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A WARNING TO ALL NEW USERS IF YOU ARE NOT A HIKIKOMORI I WILL BAN YOU!! People who are going to work or school are not Hikikomori There are many people on here who can not leave their home Please choose your topic with consideration IF YOU HAVEN'T BEEN AT HOME INSIDE YOUR ROOM FOR AT LEAST 6 MONTHS OR MORE THEN DON'T POST HERE!

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0fa9ba  No.6218[Reply]

Board owner here i decided to make a brand new meta thread because the other one was old. Feel free to leave any suggestions comments complaints criticisms or concerns you may have about the board.. I will try to respond to every post as possible thank you all once again for your feedback.

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16cf5a  No.6964


>What does social media and discord have to do with anything?

I was just pointing out that if someone mentions that they happen to use those places it could cause an uproar of some kind.

>I hate both as well. But after sleeping on it, I think the topic would just cause issues too. So I'll drop the idea.


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52a28e  No.1[Reply]

Welcome to /hikki/ a place for reclusive adolescents or adults who withdraw from society.

What is allowed on this board? What is its purpose?

On this board you can discuss and request or give advice regarding the Hikikomori lifestyle anxieties and social or mental issues arising from these conditions of living and also post general hikikomori discussion If you're content with being a hikikomori that's ok, and you won't get in trouble for saying so.

What is not allowed on this board?.

Rule 1. Please do not encourage anyone to become a hikikomori

Rule 2. Do not bully or harass someone simply for being a hikikomori

Rule 3. Keep trolling to a minimum (No flames)

Rule 4. Do not help others to plan or commit suicide suicide threads are fine but it is better to give advice rather than to lead the person on.

Rule 5. No topics not related to this board please

Rule 6. Encouraging any kind of drug use

Rule 7. Giving or requesting advice on how to enter the Hikikomori lifestyle

Rule 8. No Shitposting please be respectful and be genuine with your post /hikki/ is a slow traffic board for true hikikomoris to have a place to talk and nothing more.

Rule 9. Always check he catalog before creating a new thread, do not create a new thread asking for things that simply don't deserve a whole new thread dedicated to them

Rule 10. You must be a hikikomori or have been a hikikomori to post here

And All 8chan global rules apply

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The term Hikikomori ひきこもり or 引きこもり is a Japanese word that when translated into English it means “pulling inward, being confined”,acute social withdrawal “) in context of a person the term refers to a shut-in who stays home and does not leave their room for very long periods usually for about 6 months or more.


Hikikomori is a social condition in which the affected individual isolates themselves from society at home in their room for a period exceeding six months however contrary to popular belief some hikikomori go outside but only for necessities or emergencies. The Ministry of Health, Labour, and Welfare of Japan defines hikikomori as those who have lived in isolation in their bedrooms for at least 6 months do not attend school or leave to go to work have no physical injury or mental disorder as the cause of their isolation have no close friends or few friends (If any) and do not communicate with people besides the people they live with such as family members.


Most hikikomori are neets and are supported by their parents or get money from the government however if you work or take classes online at home while still not going outside you are still a hikikomori but not a neet and a neet isn’t necessarily a hikikomori nor vice versa. You could be a hikikomori neet. But if you are a neet that does spend a moderate amount of time outside your house you are still a neet but you are not a hikikomori


NO Going to your day job not socializing while out at work/school going home and staying in your room for the rest of the night is NOT AND DOES NOT MAKE YOU A Hikikomori being a hikikomori and a shy introverted person are not the same thing.

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542c9c  No.5282[Reply]

Well it's coming to up to that time of year where I will wake up in a pool of sweat every morning and have asshole neighbors blasting their horrid music while they get drunk.

What time of year do you dislike the most hikkis? for me it's definitely summer with the armies of bugs that will invade my house the sleepless nights due to the heat and the idiots who go into overdrive as soon as it gets hotter.

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a5b83f  No.5799

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>My biggest problem with summer is that my body "awakens" and I start to feel the need of sex more than in cold days. And that's obviously a problem because as a hikki I cannot satisfy that need.

This happens to me too but porn exist so i just rub one out and the urges go away until i have to do it again.

>It's one of the most depressing things for me. I feel the meaninglessness of the existence and get very sad feelings of nostalgia.

Tell me about it anon i really miss the more simple days of when i was a small child and didn't have to worry about anything as well.

>My Next birthday I will be 30…

Shit anon that sucks.

c7ff85  No.5804


>Shit anon that sucks.

Time comes for everyone.

I can't say that I haven't tried though, so at least I'm partially at peace with my integrity.

a5b83f  No.5809

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>Time comes for everyone.

True eventually i will be 30 too i would be lying if i didn't honestly say that i'm scared of what will happen to me 5 years from now.

1ff9c7  No.7079

Like many here, I used to hate the Summer season quite a lot, mostly due to the heat & bugs. So many miserable days & nights of unbearably high temperatures, sweltering humidity, along with constant flies and other pests to worry about. It was damn awful. In a lot of ways it still is, but after installing central air, replacing all our old windows with new energy efficient ones, and putting moth balls in our plastic dumpster outside to kill any bugs that were attracted by it, thus preventing them from laying any eggs in there, I've found the season itself hasn't really bothered me as much as it used to. Last couple Summers have pretty much gone by without me even noticing it, as a matter of fact. I can't even remember the last time I saw a fly, or a spider in here, for instance, not that I want to jinx it by saying so.

On the flipside, I used to love Fall & Winter given how deathly still & quiet everything outside was. For the last number of years however, I find myself holding them in as much contempt as I do Spring & Summer. All of them are worthless and cause me at least small some discomfort in one way or another. In the case of Winter, I find myself a lot more bothered by the cold than I used to be. Perhaps because I lost so much weight not that long ago. I don't know. Even the gray sky, which used to make me feel calm & at ease, now fills me with as much emptiness as a disgustingly blue one does. Fall is pretty much the best of the lot, mainly because of the smell of firewood in the air and the leaves changing color. I also used to have a lot of fondness & nostalgia for Halloween, but nowadays it's just another thing lost to time and my worn out self.

Sunlight is my true nemesis, frankly, and the thing I despise the most. I'm not an albino or anything, but I've always hated it and having it cast upon even the slightest portion of my body has always made me feel slightly ill/uncomfortable. It's bright, it's annoying, it's absolutely, all encompasingly shit. I have extremely thick curtains in my room which block out a good 90% of that accursed light beaming from the sun, which, all in all, couldn't make me any happier. The most depressing time of my day by far is when I begin to see shafts of vomit inducing light start to appear along the tops and sides of my curtains. It makesPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

bc0b76  No.7084

I hate summer. I don't like all the grass leering at me from outside. "look at hiki he still has to forage for food, while we just sit around and pickup tasty rays", the blades of grass whisper. Dam those organisms. While they sit and do what as I and they, their rich glowing straws are warm in the sun. They aren't running down in need of hunting.

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4f70f6  No.784[Reply]

Any anon here figure out a way to make some money without going out to your house? I tried looking for a job but I'm only qualified for a service industry which required a lot of interacting with peoples (I did worked for 3 months but I quit because I couldn't get along with my co-workers and having trouble talking to customer). I'm not asking much in term of payment, just enough to pay the bills and food. I live with my parents, I dont have any student debt or car's loan, I'm happy if I could make $500 a month just from the comfort of my bedroom.

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52263c  No.6603

Any hikkis here know how i can get money doing programming jobs?

I know some basics but i'm not exactly that good at it, which honestly makes it much harder.

Is there any good niches in tech that i could get into?

054016  No.6625


hey. i have an acquaintace online that got a job finding bugs + standards checking software remotely. It is true that the low skill-cap programmer jobs are oversaturated by india but things that take more brain cpu are not, look into it anon.

92983f  No.6626


why not just use a bridge if you're paranoid about your isp noticing?

6ca519  No.7082

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If you don't give a fucc about anyone but yourself you can do credit fraud. It makes pretty good money once you get it down. Life's good when you got more money than you can spend. lets be honest: you owe these normalniggers nothing

0f7cc0  No.7083


Like i said here >>6105 the last thing a hikikomori needs is to go to jail.

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223d3c  No.5370[Reply]

Where did you leave off on education before you become hikikomori? I got multiple scholarships to pay for all my schooling and still ended up this way one day I just decided not to leave my room. Are most like this where at one point you were thought of as smart.

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c3dc89  No.5411


I'm fairly intelligent and can memorize stuff easily but can't perform under pressure so I always got middling grades in school

22d957  No.5412

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I effectively dropped out when I was around 14 or 15; grade 8. My first ever year of public schooling, I was home-schooled before then, my parents only decided to enroll me in response to my rapidly deteriorating social life after moving to a new town, but I had already been a three-year shut-in at that point, and it was already much too late.

I did virtually everything in my power to avoid going to school, by the end of the year, I think I had something like a 16% attendance rate. If I was forced out the house, I would literally just wander around town from 8:30 to 3:30. If I ever got tired of walking, I would find an outcropping of trees to rest in, and I would just sit there for hours doing nothing. My parents, all the social workers and truancy officers - none of them could get me to cooperate, and believe me they tried. It honestly impresses 'me the lengths I went to evade that wolf pit they call a school. I'm not even that desperate now, despite being hikki for nearly a decade.

I did attend high school the next year 'round, but only for three weeks before bugging out entirely and going full-hikki, which is how I've been ever since.

Fast-forward to today, I'm 22, and here I am again, suspended from NEETbux until June for failing to comply with my participation agreement; which required me to attend an alternative school and complete a "Prior Learning Assessment & Recognition" program, and subsequently finish my secondary education.

The ride never ends. I'm supposed to start work at Walmart in a week, though.

d101d8  No.5414


>I'm fairly intelligent and can memorize stuff easily but can't perform under pressure

Same here.

6e712f  No.7080

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I didn't get pretty far, to be honest. Even when I was just a kid, all I could ever think about when I was at school was how much I yearned and looked forward to going back home again. The moment the final bell rang, I'd essentially sprint/power walk my way back home as fast as possible. Eventually the act of leaving here became so traumatic for me (right around the start of Grade 6), that I simply couldn't handle it anymore and, thus (after very sporadic attendance due to struggling with my Godzilla sized anxiety every day), I ended up dropping out of school in Grade 9 after my first semester of high school. My mother, in particular, tried as hard as she could to help me throughout it all and to, more or less, "heal me" somehow. This basically took the form of me & her going to see countless therapists/psychiatrists/energy healers (some good, some not so good), briefly dabbling in medication (Effexor/Paxil), to even having numerous special concessions be made for me like not having to take tests with everyone else with the added bonus of no time limits, to not even having to attend class itself and, instead. just going to see my own personal teacher in a private area), but, ultimately, it was all a waste of time. At one point, I could've finished the rest of high school just by going to our local library a couple times every week to meet with my private teacher, but, by that point, my anxiety/agoraphobia was so intense that even something as easy/convenient as that, seemed totally insurmountable. It was then, with a heavy sigh of fatigue, that my mother finally accepted that she had literally done all she could for me and it still hadn't been enough, and so, finally, let me drop out.

She moved mountains for me and yet, in the end, I let her down. I wish I hadn't been so afraid. I wish I hadn't had to put her through so much heartache & stress. I am what I am, though. As broken & defective as that might be. The idea of going outside in those last few months before I quit, with my only destination being a safe, quiet library, let alone a bustling school, felt about as unrealistic as asking a paraplegic to somehow flop his/her way through a triathlon. The only difference between the two is that one crippling disability is something you can physically see and understand, whereas the other is an affliction that's just as fucking crippling, if not more so in somePost too long. Click here to view the full text.

6e712f  No.7081


(Continued from above…..)

School is a glorified daycare service designed to make you a good little wind-up toy drone. One who is loaded with brainwashing, blindly accepts the many myths & lies that are constantly fed to them and, ultimately, is taught to never question anything that might jeopardize their programming. All while also acclimating you to the hierarchical pecking order of a cruel & uncaring society that expects you to mindlessly throw yourself into wage slavery and be grateful for the opportunity to do so. Do what you're told and get down on your knees for your masters like a good dog. I've known all these truths in my heart even since I was a small child and could see the bars of the prison I was in quite clearly. I refused to conform & submit, so I left. To be a hikikomori, is to be a bit of a defiant rebel, in a way. At least for those who have the luxury to do so, that is.

We also find ourselves in an endless void devoid of meaning, known as existence. Nothing we do matters. Adopting a position of pure nihilism is the only sane & logical way to go through life, no matter who it is you are.

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a36db3  No.236[Reply]

ITT we post and discuss songs about hikikomoriism and social isolation.

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aaad6b  No.6867

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Here are the lyrics, apparently the song tells the story about a girl who ' walked in the third year of [being] hikikomori'.


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dba741  No.6958

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000000  No.6961

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('A`) ニートのうた ('A`) -NEET GENERATION-

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ee12a2  No.7077

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Ultimate hikikomori anthem.

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d4dfa8  No.343[Reply]

What video games do you play /hikki/??.

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41f01b  No.7052

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Yeah. I just hate the fact that for every Deus Ex, Shadow Warrior or System Shock I manage to play/finish there's about 10 crap tier indie games like Viking Squad, or Tokyo 42 that soak up needless time & energy that could be better spent playing something else. Hell, I just got done slogging through Immortal: Unchained the other day and it was a truly dreadful experience. Probably one of the worst games I've played in a while (certainly the worst Souls-like out there, even though it feels dirty to even refer to it as such) and yet I finished it anyway because I'm a glutton for punishment and hopelessly chained to slavishly fulfilling the random whims & arbitrary rituals of my obsessive compulsive mind. Mostly for completionist's sake and because I hate leaving things unfinished. And also because I have all the time in the world and got nothing better to do.

Instead of diving into something like Homeworld Remastered, or Arcanum, or Arx Fatalis, or The Witcher 2/3, or Skyrim, or Fallout New Vegas, or the hundreds of available ROMs & ISOs of classic games, all of which I've never played before, I instead, mostly play the short, mechanically repetitive, indie trash that fills up most of what's in my list. Crap like ECHO, or AER: Memories of Old, or Downward, or Styx: Shards of Darkness, and it just drives me crazy. Why do I waste my life playing games that are far inferior to other, better games that I've never played before? It boggles my mind. It's like having a gourmet meal in front of you and choosing to eat from whatever's in the shit encrusted trash can out in the piss covered alleyway instead. If I had to give an answer as to why, I'd say laziness. On some level it makes perfect sense, given my overwhelmingly lazy sensibilities, to play short, inoffensive garbage that I can finish from anywhere to 1 to 10 hours, as opposed to long sweeping games that require many times that amount to get through. It's easier, in a bizarrely masochistic sense, to play a short shitty game, than a long good game. It just feels like too much effort to sit down and play a game that I know is considered a classic and is something I'll probably like. It's almost like the expectation it will be good wears me out on an emotional Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

bbd337  No.7068


Well one advantage of having those preferences is that sometimes you could even find some rare gem among that pile of trash. Though maybe you should try to find another time waster like idk reading books,making miniature boat models.archiving porn whatever it doesn't really matter as long you can "swap" the scenery for a bit so you can remember why you started on that path.

471490  No.7070

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>Well one advantage of having those preferences is that sometimes you could even find some rare gem among that pile of trash.

Yes, I suppose that's true. Vaporum & Ghost of a Tale were two such recent games that somewhat fit that category, I suppose. They sure don't come along often for me though, with "rare" certainly being the best way to describe it. On one hand you can certainly appreciate a good game a lot of more once they do present themselves, but on the other you're also so worn out from slogging through crap that you're too tired to derive joy/satisfaction from anything, even if it's good. What a predicament to be in.

>Though maybe you should try to find another time waster like idk reading books,making miniature boat models

Nope. Too lazy & don't have the energy. I'm far too used to instant gratification to swap it out for slow, boring crap like that. Hell, I haven't even read a book (not counting graphic novels & manga) in like 12-14 years. Last one I tried to get through was Hyperion, by Dan Simmons. It was actually pretty good and had me pretty gripped and interested to see it through, but right around the half way point (when they're in that boat that sails above the tall grass) I just stopped. My attention wanders and random thoughts will start to intrude as I'm reading and I end up having to re-read pages about 20 fucking times so I can visualize everything perfectly to the smallest detail in my brain, mostly as a result of my OCD, which itself is a very exhausting process, and all together it's just too much. My mind just won't give me a moment's peace. It's hopeless. Same would be true for any other more traditional hands on hobby. For or better or worse, modern entertainment is all I have to work with.

>archiving porn

Never saw this as a hobby, but man have I done a lot of it. I've probably spent well over 1000 hours just browsing rule34, XVideos & Pornhub, among many other websites, just adding stuff to my encrypted porn vaPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

8309b8  No.7072

I've been playing an hour or two of apex a day. While it's not my type of game, i enjoy immensely that i normally get 8+ kills a game. I've always thought I was shit at everything, but playing this game has been a massive ego boost for me.

922fc2  No.7075

It's been about a year and a half since I last had the motivation and commitment to consistently play video games. I've played some stuff in that span, every other month or so, but only for like an hour or two at most before quitting. Mostly spend my time these days mindlessly refreshing forums and watching anime.

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192cc9  No.6801[Reply]

Lets recommend fiction where there's a strong theme of social isolation, solitude, avoidant inclinations, alienation etc. So far these books, which I've yet to buy (but will have by christmas), seem to meet the criteria (feel free to openly judge):

>Frankenstein by Mary Shelley

>Child of God by Cormac McCarthy

>The Tartar Steppe by Dino Buzzati

>No Longer Human by Osamu Dazai

>Deadeye Dick: A Novel by Kurt Vonnegut

>The Metamorphosis by Franz Kafka

>Nausea by Jean-Paul Sartre

>Steppenwolf: A Novel by Hermann Hesse

> Hunger by Knut Hamsun

Perhaps over time we hikkis could create our own chart full of recommended books that deal with our world.

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af6cfb  No.6972


I think it would count. Lord of the Flies is all about tribal tendencies in societies. If you can't fit in with the crowed, fallowing the fair boy and the fascist dressed Choir, then you end up on the outskirts of society or rather posting on chans and hikki neet.

028410  No.6982

I wonder if we could just turn this thread into a general fiction thread? Just so there can be more replies and such. Just a thought. I've just bought and ordered, and which are being shipped right now:

>Portrait of a Lady by Henry James

>Butchers Crossing by John Williams

>Hunger by Knut Hamsun

>The Rings of Saturn by W. G. Sebald

I think Hunger will be the most relevant to the original idea of the thread. I'll definitely give a little review of it when I'm done. What have you anons been reading lately?

1fc066  No.6987


I prefer the alienation theme, but for more comments I'd do general fiction. I barely read fiction though.

I've been getting through Notes from Underground. The Underground Man rambles on a lot in the book.

4b4703  No.7020

Not as literary as the other suggestions so far, but here are a couple stories from a collection I read recently if you like cats. They are relevant to solitude and social isolation, but the cat serves as a "guardian angel."

>Mary E. Wilkins Freeman: The Cat

Cat lives with a hermit out in a cabin in the wilderness sharing food and keeping him company.


>William Livingston Alden: Monty's Friend

An ugly man is ostracized by a mining camp and suspected of witch-craft when he makes friends with a cat.


These were two of the better stories from the collection. II, XI and XIII were also entertaining, but I didn't like the rest of them.

f3a9eb  No.7074

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Picking up reading again, especially reading Pynchon, has made me aware of just how poor my reading comprehension is. And I read abysmally slow, as I read word by word, not chunks of words or sentences, and I subvocalize. I don't think there is any way to improve besides reading a lot so I'm trying to cut out porn and IRC so that I fill most of my time up with reading but I run into the problem of sustaining my attention, which again I think the only way to improve is by just paying attention for longer and longer periods of time. I'd really like if by the end of the year I was a better reader than I currently am.

Currently reading Vineland, next will be Inherent Vice, then The Crying of Lot 49, and then V. After I'll either take a break from Pynchon or read the rest of his works.

What have you guys been reading?

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695ce8  No.7023[Reply]

Have any hikis on here ever done the piss bottle thing or do you leave your room to use the bathroom?

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0e6b05  No.7046

God fucking no. That's fucking nasty. I have to stay in my room, I don't want it reeking of piss.

c35deb  No.7053

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Same. That and a slot for food & water to be passed through to me & back again, along with a pneumatic chute for disposal of garbage. I'm not sure I'd ever leave my room if I had those things. If for nothing else, at least it would be convenient.


I've never understood how can one can be a true hikikomori (as in they never, ever leave their room) unless they'd then also be willing to piss in bottles and shit in buckets and or bags to accomplish it. Which, as you already mentioned, is probably one of the most disgusting things I can imagine. I mean, god damn, just use the fucking bathroom. Is there actually reports of people doing this, or is it just a meme? If there is, then man. Hikikomori or not, people like that should be shot out of a high velocity cannon towards the sun. I don't mean to sound judgemental, it's just that I'm pretty obsessive when it comes to keeping my own space nice & clean and I absolutely can't stand or wrap my head around slobs who treat their rooms like crap. I'll never understand all those pics out there of hikikomori who are content sitting in a pile, or even a mountain, of their own trash. Personally, it's enough to make me gag just looking at it, but whatever. To each their own, I guess. I'm just tired of how associated it is with being a hikikomori.

24ea18  No.7057

Yes, I had to start recently because my sister moved back in and the 1 bathroom is overused. Due to moisture damage and mold there are lots of other overpowering smells to mask the piss so I can't tell if they smell or not, but I doubt it since they are capped and the room ventilates with a window a couple times every week. I am more disgusted by the sweat that accumulates in bed at night. There is no way to contain it. Living in the tropics is hellish.

81ab86  No.7058




>I have my own bathroom.


000000  No.7073


Outside of a couple of times when our water got shut off and at that point what difference does it make really no I haven't. Luckily no one in my family is confontational so Ive never had a problem just walking to the bathroom. I used to pee out of my window occasionally when i woke up in the middle of the night and didn't want to walk all the way to the bathroom but i stopped doing that.

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e8a666  No.5193[Reply]

I've been a hikki for 7 years now and nothing changes. For 5 years straight i never left my room. Start of 2017 i was basically forced out of my room, i was half living with my mom half living with my dad for 9 months. Eventually got my first ID. Passed written drivers test to obtain a permit. After that i just went right back to being a full on hikki, never even took the driver part of the test, didn't even drive a car, ever. That was around 7 months ago now.

I don't know why my mom or step dad don't even bother with trying to get me out of the house. I went to Christmas with my family for the first time in years. It's been so long that my aunts children grew up and one of them didn't even know who i was. lol

Thinking about that just makes me cringe to the point i wanna kill my self.

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cd2e3c  No.5364

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>That's why I'm so glad that grocery stores have self-checkouts.

I always hate when those things malfunction to be honest right now i'm trying to teach myself how to do online grocery shopping so i can have all of my food delivered to me and i don't have to go outside.

b0ce70  No.5365


Same here, also have no car and worried I'd look stupid bringing my beat-up backpack into the store or people thinking I would steal since this is a seedy area.

ea227d  No.7031

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10 1/2 months. Only reason I leave is if I have to go for an appointment, or something (like to a dentist, for instance). Only for me to then return to another 5-10 months of unbroken time spent in the house until, again, I leave for something trivial, like going for a walk late at night with my mom. In that sense, I've spent a great deal of consecutive time indoors. Years, basically. I also haven't been outside, on my own, in broad daylight since about 2005, for what it's worth.

f59793  No.7061


>I actually did get my licence at 23. The landwhale who administered the test actually scoffed at my age since getting a licence after 18 is apparently abnormal

I got mine after my twentieth birthday and the slut behind the desk kind of subtley mocked me too. Do your job, I didn’t ask for the judgement

85c964  No.7071



Typo, meant to say 2007.

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0f0341  No.6629[Reply]

Do any of you guys actually leave your homes/rooms despite the fact that you are shut away from society? If yes what do you leave for? i only leave to get groceries once a month and every once in awhile i will walk to the Mcdonald's by my house and get it to go.

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9e7ac8  No.6645


Am I a hikki if I only go out for food and therapy?

0f0341  No.6647


>Am I a hikki if I only go out for food and therapy?

Yes this discussion does not need to even be had.

c355ff  No.6650

sometimes I will sit in the backyard to get some vitamin D and about once a month my Dad will drive me to the dentist but thats really about it fuck…

a8eb38  No.6662


You're going to the dentist montly?


365d1d  No.7069

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I'm about to go to the dentist tomorrow. Haven't been to see one in like 5 years. I'm dreading it immensely, to be honest. The silly thing is that there's nothing even wrong with my teeth. I just want them to remove the metal brace that sits behind my bottom teeth, as kind of a hidden retainer of sorts. Anyone else have one of these by the way? Just curious, I guess. Anyway, it's been there for like 15 years and removing it won't cause any issues, since it's purpose was always to serve as a light precautionary measure once one gets their braces off. Other than that, I've never gotten any cavities and pretty much have super teeth despite treating them like absolute shit (I only brush them like once every few weeks and I don't floss), all thanks to certain beneficial enzymes that exist in my mouth that prevent plaque & bacteria buildup. Funny how nature would bless me in such a weird way. Basically the only good thing in my genetics.

Besides that, no I don't leave the house. I only left the house twice last year. First time to an eye center, escorted by both my parents because without them the anxiety would've been too great too handle, while also needing them to push me along when the already present anxiety was enough to paralyze me, to see if I were a candidate for LASIK/PRK since I hate, and am long sick of wearing my glasses, but the lady there denied me since my prescription was too high (I'm a +5).

Second time, more embarrassingly, was an emergency visit to the local clinic because I got a bladder infection from using a dirty sock to jerk off in because I was too lazy to grab another roll of toilet paper/tissue box. I tried to ignore it, but the pain became overwhelming, so I went with my father to get it sorted out while panicking the whole time and having my heart turn into a jackhammer. The doctor there just gave me some antibiotics pills, which sorted it out rather quickly, fortunately. Nobody ever asked any questions, aside from my parents, but I just lied and said I must've missed cleaning down there, to which they both just shrugged and said whatever. I want to put my first through my head for being so lazy & stupid.

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7d4a19  No.1005[Reply]

Does anyone here have an "inner world"? I have been hikkikomori for a year but I really can't stand being locked up with my own thoughts, so I spend all day on the internet and watching anime. How does the average hikki deal with this feel?

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6aed03  No.1251

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I started reading Gate of Revelation (天启之门)

427a2d  No.1261


That's from the Korean section right? I don't know much about their styles or themes but I've heard good things about Gate of Revelation in the past. I hope you find it enjoyable, but even if you don't there's plenty of others books to choose from until something takes your fancy.

6aed03  No.1263


>That's from the Korean section right? I

Not sure

73109f  No.7062

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The malignant uselessness of my thoughts, and really life itself, when I sit inert with no distractions, often gets to me in a bad way as well. My mind constantly festers with boring stupidity & annoying bullshit, as if a loud buzzing fridge & a screeching static laden radio were mashed together and then molded into the shape of a brain. I also have a very efilistic attitude towards existence and literally can't help, but think about how horrifying this bloody horror show of planet is and how staggering the collective pain of all the eons of life. I'm trapped in a planetary madhouse filled with bloodthirsty cannibals. There's no escape other than sleep (those who can't avail themselves of such a gift, for whatever reason, have my sympathies). As long as I'm awake, I feel like shit. It's that simple. All one can do in the face of such awfulness is endure. Especially when you're too weak to commit suicide, as I am.


Funny. I used to as well almost all the time. Thought I was the only one. Haven't done it for a while, though. Got sick of hearing my own voice. Not to mention, that I haven't had anything to talk to myself about in a long time. I also don't have the energy and just sit around catatonically instead these days.

e243a1  No.7065


Those aren't Korean characters. Those look like this

안녕하세요 (An nyong ha say yo) formal hello; literally means do you walk with peace.

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ecfa99  No.3123[Reply]

I met a guy a month ago playing Fortnite. At first I thought he'd just be another guy I'd play with sometimes, nothing more. But then he started to try to get to know me and shared some of his personal life to me, like his health issues, religious and political views, etc, things that "friends" would begin to share, I suppose. But he came off as clingy, as he showed me this MMO he was trying to get more friends to play with. I told him it looks interesting and that I might buy it in a week and then he went off and gifted it to me.

It was a nice gesture but now I was obligated to play it with him. And I already started feeling obligated to hang out with the guy with him telling me of his failing liver, and other personal shit. I just don't want any of that. I don't have any friends IRL, and the "friends" I do have online I'd like to keep as just "people I play with", nothing more.

But shit, I've decided to delete my account and move one once again. I don't have the heart to just delete people so I often create new accounts and start fresh again. Maybe this time I can be really cautious about the people I add. I'm glad I have the ability to "start again" infinitely online. No wonder people are miserable IRL with friends and the "complexity" of their relationships.

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287421  No.3840

I made a FB under an assumed name and then turned it off, so I can see them but they can't see me.

592ee4  No.7036

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Never had any online friends myself. I used to boost multiplayer trophies on occasion many years ago back when I was an achievement addict, but it was always a very business like arrangement (you scratch my back, I scratch yours, sort of thing), and never led to anything more than saying what was necessary to keep the process going. I've also never really been a part of any kind of forum or community. I'm a very much a lurker & a drifter. People are more trouble than they're worth.

>But then he started to try to get to know me and shared some of his personal life to me, like his health issues, religious and political views, etc, things that "friends" would begin to share, I suppose. But he came off as clingy

Yes. That's exactly the kind of thing that would send my skin crawling. Having someone glom on like that sounds like a very confining & claustrophobic experience, at least it would be to me anyway. Like a person breathing over your shoulder who won't leave you alone, after already long deciding you want nothing to do with them. Not to mention that, in the end, it's enough of a job simply keeping track of my own horse shit. I don't need to listen to anyone else dump their own unique brand on me, as if I'm an emotional tampon they can use at their leisure, or something. I see relationships as being nothing more than a bucket of sticky tar one dumps over their heads. Covered in a black goo of dissatisfaction that's difficult to scrub clean.

Still though, I've often thought how nice it would be to have a personably quiet & distant individual to play co-op games with and maybe talk about the odd bit of media. An acquaintance such as that would be the ideal.

ec04da  No.7042


I know what you mean, most "friends" are like that, almost like having a piece of bubblegum on the soles your shoes.

There are though some good, old friends though I really value a lot. That doens't mean that I'm going to spend every 2nd day with them either. Most of the time I check my phone just for the relaxing reassurement that no one wants something of me. There's nothing worse than the feeling that someone wants something of me today. It's like I can't lose myself in anything I put my mind because I always know that I either potentially have to get ready to go outside or at least the hassle of cancelling a meetup.

6828e5  No.7043

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I can't stand being alone, but I also can't stand other people. There are exceptions, I mostly just hate normalfags, but I will never meet people that I like (well, people that are as horrible as I am, in similar ways, and pretty fucked up in the head, I suppose), and I fear human interaction even online if it's not impersonal. Even when I had the chance to befriend people that I talked to anonymously, I wasted every chance because I don't want to end up being hurt or hurting someone else. As long as I lie to myself that I like being alone, it's possible to avoid feeling unbearably bad, so that's what I do.

000000  No.7059

Every few years I start to interact with people on boards, chats, or games. When a relationship starts getting close to being a friendship I remember that I didn't want to get friends in the first place and cut all contact. Then another few years pass by and I start doing the same. I've gone through several cycles of this. To this day I've managed to remain friendless.

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64b4a2  No.3927[Reply]

Being a hikki I've basically done nothing but watch porn and play vidya it feels like. I'd like to do interesting things given my situation so I've installed ubuntu and started to learn emacs lisp. I think quitting porn is the hardest right now, the reason I'm trying is I want to be able to focus and have willpower essentially, which means discipline. And I'd like to get back into reading. I've had Dostoevsky sitting on my desk for about 2 years and have only read 2 chapters, that's sad.

What are you doing?

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9848e4  No.4385


I meant that I'm trying to prepare myself for future conditions, not that I'm trying to get used to a new situation.

e17070  No.4386



>live in Australia

I might not have to deal with snow, but I have to deal with 35+ degree weather.

3e4a37  No.4392


>I meant that I'm trying to prepare myself for future conditions, not that I'm trying to get used to a new situation.

Oh i see okay never mind i misunderstood.

3e4a37  No.4393


>I might not have to deal with snow, but I have to deal with 35+ degree weather.


d7466c  No.7055

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Reading the NHK manga for the first time back in March/April of last year helped me lose weight, begin exercising everyday, and immensely improve my diet, oddly enough. I watched the anime years ago and while it was OK, it didn't leave a huge impression me. The manga seemed to give all the characters a few more layers (especially Misaki herself) which made it a much more interesting story. Personally though, I think the anime had the better ending, since Satou hadn't really done some unrealistic 180 like in the manga, but more just had to do what he needed to do to get by and to avoid starving to death and is still basically the same person he always was.

Anyway, I don't know. I guess reading it somehow spurred a Daesu-Oh style transformation in me, to engage in something different with my time, regardless of the additional health benefits and more out of the inherent novelty, as I'm locked in my own particular space. I'm also not ashamed to admit that a part of me wanted to embody Satou in a physical sense, as being a slim, bordering on emaciated at certain intervals, stick figure and have Misaki cheer me on in my own head as I do it. Almost as if, that if I could somehow enter that world, I'd need to be as slim as Satou, otherwise it just wouldn't "work" & the continuity would be missing (for lack of a better way to describe it). The decision for me to eat only one meal a day for a few months there, actually came from one of the later chapters of the manga where Satou is starving himself, which I've now forgotten the context for. Hell, there were multiple times where I even imagined Joey from the Blackwell games encouraging me to keep doing what I was doing, for whatever random reason. It all seemed rather arbitrary in the end, whatever I conjured in my head to keep me on task, but enh. I guess that's how it goes.

I also ordered some Phoenix Tears which I took alone in my room (THC concentrate) a couple months prior to my shift in routine, and before reading the manga, after having never tried a drug of any sort before, not even alcohol, and I'd have to say that also played a not so small part in it all. It was a deeply unpleasant experience filled with palpable doom & anxiety, laced with moments of profound insight, that eventually led to me suffering from bouts of recurring derealization, which thanPost too long. Click here to view the full text.

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981ea1  No.1915[Reply]

What are some of the physical and mental issues that have arisen from your time spent in isolation?? for me it's the following.

>Back pain

>Weak bland muscles


>Mild agoraphobia

>Social anxiety


>Feel tired all the time (Except at night)

>Constantly masturbaiting and addicted to porn

>Bad eating habits

>Blurry vision

>Suicidal tendencies

>Lack of vitamin D

>Allergic to my own sweat

>I start itching every time i go outside for food

>Weight loss

>Anger issues

What are some of the physical and mental issues you guys deal with while being hikikomori??.

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ee4a79  No.6730




>>Chronic diarrhea

Only two posts? I'm honestly surprised. I was expecting way more hikkis to have gut issues, since it seems that it's closely related to anxiety and depression.

I feel bad everytime I eat.

9aa0c4  No.6732


I eat a lot of takeaways (more than is financially prudent, tbh), so I didn't think it unusual enough to mention.

000000  No.6750




>Restless legs syndrome (RLS)

>Chronic fatigue syndrome (CFS)


>Social anxiety disorder (SAD)

>Generalized anxiety disorder (GAD)

>Panic attack

>Chills-Goose bumps-Spasm

>Major depressive disorder (MDD)

>Obsessive–compulsive disorder (OCD)

>Suicidal tendencies


>Sleep paralysis


Good and health to you, Brothers!

ae7dac  No.7022


>Panic Disorder


>No appetite


>No energy, always tired

>No hygiene (shower once every week, never brush teeth)

>Maladaptive daydreaming

>Always talking to self

>Suicidal tendencies


>Feet always cold

it's all so tiresome

df724a  No.7054

I have a really bony ass which, quite literally, makes my butt hurt almost all the time, regardless of how comfy the chair I'm sitting in is. The bottom part of my thighs also feel like jello and sometimes cause me discomfort after prolonged periods of sitting. Doing some squats and Turkish Get-Ups everyday helped a little when I was exercising on a regular basis for a good 3-4 months last year, but then I started experiencing rather severe ETD (Eustachian tube dysfunction). My left ear would plug up like crazy almost all the time, despite having nothing in it whatsoever. Once I stopped exercising it went away completely, even though I still sometimes experience it every now & again.

I used to suffer from having an extremely weak digestive system which led to lots of painful stomach & intestinal cramping, but taking pro-biotics everyday seems to have cleared that up and I haven't suffered from anything like that for a while.

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