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5aba14 No.791[Reply]

Board owner here thank you all once again for your feedback in the meta thread anyway this is a new meta thread feel free to leave any suggestions comments complaints and criticisms or concerns you may have about the board again i will try to respond to every reply as possible and this thread will be up only temporarily but longer than the last one.

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d5f809 No.5561

I've never actually asked this question before but to all users how can i improve as a better admin??. And what changes would you like to see take place on the board? feel free to make suggestions.

Also on a side note i would like to mention August 22. 2018 is the 1 year anniversary of this board. Me and the mod want to do something special for you guys but as of right now since it is 3 months away we are only coming up with ideas at the moment.

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52a28e No.1[Reply]

Welcome to /hikki/ a place for reclusive adolescents or adults who withdraw from society.

What is allowed on this board? What is its purpose?

On this board you can discuss and request or give advice regarding the Hikikomori lifestyle anxieties and social or mental issues arising from these conditions of living and also post general hikikomori discussion If you're content with being a hikikomori that's ok, and you won't get in trouble for saying so.

What is not allowed on this board?.

Rule 1. Please do not encourage anyone to become a hikikomori

Rule 2. Do not bully or harass someone simply for being a hikikomori

Rule 3. Keep trolling to a minimum (No flames)

Rule 4. Do not help others to plan or commit suicide suicide threads are fine but it is better to give advice rather than to lead the person on.

Rule 5. No topics not related to this board please

Rule 6. Encouraging any kind of drug use

Rule 7. Giving or requesting advice on how to enter the Hikikomori lifestyle

Rule 8. No Shitposting please be respectful and be genuine with your post /hikki/ is a slow traffic board for true hikikomoris to have a place to talk and nothing more.

Rule 9. Always check the catalog before creating a new thread, do not create a new thread asking for things that simply don't deserve a whole new thread dedicated to them

And All 8chan global rules apply

1: Nothing illegal under US law.

2. No suggestive images of real children.

3. No flooding/spamming for the purpose of advertisement.

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52a28e No.10


1. Hikikomori 引きこもり or ひきこもり by definition means in English pulling inward, being confined", i.e., "acute social withdrawal"

2. A hikikomori is someone who withdraws themselves away from all forms of social contact and stays at home all day ether in a bedroom or apartment they live in usually for about 6 months or more.

3. There is a difference between hikikomoris and neets neets are simply just unemployed people who don't want to work but still go outside and socialize but some hikikomoris are unemployed neets but unlike normalfag neets they stay inside all the time.

4. a hikikomori can have a job (But works from home only).

5. The only time a hikikomori would ever go outside is for hunger or if its a life threatening emergency

6. Going to your day job not socializing while out at work going home and staying in your room for the rest of the night is NOT AND DOES NOT MAKE YOU A Hikikomori being a hikikomori and a shy introverted person are not the same thing.

(Pretenders and normalfags will be banned).

7. If you are a recovering hikikomori that is okay.

8. While initially a Japanese phenomenon, Hikikomoriism happens all around the world.

9. While this is mainly an English speaking board both English and Japanese can be spoken on this board.

10. You must be a hikikomori or a recovering hikikomori to post here if you're not a hikikomori you will be banned.

New comers and outsiders please take these into consideration thank you.

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4f70f6 No.784[Reply]

Any anon here figure out a way to make some money without going out to your house? I tried looking for a job but I'm only qualified for a service industry which required a lot of interacting with peoples (I did worked for 3 months but I quit because I couldn't get along with my co-workers and having trouble talking to customer). I'm not asking much in term of payment, just enough to pay the bills and food. I live with my parents, I dont have any student debt or car's loan, I'm happy if I could make $500 a month just from the comfort of my bedroom.

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3512d8 No.5645


We could initially use Github, but later for switch to private Gitlab repos (We could also skip the Github step). Yeah, let's start with Github, OK. I have an idea, send me a link to your Github account per email and I shall reply with mine, this will also show you that I'm honestly interested. For communication we will use IRC (as alternative we could also use XMPP or Matrix), I gotta give you the details also in reply to your email. Please keep in mind that I'll soon go to sleep, but don't worry. This won't be a problem later on when we have worked together a bit. I also found a person who could do animations if you'd be interested in trying your hands at a VN! Are you OK with sending me an email? Just make a throwaway at Tutanota, Protonmail or Cock.li if you don't trust me enough yet.

5d2359 No.5647


Mail sent. I haven't used IRC in ages, but it should be no trouble for me to set things up.

2a5f3c No.5651


>I'm kind of surprised that I'm apparently the only one

I'm interested, but less than confident that I wouldn't hold you back. I wanna finish working through The Art of Computer Programming and finish one big(ish) project on my own before I form a team with others or I'll just constantly beat myself up due to feelings of inadequacy.

8ea261 No.5655


Hey, please don't hesitate to write me an email or just write to me. It's OK if you're a beginner, maybe you can help somehow, also you could just idle in the IRC channel and see how we're going to do it, I'm sure you'll learn a lot. OK, hope you might consider it. I'm a bit tired now, so I'll check this thread tomorrow again. And for the start we're also going to work on some project to see how we better can work together, maybe you'd like to help with some small things.

5d2359 No.5656



Yeah, worst-case scenario, you'd have a few people to ask for advice if you run into trouble working on your project.

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dc2a8a No.3913[Reply]

Since the majority of us on here are currently living as hikikomoris and most hikkis spend most of their time online i thought we could have a thread where we share any interesting links we have come across recently.

ITT Share any interesting links you have came across recently books movies music whatever Rules 3. and 8. still apply as well as all 8chan global rules.

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325d22 No.5611

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e94dbe No.5612


Generally yes, but not this one. It doesn't quite get across her character in my opinion, looks too generic.

Paintjob on the eyes also seems to only work from a single angle, just look at the lower pictures.

325d22 No.5613


>Generally yes, but not this one. It doesn't quite get across her character in my opinion, looks too generic.

>Paintjob on the eyes also seems to only work from a single angle, just look at the lower pictures.

You make a good point looks pretty meh tbh.

325d22 No.5653

File: 9cca7ff90b644ba⋯.jpg (55.38 KB, 1280x720, 16:9, maxresdefault.jpg)

This website has a huge collection of MMO games if you are looking for something new to play.


e94dbe No.5654


On a related note, this is a MUD (Multi-User Dungeon) listing:


They're essentially the ancestors of MMOs and tend to give you a lot more options when playing. Tends to be pretty comfy.

And here's a MUD client to connect to them:


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981ea1 No.1915[Reply]

What are some of the physical and mental issues that have arisen from your time spent in isolation?? for me it's the following.

>Back pain

>Weak bland muscles


>Mild agoraphobia

>Social anxiety


>Feel tired all the time (Except at night)

>Constantly masturbaiting and addicted to porn

>Bad eating habits

>Blurry vision

>Suicidal tendencies

>Lack of vitamin D

>Allergic to my own sweat

>I start itching every time i go outside for food

>Weight loss

>Anger issues

What are some of the physical and mental issues you guys deal with while being hikikomori??.

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9853e6 No.5608

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I forgot to mention that I used a normal chair for a day and that destroyed my back in just an hour or two. Actually, I had these issues in school as well. Being tall probably didn't help. Later on when I tried trade school, being healthier and having a better metabolism, it actually got even harder, because having to stay there for so long, I wasn't able to move around, and therefore I was accumulating massive amounts of stress in my body. Getting up and doing stretches (because that's more socially acceptable than just freely moving like you're crazy) only helped so much. On top of that, my back didn't like those chairs very much at all.

>Sounds very comfy tbh.

It is, as long as I don't get out of my routine. Just mentioned this in another post, but even knowing that I will have to do so in a few days makes me miserable, because I can't sleep no matter how tired I am, it feels like my heart is about to explode and like I'm suffocating, and being sleep deprived makes me suicidal. Sometimes I hit myself, trying to knock myself out, but I never do it hard enough so that doesn't work. It's also a way for me to relieve the physical stress of not being able to move (since I'm trying to sleep). I always hope that at least the pain will distract me from my thoughts and calm me down, but it never does.

Basically, I do like my current life and I haven't left my comfort zone even slightly in months, but if I have to do anything out of the ordinary, then it quickly turns into hell and it takes at least a month for me to go back to my normal comfy self. It paralyzes me and I can't do much for that long, so I try to relax. It seems like my entire body, including my brain, works against anything that goes against my lifestyle. Autism is fun, but only when you're not being forced to try not being autistic. I want to live like this forever, if possible. The alternative seems nightmarish to me. At worst, I will get some night shift security job with nobody around, no noise and no expectations (so I can avoid sensory overload) and get used to that, and then do it forever so I never have another meltdown again. Definitely never going back to school, that's for sure.

3d95f8 No.5616


>Wow, I never heard that before. Sounds terrible.

i was hoping this was something somewhat common among hikkis

it is pretty bad even if i wanted to break my hikki patterns it makes it very hard to fight

9853e6 No.5621

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I have no idea what it is, but there are a bunch of clues, and the fact that the doctors didn't do shit makes me angry. Even the soda is a clue. Why does it help? What kind of issue would improve because of that? The fact that being around other people triggers it means that it's related to stress and anxiety. Since the pain is abdominal, it's safe to say that it's something wrong there, so they even know where the issue is.

If the doctors haven't figured it out, then the doctors are incompetent. A doctor has to find out what it is. You know where the pain is located, that it's making you piss blood and that soda helps for some reason and that the stress of being around people makes it worse (being a recluse probably increases that vulnerability, so it happens more easily now). There's no excuse. If this is causing a lot of pain and making you lose tons of blood, it has to be solved. It's not a generic issue, but they know where it is and what triggers it, because you told them, so there's definitely enough information for them to figure out a solution.

It pisses me off that a doctor would just give a bunch of generic explanations and give up when they're proven wrong just so they don't have to use their heads, and this is really common nowadays. Bunch of idiots in every profession, so you need to try a bunch of different people sometimes until you're lucky and find the right one. Doctors of all people are supposed to give more of a shit about people than this. This isn't right, go to a better one next time if you can and make sure that he does his job.

3d95f8 No.5646


>Even the soda is a clue. Why does it help?

i haven't figured it out. i thought it was the carbonation so i drank some flat and it still helped. i thought it was the sugar (i drink real sugar soda no HFCS for me) then i made some limeade with tons of sugar no relief.. all the other ingredients are different per soda so that eliminates them being the source of my relief. all i know is it just helps the pain. thankfully the pain is quite dull most days.

>What kind of issue would improve because of that?

sometimes i think its some kind of parasite but i have no way to confirm. it just seems improbable.

>It pisses me off that a doctor would just give a bunch of generic explanations

not just one doctor, four different doctors over the course of 10 or so years. im working myself up again to leave my house and go to another doctor and see if i can explain things differently this time.

im sick of people in general doctors are no exception.

6e23ad No.5652


>i haven't figured it out. i thought it was the carbonation so i drank some flat and it still helped. i thought it was the sugar (i drink real sugar soda no HFCS for me) then i made some limeade with tons of sugar no relief.. all the other ingredients are different per soda so that eliminates them being the source of my relief. all i know is it just helps the pain. thankfully the pain is quite dull most days.

Can you try carbonated water, diet soda, and club soda? You can start doing process of elimination on what ingredient is helping you. Sugar is the only thing that makes sense. Do you exert a lot of downward pressure on your abdominal region when your sitting? Maybe when your stressed your tensing up and crumpling your stomach.

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2e50ed No.5637[Reply]

Do you blame your parents for you becoming a hikikomori?. Or are you thankful that they are supportive in providing you with whatever you need in your isolation?.

For me i have mixed feelings on one hand i'm very thankful of them for being supportive in providing me with whatever i need in my isolation while on the other hand i'm angry at them because they pressured me too much growing up to follow society's rules and expectations and their own expectations as well and they still do it to this day . I'm also angry that they never took the time to sit down listen to me and hear me out and ask me how are you feeling?? or what's wrong?? and so on.

What is your relationship with your parents like? also do you communicate with your parents or are you completely withdrawn from your family as well?.

f3ea8b No.5638

I have mixed feelings about my family too

My father tried so hard to help me but he can't because i'm below the point of no return he tried to take me to a psychiatrist and see what's going on on my head but the psychiatrist ended up prescribing me some medications that didn't help me at all they made me just numb to the most part and able to consume media mindlessly again they didn't make me go outside and make friends as my dad expected

My mom on the other hand is very stressful and angry because of me she thinks that I failed her at everything and she can't impress anyone by saying that her son has become a doctor as she planned for me since day one sometimes she helps me and make me food however.

I'm still in highschool but I live in a third world country which is very bad when it comes to school the classes are empty and no one goes to school anyway so you're supposed to take lessons at home to pass the exams at first I was very lucky to be have all my teachers come to my home and teach me but after that I realized that the more I'm sitting with these teachers the more I'm purging my existence from the outside world and only exist in my room on the internet

I didn't study a shit and my exams supposed to begin after tow weeks and I've to leave my room to go to my school but I won't go anywhere I will stay in my room and keep playing video games as I do everyday

I will droop out of highschool and I've no idea what I will do in the future

b6bb8d No.5640


I don't blame my parents at all, I decided I didn't want to become a slave to a fulltime job, I don't know if the eternal normalfag enjoys working 12hs a day, but because of that today you have to completly lose your freedom to generate income. If anything I blame my shithole of a country, because at least in some other countries you can make a living with a part time job.

ce1379 No.5641

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>Do you blame your parents for you becoming a hikikomori?

Yes and no. A big part of it is me simply being introverted and wanting to be alone, but also my parents brought me up in a way to be very passive which led to people constantly taking advantage of me which I got sick of.

>are you thankful that they are supportive in providing you with whatever you need in your isolation?

I am thankful I have a small room and enough food to eat. I do try to keep what I consume or otherwise need to a minimum though.

>I'm also angry that they never took the time to sit down listen to me and hear me out and ask me how are you feeling?

I mentioned this in another thread; before I even became a hikki I went to me father and explained to him that I thought something was mentally not right with me because of anti social tendencies that started to develop and worsen. All I asked for was to maybe get a psychological evaluation or something, but he more or less just shrugged it off and told me nothing is wrong with me. Since then he hasn't asked me if I'm alright or sat down with me for a talk or anything, and because of the previous situation I refuse to ask for help ever again.

>What is your relationship with your parents like?

I haven't talked to my mother for 9 years because she left my father, and by extension my siblings and myself for another man. She tried to contact me many times by means of post cards and such and she used to send birthday cards, but I ignored them and eventually they stopped coming. I don't talk much with my father either. The rare occasion I do see my father he asks me when I'm going to start working, since he has connections and I could start working within a couple days if I really wanted to. Normally I respond with something along the lines of 'dunno' and that's about the extend of our usual conversations.

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ed26f6 No.5648


>Do you blame your parents for you becoming a hikikomori?.

Yes and no, I recognize that most of it the result of my poor choices in not slotting into a normal life, but there is the aspect that much of who you are is a result of upbringing and early childhood

I'm thankful they haven't thrown me out and that they're willing to let me stay for now, but at the same time there's also immense pressure they try to apply on me and various ultimatums that get passed off as "suggestions"

b86267 No.5650

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In part yes and no. My mum did try but never pushed me to actually face my issues instead of just withdrawing to escapism. On the other hand she lets me stay rent free and doesn't push the issue of me being a hikki so I can't really complain, I can tell it bothers her though. She has tried to sit down and talk about it a few times but it never really became of anything mostly because I despise asking for help or showing weakness and I don't trust the shrink plus I highly doubt they would help outside of trying to pill push. Rest of the blame is mine though, I would constantly skip school and never got on well with others.

I still get on quite well with my mother despite everything and talk to her daily if I'm awake. Last time I spoke to my dad he shoved me into a wardrobe during an argument and I almost snapped and beat him down. So er, not well to say the least. I talk to my brother rarely but that's it. Rest are either dead or I haven't spoken to in years and I don't intend to change that.


>I decided I didn't want to become a slave to a fulltime job

This is one of the reasons I don't want to make an attempt to re-enter society, working full time for weeks on end for peanuts would make want to just hang myself and I just don't see myself doing it. I'd most likely at least try if I could choose when I want to work but that ain't happening in current year. That and all the years of not socializing are going to catch up and people are going to latch onto that fact and take advantage of it.

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4eb7ca No.4120[Reply]

The worst thing for me as a hikki is that I am slowing but steadily un-learning my own native language.

English isn't my native language, it's German. I have no social contacts, no friends, no one, I don't even really talk to my family (rarely only). I don't have online friends either. 90% of all "conversations" I have are posting in English on 4chan (full of fucking normies though) or 8ch.

I can't say a full sentence in German without stuttering, and fucking up the tone and stress of the words. I also struggle remembering words, and sometimes I mess up the more complicated grammatical structures.

It goes without saying that the same applies to English, since I only ever write English and never speak it out loud.

I feel like a foreigner in my own country.

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075195 No.5619


>my first language is Portuguese

Are you from Portugal or Brazil? just asking because i know a little bit of Brazilian Portuguese.

3c44ac No.5623


From Brazil, which makes the hikki life even harder, if you are from here as well.

075195 No.5626


>From Brazil, which makes the hikki life even harder, if you are from here as well.

I've heard Brazil is a shit country.

702a56 No.5627

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Corruption and the stupid, extroverted population are the main issues. Besides that, it's easy to get some neetbux by attending college for 6 months and droping it or by a psychiatrist from being unable to keep working (which is my case).

Working here doesn't make any sense, since our minimum wage in the private sector is like 250-300 USD, some government employees have a wage 10 times higher than that and you can only get in if someone invite you or by an absurd test. And don't talk about buying anything from outside, since there's an almost 100% taxation on imported stuff. It's just ridiculous. And even if you work for the government,don't talk about buying anything from outside, since there's an almost 100% taxation on imported stuff. It's just ridiculous.

At least you can survive well with a minimum wage, but you can't even buy cool stuff without starving.

74349c No.5649

I totally forgot about how to speak properly in either my native language and in English, but it doesn't bother me to some extent. because I don't have any friends or family members that I can talk to them, I sit in my room all day long playing video games and watching videos on youtube, I can write better in English than my native language because I'm doing everything in English,also due to the time I've spent reading articles and listening to podcasts my listening and reading skills is very good now and that's what I wanted tbh. I don't interact with no one why bother caring about my speaking ability. however, there are alot of words in English that I don't know their meaning and I struggle to understand the more complicated articles.

Its like I'm lost I can't write in my native language because I've forget alot about it and there aren't any places on the internet where I can use it aside from Facebook twitter etc,Meanwhile, I can't use English properly to express my ideas

Although, I'm trying to improve my English writing skills I get bored because I don't have anyone to practice with or get feedback from so I stopped and I only listen to the language

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bb8ae6 No.2611[Reply]

I know most of the users on here don't want to change and some are happy and content with being a hikikomori but i have a question for those who are recovering hikkis what are you doing to fix your situation?? and do you think you will succeed in the outside world or just go back to being a hikki again??.

Also question for other current hikkis have you ever tried to reintegrate back into society??. I've tried many times in the past but was always met with hostility so i gave up on even trying.

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85c83f No.5472


Chistcucks and Boomers are just as bad as Jews.

6c5a18 No.5476

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In reality, there have been no Jews since 70 AD, when the Second Temple was destroyed.

Kikes weren't Jews when Moses smashed their altar to Baal into powder and force-fed it to them, they weren't Jews when Jesus threw them out of the Second Temple and called them children of Satan and a generation of vipers who cannot escape the damnation of Hell, they weren't Jews when the Second Temple was destroyed and they suddenly declared that Moses had actually given their ancestors thousands of secret commandments in addition to the original ten, they weren't Jews when they stopped calling themselves "Pharisees" and started calling themselves "Rabbinic Jews", they have never been Jews, and they never will be Jews, no matter how many people they trick into believing that they are Jews.

e1dd5d No.5624

Has anyone here found a solution?

I have no social anxiety, I became a hiki because I dropped out of college and I didn't want to become a wageslave, and since being a NEET is not socialy acceptable, I just locked myself in my room. My parents seem to hate me and are always on the verge of kicking me out if I don't get a job, I wonder if anyone has found a way to survive without having to spend 10+ hours a dat working and commuting with pretty much no free time and no energy to use that little free time.

I wish we could find a way to make money that wouldn't require us to give up our freedom, if you know a solution, or have an out of the box idea, please share it with me.

de7d32 No.5625

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>I wish we could find a way to make money that wouldn't require us to give up our freedom, if you know a solution, or have an out of the box idea, please share it with me.

The only solution i can come up with is finding a way to support yourself from home so you don't have to leave the house do you have any skills?.

aabd10 No.5628


The closest thing to that I've heard of work is to become a (good) freelance programmer and move to a second/third world country. They can work 20 hours a month and live like kings from being paid western wages.

Alternatively, have enough money and luck to win on the options market. 100k can be enough. Stock market can work too, but you need a lot more cash starting out for it to work.

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a36db3 No.236[Reply]

ITT we post and discuss songs about hikikomoriism and social isolation.

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bef69f No.5147


Weeaboo punk rock

Me likey

f58b09 No.5149


>Me likey

I know right.

f58b09 No.5176

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neSz & MC L- Hikikomori

7d387d No.5466

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Hikikomori - Sadako

7d387d No.5622

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Welcome To The N.H.K. Dark Side Ni Tsuitekite.

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304007 No.5260[Reply]

I am wonder how many hikkis on this board are 30+

The media attention on us hikikomori has escalated dramatically in the last 20 or so years, but a lot of the people who talk about it or research say that there have been hikkis since the 1980s.

I have seen one elder hikki, who is supposedly over 60 years old. I am wondering if there are more hikkis here over 30. The statistics say that a lot of hikkis are older, like 30-45. So what is it like for you?. Do you get used to it after awhile? I always imagine that a hikikomori is someone who uses the internet constantly. I can't imagine what it was like to be a hikki before internet existed.

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bdb331 No.5609

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>I legitimately think that this is the main reason why we are in this situation. It's the one thing that seems to explain everything

Exactly i'm technically not the only hikikomori in my family my stepbrother is going through the same thing right now he's in the first stage of hikikomori skipping school avoiding social situations not opening up to the family about his problems and bottling himself up and spending all his time in his room and staying up late at night. I don't know if my stepbrother is autistic although he does display some autistic characteristics and he has mentioned that one of the reasons he ended up like this is because he's upset over his parents divorcing i do feel bad for him tbh and i don't want him to end up like me.

>Living like a normal person is incredibly stressful for us because we're not normal. Our brains are physically different from normal brains.


>I'm going to see a therapist so I can get diagnosed. And that's terrible, because knowing that I have to leave the house (and leaving my routine in general, but especially leaving the house).

I was seeing a therapist but than i stopped going because i felt like he didn't understand me plus he for some reason stopped going into work and disappeared the guy was 73 years old so i think he ether retired or died.

>Being sleep deprived makes me depressed and suicidal, so I really worry about sleeping well, so you can see how hard it is for me to do anything at all other than continuing to be a hikikomori.

This is how i feel for the past few weeks i've felt very depressed because i've been sleep deprived going to bed at 7 am and sleeping until 8 pm i just waste a entire day sleeping and the other night i Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

350262 No.5610

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I hope I get lucky and my first therapist understands it. I am going there with the specific goal of showing that I am obviously autistic, so maybe it won't be too bad. Seems to be mostly a luck thing, from what I hear, and you just gotta find the right therapist. And about taking things away, I know that it doesn't work because I didn't have anything to do for much of my childhood since I had a limited supply of games and I wasn't allowed to use the computer all day every day (though I used it more and more over time, from barely using it at all in the 90s, to using it quite a bit when I was 8, to using it all goddamn day in 2003 and later). I couldn't use the internet as much as I wanted in the early days, so I spent the vast majority of my time sitting in my room lost in my own imagination. That's still what I do when I'm not doing something else. I had a more limited supply of games as well. Got a GBC when I was 6 and spent many thousands of hours on that and then many thousands of hours on my PS1 that I got two years later, but even then I still spent a lot of time lost in my own mind, since I didn't always feel like playing the games that I already had played so much.

And about your brother, if there is something to diagnose there, I assume that it would be helpful to do it sooner than later. If you can confirm that he's on the spectrum, maybe you can try to explain how it works to your parents. It's kinda hard, though. I have an entire family of dumbasses and I realize that about as early as it was possible to, so I know what trying to explain things to people is like. I guess you can feel better knowing that at the very least, if this happens to your brother as well, he will know that he's not the first and only one to end up like that. In my case, there's nothing like it in my family. They are all fucked up, but not autistic, and they are all extroverted, so none of them gave a shit about trying to understand me, they judged me and/or abused me, from the day I was born. It's not nearly as bad now that I understand my own situation, but as a kid it was a nightmare. I didn't know what the hell was going on, in any situation, because nothing made sense to me. A 5 or 6 year old shouldn't be thinking about suicide, but I was doing it. I'm pretty Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

53e611 No.5615


I live in USA. East coast. I don't know how many other hikkis are around here.

b8f084 No.5617


stress is probably the right guess.

We are just people with low stress resistence and modern life gets more and more stressful by the day.

350262 No.5620

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Autism increases the amount of stress that most normal activities cause, so if that's your condition, it's only natural that you will be one of the first people to not be able to cope with life. You can't take as much stress as most people, and many things will cause you more stress than they would to a normal person. I actually talked to the therapist for the first time ever yesterday (and will talk to my family next week, since they won't understand me no matter what I say, but they might if an actual professional explains the situation and what my limitations are), and she actually confirmed that exact point, so it seems like my reasoning was correct, and that I do have a proper understanding of sensory overload.

The modern world is terrible, and we are more vulnerable to all of its bullshit. Normal people are also terrible, so they only make things worse with their lack of understanding. I was a sleep-deprived mess, so my list of symptoms really helped me talk about it until I got used to the situation. Actually understanding myself helped quite a bit. She said that I am completely right, and that I'm definitely on the spectrum. It was very easy to diagnose since I recognized everything myself and wrote it down. Now I can say for sure that it's the reason why I am the way I am. It's not just self-diagnosis. In fact, my analytical mind, my ability to recognize my own symptoms, my ability to find out how other people function, the list itself and the fact that I planned the entire interaction before it happened, all of those things were themselves signs of being on the spectrum. She seems to think that I raised myself pretty well, all things considered. Over time, by observing and analyzing every interaction, I learned how society works and how normal people function, and that allowed me to hide part of my symptoms at least from my family. Learned quite a bit from being treated like shit by everyone. I guess I was lucky, since many people never get to the point that they actually at least understand how these things function. Still, I mostly learned that people are irrational and their behavior makes no logical sense a lot of the time. At least I'm prepared for most of their nonsense, since I can see it coming.

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41d067 No.5512[Reply]

Has anyone here ever had their hikki lifestyle come into jeopardy, be that from threats in their family to kick you out, etc? How were you able to deal with it or change their mind?

t. anon who is facing threats of being kicked out.

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f49714 No.5587

Im currently waiting to get thrown out and its really scary. I applied for neetbux but I dont think I will even get it. I think Im going to take out some student loans and just take one online course or something to justify it. Not sure what else I can even do and when that money goes i dont know what will happen next.

116d2b No.5591


That's no good. You need a long-term strategy to avoid homelessness. Maybe tell your parents you want to find a job? Employment would probably end badly (you'd get fired for doing your job instead of chatting about normalfag TV shows, or some employee would decide she doesn't like how quiet you are and frame you for theft, or any of the manifold absurdities of wage slavery), but if you can convince your parents you're at least trying, they might go easy on you and let you stay, assuming that the logic "you can't live on your own without a salary" would work on them.

5bea0b No.5593


Do you have any skills?? if you were to do a at home job what would you be interested in??.

f49714 No.5595


I'd love to make money at home but I can't think of anything I could actually do since I never went to college

I've always wanted to do translations but I can never find the motivation to learn Japanese and I don't think I could learn it in 3 or 4 months before they kick me out

5bea0b No.5596


>I'd love to make money at home but I can't think of anything I could actually do since I never went to college

Try to build up your skills.

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839461 No.2979[Reply]

Do any other hikkis on here buy stuff online like food things you collect movies clothes or whatever?? I buy stuff off of Amazon and currently i am trying to setup an Ebay account has anyone here had any trouble with online shopping such as having your identity stolen??.

Also ITT Post and discuss things you bought online.

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416e1f No.4303


Some are still selling them as new, for about twice as much as I paid.

016256 No.4304


>Some are still selling them as new, for about twice as much as I paid.


8f1033 No.5567

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I bought the Welcome To The NHK. DVD a few days ago.

8f1033 No.5569

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It is really nothing special it's just a 4 disc set that has a few episodes on each one and the only extra content is Japanese or English audio setup or the opening intro or first ending without credits.

6473a6 No.5589

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I have been having horrible luck with my purchases, so I decided not to buy anything else for a while, maybe the rest of this year.


Can't find a picture of mine, because it seems to be kinda rare in the west (I guess not very many people imported this one from Japan), but it's a Hori Fighting Stick, the original. Exactly like the 2, but it doesn't have the switch and the button on the left, and it's not blue, but black. Other than that it looks exactly the same.

I didn't know that it was uncommon and I didn't know about the 2 and the 3, when I got this one, many years ago. I just wanted a good PS1/PS2 stick, since you can find PlayStation to anything adapters quite easily, so I knew I'd be able to use it on PC and any console that I got. Since I assumed I could trust old Horis, I bought it immediately. No regrets at all. I like it a lot. It didn't look like the previous owner even used it.

Kinda wish I had one of those huge Virtua Sticks for the Saturn, for two players, though. It's expensive as hell, but looks awesome, I'm sure that it's super heavy so it wouldn't slide on the table, looks just like the read deal, and it's cheaper than the actual cab. I could have used the second stick for Robotron 2084 on MAME. Or maybe turned it into a 4-way so I could play TGM and other games faster without messing up as much. Not having money sucks sometimes.

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9bda8b No.4212[Reply]

Does it ever bother you that you don't bring anyone in your life any sort of happiness because of your hikki lifestyle? I have people in my life who loved me when I was a kid because I gave them so much joy and attention. Now that I never leave my room, resentment has built up towards me from the ones who remember what I used to be like- a talkative, funny and happy kid. My step father told me I ruined his life after beating the shit out of me for not putting any effort into anything in life. Now I live with my biological father and I can feel his disappointment towards me for being a weirdo who never leaves the house. My sister brings him so much happiness and can talk to him for hours making him laugh and smile. Now that she's moved out, he's stuck with me, and I can tell he's getting sadder by the day even though he's trying to hide it. It makes me want to go out and get a job just so I can show him that I care about him, but I know I wont do that anytime soon, which makes me feel extremely guilty about this lifestyle. I hate being lazy and introverted, not because I want to do more with my life, because I DON'T. I hate being these things because I know it causes sorrow for the people around me. However, I'd rather just deal with it than do anything with my life. I'm such a selfish asshole. Anyone else feel this way?

First post on this board btw. I'm surprised it took my this long to find it. Was a hikki for over three years. Now I leave the house on occasion to attend family gatherings in which family members bring up fond memories they have of me as a child. It gets annoying…

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944daa No.4505

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>My first post here as well.

Welcome to the board new friend.

>I feel tremendous guilt at the amount of pain my existence has caused my family members

Same here i honestly feel deep down they are disappointed in me they just don't show it and continue to enable my lifestyle without even realizing it.

3009ec No.5148


I don't think I can handle another thanksgiving or christmas like this. If I didn"t take the multiple mg of Xanax or klonopins like the last few family holidays I probably would've went missing or finally visited my hospitals psychward.

f61695 No.5152


That's sad to hear Anon. I wish you the best of luck in the world, your parents might be gone but you'll always have us if you need someone who cares to talk with.

e691cc No.5555


I was a regular there and visited the site a day before it got shut down. The site owner stated that he was shutting it down because of low traffic. He also said some other stuff but I can't remember those bits. I do miss it a bit but I'm happy that I don't have to deal with CP and normies anymore.

b69d9f No.5558

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>I was a regular there and visited the site a day before it got shut down.

Looks like we did the same thing LOL.

>The site owner stated that he was shutting it down because of low traffic.

Yeah i saw the blank page with the Misaki picture where he was crying about low traffic and i was like dude it's a hikikomori board of course the traffic isn't gonna be big because most imageboards or boards in general that cater to certain type of people especially social outcast are often times slow or dead like /v9k/ /jp/ Wizardchan Tohno-chan and so on.

>He also said some other stuff but I can't remember those bits. I do miss it a bit but I'm happy that I don't have to deal with CP and normies anymore.

I kinda feel like this as well i do miss but at the same time i'm actually glad that shit site is gone rest in piss tbh.

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1d4a31 No.163[Reply]

ITT post and discuss any books, movies, or other media relating to hikikomoriism.

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26d59e No.5494

YouTube embed. Click thumbnail to play.


the show is really good, but the music is fantastic

e631af No.5495


That is some good music.

e631af No.5514

File: e743d0d89b95661⋯.jpg (31.27 KB, 333x499, 333:499, 417Ap6k0XoL._SX331_BO1,204….jpg)

Lt. Carolyn Latham investigates the suicide of four teens that came from varied parts of the country to Cypress Village, Oregon in order to die together. Following their trail, Carolyn discovers a world she’d never imagined. An organized support group for those waiting to “take the bus” orchestrated by a mysterious Monitor. When Yoshitomo Tagawa a Japanese teenager that has withdrawn from the world never leaving his room. living in reverse, sleeping during the day staying up at night and is living with his uncle in the United States disappears, Carolyn knows that she doesn’t have much time to save this teenager’s life. Yoshi, like over one million of Japan's youth, is a hikikomori.

Amazon Link.


26ba30 No.5532


This is a beautiful anime. One of my favorites.

e631af No.5541


>This is a beautiful anime. One of my favorites.

Same here.

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adf909 No.5155[Reply]

When and where do you think you're going to die anon? What are your last emotions going to be? What will be your final thought? Will you be happy with what you've done in life? I've been thinking about this a lot I feel like my time is coming soon.

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596479 No.5470


I've done some in the past, but not currently. Just basic stuff for local small businesses. It's a nice way to earn some cash when you need it since you can easily deal with your customers over email.

I'm starting to build a stalking porn game with about era levels of fidelity, but more interactivity at the moment. Dunno if I'll release it.

I'll probably roll my own MUD base afterwards.

As I said, programming for programming's sake is where it's at for me. I just want to improve my skill.

d48a22 No.5484


>I'm starting to build a porn game

That's when it went downhill for me and I looked for mental health help.

2a4a8f No.5501

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On my 30th birthday i will drive into the mountains, get out, walk as far as i can

and then shoot myself in the head.

83d61e No.5509



I also always wanted to die somewhere where you have a good view

581302 No.5511


Did the game cause it? Story time?

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