed everything). He contacted a lawyer, they said to call him back if he's charged with anything. We don't know what got him targeted or what evidence they have to get probable cause, but, yeah.

He should only have 2D stuff, so barring anything else he's probably out clean, right? Or is loli comics and the like enough in the US nowadays?

If he had TOR, but deleted it after realizing something was 3D instead of 2D, how fucked is he? I installed the latest bundle to ask here and it doesn't appear to save a cache anywhere, and he had a tiny HDD + updated to Windows 10, so… he should be fine, right?

… right?

>>28759

That's not Tor being exploited, that's the browser being exploited. Might as well say that the Internet itself is exploitable every time someone gets a virus.

>He should only have 2D stuff, so barring anything else he's probably out clean, right?

Probably, if it's only loli with no violence.

>Or is loli comics and the like enough in the US nowadays?

It depends on how disgusting it is, and whether they can convince a jury it is obscenity.