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A WARNING TO ALL NEW USERS IF YOU ARE NOT A HIKIKOMORI I WILL BAN YOU!! People who are going to work or school everyday are not Hikikomori There are many people on here who can not leave their home or bedroom. Please choose your topic with consideration. Also IF YOU HAVEN'T BEEN INSIDE YOUR ROOM OR HOME FOR AT LEAST 6 MONTHS OR MORE THEN DON'T POST HERE!.

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0fa9ba No.6218[Reply]

Board owner here i decided to make a brand new meta thread because the other one was old. Feel free to leave any suggestions comments complaints criticisms or concerns you may have about the board.. I will try to respond to every post as possible thank you all once again for your feedback.

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0fa9ba No.6255

>>6251

>Thanks.

You're welcome anon.




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52a28e No.1[Reply]

Welcome to /hikki/ a place for reclusive adolescents or adults who withdraw from society.

What is allowed on this board? What is its purpose?

On this board you can discuss and request or give advice regarding the Hikikomori lifestyle anxieties and social or mental issues arising from these conditions of living and also post general hikikomori discussion If you're content with being a hikikomori that's ok, and you won't get in trouble for saying so.

What is not allowed on this board?.

Rule 1. Please do not encourage anyone to become a hikikomori

Rule 2. Do not bully or harass someone simply for being a hikikomori

Rule 3. Keep trolling to a minimum (No flames)

Rule 4. Do not help others to plan or commit suicide suicide threads are fine but it is better to give advice rather than to lead the person on.

Rule 5. No topics not related to this board please

Rule 6. Encouraging any kind of drug use

Rule 7. Giving or requesting advice on how to enter the Hikikomori lifestyle

Rule 8. No Shitposting please be respectful and be genuine with your post /hikki/ is a slow traffic board for true hikikomoris to have a place to talk and nothing more.

Rule 9. Always check the catalog before creating a new thread, do not create a new thread asking for things that simply don't deserve a whole new thread dedicated to them

And All 8chan global rules apply

1: Nothing illegal under US law.

2. No suggestive images of real children.

3. No flooding/spamming for the purpose of advertisement.

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52a28e No.10

THINGS TO CONSIDER!!.

1. Hikikomori 引きこもり or ひきこもり by definition means in English pulling inward, being confined", i.e., "acute social withdrawal"

2. A hikikomori is someone who withdraws themselves away from all forms of social contact and stays at home all day ether in a bedroom or apartment they live in usually for about 6 months or more.

3. There is a difference between hikikomoris and neets neets are simply just unemployed people who don't want to work but still go outside and socialize but some hikikomoris are unemployed neets but unlike normalfag neets they stay inside all the time.

4. a hikikomori can have a job (But works from home only).

5. The only time a hikikomori would ever go outside is for hunger or if its a life threatening emergency

6. Going to your day job not socializing while out at work going home and staying in your room for the rest of the night is NOT AND DOES NOT MAKE YOU A Hikikomori being a hikikomori and a shy introverted person are not the same thing.

(Pretenders and normalfags will be banned).

7. If you are a recovering hikikomori that is okay.

8. While initially a Japanese phenomenon, Hikikomoriism happens all around the world.

9. While this is mainly an English speaking board both English and Japanese can be spoken on this board.

10. You must be a hikikomori or a recovering hikikomori to post here if you're not a hikikomori you will be banned.

New comers and outsiders please take these into consideration thank you.

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839461 No.2979[Reply]

Do any other hikkis on here buy stuff online like food things you collect movies clothes or whatever?? I buy stuff off of Amazon and currently i am trying to setup an Ebay account has anyone here had any trouble with online shopping such as having your identity stolen??.

Also ITT Post and discuss things you bought online.

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648e14 No.6275

>>6266

>Why?

Because I collect unusual cartridges. Whether they have historical significance, like being made 100 years ago for a caliber that guns havent been made in for 90 years, or just being interesting to me.

Like, one of my dream cartridges is for the rocket-rifle that was made years ago. very accurate


e2cad9 No.6278

>>6272

There is a local company that does grocery delivery. I live in a major city so there's quite a few services like that.


8f1033 No.6279

>>6275

That's an interesting hobby anon i collect hats VHS tapes M&ms merchandise and antiques.


8f1033 No.6280

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>>6278

>There is a local company that does grocery delivery. I live in a major city so there's quite a few services like that.

Does Ubereats do grocery delivery at all or that just specifically like restaurant food?


59b74c No.6283

>>6280

Ubereats is only for resturants




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8b348a No.3847[Reply]

Question for current Hikikomoris who are also Neets (Hikkineets). How many of you are on SSI?? and how much do you receive each month?? i receive about $100 a month.

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b0b9f7 No.6267

File: dc7194f0bc32370⋯.jpeg (564.91 KB, 600x800, 3:4, letmegetuuuuuh.jpeg)

I'm on unemployment. I get about $2400 a month.


544ca6 No.6274

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>>6267

>$2400 a month.

Doesn't seem like a very realistic amount to receive anon how are you receiving that much money?

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b0b9f7 No.6277

>>6274

I had a job that paid pretty well. I was fired and became a real hikki after a while after many failed attempts at finding a new one. I kinda gave up on finding another job now… But the unemployment money will run out eventually so it's not like I can stay like this forever.


544ca6 No.6281

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>>6277

>the unemployment money will run out eventually so it's not like I can stay like this forever.

True unless you can find a job where you can work remotely at home then you can.


1544b5 No.6282

>>6281

That's something I'm working on now. I just hate interviews. I seem to either do really well or really poorly on them.




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dc2a8a No.3913[Reply]

Since the majority of us on here are currently living as hikikomoris and most hikkis spend most of their time online i thought we could have a thread where we share any interesting links we have come across recently.

ITT Share any interesting links you have came across recently books movies music whatever Rules 3. and 8. still apply as well as all 8chan global rules.

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8b0980 No.6253

>>6252

I actually share the same ideology. I never leave anything behind me on the internet whenever I create an account on any social media site I make sure never to tell anything about the actual me. And when they ask for pictures I send them pictures which I find on 4chan /soc/. there are only some information left but I'm working on erasing everything currently.

I wonder why he wanted to exist on the internet even after his death. It's strange tbh


a7f5f4 No.6254

>>6252

I feel the same way. If I ever commit suicide I'd have gathered all my belongings and discarded everything until only evidence of the most bland, average personality was left.

>>6253

> I wonder why he wanted to exist on the internet even after his death. It's strange tbh

Maybe it never occurred to him that traces of him were still on the internet.

Or maybe it's only people who have deep shame about their personality that they feel the need to hide it from the rest of the world that would do it. But then again I doubt you'd find a hikki that doesn't feel some deep shame about themselves that they'd need to hide evidence of their existence from the world, so I don't know.


da4543 No.6263

>>6254

I dont feel any significant shame about my personality and I keep OPSEC tight as a drum. Its about personal security, robbing trolls of any real-life power, and the freedom of speech that it brings. It doesn't have to be shameful stuff.

Maybe he only used his personal accounts for stuff he was cool with being associated with.


4b0ccd No.6268

>>6263

Atleast for me even if I'm cool with being associated with it I'll still use fake information, Leaving even the slightest information about myself in a public domain seems like a very bad idea.


892899 No.6276

>>6268

Same. I can't wait for an anonymous image board to come out




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981ea1 No.1915[Reply]

What are some of the physical and mental issues that have arisen from your time spent in isolation?? for me it's the following.

>Back pain

>Weak bland muscles

>Depression

>Mild agoraphobia

>Social anxiety

>Pedophilia

>Feel tired all the time (Except at night)

>Constantly masturbaiting and addicted to porn

>Bad eating habits

>Blurry vision

>Suicidal tendencies

>Lack of vitamin D

>Allergic to my own sweat

>I start itching every time i go outside for food

>Weight loss

>Anger issues

What are some of the physical and mental issues you guys deal with while being hikikomori??.

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78a54f No.6244

>>6231

You can just use a piece of cloth if you want to, anon. You just have to disturb the plaque formation so it doesn't settle.


7da8c0 No.6245

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>>6237

your gums bleed cause you never brush em. it's not dangerous, just keep brushing and your gums will get used to it and stop bleeding. don't brush to hard either


6edf03 No.6265

I've been a hikki off and on since I was 14. During my first time as a hikki, 2 years, my voice got harder and dropped in pitch and coarse hairs sprouted from mine face. My balls sag a lot lowere now, too. I shouldnt have spent all that time masturbating


6699b0 No.6270

YouTube embed. Click thumbnail to play.

>>1939

completely forgot about that song, thanks for reminding me it existed


089706 No.6273

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>>6265

>I've been a hikki off and on since I was 14. During my first time as a hikki, 2 years, my voice got harder and dropped in pitch and coarse hairs sprouted from mine face. My balls sag a lot lowere now, too. I shouldnt have spent all that time masturbating

Holy crap that hits so close to home i've been having the exact same problem for years now.




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2ff90d No.6229[Reply]

This question is mainly for hikikomori who still live with their parents or another family member.

Have your parents or the other family member you live with ever tried to force you outside?

If yes what happened? and how did the situation end?

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2ff90d No.6241

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>>6238

> Actually I'm content with the hikki lifestyle what hurts me the most though. those who commit suicide and leave us.

I know right same here. Even though i am actually content with the hikki lifestyle for the most part i still have days where i wake up and feel sad and like shit but that's just probably due to the long term isolation since humans are technically social animals and are not meant to be isolated and same here as well whenever one of our own commits suicide and leaves us it hurts me a lot hell i am still upset about Nux commiting suicide but the same time i understand why he took his own life. He definitely would not have been happy wageslaving with normalfags.


2ff90d No.6259

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I turn 25 in less than a week and my mom wants to have a big party and force me to leave the house and go see my grandparents but i don't wanna go outside. What should i do fam?


b6c65a No.6260

>>6259

Whats wrong with just saying no? If your parents arent used to you saying no you just have to start doing it a lot and eventually they just give up and say whatever and then they wont even try to push you into doing stuff anymore.


2ff90d No.6261

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>>6260

>What's wrong with just saying no?

I kinda don't have a choice a lot of the time because i'm not my own guardian also i already tried saying no and of course it didn't work.

>If your parents aren't used to you saying no you just have to start doing it a lot and eventually they just give up and say whatever and then they wont even try to push you into doing stuff anymore.

I've done this before as well but they continue to push me to do stuff.


7dba47 No.6262

>>6261

Tell them you already had plans with us




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35274f No.474[Reply]

Thought i start a thread about hoarding seeing as how a lot of hikkis keep stuff from their past and other kinds of junk laying around what do you keep and why do you keep it /hikki/??.

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6b328a No.6035

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>>6033

>i threw away nearly all of my possessions years ago and i regret it deeply. my memories are all i've got left

That's really sad anon i couldn't do that my stuff has sentimental value.


f49740 No.6062

>>5504

>Anybody else have a serious problem with hoarding data?

I delete movies / series after I watch them, so I don't have much problem with space. But I save almost anything else, from imageboard images to videos I care about.


6b328a No.6064

>>6062

>I save almost anything else, from imageboard images to videos I care about.

I do this as well.


6b459e No.6120

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I'm mywholife depressed. All the trash lingers. Lube packers on the floor epsecially the wet stuff you put on your sandwiches.


7fa7d9 No.6258

>>6120

I've been an aspiring minimalist (huehue) since I read some articles on zenhabits years ago. Problem is I have parents who literally collect napkins and ketchup packets like those. And they bought me tons of stuff for my aparment over the years. If I disposed of stuff that I don't care for or change the renovation too much they would get wounded about it. It's like my life is still their territory down to my living spaces. Point is I can't make myself let go of their precious strings-attached bullshit. Anyway my neighbour also collects drinking straws toilet paper etc, his kitchen cabinets are filled with plastic containers. Must be a boomer thing




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2e50ed No.5637[Reply]

Do you blame your parents for you becoming a hikikomori?. Or are you thankful that they are supportive in providing you with whatever you need in your isolation?.

For me i have mixed feelings on one hand i'm very thankful of them for being supportive in providing me with whatever i need in my isolation while on the other hand i'm angry at them because they pressured me too much growing up to follow society's rules and expectations and their own expectations as well and they still do it to this day . I'm also angry that they never took the time to sit down listen to me and hear me out and ask me how are you feeling?? or what's wrong?? and so on.

What is your relationship with your parents like? also do you communicate with your parents or are you completely withdrawn from your family as well?.

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056de4 No.6196

I absolutely blame them.

>>6007

My situation was similar. My dad was and is a monstrous bully with zero redeeming characteristics. He would constantly torment the rest of the family for some sick animalistic pleasure. He demanded perfection, but whenever I showed signs of achieving something he couldn't he would try to sabotage me. When I was 9 I showed an interest in playing piano. While I was playing he would sneak up behind me and scare me. I stopped trying pretty quickly after that. In school I showed an aptitude in math. During a casual conversation about my math classes one day he suddenly went on a rant about how he failed calculus in college because it was impossible and designed to humiliate you and that I could never pass calculus. To this day I maintain an irrational fear of calculus, even though I know better. This environment was so unhealthy that when I was a child I genuinely believed that hating everyone and everything else was the only way to have an identity.

My mom was and is highly religious, so she never once stood up to him even though I know she hates him too because she thinks she'll go to hell if she does. This religiousness of hers also made her completely useless as a mother, because whenever I tried to talk to her about a problem, she'd just say "Give it to Jesus." While she was emotionally unavailable she nevertheless expected me to make her feel better whenever something put her in a sad mood. I gradually learned to close myself off to her for my own emotional health.

Understandably, my brother was a rebellious problem child, and not once did I ever hate him for this. In fact, when he turned 18 and tried to become more "respectable," I actually lost a significant degree of respect for him.

My parents also forced me to attend a Calvinist private school for my entire schooling. If you know anything about Christianity, you'll know that Calvinism is one of the most fucked up, brutal, and authoritarian sects. Our principal and several teachers downright enjoyed punishing students. I had one teacher who would deliberately humiliate individual students, Post too long. Click here to view the full text.


1d5bc3 No.6213

>>6128

I had a period where i was basically going through a mental breakdown.

I couldn't function at all, my heart would jump beats and it'd beat really fast when around anyone.

I would often faint.

My parents did take me to the doctor for this, they thought i had some sort of physical medical problems, like diet health and shit.

When going to the doctors they basically just said it was all in my head, which was i guess true I'll never fucking know but i assume in hindsight that it's true

The thing is they threw it off in such a dismissive and insulting way.

Not even recommending anything for it, just a "ur just dumb, gtfo" sort of thing.

This was then followed by more looks at me like I'm a fucking retard, and my dad complaining that i cost him money on a medical bill.

I pretty much never want to see another doctor in my life after that.


2e50ed No.6249

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>>5641

>Yes and no. A big part of it is me simply being introverted and wanting to be alone, but also my parents brought me up in a way to be very passive which led to people constantly taking advantage of me which I got sick of.

I don't blame you anon.

>I am thankful I have a small room and enough food to eat.

Same here.

>I do try to keep what I consume or otherwise need to a minimum though.

This as well.

>Before I even became a hikki I went to me father and explained to him that I thought something was mentally not right with me because of anti social tendencies that started to develop and worsen. All I asked for was to maybe get a psychological evaluation or something, but he more or less just shrugged it off and told me nothing is wrong with me. Since then he hasn't asked me if I'm alright or sat down with me for a talk or anything, and because of the previous situation I refuse to ask for help ever again.

It sounds like he didn't take the fact that you probably had something wrong with you seriously.

>I haven't talked to my mother for 9 years because she left my father, and by extension my siblings and myself for another man. She tried to contact me many times by means of postcards and such and she used to send birthday cards, but I ignored them and eventually they stopped coming.

Occh anon i know what that's like when parents split up my parents divorced when i was 7 and i was forced to live in two separate houses.

>I don't talk much with my father either. The rare occasion I do see my father he asks me when I'm going to start working, since he has connections and I could start working within a couple days if I really wanted to. Normally I respond with somethingPost too long. Click here to view the full text.


69ae90 No.6256

>>6196

>my parents are extremely nosy and will ruin anything I try to do.

How would you feel about disappearing? Straight up just saving enough money to move to a new location far enough away to never run into anyone from your old life and then just starting anew. It seems like you're never going to let yourself grow so long as you have to stand up to your parents to do so. Maybe someday you can return to your old life once you've grown enough into yourself to stand up to your parents. You'll probably never be friends with them, but maybe someday you'll at least be able to move back to your current area without regressing


056de4 No.6257

>>6256

I appreciate the suggestion, but I'm too autistic to survive on my own. I couldn't hold down a job because I have terrible sleep problems, being in public overloads my senses, and casual rejections make me feel miserable for days afterwards.




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cbb4e9 No.4138[Reply]

My mom is starting to push the idea of being committed. So much so that she's going with me on my medication appointment. I'm kind of open to the idea as it'd allow me to get neetbux a bit easier but I doubt it's actual usefulness. I'll just get drugged out of my mind for 3-4 days.

Thoughts?

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3d9ef0 No.5762

>>5760

The competent people know, but can never do anything about it because of the other millions of people causing the problems and making them worse. Good humans have always been the minority. Most people are either mediocre and enabling or actively evil and destructive. But it's not just that, everything is broken, and everything is to blame. It's the same thing in all professions, no matter how important they may be. I don't think this is different in other countries since that seems to be the case for other things everywhere. This is all proof that normal people are actually crazy as well, and actual sanity isn't very common. Society is driving people to insanity and they can't even see that it's happening. The only thing to do is to try to save yourself and a few other people are hope that the normalfags lead the species to extinction, for its own good.

I have never been in that kind of situation, so I wouldn't know anything from personal experience, but I always hear this kind of thing from people that I assume are Americans and from people that I know are Americans, but I heard your story multiple times, actually. It's pretty common, and depending on the situation, you may end up having to deal with enough sensory deprivation to actually push you over the edge into actual insanity. You are not even allowed to die. I understand keeping someone from committing suicide, but even that becomes a cruelty when you are practically torturing them by placing them in an environment that isn't suitable for humans, with nothing to do.


16dbf7 No.5763

>>5760

>in America it is one step above prison

when I was in one, there were a few ex cons in as well and they all said they'd rather be in a prison rather than the mental hospital


2b30b5 No.5786

I actually liked being in crazy jail. You basically just watch TV and drink coffee waiting for the next meal.

but if privacy is a major concern for you then you're fucked because it will be hell for you


80207c No.5791

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It's never been necessary to commit me.

There have been some times when I seriously thought about it, but I've just been given some benzos to calm me down and I waited in the mental hospital waiting room until I was feeling a bit better, then I got back home.

I never liked the idea of staying there, here in Europe it's not that bad, but it still is a pain to sleep far from home, etc.

My medical case, although serious enough that I'm a hikki, is not that serious to require occasional hospitalizations.


8e19e0 No.6246

>>5786

>drink coffee

We only had decaffeinated slurry water. You had to drink four or five cups to feel the effects




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3bc45e No.6086[Reply]

What do you guys do to keep yourselves from being bored all day? i honestly feel like i've done everything.

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3bc45e No.6222

File: 62d8703bf9ebb6c⋯.jpg (24.07 KB, 350x197, 350:197, sato4.jpg)

>>6216

> my parents are reluctant to buy me anything and the worst problem is that i only use mobile data and there is no fuaarkin' wi-fi hotspot here so i'm forced to beg for money to charge my internet everyday and that doesn't work for the most time so they push me into doing chores.

That sounds like hell anon i would hate to be in a situation like that.


946b8b No.6223

>>6222

That's just one of many freakin' problems i'm facing.

There is nothing worse than a Hikki with cheap parents


3bc45e No.6225

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>>6211

> I'm like anyone, really. I've got the fascination, but its possible to learn about yourself by testing yourself. It's dangerous though to open links and watch videos, dangerous to your spirit.

Oh i can absolutely agree with that anon i actually have discovered parts of myself that i'm not proud of just by opening links and finding out that i have an interest in this particular thing or this particular thing is apart of who i am.

>I saw a video recently that I keep having intrusive thoughts about. I've been practicing mindfulness, which may have contributed. And I've also lost someone in my family recently which may have contributed. Mindfulness is reducing my symptoms and improving the human interactions I have,

I've been trying to do that too but it's really hard i have been super depressed lightly because of the fact that Nux died. It still is surreal to me and reading all of his post that are still on here makes me kinda cry now knowing that i got to know him a bit more personally. He truly was one of the best hikki friends i've ever had and i will miss him.

>I find it interesting to learn about killers as well, but I'm not one to get into it very much. Having been "incel"-ish, and socially awkward I understand the pressures that can point some towards moral insanity. However, people are responsible for taking steps down the paths they are walking, and responsible for not choosing a different path

I completely agree with you anon me personally i am a very sympathetic person and having felt a lot of the same feelings that people like say Elliot Rodger for example felt i can understand why they did what they did however i do not condone what they did i just understand their pain and feel sorry for them to a certain extent.

>I could never participate or even advocate for the violence that is in the newspapers. Other than legally justified self-defense.

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29efc9 No.6239

>>6086

self-studying math has so far kept me from ending it all. i have no talent for it but learning over time makes that time at least mean something


3bc45e No.6240

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>>6239

>self-studying math has so far kept me from ending it all. i have no talent for it but learning over time makes that time at least mean something

True and at least it's something to do and who knows your knowledge of math may become beneficial in the future.




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48e6e0 No.2350[Reply]

Have you ever verbalized it at all?

I had an insurance mandated medical examination yesterday. The second question was about my professional history, and since it's unusual and the thought of having to explain, once more, made me agitated I just said it: "I have not really left my home in 15 years! And I am socially isolated. … I buy groceries, I see a doctor four times a year, I am friendly and helpful towards my neighbors if they need something, but that's it. That's why we are here today."

That hit me hard. I never said anything like it before. I never even thought about it this way. Sure, I've said "I don't get out much." or "I am homebound, anyway." But I never verbalized that I have been isolated in my home for many, many years.

There is nothing else here. I just wanted to share the story, and am curious how other people think and talk, or don't, about their situation.

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d60b1f No.5899

>>5894

Are you in Japan? How's therapy going?


d60b1f No.5901

>>5897

> he had the typical oh just get over it normalfag type of attitude but anyway i'm glad i stopped going.

It's sad how many therapists treat their job like its a pasttime they indulge in whenever they feel like it, and for everyone else they're just stalling for time until the end of the session so they can charge you that sweet $$$$$


cc6fd8 No.5903

>>2350

I talked to a therapist, but I didn't use the word hikikomori. Just listed all the symptoms of autism that I have, and by that I mean that I listed almost every imaginable symptom.

>>5901

They are about as incompetent as the average human tends to be. And that means completely incompetent. In order to feel better, people like to assume that most professionals and authority figures know what they're doing, and that keeps them from losing faith in society, and therefore keeps society from collapsing. In reality, this isn't the truth at all. No matter what they do, no matter how important it is, people tend to be more incompetent than you want to imagine. Finding a good therapist (or just one that does whatever happens to be necessary) can take a few tries.


7b760c No.5913

>>5897

>Is he/she a good therapist

Yes. Still not helpful though because I'm a lost cause.

Yes, I've read in another thread about your 70 years old therapist. It amuses me that you went there more than one time. An old dude who doesn't use a computer can't know a thing about modern world problems. If you ever consider going to therapy again, try to find at least a young one. i tried other three therapists before finding this one, it's not that easy.

>>5899

I'm in Europe. I've abandoned therapy because I'm a lost cause, I feel like an alien amongst others and I have no purpose in life and this will never change, I can only distract myself.

I went outside and met people though, but it's useless, so I'm back into my nest. My problem is not much anxiety, it's more about a neverending existential crisis.


d7acca No.6188

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>>5913

> Still not helpful though because I'm a lost cause.

I understand that pretty much at this point that's how i feel about myself as well.

>I've read in another thread about your 70 years old therapist. It amuses me that you went there more than one time.

He was a bad therapist but going did give me at least something to do so i wasn't sitting in my room 24/7 and sleeping in bed for 14 hours a day.

>An old dude who doesn't use a computer can't know a thing about modern world problems

Oh i completely agree with you and that's why i stopped going altogether because i just got so fed up with him.

>If you ever consider going to therapy again, try to find at least a young one

I don't think i will be going back anytime soon but if i ever do i will keep this in mind thanks anon.

>I tried other three therapists before finding this one, it's not that easy

Damn anon it's hard for me to trust other people i don't know if i could do that.




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d4dfa8 No.343[Reply]

What video games do you play /hikki/??.

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637e90 No.6131

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Used to play a lot of Paradox's games but the only one I come back to is Darkest Hour. They're selling out now, not that they were really any good in the first place and their latest game is shaping up to be dreadful so I jumped ship. TOAW4 was recommended to me and I've been learning/playing it and similar hex-wargames, been a few months and I still don't know if I like them, good time-waster anyways.


15f4ee No.6178

What are some games that i can emulate on my phone ?

Since can't afford to get a decent set up i've started emulating some games and nothing really interests me. I didn't quite enjoy Zelda and Pokémon games are boring after some time.


ac0a03 No.6180

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>>6178

Which consoles can you emulate? I haven't had a phone for many years so I have no clue what can and can't be emulated at this point.

Have this chart for now.


3489c1 No.6181

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>>6180

These are the consoles i can use on my emulator.

I've been playing pokémon fire red for 3 hours for some reason. I guess i have a love-hate relationship with pokémon games….


ac0a03 No.6182

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>>6181

The SNES and PS1 alone would keep me busy for ages. Here's another chart, especially most of the platformers I'd recommend. I would dump more but for some reason I can only upload 1 image at a time.

For PSP monster hunter immediately comes to mind as well as disgaea and final fantasy tactics.

Other games worth looking at are donkey kong country, act raiser, super metroid, super mario world and yoshi's island all on SNES.

Most of these are fairly easy but will keep you busy for a while if you can get into them.




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4eb7ca No.4120[Reply]

The worst thing for me as a hikki is that I am slowing but steadily un-learning my own native language.

English isn't my native language, it's German. I have no social contacts, no friends, no one, I don't even really talk to my family (rarely only). I don't have online friends either. 90% of all "conversations" I have are posting in English on 4chan (full of fucking normies though) or 8ch.

I can't say a full sentence in German without stuttering, and fucking up the tone and stress of the words. I also struggle remembering words, and sometimes I mess up the more complicated grammatical structures.

It goes without saying that the same applies to English, since I only ever write English and never speak it out loud.

I feel like a foreigner in my own country.

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b3b322 No.6149

This is happening to me too, OP.


095c71 No.6151

>>6123

New Zealand?


3a309c No.6163

>>6124

>japan will either be a closed border gaijin fuck off country or become sweden level of refugees welcome

no such thing as a middle ground huh?

>>6151

who calls new zealand "oz"


f977d6 No.6179

>>6163

I'd prefer they go the gaijin fuck off route to be perfectly honest. The last thing they need is Islam poisoning and attempting to overtake their relatively concentrated and uniquely disciplined society. Those refugees drag in massive amounts of violent crime and have no intention of assimilating or respecting local customs and culture. Fuck em


c00ca3 No.6195

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>>6179

You need to stop watching right-wing political propaganda, they know nothing about Japan. The middle east is nearer to Europe than Japan, it would make no sense for them to go in mass there anyway, especially considering that Japan never colonized or bombed their countries for Israel in the first place, unlike the West. Of course here is nothing good about political correctness, but there is also nothing good about praising xenophobia and normalfag nationalism.




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9f5d57 No.1484[Reply]

Hey /hikki/, I thought since fall is here and winter is right around the corner, we could talk about things that we like and dislike about this time of year.

I love fall and winter, it's my favorite time of year. Here are some of my favorite things about it:

>bundling up in blankets

>sipping hot tea/coco/coffee

>gettin' comfy

>less guilt about not going outside, since most people don't go out in cold weather

>watching the leaves/snow fall outside your window

>less noise from outside because everyone is indoors

What are your favorite things about fall and winter, /hikki/?

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386b9e No.6100

I live in an area (no worries, no dox) where its pretty warm for 8+ months every year, but it gets nice and cold during the winter. My anxiety is still pretty bad, and after a few incidents when i was in my teens, I alway carry weapons and a first aid kit, plus some other supplies like a blindingly bright flashlight, firestarting kit, electric handwarmers, swiss army knife, Cell Phone car and wall charger, battery bank on me.

I can only conceal all the stuff it takes to feel comfortable enough to go out under winter clothing. BUT theres this cozy diner that doesnt have a lot of space, and is open 24/7 even in the winter. Its a family business and they know my family and Im relatively comfy towards them so they, understanding, leave me be in the coziest corner of the diner. I bring a tablet or laptop after its properly dark, they fill up my thermoses with cold water, i make flavoraid, and I browse the internet and play games all night.

Last year I played a lot of hotline miami 1&2, some of the oldest 3d Dungeons and dragons games, Zork series, Anchorhead (and IF game like zork), and a bunch of emulated games, including 2d zelda and pokemon. I'd sometimes call ahead with an order, but usually I'd bring a sandwhich and chips. I can't wait for winter, so I can get out of this freaking room


386b9e No.6101

>>6100

and I should add that almost nobody goes to that diner during the winter, so they dont leave the grill on. Anyone who does come in can get cold sandwiches or microwaved food, and hot drinks. and the waitress seats the at the other side of the restaurant where they cant see me.


9a560b No.6130

>>6101

>>6100

That sounds really comfy anon. The owners seem really nice too. What kind of games are you planning on playing this time?


040194 No.6146

>>6130

Interactive fiction. Anchorhead is really cozy with a track of rain sounds in the background.


c9bab4 No.6152

>>6146

Those games where you play by typing words in and the game tells responds with part of a story are awesome if you like that kind of thing. dound super comfy tbh. I wish I had a situation like yours.




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