>>31070
You need to realize you only have one life. if you're as smart as you sound, and have a chance at an education. Then you need to suck it up a little. As a pedo, you're likely never going to get physical release.
There's no reason, however, that your life must all be horribly depressing. You must remember that you have a penis, and you know how to fap. Now, what I would remind you is that your brain is the most important sex organ.
I'm happily married, and every night whether I sex before bed, or just wank before bed, it's always a loli in the bed with me. I love my wife, but for sex, a strong imagination makes her a cute fourth grader.
Your life is not a spiral to an hero, just because you drew the *worst* lot for your sexual preference. Just remember, you aren't evil, because the though of lolis gets you hard. No matter what the antis say.
Good luck, and tell your gf, straight up, that you're worried that your studies will suffer for those late night.