So /mental/, what other sites about mental illnesses or for generally mentally ill people do you visit?
Misonthropy
It's 2 AM now I've got an interview for national service in 7 hours.
I already shaved myself, and my dish washing nightshifts which I receive mere pennies on, so I can make a working desk for animation, and game development makes it difficult to fix my sleeping pattern.
I hate everyone I work with, the only way I found to communicate in a way that I can tolerate is spewing the foulest shit imaginable and making sarcastic thanks and apologies. I share a room with my little brother while my unemployed dad uses a room as an office. (I'm not kidding)
I hate people mainly because they allow in my area to make cosmetic surgeries, even worse they encourage them to. because they feel they're trapped in the wrong gender. Which if I don't get consumed by the desire to puke I compare that to if the case was if they wanted to become dolphins, and the fact that they won't be really a woman or man because they'll be infertile or function like the gender they're born with.
I don't have any friends, as most of whom decided to opt out from defending me when I get assaulted, neither bandage me, or at least call for some help. They just run away. Well… They're no longer my friends any who.
Some are also enemies because I lost them when they started a rumor in which they said I raped a girl and called a bunch of thugs to beat me up. Didn't work as I barley got hit, for until a passerby went by and they ran away.
I was outnumbered by the people who'll be witnesses for me so I didn't file any charges.
So tell, me how do you deal with toxic people? As non toxic for me feel they're hands' should stay clean and not opt a friend in need. And the toxic actually get their hands dirty by pushing you to the dirt so they have their moment of pride.
Anyway I have no idea I can forget those visions, so I'm pretty stuck like this thanks for the surrounding humanity I'm living with.
How many traits of a potential serial killer do you exhibit /mental/?
http://listverse.com/2013/01/02/10-most-common-traits-of-potential-serial-killers/
I exhibit 9/10, yet the only one I don't exhibit is that I didn't wet the bed until an abnormal age, apparently that trait has been rubbished anyway…
So 9/9 ;_;
tinfoil men
made this.
reddit is actually deleting posts about tinfoil.
(and the linked psychiatry fraud, lobotomobile threads, and mercury known to cause illness since 500bc threads)
dunno, fuckin illegal aliens
why i choose to not have friends
So I was researching the negative effects of social isolation, and I noticed that a lot of articles liked to act like social isolation is exclusively involuntary (such as prison or experiments) or the symptom of an anxiety related mental disorder.
I'm socially isolated, and I'm neither in prison, nor do I have any anxiety disorders, and I felt like writing why I choose to be alone before I go to bed. And i thought it'd be funny to share it with all of you and see what you think.
I'm probably going to crosspost this on other boards.
"reasons for my voluntary social isolation
i cannot relate to normies' simplistic philosophies and general motives for doing what they do. normies hand-wave philosophical issues off by conveniently pointing at their Christianity (even though they neither attend church or open the bible, ever) or answer grand questions with simple answers, such as "because tradition". This leads me to believe that normies don't engage in deep thought and have no individualism, and disgusts me.
normies do not desire deep interpersonal connections that i do, and are in fact disturbed at the idea. as a result, normies are unwilling to share any details of their personal lives, ensuring no one in their social circle will ever go beyond an acquaintance
normies have never shown me any genuine emotional response to anything ever, leading me to believe their emotions are quite dulled and also further supporting the "no desire for interpersonal connections" theory
if normies do not desire interpersonal connections and are not emotionally responsive, then what do they crave in a relationship?
They crave hand-outs and someone to kill the time with. They use everyone near for pathetic indulgences; when they are bored of staring at their television sets, that is when they will call someone up to give them a ride to do [something].
I have no desire to be their plaything. I would be their friend but they don't want a friend, they want an alternative to the telly; mindless passage of the time. I am not the answer to their boredom.
i cannot financially afford to be a "friend". "friend"-having requires a lot of cash. normies cannot be sated with conversation, because again, they don't want friends. they want a bullshit partner to join them at the casino or wherever, in part because it is not "socially acceptable" to do anything out of the house solo, not even to eat.
normies have little to no interest in anything beyond fads. which, even then their knowledge of fads is slim on average. they may play whatever video game is hip for that year or watch whatever television series is popular that season, but should you question them on the subject of the recent fad they are a part of, you will get no answers.
normies do not pursue hobbies. they only consume and forget and move on to the next fad.
their lack of interests, combined with their refusal to speak about so-called private matters, and seeming incapacity to think of greater meaning through philosophy, equals zero conversational topics.
normies have no desire for self-improvement and would actively impede my own.
apart from the very rare exercise addict normie, normies do not strive for physical perfection by any means, nor do they educate themselves (and actually laugh at the idea of pursuing knowledge outside of school).
no, their thrill seeking indulgent lifestyles have no time to waste dieting or reading something longer than a tweet. Maybe this entry will change if body building somehow becomes the next mainstream fad.
on a greater scale, normies are uncaring towards their long-term physical condition. if something poses little immediate negative effects to their well-being, they will do it. this includes smoking, driving wrecklessly, over-drinking, overeating, juvenile heroics (fighting, showing off), etcetera, etcetera.
in conclusion, being friends with a normie isn't only impossible, it's also hazardous to your health and your wallet should you choose to waste time with them."
what is your favourite quotation?
Breaking a porn addiction with minimal social interaction
>Be 19
It's currently my 4-5 years of watching porn about 4-5 times a day usually more than that.
I did successfully stopped for a month and it was horrible, I couldn't sleep, I didn't want to eat. The only time I could do anything was to oogle at pin ups just to understand it's cheating so I counted again.
Anyway it ended in 30 days total. And I'm now back more times than ever. (5-7)
I want to stop (Reduce to 1-2 a day) and I can't. I have no friends I can talk to. The only people are just my parents.
The rest are very long distant so if I ever meet them it's one every 3 months.
I was wondering if there's a way to cope with an addiction without the use of more than one social interaction every week.
I wonder what kind of vidya /mental/tard plays.
Right now i'm playing a lot of Postal 2, Total war rome and some snes & ps1 games that give me THE nostalgic feels that sometimes ends up in depression, especially after the new wave of femminist shitstorming vidyas, and also because when i was a kid i wasn't the useless piece of shit i am right now.
Pic semi-related to the nostalgic feels: i used to play the demo of swat 2 a lot when i was a kid
A quick survey, /mental/ists
What do you do for a living?
What's your profession?
who /snort their meds/ here?
psych skype chat
For people with diagnosed psychiatric disorders, self diagnosers need not apply.
a/s/l/disorder(s)/skype
Does anyone else wish for that final push to drive you completely insane?
I just want that one straw to break my back, to completely destroy my psyche and ruin what little sanity I have left. I want an excuse to completely give up, something that will make everyone who knows me look at me and go "Well, after all he's been through, we can't really blame him for snapping like he did". I want to escape into my own fantasy world, giggling and screaming like a madman, while the rest of society continues to live in their deluded little worlds, dictated by corrupt men of power who tell them what'll make them happy. I just want to lose my mind already and put it where no one can find it ever again.
What professional diagnoses do you have?
I have so many I can barely even count them:
>depression
>anxiety
>bulimia
>atypical autism
>dysthymia
Your Hopes and Dreams
ITT: Just post what you want out of life anon, it can be anything, let your dreams run wild, let your mind take flight. Post what you want AND/OR what you expect/want in second place. I'll start:
>Peace of mind
>Want to live somewhere quiet, on my own land, with like minded neighbors near a suburb/lone town for resupply, without any family there to make me feel bad about it
>Would like to save money to travel across country and see where I want to go, kind of a mini-adventure across some states in an RV/truck
>(This part wont ever happen) wish someone who actually understood me would come with me
>Decent sized bong and some pot, a few easy to make meals maybe some fresh stuff, water filter, supplies etc etc
>Golden Dawns Hot Sauce, a small crates worth because its liquid gold
>Ideally to settle down somewhere as I described before, work as a park ranger or something, enjoy life simply
>To escape current living situation
Keeping my thing simple for now. Lets see what /mental/ wants.
PTSD Thread
Can we get a PTSD thread going?Just wondering how many /mental/ists are dealing with it.
Can you touch on how you came to have it, and how you are coping with it?
I was diagnosed with PTSD after I got back from Afghanistan.
This was some years ago, and I'm doing much better–I no longer require medication or therapy.
From what I've seen on here, it's seems, unfortunately, to be much harder for non war-induced PTSD anons to get treatment and acceptance.
Is my impression correct?
Tinfoil brigade
hey /mental/
- mk ultra ion weapons: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1QSQhYHI2OQ
- psychiatry is a fraud leddit \r\reptiliandata/comments/45yvmc/psychiatry_is_a_medical_fraud/
- test for mkultra as low as $12, shielding hoodie for $5: leddit \r\reptiliandata/comments/3za65a/shielding/
remember the aliens can see who will fight them in the future. thats why we mental bro!
holla at ja boi
/mental/ Anime
What are some good anime with insanity as a theme, or psychological abuse? Perfect Blue, Boku ga inai machi, and Elfen Lied come to mind.
Synesthesia
Any synesthetes on here? What type are you? Any details you can share?
Me, I'm audio-tactile. It sucks because the worst feeling noises are common. Sharp, sudden sounds like babies crying or broken glass are like punches. Sustained high noises like high flutes feel like a fly got into my head. Voices are like pokes, a few aren't bad, but when I'm around a lot imagine hands all around you poking every inch of your body. It's exhausting. On the bright side, the low notes of jazz, blues, and big sounding orchestral music just washes over me like nothing else, and deep vocal harmonies are about halfway to an orgasm.
what do you guys think about Robert Whitaker's criticism of biopsychiatry?
Hey /mental/
What are your thoughts on this?
http://opinion.anongalactic.com/2016/02/22/a-school-shooters-mentality/
I'm fucking stupid
>be 15, october
>friend and i are skyping
>think it would be funny to pull some beta uprising shit on our school
>literally make a fake threat, with a list of people we hate as targets, signing it as another kid, post it on /b/
>somehow it gets posted on ifunny, school gets notified
>cops all over, don't think we'll get caught
>do
>spend two weeks in juvie, not too bad but the guilt sucks
>come home, get expelled
>parents don't understand that it was a huge lapse in judgement and nothing more
>still havent been sentenced yet, probably gonna be fines and community service
>have to visit an inept therapist that talks more about her personal problems than listens to mine
>nobody but the few friends i had talks to me anymore, spend most of my time inside
>want to an hero constantly, even just to relieve the financial burden on my parents
>finally got a diagnosis, can't go to a psychiatrist for some reason though and my therapist can't prescribe anything
>on house arrest until sentencing, can't do shit
>cops took my computer and my phone as "evidence", have to use family laptop to do anything
>can't do drugs because gonna be on probation, don't wanna risk it
>can't even do the things i slightly enjoyed
>over doing something i could have just as easily not done
>dad has to work overtime and side jobs
>have to budget for groceries
>mom couldn't sleep for 2 weeks
>for some fucking reason, they still love me
>want them to hate me so i can an hero shamelessly
>hate myself for being such an emotional and financial roadblock to them, but they can't even see that I am
>all because i wasn't thinking for a minute
I could have prevented this, but I found another way to fuck everything up. Jesus christ.
The Criminal Label
So who here has a criminal record?
(If you will)
I've recently been cautioned, though compared to what's ahead that's nothing.
General Violent Ideation Thread
Does anyone here ever have violent fantasies?
Many times when I look at pretty women I have violent sexual thoughts and wish to hurt them.
Oddly, I have no suicidal thoughts whatsoever although sometimes I do sometimes become scared of potentially violent ways I could die or be hurt such as being run over by a car, burning myself on the stove, being cut by a knife.
Also, I have read that violent ideations might be a possible side effects of or worsened by anti-depressants, so maybe I should change medication. My medication doesn't really seem to have increased my ideations past from before I was taking them though. Do you know Effexor (Venlafaxine) or Resperidone to potentially have the side-effect of Violent Ideation?
Anyway, general violent ideation thread.
Is it possible to change/redirect obsessions in assburgers?
Psych is a fraud. Vaccines might cause mental illness.
Shield yourself from MK Ultra for $4. Test your environment for MK Ultra < $100.If this helps you share plz.
All those studies, all those bizarre surgeries, and all those chemicals… they never tested the mental patients environment for MK Ultra (radio, EMF, infrared)!!!
I've seen multiple youtube videos with peoples EMF/Microwave/RF detectors going WILD with MK ultra / schizophrenia.
>The aliens punish people who they dont like. They know who is going to fight them in the future somehow.
You dont know the history of psychiatry… Google/youtube/the movie "lobotomobile"… The founder of American Psychiatry and Neurology Institute drove around giving Lobotomies (making a retard) with an icepick, for 40 years, before he was stopped. The power of one 'black pawn'. One of the greatest horrors of American history is this guys work: unleashing psychiatrists on America.
With 100,000,000 cases youd think they'd have cured one person?
I googled treatments for hearing voices, this is what I fucking found: bizarro surgery, torture, and mutilation, not one cured case!
They've already tried:
- hand crank drill to the skull and drain blood
- dr freemans icepick lobotomy
- dr freemans shock until KO
- more bizzaro surgeries
- straight jackets 24/7
- tying the person to a bed 20 hours a day
- drugging them and locking them up
- lithium a toxin so poisonous its used for chemotherapy to kill unkillable mutant cancer cells
>youd think that shit would work?? right brah?
…
>US Supreme Court testimonies that patients were tortured, and that patients cound not refuse surgery, and that patients who refused bizarre surgeries were beat, raped, or tortured.
Test it for yourself for less than $100:
- A Radio (RF) detector $12
- An emf+microwave detector for $70
- An infrared camera or clip on for your phone: $100
You can shield yourself for $4!!
- Earplugs: should block sound waves (sin() waves) … but not low freq sound waves ($1 at home depot, or use cigarette filters)
- Mylar: should block light/lazer/radio/EMF/radiation: $3 for 5 mylar blankets at amazon.com, [heres 50 for $20](http://www.amazon.c
om/Lot-50-Emergency-Mylar-Blankets/dp/B003ZWJTCA)
- Ditch the matress its a coil array [google coil array] - these conduct radio
I have a shielding thread here: RxExDxDxIxT /r/reptiliandata/comments/3za65a/shielding/)with some more data
In fact they might be causing it with Mercury:
Mercury was known to cause mental illness as its only effect since 500BC: leddit /r/reptiliandata/comments/3za5e7/mercury_vaxx_known_toxic_since_500bc/
One disease alone: schizophrenia pills are worth $10,000,000,000 a month as a business
>Add the cases of MPDD Schiz Bipolar, Dimensia, etc and its about 75-100 million, add the estimated number of additional cases who wont admit it is 50% more, making 100-150 million cases total. Almost 50% of the population of 322 Million.
Consider chelation and heavy metal detoxification of mercury.
>sry for long post
>if this helps u fwd it to someone, and then fwd it to ur local district mayors people or church.
Does anyone know if I can join the Canadian Army with a psychotic disorder, and a history of suicidal and homicidal ideation? I'm inclined to think no, but I can't find any info on it.
What are the steps necessary to get a diagnosis? I mean like how do I find a doctor? Which doctor, etc. I also have no insurance.
I tried looking online, and I couldn't really find anything. Mainly advice such as "go see a doctor and get a diagnosis" . To be honest, I'm not really good at searching information.
So I had been seeing a new therapist from about October. I wanted help for my problems relating to a traumatic childhood as well as loneliness and homicidal ideation…
Tuesday just gone and my therapist has given up on me because I feel powerless to help myself.
Anybody else have their therapist give up on them?
Post about your shitty parents ITT
Oekaki thread, draw how you feel right now
what is your favourite philosopher anon?
philosophy general thread
Anyone ever have thoughts in their head when they wake up telling them to kill themselves while dealing with some paranoia and hyperactivity symptoms? I keep thinking: an hero. an hero now! Come on you were supposed to an hero months ago.
Childhood
Fucked up shit that happened during your loli/shota years.>godparents aren't blood related just strangers
>have to go to their house twice a month
>their kid is like a year younger or older than me i don't remember
>we are immediately best friends
>she takes me to her room
>makes me finger/lick her vagoo
>slurps on my flaccid shota wiener.
>i think her parents find out or something
>no more visits
>fast forwards
>it's my birthday or something and she comes over
>all kids playing hide and seek
>she hides with me
>more wiener slurping
>this time I'm hard
>don't want her to ever leave me after orgasming
Her dad got arrested for molesting her or something and we moved to a different country, i also got new godparents.
Even to this day I'm scare that she'll tell somebody about us having done all the shit we did.
There was a lot of sexual shit that happened during my little kid years i used to think it was okay to masturbate in public until i was like in 4th grade.
share your stories, doesn't have to be sexual.
how can i get a diagnosis? i have a diagnosis for social anxiety disorder, but i don't know how i got it. i've been told by many of my friends i have dependent personality disorder, and i really need a diagnosis. i really don't want to have to see my doctor though, i'm pretty sure he'll just say i don't or something and if he does that I'll lose my shit and feel like a liar
so what do I do, /mental/?
mental disorders or just powerful souls
as a person with bipolar and borderline disorder, plus anxiety and panic syndrome, i suffered A LOT growing up (still do). And although i sometimes question myself why this happened to me, i realized i wouldnt be the person that i am today if it wasnt for that. I feel like mental disorders makes you much smarter than 'normal' people, i feel like we grow up much faster. And i wonder if im actually not insane, just someone who can see beyond others and absorb energy unlike others.
What if we are not insane? But society makes us insane to prevent us from changing things? As i realized all of the people that go through mental problems, are all much intelligent with similar point of views. What if society makes us as the insane ones just so we can fit in their robotic world and be alienated?
With that said, i dont work without my medications so living without them is a big no, but for a while i did stop my medication and was living in a very comfortable environment so i had no problems whatsoever. I stayed that for 2 months and was actually happy and things never seemed so bright and clearer. Which makes me think, what if we have the mental problems just because we are souls and energy beings, and we just absorb our surroundings differently? im new here so sorry if this isnt new threat worth it, i just want to know what you all think about it.
BRUT ART GENERAL
ITT we post one picture of art created by person diagnosed with mental illness and one link to yt music co/created by person diagnosed menta illnes, do not forget to mention what illness the person you present was diagnosed with
picrel- myself- schizotypal disorder and features of asperger syndrome
linkrel- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rbm6GXllBiw - axel rose- bipolar disorder
go ahead
ps. i encourage you to post your own drawings/paiting/photos and music along with your diagnosis
I swear to fuck I'm a literal fucking monster, as in my species is that and I s2g it's because of my abuse. Any other schizos like me experiencing shit like this?
Can stress cause physical symptom? Has this happened to you?
I've never posted here but i think i may have physical symptoms from stress but i'd like to see if i can relate to someone whose may be going through this for clarity.
tfw no batshit crazy gf.
All I want in life is an at least semi-attractive girl who happens to be an absolute looney. Like biting me, hearing voices, into /fringe/-tier stuff level of crazy.
I had a gf exactly like this for highschool, and a redhead no less. I absolutely loved it. The spontaneity and excitement/terror is incredible, and every relationship I've been in since that one has been just disgustingly mundane. Every other woman I've met since then has just been bland and typical, with no personality or zest for life.
Anyone know where I could find one?
/mental/ music thread
Post songs you like or are listening to right now or some shit like that.goddamn i'm tired.
My dad had some sort of stroke. We're not sure what is it but his brain is fucked. We have to wait until tomorrow to make him a tomography.
He's the best guy I've met. He is or was my friend… I don't know if he's coming back.
I'm in a lot of pain right now.
schiz/TI/posession, 7 years in, tips and tricks
Im not saying im 100% right, but Ill share what I learned along the way… Someone asked how to get out and I dumped what I felt would help him, gonna paste it for reddit too.
same thing happened to me in 2007 [truman show shit]
its posession. its mostly lies they say, the words are some fucking demon talking to other demons and people and manipulating people
they either get god to do it automatically, or they are on the ufo doing it, or some shit
get a microwave/emf detector combo and a infrared camera or camera clipon, you will find how they do it. (both are < $70)
dont get rid of your shit. my guys told me they were government and i got rid of all the shit in my house, was homeless and carless.
you are a jedi now. EMF and TI videos on youtube, pyschotronic mind control, trances and all that shit are good shit to study on youtube. also lily wave, v2k
shielding briefly:
* earplugs or sound proofing will block anything not low freq mind control sound (like crowd control weapons are low freq)
* mylar ($3 for mylar blankets from amazon) will block light (laser), radio+radiation, emf, microwaves
* air ionizer or orgonite ($40 each) or negative ion generator will block negative ions
* god uses electrical current to control people (ac/dc, spinal tap…)
i would shield the temples and spine asap… cigarette butts/filters in ears when u sleep. get a rifle they kill a lot of folks (bruce lee? mike jackson? mlk? jfk? robby kennedy? malcom x? janis joplin? jimmy hendrix?). theres shielding clothes at lessemf.com
controlling the entire planet is as easy as tricking/praying to god, or threatening her ("bitch sell this poison pesticide or ill dump this barrell of pesticide on earth. oh ok now youre a millionare… meanwhile people are eating pesticide sprayed foods and nicotine cigs, fluoride water, aspertame, mercury vaxx etc… like some 6 billion-part filter made of men)
controlling the whole galaxy is as simple as controlling a single cell of human body… (probably microwave)
they own the jungle and the earths core (iron)
not sure who owns the matresses (matrices) … its a coil array, its for something, could be god could be ayys…
when you need a break sit in a tub (ceramic is good shield too), put the spine under water, water will disperse any radiation/electricity/anything (get a hot tub and take it easy).
possibly lose them if you can and go off grid, solar powered…
the mind is a light/sound/emf (magnetic field) sensor, so its possible.
my theory is the brain is a machine built to control other brains.. so a larger brain like gods could fuck us. or a man standing behind a magnifying glass would be so large and scary and it would have control over us (if that makes sense? kind of like they project a large brain and then our brain goes subservant… like a beta male… but also they have sound waves and lazers and shit to force the brain into a beta state…)
>end, sorry its not fully typed out ive pasted it numerous times only to get downvoted, deleted, and banned.
a good note is: ever buy cigarettes or potatoe chips at the store? even potatoe chips have a foil bag, and cigs too… those potatoe chips are not more important than your spine. why should they have microwave/emf shielding and our spines and minds dont? the mind is the 3rd eye. and the mind is a sensitive light sound and emf sensor :/ shit most of the foods have foil bags!
good luck bros <3
I FUCKING HATE FREUD AND PSYCHOANALYSIS
Holy shit, a fucking miracle
So yesterday, the strangest thing happened to me.I felt happy.
For no particular reason.
I didn't do anything special, no achievements, no drugs, nothing.
I just felt content with my lot in life.
It was one of the best moments I ever had
even though it did not carry on into today
social anxiety
Anyone have spiraling issues? As in (example) didn't go to school, get stressed due to falling behind, get yelled at by father for not going, rinse repeat until I can't fucking leave the house anymore. Fucking end me.
who /possibleschizo/ here?
I have one delusion but it's constant and major- I believe that nothing is real. I also have talked to myself before and I feel like there's someone in my head. I don't show any other signs of schizophrenia though.
Happy New Year!
I was just released from a psychiatric hospital, ask me anything.
Also general psychiatric hospital thread I guess? Share experiences, talk about how shitty your inmates were, curious questions from people who've never been in one, et all.
Daily Report Thread
Feel free to post anything on your mind.
How are you today?
Side effects
I have schizophrenia and I'm wondering about about some of the drugs use to treat the mental illness. I'm also asking those of you taking medications for schizophrenia about side effects. Which medication are you taking for your schizophrenia? Have you tried other meds? Which medications caused many side effects and which ones caused few side effects?
Just check off what you've done.
Hey /mental/heads, If you havent already feel free to hop right on in.
My Skype: smithc2.jesse.hardmrbug
Just add me and give me a message.
what is the most precise, one word description of you?
Post your kink charts!
what? no christmas thread?
Merry Christmas Raccoon! :)
-AG.
How do you deal with when some one you love hates you? pic related
does anyone in here do herping?
/mental/ IRC
I don't post here very often, but the /mental/ IRC channel is in need of newfriends. If anyone's interested, just join #mental.
If you don't into IRC, the process is simple:
>download an IRC client or go to a web client (rizon.net has one)
>if on IRC client, put in the following info
>address: irc.rizon.net
>port 6697 (for SSL)
>choose a nick (register it if you plan to stick around)
See you there, newfriends.
Fucked in the head but no one takes you seriously?
I have audio and visual hallucinations, I have sensory issues, I experience paranoia, I have obsessions (with characters, people, fantasies, animals), I've fantasized about murdering people for over a decade, I'm a sexual deviant in ways you wouldn't believe, I binge drink, I punch holes through walls and throw shit at people while I scream in rage, I drank a whole bottle of codeine and spent a night in a hospital. And so on and so on.
And I tell all these things to doctors and somehow leave the hospital without a prescription and without a diagnosis. How is it possible? Is it my fucking tone? Am I too upbeat, do they think I'm making up stories? I don't remember any stories about healthy people having hallucinations regularly in broad daylight.
I've never seen or heard this happening to anyone else before. I thought these doctors loved to put people on addictive psych drugs. I thought these doctors loved admitting people. Don't they have a quota, or they get paid commission or something for every prescription they hand out? I remember a time I bruised my leg and they gave me goddamn vicodin.
How am I still a free man after all I've told them?
I'm in America, Arizona to be exact. I've talked to two normal doctors, a psychologist, two counselors, and a life coach who had a degree in psychology. All told me I'm healthy.
What do I do about this? How do I get treatment if everyone thinks I'm healthy? Personally I think I'm bipolar II, and I just watched Shutter Island (a movie about a bipolar who murders her three children, great movie, watch it) and it made me more self-conscious about the state of my mental health and want to get help again. I don't want to kill someone.
Best way to go insane?
How many of you are familiar with how Nietzsche met his epic end? Here was a genius who died believing he had become God incarnate in human flesh (to bring man closer. )
Other schizophrenics have believed themselves to have married into the royal family, and to have friends with aristocratic circles. Others see fairies, but at least they die in happy fantasies.
If you were to lose your mind to madness, make it a sweet dream and not a nightmare. What delusions would you want to hold in your final years?
ITT: describe your week in one picture.
Imma go to the psych hospital for about two months.
Any tips to 'survive' there, or general advice for being there? Never been before.
I was diagnosed Depression + Schizophrenia.
Do I have schizoaffective disorder?
Misdiagnosed (?)
I think I'm misdiagnosed with schizophrenia.
I only have the negative symptoms (though very severely).
I also hear my 'own voice' in my head, it's my own self controlled voice. This was according to the professor who diagnosed me enough to qualify as auditory hallucination but I'd disagree with that.
I've (thankfully) never had real psychosis.
I've also never had catatonia , or disorganized behavior/thinking, or delusions.
Now I'm gonna get treatment for schizophrenia. And I don't think I have this. I need help though with the problems I actually have but the professor is retired now and I don't know what to do. No psych is gonna undo a diagnosis of a professor.
Aspergers Thread
You know you are. I know there's at least a few of you on here.How do you feel about your disorder?
Problems with parents
Anyone else have parents who rubbish your condition?
I was diagnosed with some personality disorder and my parents say it's complete bullshit.
Anyone have similar issues?
(pic unrelated)
Bipolar 1
How can I achieve an episode of full blown mania?
ITT: Talk about weird ass things you've done
I have a habit of biting my own skin. I currently have a hole in my arm about half an inch deep, and it's turned green.
>tfw borderline personality disorder
WHY
FUCK MY FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT PARENTS FOR GIVING ME THE SHITTIEST UPBRINGING, RESULTING IN THE WORST FUCKING MENTAL DISORDER.
No one even fucking knows what this shit is, nor do they have any sympathy for people with it. I'm just some fucking over-emotional douchebag.
What the fuck. I just want to live a normal life. I hate this. I fucking hate this. I hate feeling like I'm flying into a blinding rage if something even slightly annoys me, breaking down into a crippling depression if someone even makes a slightly off-color remark towards me, feeling like everyone around me is just going to abandon me, and wanting to change everything about who I am every single fucking day.
I hate this. I feel so unstable. My entire life is fucking unstable as shit. I hate feeling like my body, my mind, will all just break apart.
Worst part is no one wants to fucking deal with this shit so I need to hide it. No one actually fucking cares.
Idiotic.
What other boards do you guys browse?
Is this a mental illness?
Skype Group
Hey hobosexuals
Get in the Skype group
add me human_bagel
8chan the Game - Chart Thread
Have fun!
I always make understatements when talking to doctors. Like when I want to kill myself and I make a plan. The doctor asks me why I was admitted to hospital and I say "I didn't feel well". That specific hospital always thinks I just want to be in hospital and shouldn't be kept for very long. Sometimes good, other times bad. Anyway, I feel very uncomfortable discussing the specifics of anything that happens. I also use euphemisms like when I was discussing my plan to murder a bunch of people. We were talking about how the family would feel, then I said "well I would have to eliminate everyone in the house" implying there would be no family left. What else? I am very secretive, but I don't usually notice because I always think I reveal too much with what I do say. In reality I hide many things. Anyone else can relate to communication problems with doctors?
General depression thread.
What's bothering you, /mental/?
no really
try tinfoil and earplugs.
Good luck !
Stigma Central
ITT we relate/vent/bitch to ourselves or other anons about the stigma that comes with our respective disorders and illnesses. Hell it can just be fear about stigma that's not there or paranoia. who gives a shit just vent
Let's hear those crazy views of yours.
"Society can only be a bourgeois construct and ergo merely a concept since this world has been proven time and time again to be canis canem edit"
Inb4 hello NSA
How many of you feel like they're about to go"full Cho"? And why?
any protips for probably psychopatic female at her twenties?
she probably has depression/dysthymia, has been studying psychology but gave up because had no finances
what way of life can psychopatic female take?
ITT list drugs you have taken
i'll start
antipsichotics:
>quetiapine
>sulpiride
antidepressants:
>moclobemide
>sertraline
depressants & anxiolytics
>alprazolam
>ethanol
>propranolol
psychostimulants and nootropics:
>atomoxetine
>caffine
>piracetam
Fucking love this shit.
Riperdal appreciation thread.
Mentalist Project Center
Alright /mental/ists,
As a starting topic, I know that most bipolars have a bad habit of starting projects and then never finishing them. So, I've decided to open up a thread where we can pretty much offload these ideas with notes and pictures and what not. Generally, doing this is a bad idea because patent laws are a thing and your ideas could easily be stolen, however, I highly doubt any of us really give much of a shit about anything getting stolen considering how we waste our time on image boards. Besides, if one of us gets to the point where we want to be secretive, theres nothing stopping anyone of us from doing so.
With that being said, I would like to point out that anyone is free to post their projects, I just have a hunch that most people with unfinished projects are bipolar. Depressionfags have a hard time finding motivation to do anything, let alone something on their off time, PD's are known for being exciting, not productive, and anxious people would probably be too scared to post their work for anyone to see. Anyone on the Schizo spectrum would be interesting though, considering the eccentricities and unique POV's that schizo's tend to have.
So, I'll start. Currently, I'm working on finding the healthiest way to sleep considering how I'm too manic to pass out naturally and I can't use marijuana as a substitute for too much longer. The marijuana is too much of a legal and monetary pain in the ass (particularly legal. Having a job is nice) and the antipsychotics are awful both short term and long term. Zombie-itus is a real bitch too.
So, if you guys know of any good shit for sleep that won't destroy my body, doesn't cause addiction/hard withdrawals, and won't have piss poor symptoms, I'd love to know about it.
I'm also working on filling my note wall. It's good stuff. Has all sorts of crazy person shit on it. I dig it.
So yeah, Projects and all that. Questions, concerns, etc. Projects can be anything. Welcome to Mental Self Improvement General. (MSIG)
To fill some void, I'll post some note wall bullshit. Hefty project work will have to wait. I have too much brainfog from a couple weeks THC usage. I should be set tomorrow unless I smoke again.
Love, Love, Love
Mentally ill patrons of the beloved board that we are currently operating within, What do you think love SHOULD be? I'm sure all of us have wanted to love, and I'm also sure that most of us reached out into our world at one point to get it. realizing that our society doesn't harbor, nuture, and in many cases, not even know what love is beyond the physical chemical shit that goes on in our brains when we become infatuated.
Schizo lsd
I realize this is entirrly specific but are there kther schizophrenics here who have tried lsd? I was recently diagnosed and looking back it explains very much why my interpretation of the drugs is different than my normie friends, but pretty similar to what ive read in erowid or whatever on just one tab mind you. I got the talking with gods, a riddle game, i even imagined this social order to a club house of enlightened psychonauts who in my sane now medicated mind are simply ordinary people. Tldr people with schizophrenia talk about hallucinogen experience. If you arent schjzophrenic feel free to contribute anyways.
Any Sociopath or Psycopaths here just curious
Got prescribed an antipsychotic (risperidone) but I'm afraid this medicine will harm my study in the arcane and esoteric. (one of the things I'm trying to find is a way to break free from the reincarnation cycle and that is my life mission but I'm also reading other spiritual stuff.)
I'm fearful antipsychotics will harm my ability to be (creatively) involved in these matters.
Anyone that has some insight on this?
reasons you were bullied
My thumbs
Anyone else hate their birthday?
What do you do when you hate everyone you talk to, online and offline, but desire companionship badly and loneliness makes you want to an hero?
Is there no way to cope with this? Am I going to be too cynical for friendship forever?
MMPI-2
Hi guys, its the Rorschach Guy I did some people's inkblot tests on here a while back and the thread was popular but it did take a lot of time and energy so now I'm gonna do something that is computerized…
Please let me do your MMPIs! I'm quite excited about this because this test is supposed to be the scientific pinnacle of psychometrics and it took quite a lot of digging to find this, since psychologists don't want this out at all.
The test does have a lot of issues in that its gender score is very primitive as is its psychopathy score (because it ignores environmental factors that might cause questions to be answered a certain way). Also the self-reporting nature of the test makes it less scientific. In about a month I will post another Rorschach thread using an abbreviated scoring system so that I can get more done quickly and also a Holtzman inkblot thread which is designed to fix the validity/accuracy issues of the Rorschach.
There is text posted in this thread open notepad and save it as .html. Open this and take the test. It is quite long. Post the results (just gonna be numbers and percentages) in this thread and I will interpret them. Tell me if there are any problems.
Let's see /mental/ demographic.
>A/S/L?
>Thoughts right now
>your disorder and perhaps why if a PD
>Personality type
>favourite murderer if one
>anything else
In October of 2015, /mental/ will officially be one year old.
So happy early birthday, everyone.
using the silence
Can anybody else here do this, or have any idea what I'm talking about? I can somehow "turn on" my brain in a way that gives off a noticeable effect to whoever is near me. I know it sounds completely delusional. But I have shown many people what I can do and it never fails, I can adjust the intensity of the effect. I want to know what it is, and what more I can do with it.
post here how do you cope with depression
Are there any mental illnesses you have 0 fucking tolerance for?
>mfw autists approach me and start acting autistic at me
MEDS
What all meds are everyone on? Just curious,I'm on Effexor, clonazepam, depakote, and lamictal
Schizoids
Any other schizoids here?
post your disorders and psychoactive substances which you use
Do you use nicotine? Ethanol? Caffeine? Camomile? Any other psychoactive substances which are not prescribed by a physician?ITT post your disorders and psychoactive substances which you use.
If you're reading this: I may not know you, I may not be able to see you right now but I know what it feels like to go through a struggle and I love you. If I could hug you right now I would. Everything you've been through you don't deserve, and I wish I could make your pain stop. I love you. I love you. I love you.
Are you lonely?
I have a cocktail of mental illnesses, which is isolating as hell. That plus never learning how to be a normal, functioning person has made me incredibly lonely over the years.
My teenage years were spent on Totse/chans and I dropped out of school due to MDD, so I never managed to make any friends. My whole life is wrapped up in taking care of a family member 24/7, so I don't have time for friends now.
Here is the only place where I get a chance to talk to people. I don't fit in anywhere else, yet even here it gets lonely due to a lack of one-on-one conversations. I'd love to have that with people, but I can't relate to most. I spent too many years online being a piece of shit, talking about rape and gore and the usual chan bullshit. It's hard to find people with that mentality. The few attempts I've made to make friends online has resulted in pissing people off or pushing them away.
I don't know. I'm lonely and think about killing myself all the time, simply because of that. If it wasn't for that, I could probably deal with all my disorders, but the loneliness is just crushing.
Is anyone else incredibly lonely or is it just me?
Good-feeling activities
What non-medication things do you do to bring good feelings into your life? I will start a list
Hot baths
Runner's high/dat burn from lifting
Organizing room (especially sorting documents is a great feeling)
Cleaning (freshly clean sheets and no dust on your feet when you walk feels good)
Trying a new recipe that I have been thinking about for a while
Going for a relaxing drive on scenic roads
Making a cup of coffee or tea perfect to taste and then enjoying it
Going out in nature and walking or just sitting and smelling the air and viewing everything around
Eating a pomegranate (they take effort and focus to extract the seeds, it's like getting a reward for the work)
Watching ants or other bugs to see their behaviors
Petting/playing with pets
Recently I tried a bit of aromatherapy and it helps a lot.
Depending on the oils/scents you use, on an organic chemistry level, it breaks down cortisol and cortisone (my chem friend explained it to me, but I don't know chem so I can't explain it, other than the compounds in some scents she suggested create more water/H2O in your brain with the way the molecules interact, which is a positive thing for migraines, anxiety, etc.)
- I drink peppermint tea when I need more focus and I inhale it deeply with each sip and it does improve my focus greatly, even better than my ADD medication.
- I'm not sure what oils other than lavender are very helpful yet. I have a lemon oil but I haven't figured out if it helps with stress or anything other than as a distraction. At work when I feel overwhelmed, I run into the office and hide from customers and coworkers and deeply smell the lemon oil vial for 30 seconds/several breaths and it does make me smile, so I think it does help even if it's just placebo.
Shrinks
What do you think about mental health specialists? Particularly, psychologists, psychoanalists and psychiatrists.
What does /mental/ think about mental treatment?
Also, I see a lot of people here introduce themselves through their diagnoses. What's /mental/ opinion on diagnoses?
Reducing Sexual Desire
Sexual desire is a nuisance. What are some things I can do to reduce it so it doesnt bother me and I can focus on more important things.
Zoloft works a bit but not enough. Its weird because Im both sexually anhedonic in real life but still have an almost overactive sexual fantasy. Anybody got ideas to reduce it?
You were just about to pickup your twin 3 year old daughters from daycare when you get a phone call from the elementary school.
Your son, 6 years old, has had a talk with the counselor and they urge you to come in for a talk about the options you have with your son to begin his transition. Your son has ''confessed' to the counselor that he has always preferred girls toys and likes to cross his legs. He enjoys cooking, coloring with pink, and sometimes likes to dress up in robes.
>year 2022
>As you enter the school there is a man in a coat there and he approaches you. He gives youhis card.
>On the card you see a name and a QR code. He tells you that all the answers are there.
You enter the principals office and there is the guidance counselor there. They explain the situation to you and then a teacher enters. It is the art teacher that you know to have taught your son for at least two years since. She is a strong proponent of LGBT culture and introducing it to kids at a younge age.
The counselor then takes you to their office where your son is waiting. He is playing with a teacup and offers you some imaginary tea. You give him a look but take the cup and then look to the counselor who has been eyeing you closely since you've entered the office.
>We affirm each person’s ability to judge for themselves who they are and express themselves in the way that is most authentic to their soul. We honor the diversity of truths that exists within our communities.
Gender is complex and multi-faceted. In North American culture several distinct facets of ourselves get lumped together when we talk about “gender”: Biological sex: attributes such as anatomy, chromosomes, and hormones that is usually assigned at birth and inform whether a person is male, female, or intersex. Gender identity: a person’s internal sense of being a man, a woman, neither of these, both, and so on; one’s inner sense of being. Everyone has a gender identity. Gender expression: the ways in which a person manifests masculinity, femininity, both, or neither through appearance, behavior, dress, speech patterns, preferences, and more. The cultural expectation is that one’s biological sex, gender identity, and gender expression will align in stereotypical ways: that someone who is male will identify as a boy/man and have a masculine gender expression, for example. This expectation does not serve our diverse world and the myriad experiences of self that exist.
>transACTION is designed to help churches and institutions address this issue of understanding and welcome by providing step-by-step training about the needs, apprehensions and fears of transgender people — as well as the wealth of gifts and graces they bring — while responding to the concerns of the church or religious institution.
Mental health?
>At end-of-the-year award ceremonies, present special “Diversity Leader” certificates to educators who actively promoted an inclusive school environment throughout the year.
>Clothing and Dress Codes is a key way students express their various identities—and many fashion choices are protected by the First Amendment.
>Enforce dress codes among all students equally. A school cannot Constitutionally forbid male students to wear dresses, for instance, if other students are allowed to wear dresses.
>Empower students to express themselves. Messages supporting LGBT rights are protected speech, whether they’re spoken, worn on a button or printed on a T-shirt.
And this just happened to be on the top of the list for transgender education, pol is always right:
Goldberg's Depression Test
http://www.netdoctor.co.uk/interactive/interactivetests/goldberg.phpPost your scores.
depressed and broke life
>slightly mentally ill, nothing to get govt money over
> Can't afford doctor
> mother won't bring me to free clinic
>Can't drive, two job offers required private transportation and D.L
>have given my parents about $600 for various reasons
> neither parents will teach me
>"You live here for free yadda yadda"
>Can't say no because I could always get kicked out
> stuck in apartment all day
> eight months with no therapist/psychiatrist
>Getting depressed at situation
How do you guys do it?
What disorder causes furfaggotry? How can tens of thousands of people gravitate towards such an oddly specific eccentric pattern of behavior.
>fetish for cartoon animals on two legs
That's like a fetish for cramming burritos up your ass. It really floors me that they all arrive on he same thing.
anhedonia, aspontaneity, day schedule
What is your day schedule? What to do? I can get no enjoyment from anything. Every day is the same. Nothing to wake up in the morning for. Today i tried to fall asleep during a day but i have been sleeping 12 hours previous night so I did not succed.
Adderall.
Hey /mental/,
I'm a mild fuckup. I'm a 20y/o essentially skilless neet in a transitional period. The only really good thing I have going for me is that I'm not in any debt. Recently I tried some adderall, and it made me feel the way I think I'm supposed to feel. Sharp, focused, and energetic. I don't want to be a druggo, but I think having a prescription for adderall or something similar would increase my quality of life greatly.
My sister was diagnosed with ADHD back in elementary school, and I think took some meds for it for a while. My dad noted my trouble with school and suggested I might have it too, but I shot the idea down out of shame.
From my quick research, I fit all the criteria for the 'Inattention' arm of ADHD, but neither the Hyperactivity or Impulsivity. I procrastinate, can't pay attention for crap, find it impossible to get organized, and I get distracted very easily.
I'm not even sure what I'm asking. Am I just looking for a diagnosis so I don't have to blame myself for my current lack of success? Does anyone have any input?
>pic unrelated
how to tighten relationship with psychiatrist?
politics
http://www.politicalcompass.orgPost your disorder and where you are on the political compass.
So I deal with depression which is basically gone now.
But for some reason there are still days where I get beyond sad. Those phases last a day or two maximum and then I am back to my "normal" self.
I usually just pop multiples of my usual daily dosage of anti depressants in hopes of stomping the sadness.
Is there anything more reliable way to deal with this temporary sadness?
It feels like absolute shit and it fuels my paranoia which is not good for me.
I start to question my sanity
Nothing matters boys
I've come to the conclusion that literally nothing we do matters. It's freeing in a sense, but also terrible alienating.What does choice matter when morning matters?
I don't give a fuck about anything. I don't want to choose anything. I wish I hadn't been born.
Let's talk about self diagnosis.
Are you diagnosed?
Do you trust it?
Have you attempted to get a diagnosis?
Did it work?
Do feel you need a real diagnosis to qualify for a diasese?
If you advocate self diagnosis, what makes you any different than a fuckbaby island girl?
Also mention what diasese you have.
-Diagnosed
ADHD
Opinions on ADHD medication? I'm not diagnosed with it but after looking through the symptoms it seems to me like I'm ADHD incarnate. Being able to concentrate without getting distracted by every little noise would be a dream come true.
inb4 adhd isn't real
Service dog for an autist, yes/no /mental/ ?
So, i've been toying with the idea of a service dog, because having autism is absolutely suffering when outside in stores and whatnot.
Although I already have a cat, I don't really play with him, I mostly play with other cats in my neighbourhood. which are plentiful where I live
Pic not really related. although Carlos looks the same as I do, all the time.
at least you arent anthony burch
i came to say to you, no matter how fucked up are you, at least you aren't anthony burchbe strong, anon, and remember this in your darkest hour
Fear of Schizophrenia
Around 3 years ago maybe I got it in my head that I might be schizo. Immediately after watching some youtube video of a simulation of a psychotic episode I heard a faint noise, which I later realized was a construction worker outside, that I interpreted to be a voice. I was so panicked that I literally ran down stairs.
This went on for a while, me being constantly afraid that I was going to be barraged by voices but I was able to mostly conquer the fear after a while. It was still there but it didn't bug me nearly as much. I still had some lingering depersonalization, which at the time I was convinced was the main symptom of schizophrenia (I didn't dare look this stuff up because I was afraid of validating my self-diagnoses) but I managed to suppress it. Then a few months ago it got so bad that I couldn't work anymore and had to go to a psychiatrist. Despite the fact that she said I had no indications of psychosis I couldn't shake it and lately I've moved on to worrying about delusions. If some guy is staring at me for instance I start to wonder if maybe I think he's plotting against me even though on an intellectual level I realize he's not. Whenever I'm out in public and people are behind me I start to worry that maybe I think they're trying to kill me. Things of that nature.
This insane doublethink, constantly evaluating my thoughts and emotions to determine if I'm insane, has ironically been driving me insane. I've mostly regained my functioning with the help of zoloft but I feel like I can't shake the foundations of my fear away. I'm still worried that I really might be in the prodormal stages and that at any moment I'll have a full on psychotic break.
Anyway, I was wondering if anyone out there has a had a problem similar to this and could maybe offer some insight. Diagnosis was Generalized Anxiety Disorder if anyone's curious.
qt hindu girl unrelated
Permanent Cringefest Disorder
I'm constantly remembering every embarassing/cringeworthy thing I've done, and I've done a lot, since I tend to do a lot of things in general. I get flashbacks of really petty stuff I've done when I was like 8, thinking about it I've been like that since childhood.
Is it just part of depression or what? I have this shit even when my mood is normal though, I mean it's painful as fuck but as soon as I manage to get myself back to reality I'm feeling fine
Anyone draw the visions of their deranged mind on here? Please post, I would love to see.
Mental Disorder Developement
I've been starting to think mental disorders, expecially personality ones, are often demonized too much, and people fight them way too much.
This might be crazy talk, but what if people could live with their disorder peacefully, shaping it to better fit them?
What if, under lucky circumstances, one could develop and manipulate his disorder as a trait of his personality, and have a normal productive life?
/mental/ group
Would anyone be interested in making mental groups on anything?Like Steam, Last.fm, Kiva idk, whatever else you might want?
If a few people are interested I'm happy to make a group :)
(or you can admin if you want, w/e man)
coping methods
ITT post your disorder and how you copeAnxiety.
Social situations that make me nervous (like going in front of a bunch of people) I blur my vision and pretend that people aren't around me.
Depression.
Vent out by describing how I feel by typing up posts here describing how I feel. Though I usually don't post it. If you want to read it I will post my next venting here later tonight.
Derealization.
Caffeine. It makes me feel more awake so I can experience more of what's going on. or I listen to upbeat music
Insomnia.(NSFW so spoiler text)
masterbate and go to sleep shortly after orgasm
Let's hear your methods.
any plans for summer vacation?
What you dont know about mercury!
First: tinfoil and earplugs
Second: if you have mental illness check into sine microwave form modulation – this is sin() waveforms, they wrote about it in the bible as sin.. "never commit sin [never to accept sine waves to your NLP neurolinguistic programming]" .. you can qiuckly google definitions of "modulation" and "sin wave" – check on youtube - two sin waves of the same frequency cancel each other out and you cant hear either one!
Dumping this here cuz the news wont touch it.
What you dont know about Mercury
who cares if its a small amount, its a wire for your head.
1) Mercury known since 500 BC to cause mental illness [ www.dartmouth.edu/~toxmetal/mercury/history.html ]
- romans would make the prisoners and slaves mine it because
- known to cause people who inhaled while purifying gold it to go crazy
2) Mercury known in 1800 to cause mental illness: [ http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mad_as_a_hatter ]
3) Mercury known in 1908 to cause mental illness: [ http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Minamata_disease ] https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ihFkyPv1jtU
4) Government warns against eating too much fish because they have mercury and its toxic [ google images mercury warning ]
Mercury is given in vaccine form refridgerated. Mercury is used in thermometers, this means when its stored at 0 degrees it shrinks, when its injected into your blood at 98 degrees it expands violently (guessing but, probably to move it to the brain via blood circulation)
Vaccines also contain aluminum.
ITT: Anon has an OCD for prayer AMA
I think I have an OCD for prayer.
> be me
> have a prayer
> can't seem to comprehend that an "amen" completes a prayer
> speak "amen" several times.
Just sayin
Is it possible to recover from autism/aspergers?
I used to have a vivid internal world. I was socially awkward. I was sociable though, and very polite. I was very rigid about many things. I had a great amount of interest in math and programming. Only around age 17 or so did I really start figuring out how having a social circle larger than a handful of friends worked.
I feel like I've come so far in terms of socializing, not being rigid and weird. I also understand social cues a lot more easily. I find my brother, who I don't feel has changed as much, still shows things that I used to see in myself.
I'm just going to stop rambling and drink my tea and fuck off to bed.
Share your favourite movies mentalists
>inb4 back to /tv/
So what movies are you into /mental/? I'll start with Fight Club, pretty much related to this board.
/Mental/ists, I have a problem. Unlike most of the topics here, this is a relatively unusual one. This has to do with a particular hatred I feel. Not a phobia, but an outright disgust and hatred.
/Mental/…I fucking hate women. By default, I hate women as a whole, with very few exceptions. The more attractive the woman, the more I hate her automatically, I am suspicious of her motives.
I am a relatively paranoid person, diagnosed social anxiety, diagnosed depression, undiagnosed mild ADD. (No autism though, thank fuck).
I cannot pinpoint exactly when I first started hating them, but I think it finally came to bear when I went to college and had to live with them. Jesus. Fucking. Christ. Living with them, outside of daddy's control, you see just how disgusting and revolting women really are, psychologically. Physically they are beautiful, at least for a while. But ultimately, women are like locusts, consumers. They are the ultimate materialists. Out of maybe twenty girls in my dorm, perhaps two or three were redeemable and all had come from highly masculine households where they were taught honor and dignity.
Women have absolutely no soul or sense of emotional connection, no concept of hypocrisy. There is only what they 'feel, believe, or think' to be the right thing to do. But the worst thing about women is that they don't view other people as PEOPLE, equal to themselves. To them, everybody else is just a component, a side character, of their own life and as such they are interchangable. Don't like this friend? Ditch her and make her out to be awful. Don't like your boyfriend? Who cares, there are dozens of men who don't care if you're taken. Want favors from men, but also cock? Claim to want long-term, but get drunk and hook up every night and justify it the next morning in tearful apologies in the common room.
Women are consumers, massive consumers. They will reduce consumption only if it allows them to consume something else. Women will eat until they gain twenty pounds easily, only watching their weight if they know it will allow them to consume cock to their shriveled heart's content. They will spend hundreds of dollars at the mall fifteen minutes away, but complain about how they have college loans to pay off (of course not mentioning that daddy is paying half of them anyways). I knew a girl who had sex with over 30 people in the first semester and spent over 2000 dollars on alcohol and marijuana that year in total (including court fees).
Most of these women were supposedly smart, and in high school had been in steady, long-term relationships with good boyfriends, gotten good grades, and done all the right things to get them here. And yet within the first day, they were showing their true colors, fucking drunk frat boys and failing their first assignments.
Friends, boyfriends, girlfriends, hobbies…all interchangeable for them. A women would be great at something and then suddenly switch it to something else the next day. They had absolutely no sense of preference, loyalty to a subject, or an idea of what they wanted beyond what they wanted in the moment.
Oh, the messes too. Women are disgustingly messy, far beyond that of a man. Most men would have some expensive electronics in their room, but other than that, it wouldn't be too bad. Everything would be orderly and put together. The girls rooms were literally ankle deep in junk. Knickknacks, trash, dirty clothing of all types and stains, empty boxes and bags from their endless shopping trips, 'hygiene' tools, you name it. And they would take pride in it, talking about how much of a mess it was to any boy that would listen, as though he gave the slightest fuck about how 'I'm messy just like a guy is'. That's the other thing: the women I was with had no conception of what men actually enjoyed or were like, because they were so selfish they literally couldn't stop to look at the lives of their male friends.
Paranoia is a bitch.
FUCKING FUCK
Hello /mental/
18 year old diagnosed bipolar, anxiety, PTSD, undiagnosed ADD
So this is what happened:
>TLDR near tipping point during depressive episode, prepare suicide, when I get out of it realize I need to see a shrink again
>Go to shrink, get Geodon, doesn't work in the end and gives me paranoid fits, voluntarily go to mental hospital for three days
At the hospital people were shitting everywhere, dementia patients mainly, there was one guy who went over to my bed and defecated there too, the doors were unlocked, no security, 4-5 out of shape staff on hand, irregular meal times, irregular medication times, no safety at night, people walking into my room and watching me, other patients doing this as well not just staff
>Terrible in there, treated like liability not patient, boring as fuck, get Rispradone and Klonopin
>Get out, decide no more Shrink until I get manic then I realize I need one
>Make an appointment, desperately need meds since my child minded religious nuthead parents throw out my rispradone and klonopin
Have to wait a week for a fucking doctor because I'm poor and I have medicaid
>Fast forward a week of sleepless nights and terrible emotional swings, lack of concentration
>Finally get there go through retarded one hour process wait another thirty minutes
EXCUSE ME SIR, I'm sorry but you said you were getting treatment at the other mental hospital so you discontinued treatment here, you don't have a file anymore (my shrink is trying not to look at me she is a cute young one too would totally sodomize against her will/10) so you have to call this Access Med company and then you can make another appointment, the soonest is one week
>Literally about to go ballistic
>Take my survey sheets throw em out, take the card she gave me chuck it, slam the door on the way out start screaming outside
>Usual weird looks sit in my car for thirty minutes
Now here is the part where I need the meds to control me
>Go on a spree of speeding, cutting people off, near crashes and illegal maneuvers in front of cops and so forth
>Easily hitting 90mph, use special cop U-Turn places to speed down highway then speed down again
>Visit random places for an hour, family thinks I was at shrink
>Cut two people off going at 65mph, possible crash couldn't hear anything but a muffled thump since I was blasting music
>Continue being an asshole and getting into near crashes, skimming massive water barrels and concrete barriers
>See cop car
So first thing I do is slow down, luckily there was another car similar to mine right?
>He proceeds to follow other car
>mfw speed by and no fucks given
>mfw I got away with everything
>mfw I have no face
Well since I have free government shit health insurance from Obama, can't hold a job or go to school, can't see a doctor, stuck living with 6 other people in a cramped two bedroom apartment, /mental/ I come to ask:
How do I convince myself to kill myself? I just need that push. See this medical center I went to is SHIT and they let me schedule an appointment and think everything is fine and just turn me away at the last second, when that happened it was a miracle I didn't punch the desk lady's fat disgusting spanish face in.
Just tell me how to do it. Maybe you can convince me to do it. Help me do it.
ITT success stories
This thread is for celebrating the successes you experience with dealing with whatever is going on in your life right now, whether they're big or small. Even if you did something as minor as talking to another person or as big as starting counseling for the first time, it's important to take time to feel good when things go well.>feeling mega shitty for months on end
>been depressed since I was thirteen but now things seem especially hopeless
>life sucks, seems like there's no escape
>frequent intrusive thoughts about suicide and harming those around me
>unemployed neet
>no energy
>no desire to do the things I love
>even when I do I get no pleasure or satisfaction from doing them
>brother helps me get a part time job
>get health insurance again after not having it for a year
>start going to therapy again a few months ago
>counselor has me put on bupropion to treat depression and strattera for ADHD
>over the weeks my counselor helps me understand my frustration and depression and how to cope with it
>start seeing friends again
>energy returning
>losing the excess weight I gained from comfort eating during my depression
>start to feel good about drawing and writing again
>even jerking off feels better and more satisfying than before
>can actually concentrate now when it comes to studying or working on my hobbies
>life is gradually becoming more bearable
Today is the day im telling my mother that i need to get checked out for BPD.
I mean i finally have the courage to ask her to get me tested…i'm 20 and still scared of talking to my own mother.
Not to mention i'm telling her on my welcome back home party….
I just need to know. I'm going insane.
Ask a guy with an autistic GF anything.
>gf has autism>Like anime and everything Japanese
>Wishes she was Asian
>Likes computers (That's how we met.)
>Wants to look like an anime girl
>Can barely talk to anyone but me
>MRA because "Men are more logical" and that they "need women for sex and to keep them in line"
That's about all I can think of.
Stole this from another board.
Basically, imagine you have complete, unlimited superpowers. It can include absolutely anything you can imagine (shapeshifting, freezing time, mind control, completely changing aspects about this world, etc). What sorts of things would you use your powers for?
Ok /mental/ i'll start a game. It's simple you post a picture of yourself and the other people try to guess the disorder you have
I'll start with myself
What do you think?
Hope this is allowed.
Here's an interestig webcomic I found. The premise is pretty generic. Ten strangers wake up in an unknown location with no recollection of how they got there. Except, each of them has a personality disorder.
It's still getting updated and not all characters have been elaborated on yet, but I think it's pretty good.
Does anyone else here find the thought of physical contact to be terrifying?
If you were going to write a suicide note, what would it say?
Does anyone else ever feel like they are faking? I have depression and anxiety alongside avoidant personallity disorder. Even stepping outside into the back garden scares me shitless. I do literally nothing except visit my CBT therapist once a week and take my antidepressants each day. All I day is lie in bed and listen to music and contemplate suicide. I've been diagnosed by a GP and all, but I always have this feel that I'm faking. That I'm just lazy and making up my depression. Is this normal symptoms? Or am I actually probably just faking? It's ripping me apart mentally
Autism Test & General Discussion
Have any autists taken this test?I haven't yet been formally diagnosed, but suspect something's off about me based on research, this test, and the fact that, though I graduated from the Ivy League, I had trouble tying my shoes and opening car doors until I was a teenager.
Anyone here get diagnosed as an adult?
Did things change for you once you had answers for why you were always a bit different from normal people?
Test info:
>The Aspie Quiz was developed by Rdos. It’s been through many revisions over the years, with the addition and subtraction of questions based on, among other things, how well the questions correlate with the answers of diagnosed individuals. If you’re interested in statistics or how tests like this are developed, you’ll love the Aspie Quiz Evaluation page. It has a wealth of information on the rationale for which questions have been included or dropped as well as the correlation between quiz scores and various diagnoses.
http://rdos.net/eng/Aspie-quiz.php
My score:
>Your neurodiverse (Aspie) score: 165 of 200
>Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 42 of 200
>You are very likely neurodiverse (Aspie)
You have 10 seconds to prove you're Autistic.
Alright check out this hypothetical scenario.
>you find a significant other
>everything is great between you
>you decide to have kids
>you both have the means to care and support kids
Here's the twist however
>your mental illness is hereditary
Would you still get kids and be a happy family knowing there's a chance your children will become mental patients as well or would you not have kids with your gf/bf which leads to you splitting up?
Let's say adoption is not an option in this case
i had posted this on another board but i think i will get more constructive discussion here:
my psychiatrist says i have bipolar disorder and social anxiety but i'm starting to think that he's wrong
probably because i didn't tell him this:
i'm terrified of leaving my house because i think everyone is staring at me, paying attention and criticizing my every move. i think they all want terrible things to happen to me. i'm scared that they might act on those desires. i'm even afraid of my girlfriend and family sometimes.
i have also found myself staring into space and either not moving or making a simple repetitive motion for long periods of time (20+ minutes)
do you think i am at the onset of schizophrenia? i don't and have never had any sort of hallucinations. my father's family history is full of mental illness, but i'm not sure that it includes schizophrenia.
This place is too slow
This board needs more users. Advertise on /b/?
Pic unrelated but cozy.
>tfw this board is just social disorders
Come on, I came here so that me and my tupper could have fun making up no-drug solutions to crazy conditions like schizophrenia.
Depression is literally killing you
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC60045/
I need answers /mental/ists. I need answers on why the female kind was so harsh to me. Recently, i have concluded my mind on something:
To never, ever EVER (except in a professional context) establish contact with womankind. No more. I am DONE with them! The scar they left on my mind is permanent. But i need answers. I will post a thread on /fem/ in the hope to understand why they were so cold every time contact was established between me and these creatures.
It will be my last communication attempt with a field so unknown and impenetrable to me i cannot go any further with them. I am done and i feel pathetic. But my mind is now concluded.
It's over.
I literally want to kill myself because of my appearance.
I hate myself every single day because of it. When I was a kid I avoided going outside because I felt sorry for people having to see my face. Weight has never even been a problem.. I just literally am ugly and there is nothing I can do about it.
The only reason why I've always had the opinion of never having babies is only because I couldn't do that to anyone. My genes should not go to anywhere.
I don't know what to do or why I'm posting this honestly.
http://www.celebritytypes.com/personality-style/test.php
Let's do this for fun
Distorted Thinking Styles Checklist
This is going to be good for all of us. Here's the template. I'll start.Leave a few details if you have any
Confessions thread.
Confess whatever is in your head, your heart, etc. Get it out.
ITT: Show your scars.
>Why are you so quiet? Why do you talk so little?
Venting thread
Can we start a venting thread? Just small silly things that we would like to talk about and that don't deserve their own thread.I my case it's about my diary, which I started in February of last year. It was a personal account of things that happened to me daily, how I felt about them, how I interacted with others, what I dreamed of, etc. It helped put things into perspective, and it was nice knowing that someday I might look back and read about how I was feeling in that particular day. I was completely honest there, talking about how I started to self-harm, reporting how my exercise routine was going, in which ways I could improve, and things that annoyed me.
A couple of weeks ago my mother started bringing up weird topics of conversation, usually in an argumentative tone. She made a suggestion and then said how if I didn't like it I should start a blog and write about how my "mommy was being annoying even though she pays all the bills". She talked about how idiotic it is for people to mutilate themselves, and that if a person was waking up early and working hard they wouldn't do such a thing (I'm looking for a job, btw).
So today I confirmed my suspicions and found out that she has been reading my diary. I guess I feel violated, in a way. It was the one place where I could be completely honest without fear of judgement. It's like someone has taken naked pictures of me.
It's not like I have a right to complain, I'm a 21-yearl-old man (child, more like it), who lives with his mother and doesn't have a job. It's her house, and I probably bought the notebook and the pen with her money. I'm a bit upset from the fact that it wasn't just my private stuff that was there, but things my friends told me about themselves. Naturally, this wouldn't have happened if I didn't act like a pubescent girl and gotten a diary in the first place. I just got caught in it because I thought it helped me be more mentally stable , put things in perspective, and being more disciplined (by having to write down the things I did wrong during the day). Now I just put the notebooks away and I'll probably throw them out.
Anyway, I have a tendency to paint myself as the victim, so just ignore the babbling. Post your own vents here, I guess.
What's everyone's method of getting past those feelings of hopelessness, dread, pointlessness, etc? Share yours.
Mine was alcohol, but I have none right now.
Embed unrelated
Depression
Hey /mental/ since you guys are all health experts (kinda) why is it whenever I'm in a lonelier part of my life, ie: working a day job with only myself to talk to or home alone with no plans with friends, I get extremely depressed with thoughts of ending it for no reason and m failures in life?
So what happens if I tell my GP and CBT therapist about my suicide plans and deadline? I'm not going to tell them but I'm curious about if I did. They know I have attempted once before (failed helium) and failed and ask everyone if I have any plans or thoughts to which I lie and say no when really I've set a date for July. What happens if I tell them? UK if it matters
I don't believe there will ever be a solution to this.
I'm 19 and currently in college. Blah blah
>I was big in media growing up
>Got into games like Pokemon Crystal
>Never had a friend to count on. Was just never liked even if I never did anything.
>Just did my own thing
>Growing up, I tried to connect, people never want to put in a bond like I did
>No body ever had time for me
>No body still does.
Maybe I'm boring but the problem is when I see a show or watch a game I'm constantly reminded there isn't anyone beside me to rely on, a reward to earn or an adventure to have like In that virtual world. I'm too red pilled and I'm stricken with fatigue because nothing will provide me with that sense of adventure. I can't find someone to connect with and enjoy life with. I try but it ends with unreturned texts and that's it…just no one has time for me
I don't feel happy, I get frustrated easy, folks bickering makes me shake when it used to do nothing. I'm very insecure inside and tired. Defeated. Not a lot of things go right but I just want someone to count on and to make me happy. I see everyone having their life set.
I'm been trying to tulpa since 2012, I can't meditate, focus enough but I'm so fucking desperate as this tulpa is literally my only hope. Medication won't help, I just see the world to much as generic people who take relationships for granted. They want to just be around good looks and nice. There isn't that close bond and I don't feel I'll ever get that with anyone let alone a girl. I just want to feel mental energy and comfort.
Everyday it gets worse and trying gets harder to study more, to try to develop my tulpa and to wake up every morning trying not to feel like a useless piece of unwanted shit
What do you guys do for a living?
Hey there, guise.
What kind of music to you like? Do you think it has to do with any disorders you may have?
Alternatively, why don't you like music?
I have absolutely no libido thanks to SSRIs and Anti psychotic medication.
I never had much of a libido to begin with but right now it feels like sex is so unimportant to me that I might as well become a monk and make a living off of not getting laid.
How to I fix this without discontinuing my medication?
I don't want to stop taking my meds because they work. I am finally happy with my life except that I just don't want to fuck at all.
It makes me feel so broken, yo.
Flaming rage inside
I'm not an aggressive person and have never been aggressive towards other people.But I have so many violent fantasies. I fantasize about violence the vast majority of the day about war or other violence and I watch combat footage daily. This has been going on for three years and I constantly feel this rage inside me. These flames. It occupies my mind for at least 6 hours a day. I'm just obsessed with this and I feel it is now limiting me from experiencing the good things in life. (I was already limited before that but this enhanced it).
What is this burning rage? How do I find the psychological source of all this anger and rage inside me? And how do I let it go?
ADD
I have severe ADD but my psychiatrist wont give me ritalin because I'm vulnerable to psychosis.I'm tired after reading more than a few sentence of study material and within an hour I might read half a page or do the beginnings of one exercise.
How do I improve my concentration otherwise?
s
This board used to be a nice place, but for the past few months i'm almost certain that /mental/ has been overrun by underage misdiagnosing hormones for illnesses, or for the purpose of attention seeking.Has anyone else noticed this or am i seeing things?
Is there some chat room for miserable cunts that isn't filled with teenagers.
The two I tried ages ago were full of a certain type of person
Anyone here ever been in a mental hospital/facility of any sort? How did you end up there? What was it like?
Misery
I know you probably get over 9000 threads a day like this. But…here goes.I'm 29. I identify as a woman. I'm a lesbian. I've come out to quite a few friends and I'm fairly sure a good bit of my family knows I'm "different". I also suffer from major depression and schizoid personality disorder (Diagnosed professionally. Not by a test online). I take 3 different psychiatric medications and a sleeping aid at night just to "Get through the day" I almost went homeless because I've been so miserable.
The problem? 29 year old translesbian. I look at lolcows like Chris-Chan and think…is this how people will see me? Will I just be a walking joke? What about my daughter? Will she grow up being mocked because of me? Will my family freak out and abandon me when I begin transitioning?
I don't know what to do /mental/. I'm lost, confused, and very sad. Maybe I just needed to vent.
How difficult do you find it to resist when people invite force from you, /mental/? How strongly tempted are you to throw your most prized (and most heavy) possessions, to bite and to kick, to fight or to flee when faced with people who are bad? Do you ever consider yourself to be bad? How about non-persons; places, systems, institutions, etc?
/mental/ now has flags for each mental disorder.
If your mental disorder isn't included I either overlooked it or did it just to spite you specifically. If I forgot one, let me know. Thanks.
Not sure if there is a thread like this, but does anyone else feel empty inside?
Like empty as you are just doing things and feeling nothing.
Is there a reason why i mostly feel empty/grey with occasional happiness from games, friends and such?
Usually it does not bother me, but sometmes like these it does.
Pedophilia
So I'm looking for some advice>be me
>I've had bipolar disorder since about 7th Grade
>Browsing /b/ last night when I stumbled across a pedo thread
>Decided to harass some pedos
>As I'm typing out some bait I found myself staring at the pictures
>I've always hated pedos so I've never actually taken the time to look at the Child Model pictures
>After about 20 minutes of gawking at 8 year olds I realize my dong is excited
>Naturally I started asking the pedos about it
>Got into a serious discussion with one of them
>Started thinking about how much I enjoy being around young girls
>motherofgod.png
>By the end of the conversation I was overall just feeling happy
>Ended up doing the dirty to their pics
>Spent the rest of the night on one of their boards
>Woke up feeling overall pretty happy
>not like my manic happy but genuine happiness
>Haven't felt this good since Elementary School
>feelsgoodman.gif
>While i was eating breakfast this morning it occurred to me that I've always enjoyed spending time with young girls
>Tomorrow I have an appointment with my therapist
I'm debating about whether or not to tell him about my new-found fondness of children. He's pretty open-minded but I'm still not entirely sure if I've just triggered a manic episode or children are just something that i enjoy. I know how creepy this sounds (If you had asked me about pedophiles a week ago I'd have told you they're perverts) but i can't stop looking at the pics
What should I do?
Insomnia
/mental/ is probably asleep right now but I thought you guys might be interested in a insomnia thread.We discuss insomnia, methods for getting sleep, etc
I've been awake 48 hours now
Is there a place online where you can email (or something) a psychiatrist or someone like that, and work out whether going for proper diagnosis is worth the effort? I'm not going full personal-blog-mode, but I've always convinced myself I'm a hypochondriac despite probably having bipolar.
General online help/online tests thread or something, I guess.
pic very unrelated
Depression is a killswitch
Depression is an evolutionary mechanism that is triggered when you are overwhelmed with failure. If it triggers, you are psychologically incapable of trying to improve yourself or live your life and you will welcome death.If a caveman failed to hunt for food, socialise with the tribe, or maintain the shelter, he would be a burden on his genes and the genes of his tribe. Everyone around him would see him as a downer sucking the life out of the tribe and they would leave him to die– he would want it.
If depression did not evolve, the autistic turboretard would live long enough to let a pack of tigers eat everyone because he couldn't be bothered to roll the rock in front of the cave.
We now live in an advanced society where the rules for what constitutes success are unreasonable and where the odds are stacked against us. Everything we need is provided for us, yet the tribe is constantly reminding you that you have overwhelmingly failed according to it's standards. You may be talented or have something to offer, but that doesn't mean you're being a good goyim.
Everyone now has a screen in their homes triggering their evolutionary killswitch, whether they like it or not. But you just have to deal with it and be yourself, the world is your oyster!
>tfw no interest in sex with females or males
>tfw masturbation is enough for me
>tfw I feel broken because of not wanting to fuck
SSI/autism bux
So, who here collects SSI aka autism bux or disability? I'm getting my first check next week but I've already received the first portion of my settlement lump sum.I get SSI for
>>bipolar disorder
>>aspergers
>>severe social anxiety
Probably going to spend most of my money on vidya, maybe some model kits or trying to find people on DA to illustrate fetish art for me since I can't draw. Heck, maybe even buy some art supplies and start drawing myself.
In b4 normie fags come in here bitching about their tax money going toward autist shut ins and neets.
I'm in the psych ward for the following weeks and bored out of my mind as well as knocked out by the meds.
Any advice, idea on what to do?
Does anyone else like crying? I'm finding myself crying for no reason, it has become something automatic. I don't feel a thing, but I have a sensation of lightness afterwards.
Just stop and think about this for a second, over half our society seems to need to take some kind of medication to function in society and the rest need to use alcohol/caffeine to get through the day…wth does that say about the world we have built when we need chemicals just to keep it running??! Would America/europe be a shithole like the mid east if we didn't medicate ourselves with drugs?
Any schizoids here? Do you find yourself unintentionally attracted/in love with borderlines?
As much as I am rather indifferent to other people I have some Achilles' heel towards them. This has happened to me both on the internet and irl. I have no idea why.
I seem to be really sensitive to loud noises. Dogs barking, bells, planes, etc. I can't bring myself to ignore them no matter how hard I try. I used to think this was pretty normal but lately I've been hearing from other people that the same noises that drive me crazy don't really bother them that much, in fact they barely even notice them. Does anyone else here have the same problem? Have you found a way to deal with it?
I always hear music in my head.
a song I have listened to a lot of times start to play inside my head .
sometimes happens with a recent song,
other times with a pop song i listened 10 years ago
What is that?
depressed artists
Discovered this board and figured I'd make a thread. Are there any artists here?I was diagnosed with depression 2 years ago after I hit a low point in my life. I've been drawing since I was a kid and decided to make it my career about 7 years ago, since I didn't really have much else beside it and video games.
Aside from the crushing loneliness, my biggest problem is my lack of a drive. I realize if I want to make this my career I need to practice daily, but I often can't bring myself to. It's always a small miracle when I do.
My self-confidence is pretty awful, so I'm never happy with my art. It's gotten to a point where I can't look at other artists' work without feeling like trash. I see them pumping out better content more frequently and it makes me feel inadequate. I have been told I'm talented, I have a few hundered followers on my blog, but for some reason it doesn't register. Kind of like my brain doesn't process a compliment. It's worrying me, because I may never be happy with what I do, especially considering I call drawing my passion. Sometimes I think about giving up, but then I would be left with virtually nothing.
I don't have any prospects in life and I don't expect my situation to change very soon. I honestly don't know if I can last another 5 years like this.
I've heard lots of advice, it mostly boils down to "keep practicing". But it's kind of hard when life feels like you're wearing concrete shoes. I'm not even sure what I want to achieve with this thread, but I suppose knowing there are others with my problem would give me some solace.
Feeling lonely?
You want someone to listen to your ranting?
Want to make new friends?
Come find us in #mental , you can connect from 8chan's home page by writing /join #mental hmm
This channel is totally unrelated with the board /mental/, but shares the same users.
We're waiting for you!
raccoon i hope this is ok with you
Seroquel
Anyone experience with seroquel?Share your experiences.
How do you cope with loneliness?
When did you begin to realise that there was something wrong with you?
Motivational Thread
Is it ok if i make a motivation thread, to get others motivated if they are lacking it?These videos helped me to regain some motivation. https://www.youtube.com/user/TheMiro0r/videos
What do you do when you feel numb? Mentally speaking.
I feel like i have no purpose anymore and its like im void of all emotions except boredom.
Theory
Does circumcision cause schizophrenia later in life?Does anyone have schizophrenia and is also circumcised?
Diagnose Me Please
Do Your Best, I Just Need Some Help.>grew up and was always complimented on being a "good kid"
>shy around new people/situations
>extrovert during school
>get in trouble all through school for being a "class clown"
>no friends outside of school
>depressed at home
>sing songs to parents and walk around house in "poses"
>graduate highschool a year early
>drop out of college because"too much stress"
>get kicked out of the navy
>meet a girl online and drive out to meet her even though I don't have any clue where she lives
>drop out of school again
>get kicked out of job corps for same reason as navy (panic attacks)
>attempt suicide and survive by minutes
>go back to college and do good
>attempt suicide again
>become neet
>feel awful being a leech off of my parents (no disability in America)
>move to Israel to join the army
>homeless and contemplating suicide everyday
>everyone around me just thinks I am a normal quiet guy
first time hallucinating
I don't have schizophrenia but I have stayed awake for multiple days and started to hallucinate. Is similar to any thing you guys have experienced?I started getting mild audio hallucination, I would think people were calling my name.
Later it started feeling like the room was rotating at wierd angles.
I started seeing some of my furniture and walls warping and moving.
After the warping I mainly paid attention to these mannequins I have that started slowly moving around on their pedestals for most of the night.
I also think I saw a shoebox devour what looked like a soul.
At one point I tried recording the hallucinations with my phone and for some reason whenever I looked at the video it would just move the way it currently is in real time. Though I knew I was getting visual hallucinations but u started to think the moving mannequins were legit.
>has anyone else experienced this?
I usually never get this but it was fun for a one-time experience but I would hate going about my life like this.
Diagnose me
So /mental/ i think i have adhd or somethinPart 1
>i remember being frustrated in highschool cause its been the only time i struggled to keep up my grades in what i thought were "Boring" Classes
>everyclass i thought was boring i struggled to get a C in
>Classes i had fun in i got A's without studying
>easily distracted in general
been like this since i was a kid
When i encountered my parents about this on a few occasions they simple said i wasn't "trying hard enough" or "its just an excuse"
note: extremely visual person while my parents are full organization, a messy desk is organized for me and if i clean it im completely lost
Still straight A's cause i actually enjoy the material for my classes right now
Still don't bother to study for tests past doing homework
Should I just take meds already? I've been seriously depressed for five years now. I would take meds in a heartbeat but I hear of side effects that end up killing your dick, sometimes even permanently.
What do?
>be me
>13 with adhd and anxiety
>Constantly sad but is afraid to show it
>puts on facade to make it look like I'm fine
>How2girl
Do you guys ever think about other people?
As in, people who lack any kind of mental health or disorders.
How is life different for them?
Are they happier than us?
Is it really easy for them to just get up and enjoy their lives?
Just things I think about, I guess. First post here, nice to meet you all.
How would one go about acquiring depression again, /mental/?
You see, when I'm depressed, I feel hollow, deprived of life and a will to both endure through my suffering and yet end it in a twisted, self-exerted dichotomy, and it vehemently helps with my writing. Right now, I'm generally alright, even teetering on the edge of positivity, and I have very little motive to write.
Without my writing, I am nothing. It is the core element to my being and absolutely inherent to my sense of self.
Help. While it is awful to be depressed, I would rather suffer emotionally than go without my writing.
How long has it been since you self harmed?
If it's been a while, how did you get over it?
If you've never done it, have you ever had the urge?
Elliot Rodger General
Sup /mental/.
I've been reading this fag's autobiography/manifesto thing. Its kinda slow and full of autism about mundane details, but honestly, I kinda feel for him. Granted, he's still a massive omega male faggot, but it's weird because I see it almost like and exaggerated parody of what a lot of guys go through growing up.
And it definitely has some comic value in how melodramatic he is.
So what disorder does he have?
I'd say
>schizotypal
fear of people, inability to socialize, delusions of persecution
>narcissistic
can't recognize his own flaws, extremely entitled, can't take criticism
Bonus
>spoiled brat
Has anyone here ever been in a mental institution? What was it like and when did you go? Post your story.
Let's meet the /mental/ists
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need help
http://pastebin.com/embed_js.php?i=mqLCLFv9I need help. I may have a wide range of disorders: Depression, depersonalization, schizophrenia, etc.
My father had schizophrenia. I'm currently in Israel with no money or contacts. I went on a birthright trip with the hope of ending my life as a /neet/
I was kicked out of the us navy for having panic attacks.
I'm currently trying to get into an Israeli combat unit…
I flunked out of two different community colleges because both times I didn't show up to the final after a semesters worth of what would have been an A. I graduated from high school a year early.
I don't want to kill myself, but only because of my irrational fear of death.
I don't know what to do.
I just wish someone would end my suffering.
I have basically been on life support for the last 5 years.
Hello there, at 10:05pm EST, two users by the name of Orblivion and Kaira_ were banned from the /mental/ IRC. They are both in immediate danger of themselves. If any of you know them personally, please contact them and make sure they are alright. They have both had suicidal thoughts before and this is a last-ditch effort to get them help. Thank you.
Pic related, that's what happened.
Hey /mental/
I've been drinking and wanted to ask a question
For those of you who fear death, do you think that it has stopped you from killing yourself in a situation where you otherwise would have?
My answer is yet.
Is anyone here familiar with ADD?
I got diagnosed about a year ago. At first i tried Ritalin, but that gave me serious headaches after the dosage wore off. I then switched to dexamphetamine, which had a much milder effect, but didn't give me the headaches.
The main problem is that dexampetamine seriously fucks up my appetite, and the slow release version isnt an improvement.
Can anyone suggest any cheap alternatives that i might be able to try? Stuff like Vyvanse is super expensive ($100+ for a month's supply) and i can't afford it.
My doctor is extremely reluctant to discuss other medication options (not sure why) and it will take me at least a month to get an appointment with another doctor.
Does #mental @ rizon not work? It gave me something like "bad channel key" when I tried to join.
>want a relationship
>want to feel loved
>too weird for normal people
>too awkward to pretend to be normal
Any of you in relationships? Has it been affected by your illness at all?
Did you get diagnosed?
You really should if you can afford it. Professionals spend years in school and possibly their entire careers on dealing with Mental Disorders. A self diagnosis is usually only good in knowing something maybe wrong, but not what is wrong.Get an actual diagnoses if you haven't, if you have, you've taken some really big steps in doing what many would consider the right direction.
I'm bad with words.
BUM WINE APPRECIATION THREAD!
for those of us that are too poor to drink anything better!what is your favourite cheap alcohol, and why?
I like good ol' canadian sherry/apera.
$7.45 for 750ml of 20% alcohol. Cheapest alcohol you can get in ontario. I'm sure the US probably has cheaper.
I've been drinking since 8:30 this morning
Does any other schizophrenic person experience a type of virtual reality when they are laying in bed with their eyes closed.
Please don't say this is dreaming, I've had lucid dreams and these hallucinations, I can tell them apart.
I experience first person view landscapes and I can control my second body through thought. I can also communicate through thought to other "people" I see in these realms.
Please tell me I am not alone in this fucked up scenario.
The Fraudulent Mental Health/Recovery Industry
The entire mental health system is a complete and utter scam! The stigma associated with mental illness is no longer an issue, as we're seeing a colossal increase in diagnoses all all types of mental illnesses in the general population. One thing i've noticed on this site, in my peer group, and in rehab/recovery, is that a lot of these so-called mentally ill, have one key thing thing in common- either physical or emotional trauma - often repeated over several years. Most mentally ill people are a victim of unfair circumstance, rather than being actually, organically ill. The problem with these treatment programs, is that they offer the most superficial and general of information and advice, which does not even remotely apply in real life. Instead of giving addicts and mentally ill people the opportunity to learn vocational skills and find fair and meaningful employment, these institutions further cripple the patient, by creating a dependence on the treatment facility and therefore increasing receidivism, and thus increasing profits. The medications don't work at best, and are harmful at worst. Mental illness is also an economic issue, as it is a known fact that poverty breeds mental illness, every time! Therapists are a waste of time and money as well, because they cannot change the conditions of life that make us mentally ill.
ITT: We Socialize
>we back onlineI was starting to miss this place.
To celebrate let's have a socializing thread!
Here, we make friends, and form bonds, because anyone can benefit from friends!
Who wanna be my friend? :)
ITT: Stories of people finding out about your problems/disorder.
This just happened like 2 hours ago.
>higher up black guy at work approaches me
>starts talking to me about getting higher up, my hours, etc.
>he looks around to make sure no one's around
>"So I'm pretty good at reading people."
>I stare at him blankly, as is my nature
>"You're pretty quiet, but I see something in you. You got more going on in that head of yours, don't you?"
>assume he's talking about creativity, as I have that and am trying to work towards a career using it
>"I noticed, and I talked to a coworker about it, that you walked in here one day and you had cuts all over your arm."
>remain staring at him straightfaced, getting mildly angry
>"And I was just like… man… a person really gotta be hurtin to do that…"
>still straightfaced, heart racing because I don't want to deal with my mental health issues with this asshole
>"So how did those cuts happen?"
>without skipping a beat answer back "Cat scratches."
>"…cat scratches?"
>"Yup. I got asshole cats."
>"Asshole cats."
>"Yup. Cats are assholes."
>"So they weren't self inflicted?"
>"No."
>"Mmm. Okie dokie."
>he walks away
>no idea if that worked
I really hope this doesn't become a further issue.
Hello
I am going to heal you all.
At this time I can only do it to a certain level. Eventually the whole thing.
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ITT: The benefits of having your disorder.
>facially inexpressive so I won't age as fast as other people
is it weird that i have been obsessively looking at cartoon pics of boys in cute girly outfits for the past 18 months. i am a boy so…
https://chan.sankakucomplex.com/?tags=fav%3Aanarchokawaii+crossdressing
http://coolguy3867.deviantart.com/favourites/56280567/Crossdressing
Why is talking to people so fucking hard :<
Why am I so unfunctional? I seem to have no will/motivation/energy to take care of myself or do things that need to get done. I want to do things, but I don't do them, and then I get stressed out because of it. Fatigue is certainly part of it, but there is also some kind of internal resistance in me to do anything. I barely cook food or clean up my apartment. Barely even get bills paid. I have this constant 24/7 low level anxiety, and the thought of doing anything makes that anxiety worse.
Why can't I just do whatever I set out to do? I fail almost all my plans and almost any kind of project I decide to do I will fail eventually. My thoughts fly from one thing to the next, and soon I will forget what I originally set out to do. I often feel like I'm not even deciding what I do. I feel powerless in my own body. I'll do things but I don't feel like I'm really doing then, I feel detached. Anxiety in general makes me have degeneralization/depersonalization, I guess that's from PTSD but I don't know.
How can I restore control of myself? I think some of my symptoms could be interpreted as ADD symptoms. Wouldn't amphetamines just make my mind even more detached and race faster than now though? I have taken a dopaminergic drug, and it did lessen my anxiety, but it did seem to make me even more impulsive. That drug had some very mild opiod-like effects too though so that might have been why.
I think I might be addicted to the internet, but really I seem to get addicted to whatever kind of stimulation I expose myself too. If it's not internet and messageboards it will be porn, and if not that videogames, and if not that food. My mind just seems to jump onto and latch onto any kind of stimulation it can get. Somtimes I feel like one of those rats in some of those studies that get to push a button to get food, and some rats will just keep on pressing the button until they eat themselves to death. Why can't I have full control of myself? I don't want to be a victim of my environment.
I notice the autistic community is lacking representation
So, here:http://8chan.co/aut
Neurotypicals and leftists will be banned.
Social Awkwardness Thread
Post your horrific tales of your own social awkwardness.
So Mental, how can i know more about myself?
Like why do think the way i think or why do i do things the way i do?
Why some things are hard for me and who am i?
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>"dating" girl
>works very well
>heavy feel stuff happens I start to feel numb
>cant find out what it is
>eventually it crashes and she goes offline
>try to sleep, dreams are all over the place sweating, think I am still texting
>suddenly realize that I kept every emotion out
>wake up good bye message
>text her hope I can explain
>go out for christmas stuff, nothing
>come back, nothing
>now sitting here, nothing
>she is still in all friendlists but mobile is off I think
>as I write this my mobile flashes
>grab it at the speed of light
>some dude out of my school postet merry christmas
>nothing, absolutely nothing
This is horror she dragged me out of a horrible phase, I dont want to loose her…
every pop up I get, every light that flashes, every sound that comes up that could be a message, I jump at it only to find that it was not her… only to have my suspicion creeping up on me more, something I wont be able to deal with help
Can anyone relate?
I know seeking help on a chan board sounds like a bad idea, but honestly, I find that people are much more honest around here than anywhere else… So here goes.The last 5 ish years of my life have been hell. My mother died, My wife left me (for another guy) after being 12 years together, Due to the economy I lost 5 jobs (Some I kept no more than 2 months before seeing the company close).
Through those years I had severe depression, anxiety disorders, and suicidal thoughts. I Actually tried to kill myself 4 times. And failed, mostly because I couldn't go through/bear the pain at some point. All attempts were known only to myself, family doesn't know, only my shrink and doctor, and I am pretty sure my doctor doesnt believe me since I didnt end up in a hospital.
Now here I stand, still single, jobless again, for 4 months now. I don't have any income, living off the money I managed to put aside which should support me for 2-3 years, so at least money is not too much of an issue. Along the way I apparently pissed someone off and I have no idea how or when, but following some interviews some people hinted that my background check turned something very bad about me. I tried to figure out what and I can't. I had to go on medical leave at one point, because I was being harassed by a boss at work, and began having anxiety issues due to that. So it might be that my ex employer are telling my prospective employer about my medical leave. (In case you wonder I left that job, I believed sueing would definitely screw me up if I looked for work elsewhere so I shut up and left).
Basically, I feel completely fucked, can't get a job, don't have much of a social life, I'm lonely, and never have felt so suicidal, yet my past failed attempts discourage me from trying again. I just lost all will to live. I can't find a fuck to give, I hate everyone, I have no passion, no interests, I'm just all out of willpower.
So has anyone been through something similar? How did you get back on your feet? How did you manage to care about something again?
I already tried meds in the past, I would rather not try that again as it really didn'T help.
Sorry for the long ranty post. Thanks for any help, it's really appreciated.
Is Depression a real mental illness ?
Do you consider Depression as a real mental illness ? I was diagnosed with Depression, but I still feel like a phony compared to the people here who have a big mental condition like Schizophrenia or Paranoia.I'm afraid I'm under the "Special Snowflake" impression, and I'd like to know if there is a serious scientific basis to classify Depression as a mental illness.
Dissociation
How does one tell if you're dissociating?I don't have DID but I find myself more and more having internal discussions with myself, and referring to me "rational" side and my "irrational" side, and they always conflict with each other.
They're not separate personalities, but rather different aspects of myself.
For instance, as I'm typing this my "irrational" side is convinced that all of you will call my an attention whore and a dumb shit for asking such a stupid question and yet my "rational" side is telling me that I'm jut asking a question and there's nothing to worry about, and even if people think the worse than who cares?
I'm not asking for a diagnosis, just some advice I suppose, or maybe your own stories, or maybe just someone to tell me I'm being silly and this shit is normal.
What are the signs of autism?
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Anhendonia
Pic semi-related.Hello /mental/ patients. I was wondering if you could give me some advice about dealing with depression, specifically being unable to enjoy stuff.
Okay, details. so I've been dealing depression for many years, and it hasn't been too bad lately cause I'm under a rather effective treatment. Anyways, the worst of the worst is over, but I find that over %90 percent of the time I don't really get any enjoyment from anything I do, even when it's stuff I usually like (vidya, playing bass, reading, learning about science, doing math, fapping), and I only do things because it distracts me from my bleak life and keeps my mind from going to some very dark places. Lately, I've taken to oversleeping since I actually feel emotion in my dreams, and when I'm dreaming I actually experience stuff like joy and excitement, in contrast to the dreary emptiness of daily life.
Christmas.
Greetings /mental/.No denial, Christmas is at our doorstep. For what it is supposed to be a moment for gathering, enjoyment and happiness, for some it is a heavy and lonely time of the year. They dwell in their minds thinking about whatever problems they might have. Mental problems, financial, relationships, family…
There are people who simply sit on their couches in front of a little cupcake with a candle on it saying "Merry Christmas!" to themselves, but with no one around. Loneliness is such a harsh mistress. But you don't have to listen to her.
This is why i am creating this thread, for whoever can relate, the loneliest of souls who have survived their existence ever since they came out of the womb. Whatever you hate this time of the year or not, i feel there is no harm at all to wish you a merry Christmas.
On a side note… If there is truly a god out there, i know i am not worthy of heaven. I'd like to make the best of my time on earth before i go kill myself in a warzone.
Let's gather ITT and try to make the best out of our despair.
Kindness, but reason.
This board is basically fuckbaby island. It's rampant with self-diagnosis and silly fluff diagnoses like "Intermittent Explosive Disorder" and "Schizotypal Personality Disorder" that are just psychiatric creations drummed up to medicalize normality. Not to trivialize anyone's issues, but not every personal issue is a psychiatric one.
>4. This board is not fuckbaby island. There are no trigger warnings and no one will protect your feelings.
>complaining about being insulted on an image board
>as the board owner
>after insulting someone who posted "hey, this might be a bad idea"
>for trying to impose nonsensical rules
It was fun while it lasted.
Ban me, you buttblasted nigger.
I don't give a fuck anymore.
this board is a shithole. the people on this board are some of the most pathetic people i've ever encountered on an imageboard. there losers are wizardchan tier. you artistic faggots will never amount to anything! suck my 9inch dick, /mental/!
>"ADHD isn't real"
>tfw I'm a huge fuckup if thats true
Hello /mental/
I've always had problems in my relationships due to severe jealousy. I can acknowledge my feelings are wrong but it does nothing to calm me. I do not force my partners into deleting people or changing instead I just leave the relationship. Can my jealousy be part of a mental illnesses?
Pic semi-related
To put my thoughts out there first, I don't agree with trigger warnings, at least for me personally. But this rule in the sticky got me thinking
>4. This board is not fuckbaby island. There are no trigger warnings and no one will protect your feelings.
What's your guys views on trigger warnings in a general?
p.s. to clarify, im not saying this place should be in anyway changed(I love it), just curios on some peoples opinions from the users of this board
I forget stuff. Very easily. I will be told something say yes to it and the very moment I finish the word I will forget what I just said yes too.
I live with many sticky notes.
I am 19 so I don't think its alzheimer's but I am terrified of going out to places or even getting a job. I wouldn't want a boss to get mad at me for asking him to repeat something like 6 times.
I am scared.
Hey /mental/ I know there are quite a few schizo-somethings here, and I had a question about the auditory hallucinations. How do you distinguish those from just general speaking to yourself in your head, like when you're planning something out or doing critical thinking? Say I have different voices for every situation, an intense and energetic one for when I'm angry, an older and calmer more rational voice for when I'm thinking, etc. How do you guys distinguish something like this from an auditory hallucination?
what is the common treatment with sexual disorders like fetishism?
I can't look at cute girls without feeling sad
Summarize yourself here. Try to use definitions of your disorder(s) and the way it/they interfere with your day-to-day living, and how you deal with it/them. What do you do? What are your boundaries? Why are you the way you are?
And what would you like to be doing?
I think it's good to do this so we can discuss what we /are/ capable of, as well as /aren't/. Believe it, there are many here who can relate to whatever you have to deal with on a daily basis.
I'll do mine after a few posts, since I don't want to seem like an attention whore.
Picture completely unrelated, I think.
Hello, /mental/ists. I'm just someone aged 17 who's currently living with my family.
I've never really had friends or even a proper relationship. I started be "sad" with life at 8 and at 14/15 I was wanting to an hero, but I've never had the balls. The worst is that in that age I started to hear voices telling me to an hero, they insulted me and made me not to feel worth living for.
The first time I got one (during a shower) I screamed to mom and explained her, but she didn't really cared.
I still have them with also visual hallucinations about monsters, people, parts of bodies and some other stuff, I try to tell her about them but she's always being like "It's just stress", "you have lots of imagination" and it's bothering because she doesn't see it as a real problem.
I feel so broken and insecure, what should I do??
And if you ask: I've never done any drugs and I don't know why my head does all of that. I also never went to any specialist to talk about this because at home they don't take it seriously.
I just want it to stop… What can I do, guys?
Hey /mental/, I noticed that a large number of people on here, perhaps a majority, experience severe anxiety and anxiety related disorders. With this in mind, my friends tell me I am a very irritable/aggressive and unagreeable person, and they say this could be due to anxiety, however I don't feel I suffer from any overwhelming anxiety. In fact I might say I don't know if I suffer to much anxiety period, however I don't really know. Can you guys explain to me what it feels like and how you know it's not just overwhelming boredom or a short temper or something like this, but rather consistent anxiety and stress? Thank you.
Hey everyone. I'm here to ask for a bit of advice, because I'm confused as to what is going on in my head right now. I'd like to be able to confer with you guys for a bit. Now, I don't think this is a substitute for a professional, but it is a nice starting point. I'm not asking for a diagnosis, I'm asking for information that may relate to these symptoms. (Please don't think I won't be taking this advice with a grain of salt, everything I hear here is just going to be for reference.)
Keeping it short, I've not been in the right mindset lately. I've been anxious a lot, especially when I'm just about to go to sleep. My heart rate rises and I can't sit still. I've wanted to inflict some sort of pain in order to relax myself after these moments.
Secondly, I've been arguing with myself. Well, I'm not sure it's myself. The voice itself is not very intrusive, but we disagree on a lot. I used to think it was just me arguing a point in my head, but it's more like I'm talking to someone else. Before I knew it, I'd started referring to them as another me. I don't know how it happened, but a very blurry line is forming.
Lastly, I've felt strange in my own skin lately. I've begun referring to it as "the body" for some reason, I've drastically changed the way I look in the past few months, as well as having long, extended feelings of being an observer. Like the body is just a place where I reside, rather than something that is a part of me. It's strange, but I feel as if a lot of the stuff happening around me is background noise. I'll lose myself during conversations or trip up in some way because of it.
Do you guys have any idea what I should do, what this sounds like, have you gone through it before? I'm lost, with no place to start, no definition, or anything.
Thanks.
ITT: ask an anon with two personalities anything.
My music is on, and he is here with me right now, ready to answer.
So /mental/, my girlfriend has DID. The thing is, there's a place in her head called Paradise. Her and the other personalities -live- there. Does anyone have anything like this? I'd be interested to hear any stories.
Would offline meetings actually work for /mental/ists?
A lot of users seem to be quite extroverted, having people meet up and hang out together could help a great deal.
Although, I'm not sure if I trust the people from 8chan to not rape me/murder me/flim flam my zim zam.
Discuss.
Hey /mental/, I know you some of you here should have at least some knowledge and experience with mental disorders, and I was wondering what disorder these symptoms fall under. (not looking for a diagnosis btw, just more in depth understanding).
>Emotional flatness
>Constant irritability, aggression
>Short temper
>Selfish, high self worth
>Carelessness, low empathy, no life direction
>Spontaneous, thrill seeking
>Constant complaints of boredom, doing dangerous things
>Sadistic/bullying behavior
>Compulsive lying
>Seems to have no attachments to others, highly misanthropic
>Polite and friendly with strangers however, always helping others
>Very high impulsivity, explosive anger
I can't tell anymore, could be symptoms to BPD, depression, ADHD, anything. Can someone give me an idea of what this sounds like?
Anyone here on disability? How easy was it to acquire?
anybody else here going to be alone for Thanksgiving?
I'm 17, failing school, aspire to be a neet, and am generally apathetic towards all but my two best friends.
What do I think I have?
- ADD
- Borderline autism (because I'm a dumbass social fucktard, but that's unrelated)
What does my hippie-ass doctor think I have?
- Thyroid issues.*
*(Thyroid issues are the latest Dr. Oz shitty fad diagnosis for being tired a lot and unable to focus)
So of course, Doctor's orders, I'm taken off my concerta and Zoloft, and now I'm taking thyroid hormone supplements. Of course, my grades start tanking down the shitter as soon as I'm off the meds, I feel like absolute shit, and I've lost the motivation to do anything but browse 8chan all day and fap sometimes.
She's doubled the dosage of the thyroid meds three times (I'm taking 2 grain daily now) and they still don't do shit, so I'm fully convinced that this thyroid diagnosis is 100% bullshit.
Is there anyone in a similar situation? Maybe?
TL;DR - New doctor's a hippie. Blames my ADD on a gland in my neck. Ruins my life.
sup /mental/? This is going to sound crazy. Basically, it started because my next door neighbor can hear my water running, and knocked on my wall whenever I ran my water as a way to cause me to run my water less. If you've never been in a similar situation it is not really possible to explain the effects it has on a person. It essentially turned my life into a series of knocks, I use the bathroom knock knock knock, I wash my hands knock knock knock, wash dishes knock knock knock, get a glass of water, get water to cook with, take a shower, brush my teeth, splash water on my face, and on and on, knock knock knock. It got to the point where I was literally shaking just thinking about using my water. I would try to use the bathroom at work everyday before I left just to avoid some knocks. It made me a their prisoner in so many ways, and I hate them for it. I honestly think I have some form of PTSD because of them. Naturally enough, there have been many drunken confrontations initiated by me pertaining to said issue. I asked him to stop, made a scene tried to fight him etc. Basically they said no, we're not stopping, just stop running the water. After this happened enough times, they stopped for awhile. Now though, they have started knocking randomly throughout the day, along with knocking when I run my water. At least 3 times a day they just start knocking on my wall for about 10 minutes, I think they are trying to goad me into causing a scene and ultimately calling the police and getting me arrested.
In response to this I have begun running my water excessively throughout the day (water is a fixed cost included in my rent), playing a high pitched noise into their apartment at night, and for the woman (who absolutely detests me, she thinks I'm a pedophile/ rapist or something) I have been playing porn loudly while cycling in the 'Lydia' ringtone from breaking bad (yes her name is Lydia). That had limited success, so in addition, I started using acapela box, its a text to voice program, and typing in lewd sexual things regarding she and I. Things like she has a crush on me, and she knocks to let me know she is horny for me, its actually quite lulzy. That actually got her to stop knocking for today at least, which I feel good about. I now want to do something similar for her boyfriend, I do not think sexual things will work on him, he's the type who will just laugh them off. Some things I know about him are he obviously has issues with wanting to exert control over his environment. He has mentioned before during one of our confrontations that he was raped by a pedophile growing up, which I think is where his control issue comes from. He is a former alcoholic, but no longer drinks. He is a wannabe tough guy, forces others in the complex to do as he pleases, threatening to disable their vehicles if they defy him (he is a former mechanic, and apparently knows some trick to fuck up a vehicle in a way that it wasn't obviously vandalism) So basically, focusing on his control issues, I am looking for things to say via acapela box to make him uncomfortable to the point of wanting to move just to get away from me. From my research into ppl who need to control others, it comes from a fear of losing control themselves, or being at the mercy of others. They inflict pain and hardship on others because they themselves are in pain, though they don't realize it because it is buried deep in them where they cannot remember or acknowledge it. So basically I want to pick him apart subtly at the sub conscious level, bring to light the things he doesn't want others to know, or even to truly understand himself. So yeah, thats where I'm at. Ideas?
A bit of a stream of consciousness post, so please feel free to ignore it if you don't like that kind of thing. This seemed like the appropriate board for it.
As cliche as it is, I feel like I'm utterly dead inside.
I've been pushing myself hard, but I always fail because I have no goals in mind and don't believe that I can succeed at anything. So usually I end up putting myself in situations where I have to perform, but end up sabotaging myself because I don't believe in myself.
I also feel no allegiance to anything, from my family to "human values" or whatever the fuck. I don't like or love anyone, I don't believe there's anything good that can come from people, so I usually just ignore them. Most of the time when someone makes a joke I don't laugh. When they make a statement expecting a reaction, I just say "okay".
My face is a stone mask. I'm not scared of people per se, but I'm sure this is one of the things that make me bad with them. I don't enjoy their company or feel any interest towards them either, and of course there's few things that are as off-putting. In general, I don't want to create anything or contribute to humanity in any way because it seems indifferent at best and hostile at worst.
Going to university was a mistake it seems. Even though I tried hard, I still gained nothing from it. I was hoping that would change with the MSc, but so far it hasn't.
I fell utterly powerless because life seems random and unpredictable and effort is not rewarded. Guess I should just wait until I die, because I swear I can't find a single thing worth fighting for that is achievable and every time I seem to be making progress, reality just ups the difficulty.
22 years have amounted to nothing. No relationships, no achievements, no happiness. I'm tired. I'm so very, very, very, very fucking tired.
ITT Talk about any issues you have in general.
I get anxious thoughts everyday that can drag down my mood significantly, and I consider myself an anxious person in general. I can't remember the last time I've maintained a decent mood for a week and been achieving the things I want to be achieving during that time. I feel like I should be more descriptive but I'm worried I'll say something I disagree with after I post it. I'm looking for people that have felt similarly in the past to ask me questions and give me advice, and I can do the same for others, though I'm not sure how confident I would be in solving anyone's problems.
Maybe /mental/ can help me.
I don't know why, but a lot of the time I slip into feeling like a small, helpless child.I'll have that childlike immaturity inside me that bubbles up during stress, when someone is yelling at me, when I'm doing something mindlessly fun, and sometimes just randomly.
When it happens if I'm stressed I get whiny, I react to pain by crying instead of how other adults do which is going "Ow, FUCK", I cuddle with stuffed animals, I watch kid's TV, I'm obsessed with Chuck E. Cheese, I have almost no sex drive (I masturbate though), I tend to have childish bouts of fucking up tremendously in ways adults shouldn't, I'm so shy that it's borderline crippling and people often think I'm younger than I am. I'm in my 20s but people often think I'm 15-16 years old.
I don't know what this means specifically or why I'm like this and I can't really find anything on it.
Any reasons for living?
I prefer an answer from the "bad" part of the board, people who seems to do always the wrong thing, hurting people with they mere existence.
I don't want stupid answers ala leamazingElliottRodgergentleman like "I'm superior to lesser humans" and other delusional bullshit, real reasons, stuff that makes you say "well at least i enjoy this" or "well i don't want to leave my pet alone".
I'm scared of pain before death, even in "painless death", i saw some loved ones dying from supposed "painless death" and they didn't look really happy, but i guess corpses don't look happy even if they smile.
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Can I just say it's weird to think that a month ago this board didn't exist.
I love you guys.
I"m drunk aka how do you deal with your issues
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>this board
Basically classifying stupidity as a disease.
You are all some special snowflakes aren't you?
We are all very different from each other and pretty much everything these days is a mental disorder. I guess people who are too stupid to know how to and when to socialize are autists, not stupid people.
Yeah right.
Would you abandon humans if Robots with advanced AI were adequate to meet your needs?
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PTSD. I've killed a child. I was ok at first, but months after it started beating down on me. Since, it's infested my memories, my dreams, my nightmares, my mental and physical being.
You know what one thing that makes me feel squicky about therapy?
It feels like there's a thin line between objectively treating an illness and subjectively imposing a moral agenda, and the therapists often zig-zag over that line.
Anyone else notice this?
/b/ has /b/tards
Other boards have names for their users.
/mental/ needs a name for their users.
Let's decide on one.
Sup, /mental/ists?
How are you feeling today?
Remember to never give up, no matter how hard it looks, you've beenn through worse than this!
Disability
I apologize if this has been asked before, but I was wondering if anyone here is currently on disability or if you're in the process of trying to get it? I was wonder what everyone else's experiences were with this.I've been fighting with the courts since 2010 and keep getting denied. I have a lawyer now and it's gotten to the point where they're suing the social security administration.
So, tonight is pretty much the first night I've started hearing things. I feel like someone is watching me. I feel nervous as hell. I have no idea what's going on, but it feels similar to an anxiety attack, yet different.
What do
Why does cutting feel so good?
Hello /mental/, it's my first time posting here. Been depressed for as long as I can remember, have thoughts of suicide pretty much daily ever since elementary school. Never seen a doctor so I'm not exactly sure whats wrong with me but I know for sure I'm not normal.Recently (two days ago) I started cutting my arms for reasons that don't really even logically make sense to myself. It just sort of seemed like the right thing to do to block out my mental pain. Well, once I started cutting I realized that it sort of made me feel good, almost like taking some sort of drug. I used to think cutting was for teenage girls who wanted attention, but now I am one of those people. Part of me wants to stop all this because I know theres no way this can end well, but the other part of me just wants to keep cutting because its the only thing that makes me feel anything right now. I don't even know why I'm posting this thread, I wish I just had a friend or someone I could trust to talk about all this shit with
Deleting /ment/
I am the Board Volunteer for /ment/, basically the original /mental/. Someone(Raccoon I believe?) copied the exact idea for the board and has implemented it here, even copy-pasting threads. There are even posts diverting traffic away from my board to here. I left them there out of not wanting to suppress.Anyway, the fact that this occurred annoyed me at first, but I was planning on handing the board off to someone eventually, and this is about the same. It was just so strange and unexpected though. I am still kind of waiting for an explanation.
My only complaint about /mental/ is how there seems to be more of the typical —how shall I say this— image board lulz-seeking, schadenfreude, mindless ignorant criticism, etcetera. Maybe that is what everyone wants though. Other than that, it was basically what I had in mind. I suppose I did not post enough links in /b/ "that feel" threads.
Anyway, I posted out the of the consideration to delete my own board so I can just go ahead and wipe my hands clean and forget anything ever happened. You have a week to say anything.
https://8chan.co/ment/
/ment/ was my first and only board board on 8chan and will probably be my last.
I have 2 choices
So my mother is kicking me out of my home…She's calling me a free loader, even though i clean the apartment, take care of the dog(which is her dog), i work full time as a low level manager in a retail store, AND i go to college part of my time.
But nope, im a free loader and so she is sick of me and my "shit" and is kicking me out.
Also i've been dealing with my self harm recently, depression, anxiety but i didn't bring her into my issues or let her know i was having them so she wouldn't have to deal with them.
I'm 19 and i have two choices…
>Drive out of state where all my friends are who welcome me in their home….
OR
>Kill myself…
I'm leaning towards killing myself because i'll only just be a burden it seems, and i will never finish my education…
I'm sorry to post shit here but i feel like you guys can help me out here…or listen…
Thanksgiving is coming up in the United States.
/mental/ists of all nations, what are you thankful for?
Wrote on exam, prof wants to talk
Hey.Need advice on what do.
Studied for (midterm) exams. All went fine except one that I bombed worse than any grade I've ever received (failing grade). Like 27%.
It #rekt me. Didn't go to class, couldn't face the prof. In my stupidity during exam for written portion I wrote that I should probably off myself.
I've been thinking about suicide and homelessness for a year now. I'm looking to jump off a cliff because if I can just get enough to get over the edge then it's a lot easier than anything else I can think of as gravity will take care of the rest. There's a bridge over some train tacks, so if I get KO'd from pain of landing a train might finish me off.
So now prof knows and wants to meet. Should I just stop going to classes? I'm probably going to spend a year after graduation and take out loans (currently no debt but 100$ in my bank account) to give money or things back to my parents and then kill myself.
> tl;dr I'm a useless fuck and confessed to suicidal ideation on exam, what do?