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5aba14 No.791[Reply]

Board owner here thank you all once again for your feedback in the meta thread anyway this is a new meta thread feel free to leave any suggestions comments complaints and criticisms or concerns you may have about the board again i will try to respond to every reply as possible and this thread will be up only temporarily but longer than the last one.

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89a3b4 No.1265

>>1257

>Same. I go to other boards as well, but the most meaningful conversations I have are right here on /hikki/. You have done a terrific job with this board, it is easily the comfiest board I go to

That is great to hear anon glad you think so and same i use other boards too also to all new users on here who came over from /jp/ welcome.




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52a28e No.1[Reply]

Welcome to /hikki/ a place for reclusive adolescents or adults who withdraw from society.

What is allowed on this board? What is its purpose?

On this board you can discuss and request or give advice regarding the Hikikomori lifestyle anxieties and social or mental issues arising from these conditions of living and also post general hikikomori discussion If you're content with being a hikikomori that's ok, and you won't get in trouble for saying so.

What is not allowed on this board?.

Rule 1. Please do not encourage anyone to become a hikikomori

Rule 2. Do not bully or harass someone simply for being a hikikomori

Rule 3. Keep trolling to a minimum (No flames)

Rule 4. Do not help others to plan or commit suicide suicide threads are fine but it is better to give advice rather than to lead the person on.

Rule 5. No topics not related to this board please

Rule 6. Encouraging any kind of drug use.

Rule 7. Giving or requesting advice on how to enter the Hikikomori lifestyle

Rule. 8. No Shitposting please be respectful and be genuine with your post /hikki/ is a slow traffic board for true hikikomoris to have a place to talk and nothing more.

And all 8chan global rules apply

1: Nothing illegal under US law.

2: No suggestive images of real children.

3: No flooding/spamming for the purpose of advertisement.

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52a28e No.10

THINGS TO CONSIDER!!.

1. A hikikomori 引きこもり by definition means in English pulling inward, being confined", i.e., "acute social withdrawal"

2. A hikikomori is someone who withdraws themselves away from all forms of social contact and stays at home all day ether in a bedroom or apartment they live in usually for about 6 months or more.

3. There is a difference between hikikomoris and neets neets are simply just unemployed people who don't want to work but still go outside and socialize but some hikikomoris are unemployed neets but unlike normalfag neets they stay inside all the time.

4. a hikikomori can have a job (But works from home only).

5. The only time a hikikomori would ever go outside is for hunger or if its a life threatening emergency

6. Going to your day job not socializing while out at work going home and staying in your room for the rest of the night is NOT AND DOES NOT MAKE YOU A Hikikomori being a hikikomori and a shy introverted person are not the same thing.

(Pretenders and normalfags will be banned).

7. If you are a recovering hikikomori that is okay.

8. While initially a Japanese phenomenon, Hikikomoriism happens all around the world.

9. While this is mainly an English speaking board both English and Japanese can be spoken on this board.

10. You must be a hikikomori or a recovering hikikomori to post here if you're not a hikikomori you will be banned.

New comers and outsiders please take these into consideration thank you.

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d4dfa8 No.343[Reply]

What video games do you play /hikki/??.

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ac0c40 No.1221

>>1220

>Because EA games do not have good gameplay.

Meehh I suppose but everyone has different taste.


c113db No.1222

>>1221

Like I said: Do not go to /v/.


ac0c40 No.1223

>>1222

>Like I said: Do not go to /v/.

What games do you play anon??.


150434 No.1232

>>1210

>>1220

I've never even opened /v/. I really like the BF1 gameplay and all the mechanics. There's one rifle that has a fucked up animation where it loads one more round than it should but i think it's the best current FPS at least on consoles. BF4 was good too. The bullet drop and things like that feel very realistic, the vehicles and special weapons are well balanced. The maps are all really well designed for the most part. All the problems with the game are with the way EA handles it with all the DLC, the server issues, and having to update it all the fucking time.

BF is the only EA game series i've played but i don't have any complaints with the actual base game, other than i would like to be able to customize my loadouts more in depth like in BF4. I get the appeal of having issued weapons but would like to be able to just change the optics on a single rifle rather than changing to a variant of the same rifle where the leveling of that rifles doesn't cross over even though it's a variant.


ac0c40 No.1268

>>1232

>BF is the only EA game series i've played

Same




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3c650e No.176[Reply]

I just found this documentary from the early 2000s on YouTube about Japanese hikkis i think the narrator is kind of a dumbass tbh.

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4d7e26 No.1217

>>1207

>what is the difference?

Well there is a difference between wanting to be treated equally like everyone else and wanting special treatment from others.


ba6614 No.1259

>>1217

you want special treatment when people would treat you differently and you want them to treat you like others


df61b7 No.1260

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>>1207

Special still fits within the allowed confines of normalcy. They're only different in ways that are accepted, usually in ways that are popular now, like the whole six gorillion genders movement.

Difference, on the other hand, is judged, is scoffed at, different people are never admired or liked, they're pushed away because they make people uncomfortable, people don't know how to act around different people because they've never been told.

Think about it in terms like this: the girl in class who pretends to be shy because it's cute and gets boys interested, she is special. The guy in class who sits at the back, reads obscure books or manga and is suspected of planning to shoot the school up, he's different.


37455d No.1262

>>1260

Another way to look at it is that 'special' is a positive connotation, while 'different' is a negative one. Both are abnormal, however one is considered popular/trendy whilst another is considered dangerous. Right now it's considered 'brave' to come out about things like being homosexual. You're essentially given a social boost for parading the fact that you have a sexual attraction that you didn't choose, just like every other human being. Whilst it's true that coming forward about that fact IS brave due to the risks and alienation involved from your immediate family/friends (assuming you have any at this point as a hikikomori), choosing to do so at the height of its popularity ensures that the entire ordeal is kept in a positive light because right now that difference makes you special. It's also completely logical to make such a decision, the path of least resistance is often the best path to travel. You could even say that such actions, are completely 'normal'.

On the flip side what do you think would happen if a pedophile came forward and spoke about THEIR sexual attraction that they equally didn't choose? That's called being different, and between the two it's like night and day. Both are equally abnormal, regardless of how society chooses to value them, however one of them is like a bump in the road right now whilst the other is a massive sinkhole that will swallow your entire vehicle.

I suppose in the end being both 'different' and 'special' are fairly similar in principle, but in practice being different will get you ostracized and treated like a sickness that needs to be cured. That's not inherently wrong as it's part of human nature to fear things that are different. The fact that being special doesn't receive the same treatment is because, simply put, they are not different. We aren't 'evolving' as a society or any of that nonsense, it's just that people aren't willing to accept that there's so many other people like them in such a great number that society on a whole considers it normal. That's not to say that INDIVIDUALS consider it normal, I fully understand the dangers involved with being different in any meaningful way, as should every hikikomPost too long. Click here to view the full text.


4d7e26 No.1267

>>1262

>Another way to look at it is that 'special' is a positive connotation, while 'different' is a negative one. Both are abnormal, however one is considered popular/trendy whilst another is considered dangerous.

This right here was my whole point exactly in this post - >>1090




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5c1465 No.1228[Reply]

Fellow hikikomoris question what are your thoughts on the MGTOW movement and the herbivore men of Japan? I am curious because i found this video where this guy tries to link us to the MGTOW movement which in my opinion makes no sense.

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5c1465 No.1245

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>>1237

>becoming a hikikomori is equally not a choice, rather it's tackling a whole range of other problems that will eventually result in you being able to participate in life again. Leaving aside the obvious fact that overcoming all of those problems is rediculously difficult (thus the reason that we are hikikomori in the first place) the truth remains that until those problems are solved you won't be participating in society.

This hits to close to home.


7086a3 No.1250

>>1228

It doesn't really have anything to do with hikkikomoris, aside from the fact that most hikkis are male and naturally living the MGTOW lifestyle (because if you can't go out, you can't try to please women)


5c1465 No.1252

>>1250

>It doesn't really have anything to do with hikkikomoris, aside from the fact that most hikkis are male and naturally living the MGTOW lifestyle (because if you can't go out, you can't try to please women)

I suppose but it's like what >>1237 said nobody chooses to become a hikikomori.


84d989 No.1258

>>1228

i used to be in mgtow fb group but they are just sex-havers who baww about slutness of girls


5c1465 No.1264

>>1258

>i used to be in mgtow fb group but they are just sex-havers who baww about slutness of girls

So their like the cyborgs on /r9k/??.




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7d4a19 No.1005[Reply]

Does anyone here have an "inner world"? I have been hikkikomori for a year but I really can't stand being locked up with my own thoughts, so I spend all day on the internet and watching anime. How does the average hikki deal with this feel?

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427a2d No.1241

>>1240

I recommend starting with Coiling Dragon. It has a western-themed story to begin with and will ease you into the general setting of the genre as a whole. I hope you find something that you like as it'll mean hundreds if not thousands of hours of potential escapism. Reading really is a goldmine for avoiding yourself.


6aed03 No.1243

>>1241

Thanks anon ill. check it out later tonight.


6aed03 No.1251

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>>1241

I started reading Gate of Revelation (天启之门)


427a2d No.1261

>>1251

That's from the Korean section right? I don't know much about their styles or themes but I've heard good things about Gate of Revelation in the past. I hope you find it enjoyable, but even if you don't there's plenty of others books to choose from until something takes your fancy.


6aed03 No.1263

>>1261

>That's from the Korean section right? I

Not sure




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bb3c6d No.644[Reply]

I'm pretty sure the majority of us on here know about Welcome to the NHK. as it's probably the most popular hikki anime but which hikikomori anime character do you relate to the most /hikki/??.

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bb3c6d No.1010

>>1003

> I just don't have anything in common with the average person, nor would I want to.

I don't blame you anon.


9fe962 No.1084

>>682

How about a third? I stopped watching a lot of anime a few years after I graduated in 2006. I gradually strayed away from such interest. I would watch a couple here and there over the years but that's it. I don't watch as much as the others do like someone who watches Kdrama religiously.

There are a few exceptions that I do need to watch like FLCL, since they're going to have 2 seasons. Sometimes Gundam. Depending on the story.

As for Welcome to the NHK, I watched that in 2011, if I remember correctly. The problem is that I can't relate a whole much but only certain aspects of it. Still, to me an anime is an anime and its depiction is loosely based to the real thing. People shouldn't really relate to an anime but rather should relate the root of it, the actual concept.


4c1bbb No.1087

>>1084

>if I remember correctly. The problem is that I can't relate a whole much but only certain aspects of it.

The novel is a lot more realistic and relatable than the anime.


256b45 No.1255

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>>644

I really liked nhk, because all characters incarnate parts of me, so accurately it is frightening. The agoraphobia, the obsession with escapism, the fear, terror, of being rejected and abandoned, pill abuse… even some small, insignificant details they did surprised me by how familiar they were

But if I had to choose one, of course it'd be yamazaki. Sure there's a lot (too much) Satou in me, but honestly I'm just yamazaki with some severe social anxiety

>>766

It's a shame tomoko's anime/manga is only good for the first few chapters


4c1bbb No.1256

>>1255

>It's a shame tomoko's anime/manga is only good for the first few chapters

The manga got really shitty and the anime was good but had a crappy ending Tomoko had no character development what so ever and instead gave up on trying to become popular and ran back home and ended up a full on hikikomori in the end.

>I really liked nhk, because all characters incarnate parts of me, so accurately it is frightening. The agoraphobia, the obsession with escapism, the fear, terror, of being rejected and abandoned, pill abuse… even some small, insignificant details they did surprised me by how familiar they were

The anime was good but i feel the message it gives in the final episode is that your problems will be solved simply just by going out and working which we all know isn't true and in the end everyone Satou knows is happy and is having a successful life while he is stuck in a dead end job and unsure if he will ever succeed there is a lot of Satou in me the conspiracy theories his social anxiety paranoia obsession with escapism, the feeling of loneliness agoraphobia and the fact that he is a hikkineet these are all things of Satou i can relate to as for yamazaki i can relate to him on being really into anime and Otaku culture being pressured by your parents to do things you don't want to do. And his disinterest in women in the early episodes.




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4f70f6 No.784[Reply]

Any anon here figure out a way to make some money without going out to your house? I tried looking for a job but I'm only qualified for a service industry which required a lot of interacting with peoples (I did worked for 3 months but I quit because I couldn't get along with my co-workers and having trouble talking to customer). I'm not asking much in term of payment, just enough to pay the bills and food. I live with my parents, I dont have any student debt or car's loan, I'm happy if I could make $500 a month just from the comfort of my bedroom.

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7ee90e No.1118

>>1004

when did you get diagnosis? at what age?


829e35 No.1123

>>1118

>when did you get diagnosis? at what age?

Not that anon but i was diagnosed at age 8.


7ee90e No.1157

>>1123

i could have been diagnosed with it as kid too but i live in 2nd world and AS was not well known back then


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829e35 No.1254

>>1158

How will this help me make money from home??.




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865668 No.1171[Reply]

What kind of food and snacks do you like to eat /hikki/??.

Also question for current hikikomoris do you buy food online? do your parents bring it to you and set it in your room or outside the door? or do you go outside quick for food then return to your room or apartment??.

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865668 No.1234

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>>1231

> I prefer to do mostly everything on my own. Getting food, getting a drink, etc. Parent buys food. Sometimes I ask what I want. For some reason I don't like food given to me. So I rather make it myself. If I'm too damn lazy, then we order pizza. Sometimes whatever we're in the mood for,

Back when i lived with my parents i did this sometimes but usually only at night i would sneak out and microwave something to eat or get a drink in the day time while i was in my room my parents brought my food to me and ether left it outside my bedroom door or on my computer desk.

>Uber eats

That's actually a thing?? interesting.


ceef89 No.1246

>>1234

>sometimes but usually only at night i would sneak out and microwave something to eat or get a drink in the day time

I used to live at my aunt's house and would do the same thing. Starve during the day, fuck the people downstairs. Just wait until all of them are in their own room, late at night.

I miss heating up pizza rolls and munch them with ranch sauce or sriracha in the quiet kitchen room, all alone late at night. So peaceful and no one to fucking bother you with stupid shit.


865668 No.1247

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>>1246

>I miss heating up pizza rolls and munch them with ranch sauce or sriracha in the quiet kitchen room, all alone late at night. So peaceful and no one to fucking bother you with stupid shit.

Funny that you say that anon because i actually made pizza rolls not that long ago LOL.pic related are my favorite kind.


ceef89 No.1248

>>1247

Hell yeah! Now I want some right now.


865668 No.1249

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>>1248

>Hell yeah! Now I want some right now.

I don't blame you i also like microwaving pic related they are addicting as hell.




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2fb562 No.652[Reply]

do any other hikkis wish you were girls? i do. i wouldn't be a hikki then.

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7e0683 No.1053

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34c14b No.1079

>>1053

tldr


d14161 No.1151

>>1053

Horse shit.


f8d4e9 No.1208

when i was in college i said i wished i was a girl and ppl laughed at me

ehh


46473f No.1215

>>1208

>when i was in college i said i wished i was a girl and ppl laughed at me

>ehh

Well fuck them




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70ac68 No.419[Reply]

Why are you unhappy /hikki/??.

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136f31 No.1198

>>1197

>well it's different when it's some fag wanting me to meet up and choke them, it's not even a relationship really

I have online friends as most hikkis do but i don't have any real life friends and i don't think any of us on here even have the courage to meet someone from online face to face anyway since we don't go outside anyway.


92665c No.1199

>>1198

>I have online friends as most hikkis do

i actually don't, i just like like messing with the people in the threads and imagining, it's basically just RPing i guess

sounds a lot more pathetic now that i think/write about it


136f31 No.1200

>>1199

>i actually don't, i just like like messing with the people in the threads and imagining, it's basically just RPing i guess

Hey anon you're not the only one who has lied about their life online i have done it myself it's just another form of escapism i guess thank god we don't have to lie here because we can all relate to one another and were all shut in away from society to be honest /hikki/ has helped me vent out my frustrations with being a hikikomori.


eba3f1 No.1209

File: 59767ad1808de81⋯.png (596.74 KB, 580x820, 29:41, 61984183_p0.png)

I have trouble sympathizing with people.

Whenever I read up on someone else's problems and if they're not having it bad as I am, I get pissed off- especially if the person is now receiving help and love because they shared it. I assume others help the person because their problems are easier to fix unlike mine.

I tried getting help and bettering myself by getting a job.

Psychiatrists and therapists are all jews who just want to milk me into getting new meds instead of helping me, spouting the same dumb shit like 'bee urself'. And work is just boring, I feel like I'm rotting away more than feeling accomplished.


136f31 No.1214

File: 9951aab6bae8291⋯.png (222.51 KB, 604x448, 151:112, arka1.png)

>>1209

>I tried getting help and bettering myself

Same here i gave society another chance 5 to 4 years ago and tried going off to college and bettering myself to try and get out of the hikki lifestyle but all i got in return was shit thrown back in my face so i went back to being a hikikomori and dropped out.

>Psychiatrist and therapists are all jews who just want to milk me into getting new meds instead of helping me, spouting the same dumb shit like 'bee urself'

i tried seeing a therapist and the guy couldn't understand me at all he was very confused a lot of the time hell i even had to explain to him what a hikikomori was because he didn't know and most of the time he would tell me the way to get over negative thoughts is to just simply replace them with positive ones which obviously doesn't work because self help is a scam.

>I feel like I'm rotting away more than feeling accomplished.

I know that feel bro same here but even if we do recover and come out of this lifestyle we will never fully recover 100% look at it this way we hikikomoris are like a wrinkled piece of paper you can unwrinkle it but there will still be some damage.




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1d4a31 No.163[Reply]

ITT post and discuss any books, movies, or other media relating to hikikomoriism.

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2e5412 No.1109

>>1108

>I noticed that there is a problem, sorry about that. I'll keep looking. :(

Yeah that wasn't the real YTS site that was a clone and probably a fbi honeypot too so that's why i removed the link i'm looking too it looks like it can't be found anywhere anymore.


2e5412 No.1110

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2e5412 No.1115

File: 8212c26783dc67f⋯.jpg (97.16 KB, 1000x667, 1000:667, american hikikomori.jpg)

American Hikikomori is a 2015 short film that explores the emotional struggles of a Japanese teenager named Isamu Fujihara, when he moves from Japan to America.

Trailer - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jZCXZ334JiE


2e5412 No.1134

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Hikikomori Manager 2012 game.

Download here http://www.stack.nl/~vdz/hikki/

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2e5412 No.1184

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Inspired by the real-life Japanese social phenomenon called hikikomori and the professional “rental sisters” hired to help, Hikikomori and the Rental Sister is about an erotic relationship between Thomas, an American hikikomori, and Megumi, a young Japanese immigrant hiding from her own past. The strange, insular world they create together in a New York City bedroom and with the tacit acknowledgment of Thomas’s wife reveals three human hearts in crisis, but leaves us with a profound faith in the human capacity to find beauty and meaning in life, even after great sorrow. Mirroring both East and West in its search for healing, Hikikomori and the Rental Sister pierces the emotional walls of grief and delves into the power of human connection to break through to the world waiting outside.




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a36db3 No.236[Reply]

ITT we post and discuss songs about hikikomoriism and social isolation.

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ea7000 No.709

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a36db3 No.711

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>>709

>Those feels

I'm listening to this right now and right now i honestly feel like i've fallen into a deeper pit of despair.


ea7000 No.713

>>711

Yeah, sorry. XII is the worst part.


a36db3 No.877

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d2db6e No.1168

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Oh the feels.




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f031d1 No.97[Reply]

What were the reasons that made you become a hikikomori? for me its the following.

>Be bullied throughout both middle school and high school for having autism and being myself

>Lots of drama going on inside family home (Will not go into detail)

>Socially awkward

>Hate going outside

>Do not agree with a lot of things in this society.

>Feel betrayed by own age peers because i was not socially accepted by them

>Shit parents (Still love them to an extent though)

>Closeted pedophile (Could never tell my parents i dont wanna be disowned for an attraction i did not choose)

>To red pilled about the world to live a normalfag lifestyle i guess thats what happens when you're on the internet 24/7

>Hate most people

>One part of me loves being alone, this part of me loves to get away from everything and everyone.

>Feel protected when inside my room

Those are pretty much my reasons i guess what are your reasons /hikki/??.

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f633a8 No.1082

>>1077

>>1070

I'm tired of it. All of it. I don't know how others endure do it every day. I'm trying hard to not lose my sanity. I just woke up and I don't feel like doing anything and yet I gotta do something because I'm afraid to lose it. Knowing that you're nothing, a fucking loser in this world is tremendously depressing. Everything I do, it falters. Everything. I don't blame the people because they are fucking people. I actually blame myself for becoming like this. It is my fault that I end up with this lifestyle. I didn't bring myself to do what it is needed to be done and I make a lot of stupid shit excuses. But I don't care anymore. I feel like it's all too late for me. I'm gonna be 30 years old in a couple of months and I hate to go for another year with this lifestyle and I hate try and try to get back into the society when failure will just be at my door for sure. Fuck life. Fuck this universe. Fuck this reality.


642a28 No.1086

>>1081

>what does he try to prove in this lecture?

That we as a species are social creatures and are not meant to be isolated for a long time.


642a28 No.1096

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>>1077

> I can't stand it when I just want to have a normal conversation, and all the other person can do is water down every topic with fucking jokes and internet memes. It's impossible to have a real, meaningful conversation these days.

Tell me about it i absolutely agree with you anon it's like people have forgotten how to have normal conversation, and instead think everything is a fucking joke these days.

>I attended college a year and a half ago, (I fell right back into the hikki life after gradutation) and although my classes only lasted for a few hours, it was still incredibly exhausting being around a group of people for that long. I end up putting all of my energy into looking inconspicuous, trying to hide in plain sight so no one notices me or tries to talk to me.

I was kinda in a similar situation in late 2012- early 2013 i tried to get out of the hikki life by going to college and trying to make something of myself in the beginning i was doing pretty well for myself at the time hell even made a couple friends and got a gf as well but college work was stressful and caused me a lot of anxiety sometimes i would leave the class and go hide in the bathroom or just sit on the stairs and just think like why the hell am i even doing this?? and in the background people and life kept fucking me over at the time my friends i made at the time did eventually abandon me and my parents were angry with me for not having a job and i told them i was gonna try and find one after i finish college but they weren't pleased with that and thus lots more drama was happening in my family home hell i remember this one time they told me i wasn't a very good person to live with so with college work being stressful and my family drama at home taking its toll on me i dropped out and went back to hikki life and withdrew from society once more and shortly after that my gf at the time cheated on me so that was over i really tried to change my life around and instead all i got was shit thrown back in my face i completely rePost too long. Click here to view the full text.


746af3 No.1117

>>1086

meh

nothing new for me


642a28 No.1160

>>1117

>meh

>nothing new for me

Same




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91cee7 No.561[Reply]

So this has happened to me many times before.

>Leave room for a second to go use the bathroom

>Cross paths with family member in the hallway

>Get scolded for being a failure

>Go back to room

>Mad with rage

Has this ever happened to any other hikkis before??.

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121c94 No.590

>>587

My mom never went to college, she married dad instead and they ended up divorcing. She's convinced that her life would be perfect if only she had gone to college, so she vowed to never let her kids make that "mistake". Pushed my sister to go to Uni, even picked the Uni for her to go to and the country for her to move to, and now she's pushing me to go to Uni too. I'm just going to move out as soon as the opportunity arises, can't stand her.


91cee7 No.593

>>587

>I find myself wondering why everything I try fails,

Same

>I been holding my true feelings in for so long, because I didn't want to burn bridges with my parents and especially my mom, because she's the only source of love in my life despite sabotaging me every step of the way.

I can relate


91cee7 No.594

>>588

>At least his gf dumpped him because she clearly wanted to be fucked because she was flirting with me and my brothers while having my brother touch her, but I shut her down, fucking bitch… but jew-christianity says that sex can't happen before marriage lolololololol so she dumped him

She sounds like a slut.


91cee7 No.597

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>>590

Not saying do this but hypothetically if that was me in your situation i would tell her to fuck off move out cut her out of my life completely and just go back to being a hikki but that's just me i don't know about you?.


071d62 No.1116

>>588

>she was flirting with me

You lucky bastard. Maybe you're a Chad deep down and don't realize it.




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