No.241126
Lots of anons post about how they're feeling sad or how they don't have a boyfriend. So you can post about that kind of stuff here if you want! You should also try to cheer everyone in this thread up. That'd be nice.
No.251857
Well yesterday I burned some bridges.
Like a lot of bridges.
Had a painful conversation with my father about my name change.
I'm an emotional wreck who often thinks people don't like him, this is such a problem for me and I want to only be liked by the people that I like.
I threw a literal tantrum burning these bridges.
A fucking tantrum.
It sometimes gets harder and harder to tell myself I'm worth someone's time, sometimes.
I wanted to cry.
Stupid things get to me.
I don't know what's wrong with me.
I hope when I get a boyfriend he understands, and tries to be cool with it.
It's not like I'll hide it that my emotions get the best of me.
As I get older I just feel like I'm becoming a parody of myself.
No.251876
>tfw crush casually tells you about his recent, drunken trip to the strip club and how he should do it again
No.251877
>anons making me feel bad about the race I was born
>make me feel like i lost the genetic lottery
i.. really don't agree. you can be a cuteboi no matter what race you are.
No.251904
>>251877
That's the spirit!
No.251912
>>251566
It's a good feel
>>251877
What race are you? I find all of them attractive
No.251939
>>251877
asian > white > "white" > spanish hispanic > those islander fags > mexican spanish > arabic > black > native american > POO IN THE LOO indian
Just saiyan.
No.251941
>drifting into depression again
>still lonely as ever
>school keeps going downhill
but hey i've lost 10kg since new year, maybe i wont die fat and alone but instead just alone
No.251997
>>251640
ikr
the socks make it not gay,
hence it's not gay
hence her is the actual correct terminology
It's 2016 bruh. 2-0-1-6.
No.252001
>>251939
>implying indians can't be cute
No.252004
>>251941
>maybe i wont die fat and alone but instead just alone
Small victories anon.
No.252005
>>252001
implying words define human beings
No.252008
I'm about 90% sure this qt I work with is gay/bi. I really want to approach him but I don't know how. What should I do?
im scared and have never been with anyone before
No.252043
I'll throw it out there.
I'm /pol/ and /fit/ as fuck. I was raised that feelings are for girls and that calling someone a fag meant you were ready to fight them.
When I was growing up in the 90's I was constantly getting into fights with my classmates, mostly because my family situation sucked and I was angry. I found out early that if I followed around some shrimp kid, and then when someone else picked on him I stepped in and picked a fight with his bully, I wouldn't get into trouble. I got into a ton of fights and actually got praised for it. Then I met him. He was a nice kid, but he was a little really gay. Back then I didn't realize it, but yeah he was gay. We became friends because that meant I'd get to fight highschoolers in middle school, and it meant he didn't get stuffed in a garbage can.
He was a great friend for two years. He used to bake cookies with his mom and bring them to me to thank me. He'd share his lunch with me when my mom was too drunk to pack me a lunch. He used to complain that his bookbag was too heavy, so I'd carry it as sort of a macho thing. A week before the 8th grade dance, he pulled me into an empty classroom at lunch. He told me that he really liked me, and wanted to go to the dance with me. And then he kissed me.
I beat the crap out of him, and he transferred schools. I heard later that he killed himself a year later. I feel bad about what I did to him, and I miss him. He was one of the few people who were nice to me growing up.
If I could do it all over, I would have taken him to the dance.
No.252060
>>251939
damn, you're racist as fuck.
No.252065
>>252043
Really weird, this story made me instantly cry. Yeah, really. It must be because I had a crush on a guy and I was never able to talk about it openly. Moreover, I hated myself because of it, tried to kill myself, etc.
But it happens. Shit happens. Just try to free yourself from this prision of the past,.
No.252071
>>252065
Sorry about the tears. Glad you didn't succeed at killing yourself. Shit happens, and it sucks. I still miss him though. It was nice having someone who was sweet like that to me; he didn't deserve that.
No.252123
>>251002
Steer the conversation towards gay rights, and see what their opinions are.
If they seem supportive of them, carefully and nonthreateningly ask if theyre gay/bi.
Good luck anon!
No.252147
>>252123
I'm a huge fag, and I'd be very very annoyed if someone tried talking to me about gay rights. Really dumb thing to do I think. Gay rights activists are generally very unpleasant to be around.
No.252165
>>252147
Well you guys have gay marriage, if the subject comes up, and they did not react in a very negative way to it, that may help as an indicator.
I'm certainly not suggesting being one of those "YOU HAVE TO ACCEPT ME OR YOU'RE A HOMOPHOBE" weirdos.
No.252175
>>252165
That's the thing, though. I'm against gay marriage.
No.252190
>>252175
That doesn't make a whole lot of sense. Like as a faggot myself I don't see why I should get any privileges beyond what a straight couple gets but any arguments about respecting the sanctity of marriage are kind of silly given how much straight people have abused that shit.
Like I get how people tooting the horn for gay rights can be obnoxious but being here and thinking that is just fuckin weird.
No.252193
>tfw I just want a tall buff bf to cuddle with at night
No.252194
>>252190
>but any arguments about respecting the sanctity of marriage are kind of silly given how much straight people have abused that shit.
Saying that makes about as much sense as:
>but any arguments about the morality of murdering someone are kind of silly given how many crazy people have killed people
No.252211
>>252194
Ya know, actually I agree with this argument.
No.252226
>>252194
That's a false equivalency. Nobody is getting hurt in a consenting marriage between two adults.
No.252242
>>252226
>That's a false equivalency.
It's not.
>Nobody is getting hurt in a consenting marriage between two adults.
Completely irrelevant. Literally nothing to do with the point.
No.252265
How do I learn to stop hating myself and being ashamed of who I am so that I can make friends and have an intimate relationship?
No.252270
No.252272
>>252265
Just bee yourself ;)
Seriously though I have no idea. I just take adderall when I get those feelings.
No.252275
>>252270
How do I do that?
No.252279
>>252242
>It's not.
Oh well, our mistake. Guess you're right then, anon.
>Completely irrelevant. Literally nothing to do with the point.
A point was raised comparing gay marriage to crazies killing. Dismissing it as retarded because they're not even remotely on the same level isn't irrelevant.
For the record, Canada anon is right. You don't get to shit all over marriage with things like shotgun weddings, frivilous Vegas marriages and widespread divorce rates, only to then act like it's exclusive and special when other consenting adults want in.
No.252280
>>252279
>A point was raised comparing gay marriage to crazies killing.
A point was raised explaining how you can't just say something isn't wrong just because there are people who do it anyway. I'm sorry if you were too stupid to understand such a simple argument and had to insert your crazy bullshit into it to fit your autistic narrative.
No.252282
>>252280
>A point was raised explaining how you can't just say something isn't wrong just because there are people who do it anyway.
Bees work hard at making honey. Since it's wrong to steal an old lady's purse, it's therefore morally dubious to be a beekeeper because tactically stealing honey is wrong. You see how comparing barely relevant shit to make moral points is silly?
>I'm sorry if you were too stupid to understand such a simple argument and had to insert your crazy bullshit into it to fit your autistic narrative.
There is no need to be upset.
No.252283
>>252282
>doesn't understand a simple argument
>complains about it not being relevant
>proceeds to make irrelevant arguments about it
You're a lost cause, friend.
No.252286
>>252194
You could have just said that you don't agree with all the silly stuff straight people do with marriage instead of making a silly metaphor.
>>252226
That was not his point.
>>252280
There is no need to be rude. You will not convince anyone of anything by insulting them.
>>252282
>>252283
This is sadness thread not debate thread. Post your emails and kiss and cuddle and stuff privately if you cannot be civil.
No.252291
>>252286
>silly metaphor
There was nothing 'silly' about it, though. It was an extremely simple comparison.
The argument was already over; I gave up on him. I don't know why you responded to it.
No.252292
>>252291
I was a little late to the party and I didn't know if one of you would continue it. I should also probably set a precedent maybe. I am sorry for calling your metaphor silly please do not yell at me.
No.252295
>>252292
It's okay admin I still love you.
No.252337
>>252193
buff buff or is musclefat kay?
No.252392
>>252275
I've yet to figure out that myself, but good luck
No.252402
>>252337
I personally don't like fat or chubby but that's just my taste
No.252404
>Qt friend of mine gets attached to women super easily
>Always ends with them leading him on until they reveal that they were never interested in him to begin with because lol womyn
>Doesn't even like women or anything about them
>Only really likes anal
>Like/has liked CWD, which means he's open to the idea of fucking something with a dick
>Theoretically he should be gay as the day is long
>Gets rejected again yesterday
>Jokingly for the most part hit on him with as much bad pick-up lines as I can muster
>Takes it really personally even though I'm clearly messing with him and calls me a faggot
Why do straights have to be so mean and stupid?
No.252405
>>252404
he's feeling rejected and your solution is to mock him and tell him you want to fuck him, and then you're mad at him when he reacts poorly?
No.252406
>>252405
No, my "solution" was to get him to lighten up for a minute and not be so gloomy over people he didn't have a chance with in the first place.
No.252412
>tfw youre black and /cb/ is /fgtpol/
No.252416
>>252412
Hey bby, I'm a profligate degenerate, wanna make america great again with me?
No.252419
>>252412
Holy fuck, that feel. However, I've posted a few images of myself and have gotten nothing but positive responses but it still kinda gets to me how much this board is like /pol/ and kinda makes me self-conscious to post pictures of myself anymore.
No.252427
>>252412
>>252419
The /pol/ people are a vocal minority imo. Unfortunately they swarm on political topics and derail threads but I think that most people on this board aren't like that.
No.252428
>>252427
Yeah, the more I browse on here is the more I realize that they only take up a small portion of this board.
No.252430
>>252428
I think it's rational for a lot of people to be honest with what they are attracted to here, and I think that most people who are here are attracted to effeminate white guys.
Sure, it sucks for people who were born with darker skin and grew up to have masculine features, but that is the way the cookie crumbles. There is nothing /pol/ about sexual preference.
I can say that I really, really am not attracted to Indians, Arabs, Blacks, mudslimes etc… because me and a lot of other people just find them repulsive
Call it /pol/ if you want idgaf, I'm just attracted to what I am
No.252431
>>252430
I think it's more like "i am not attracted to filthy dindus" than it is something along the lines of "I find effeminate white guys more attractive than black guys", which I am sure is just people trying to be funny than it is them actually being /pol/.
Nothing wrong with preference, and believe me, I get irritated when people give me shit for not being romantically/aesthetically attracted to my own race. It ain't /pol/ to find a race more aesthetically/romantically attracted to the next.
No.252432
>>252431
Sounds like you got a terminal case of hurt feelings
No.252433
No.252456
>>252275
What are the aspects you don't accept about yourself? You have to examine them and come to some conclusion about why you might be wrong.
No.252457
>18
>still living at with parents
>been feeling extremely depressed these past few months
>always felt like I just kind of annoyed my family so I've just kind of spent all my spare time in my room these past few months
>it's literally the only place I feel comfortable
>just got bitched at by my mom
>she said the whole family thinks im running away from them and that I'm just isolating myself
I can't do anything right. Even when I think I'm doing what feels best for me and what I think would be best for my family, it turns out I'm wrong
No.252477
>>252456
I really hate the fact that I am attracted to guys.
Also I think I'm really annoying, unattractive and a very negative person. I really don't think that anybody would want to be my friend or be around me because I'm so pessimistic and negative, so I wouldn't want to burden them with my crap…
Or something like that
No.252525
>bf lives a million miles away
No.252531
>>252525
which will make your time together all the better
No.252642
>>252337
"musclefat" tends to just be a way for fat people to pretend they're in shape.
No.252649
>>252477
You sound exactly like my aus crush. I really like that he's pessimistic and negative because it makes it much easier to relate to him, so there are definitely people out there who like that.
No.252749
I actually have a real problem and I don't know what to do.
About a month back I was in a really bad place, and went for a really drunk walk, and got into a very "fuck everyone" mindset. Almost immediately after that, I stopped feeling things. Movies and music that I had loved before and would well up these incredible waves of emotion in me just had no impact any more.
Well, life is changing for the better, but my emotional switch is still set to off. Lately it seems to be coming back, but it's more like dull chest pains. It feels like the beginning of an emotion, but I can't really understand it.
Has anyone else had this problem? Is there an easier way to get back in touch with yourself emotionally? This is really frustrating because I'm a writer and all of my projects have been put on hold. Plus I'm dating right now and I'm having so much trouble empathizing and getting close to anyone.
No.252816
>>250512
Did you really have to use that wording? Now I'll have this stuck in my head forever again. Thanks a lot.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g6aa0_s2K80
No.252818
Anybody looking for a boyfriend around Indianapolis? I'll be checking back here tomorrow.
No.252849
>tfw live in the deep south
>tfw no cuteboys within a 100 mile radius
What a curse this is. All I want is someone I can give a deep dicking to every once in a while, but all the other gays in my area are hairy bears.
No.252853
>>252849
Where at in the deep south?
No.252857
>>252855
Ah I live in MS unfortunately
No.252934
>>252855
chris chan lives in virginia
No.252939
>tfw I probably won't die in my sleep tonight
No.252948
>>252939
Wish I was there to snuggle you and make you feel better hun.
No.252951
>>252948
WHY DO I KEEP SEEING HUN BEING USED HERE? I thought it was ironic at first, but I keep seeing it more and more. Either you're an asshole for being so smug and sarcastic as a response, or you're just one of those insufferable tumblr types.
No.252956
>>252948
that's really nice of you to say anon
No.252987
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>>252951
Does this upset you?
No.252990
Well, I just turned 18 today. I posted just about a year ago after turning 17 asking how to get cute (back when the required age was only 17 on this board) but the age got bumped up to 18 and I got underage b& of course
I vowed to spend the rest of the year trying to get cute by the time I was 18. I've lost about 20 pounds but I'm still so fucking far away and now I'm just sad thinking about that and how if I had more conviction, I could be so much farther than I am now. I'm just disappointed with myself now
No.252992
>>252990
20 pounds is pretty decent Anon, keep at it. Don't think about it in terms of your end goal, just keep your mind focused on progress.
No.253009
>>252990
I'm sorry, anon. If I had it my way everyone would be allowed to post but lots of underage anons are dumb as rocks.
Don't get discouraged! I started out all sorts of fat and then I got skinny and then I got plump n' stuff and it was ez-pz. What seems to be the problem? Having a hard time sticking to a diet?
No.253020
>>252992
It is but over the course of a whole year? I'm an ungrateful person. I always want more and can't focus on what I have. It's actually a huge flaw now that I think about it
>>253009
Don't apologize at all admin. You did what you had to and I actually stand by that decision I didn't even hold anything negative about it back then. I remember sending an appeal saying that the rule makes sense and just asking if you could change my ban from March 26, 2016 to March 13, 2016. (I have no idea how though but my ban was actually lifted like 6 months ago after this site's code turned to shit. Don't know if it was a glitch or anything but it still happened and I just wound up lurking in the sadness thread the whole time)
I'll make sure to not get discouraged. My running is going great and I'm doing better with the dieting thing, Still though, I took a break over the summer and winter and I can't help but feel sad over that and how much better i'd be if I didn't get lazy then
No.253024
tfw everyone around me is either a cringey top or a complete nutjob
I can stand having no bf but at this point I just want a friend who's similar to me, and that just doesn't seem possible
No.253030
>>253020
You can lose 5-10 pounds a month, anon! That's just science! You'll get to your target weight in no time.
>>253024
Anything is possible
Except some impossible stuff but your thingy is possible
I promise
No.253068
>>252457
>>252457
Chances are they're just worried about you but too dense to realise that they're anatagonising you. I've been through the same bullshit, unfortunately you can't choose your family and some people are dense and lack empathy.
Just remember that once you move out, you won't have to put up with this bullshit except for occasional holidays (and even they aren't mandatory if you don't mind severing ties).
No.253071
>>253030
Shouldn't I worry about my skin though? I'm (technically) like 50 pounds over weight at my height (5" 3') so if I burned that much weight over a few months, won't that create a lot of excess skin?
No.253074
>>253071
Only obese people get excess skin from super fast weight loss. 5-10 pounds a month is not fast at all. You're also probably not obese.
No.253077
>>253074
Oh, alright, Thanks for the advice admin
No.253172
>>252749
Meditation.
Realize that you are extraordinarily lucky to exist, as many millions of eggs (which would become humans) have their existence literally flushed out on a daily basis.
Your life is rare, so knowing that you should cherish every breath.
No.253175
>tfw I'm way too late to start on hormones and such
I want to, but at this point, I fee like there's no point. I still dress up in girl clothes and try to look as fem as I can, but I know everyone is just making fun of how I look, even though my friends try to tell me I look cute (I know they're just lying)
No.253177
>>253175
Take the hormones, stop putting yourself down, and get a hobby and/or bf.
No.253178
>>253175
It's never too late. It never is.
there's people starting at 30, 40 and even 50 with really good outcomes.
Also, it's not about looking great, it's about looking right to yourself. it's worth it. like no doubts.
in 2 years from now, if you started now, you'd come a very long way, so would you rather wait and loose another 2 years.
You've got nothing to loose dude, everything to gain.
Just go see a doctor ASAP, talk… I don't know. Go to an informed consent clinic. Just get off your chair right now and stop posting.
Buy your pills online. But first go for a blood check to make sure you're healthy (especially liver). Go back after you start.
Also, ignore the edgy comments that are incoming. Do it. No one's going to it for you. No one gives a shit about your happiness.
100mg anti-androgens per day to start. Up to 200mg. 2mg-4mg estrogen. Discontinue any of these if issues. Get counsel
No.253207
>>253178
>It's never too late. It never is.
Great advice!
>in 2 years from now, if you started now, you'd come a very long way, so would you rather wait and loose another 2 years.
Great advice!
>You've got nothing to loose dude, everything to gain.
Great advice!
>Just go see a doctor ASAP, talk… I don't know. Go to an informed consent clinic. Just get off your chair right now and stop posting.
Great advice!
>Buy your pills online.
YOU FUCKED UP.
Playing personal pharmacist is a good way to fuck your shit up, especially if you're buying drugs off the internet like a fucking moron. Yeah you're not going to get a doctor to prescribe a specific medication and correct dosage unless you jump through all the HRT hoops and show that you're really trans, but the alternative is guessing when you have no idea what's right for you specifically.
Even if you were certain you were diabetic but couldn't afford to see a doctor, I'm willing to bet you wouldn't buy insulin and needles off ShadyMike6969 on Ebay and then just take one of the recommended doses because it probably applies to you. That's because it's fucking stupid. Anon is right about doing something about it, but don't listen to his thoughts on needlessly risky stuff.
No.253219
I'm feeling lonely on my birthday. I can't seem to find anyone around me for my 'special' day. Q_Q
No.253220
>>253175
>>253177
>>253178
>>253207
How bout instead of treating hormones like it's a game, you actually look them up and realize it's only for people who are transitioning. They aren't cute pills, they cause imbalances, some of which are irreversible.
Admin, want to do your job?
No.253233
>>253207
I did not.
I presented the full spectrum of possibilities.
Self-medication, which I don't recommend (Drugs ARE dangerous and never to be taken lightly, I agree), was the last one and accordingly was mentioned at the end as a last resort.
Not everyone has the luxury to go through the appropriate channels. This can be for many reasons.
- Lack of access to social care (this in turn can have many reasons)
- Cannot afford to wait another 2 or 3 years depending on country.
There is a balance between going on drugs as soon as possibly, but doing it safely and on the other end letting your mental health deteriorate due to not doing anything about your condition. The American Psy. Association explains really clearly in their latest manual that transition is the solution to treat gender disphoria. It's not a mental disability, but something that must be treated through transition.
Self-medication should ALWAYS be mentioned when talking about hormone treatment.
It's not ideal, it's dangerous (though I have explained how to minimize those risks), but for some, for many (?), it's the only way.
So while you can chastise me from the comfort of your armchair all you want, I'd rather provide an exhaustive overview of possibilities.
**The doses don't apply to me. They're the most usually prescribed. The notice itself recommends not going much beyond.
Below = lack of effects ; above = increased risk**
How cute asking for admin-sama to censor… dats murican freedum for you
No.253237
>>253233
>The American Psy. Association explains really clearly in their latest manual that transition is the solution to treat gender disphoria.
Medical journals also recommend amputating gangrenous appendages before it spreads, but that doesn't mean you grab an axe if you can't find a doctor or qualified professional to do it for you.
>Self-medication should ALWAYS be mentioned when talking about hormone treatment.
I agree, but it's mention should be that it's absolutely not an option.
>It's not ideal, it's dangerous (though I have explained how to minimize those risks), but for some, for many (?), it's the only way.
If it's the only way then you need to knuckle down and get your shit under wraps. The entire reason it's a beaurocratic nightmare and expensive is because it's so dangerous. If your "only way" is to wait it out or do it yourself then you get whatever help you can, suck it up and then wait it out.
>So while you can chastise me from the comfort of your armchair all you want, I'd rather provide an exhaustive overview of possibilities.
Again, if you're actually considering doing it yourself rather than speaking to someone about it or seeking support then you're unbelievably dumb. An exhaustive list will include unviable options, but you sure as shit don't follow with recommended dosages and encouragement if you can't get it otherwise.
>>253220
Nigga did you even read my post?
No.253238
>>253237
>it's absolutely not an option
Tell that to someone living in say, Russia.
No.253241
>>253233
>not a mental disability but needs to be treated
No.253255
>>253241
Yeah… you know. Like when you have a health issue. You go to the doctor, right? Doesn't mean it's a mental disability.
You get help.
No.253258
>>253255
It literally is a mental health issue, though. So yes, that does mean it's a mental disability.
No.253261
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>>253237
It's quite obvious you have no first hand experience with any of this.
Not going to bother. gl
No.253262
>>253238
If you live in Russia and are trans, getting a doctor's prescription is the least of your fucking worries. Popping pills you bought off the internet isn't really a step towards transitioning when you still have the whole "roaming gangs will beat you within an inch of death for being different" thing. At best you look more girly after several months of treatment, at which point all of your friends and family (who could all be equally angry and bigoted) will probably figure you out and you start the whole lynchmob roulette again.
It's really not a fair comparison anyway. Just because other people have it harder doesn't give you free license to make the same moronic choices. Just because Russian trannies have more troubles doesn't justify them pumping suspicious stuff into their body.
No.253263
No.253268
>>253261
You're right, I have no firsthand experience if you're talking about making dumb fucking decisions. Don't know why I'm bothering either tbh, if "feelies before realies" is more important that doing shit correctly and seeking professional help, then knock yourself out. If it's so important that you'd sooner risk fucking your entire life and body up irreparably because I WANT IT NOW then good luck.
Just be sure to choose your wardrobe carefully. Clearly you don't give a fuck about damaging your liver, and I imagine jaundiced skin probably clashes with certain colours.
No.253359
>>253219
And everyone ignored me as usual. Have fun people.
No.253363
>>253359
I assumed it was a "I want to hop on a dick" kind of comment, and I avoid those types of people. Sorry if it wasn't. Where do you live?
No.253387
I'm on Prozac now, only been feeling worse. It's making me a lot harder to cum too
No.253393
>>253387
How long have you been taking it for? I took it for about 8 months and it had the same effect, despite my doctor telling me I should have seen improvements in my mood a few weeks in.
No.253401
>>253387
>>253393
Is Prozac an antidepressant? I've literally never met anyone who said antidepressants worked. It's always either they do nothing or they make everything a shitload worse and actually push people to suicide.
No.253409
>>253219
>>253359
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANON! HOPE YOU HAD A MAGICAL DAY! I say that unironically or without being shitty, I honestly feel the need to compensate for nobody being nice to you. I hope you still had a good day and find a qt to share your next one with. :3
>>253393
All I can suggest is talking to your doctor, hopefully he can figure out an alternative or suggest a better dose.
>>253401
>Is Prozac an antidepressant?
It can be used as one, but as far as I know it's kind of a wonderdrug; one of my buddies was recently put on it as he has epilepsy (among other things) and it can apparently make it more managable and comes with milder side-effects compared to other drugs.
>I've literally never met anyone who said antidepressants worked.
Problem is that they mostly come with side-effects and other nasty issues, which is why people have to trial different ones; it can even become a game of weighing "new health problems caused by the pills" against "how awful your mental health issues get without pills" too. Of course, it doesn't help that aim of medication is to just restore normalcy and make it manageable (i.e. not turn you into one of those irritating people who are chipper first thing in the morning) which is presumably why so many people give up on meds.
No.253431
>>253401
Nah, that's because people stop taking them out of nowhere. If you start taking ADs, you can't just suddenly stop. It will make you suicidal. They also take too long to work. Around 4 weeks
No.253469
>feeling constantly sick
>no energy
>been happening for months
I hope that I can just die in my sleep.
No.253471
No.253487
>>253471
I don't consume sugary foods or drinks
No.253493
>>253469
Take stims. Look up stim stacks, but I don't use that shit so I'm not sure about that stuff. I just take adderall when I feel like I have no energy and just want to lie in bed all day feeling like shit. After taking it, I tend to feel pretty fucking great.
No.253495
I've been growing more body hair lately ;_;
No.253498
>>253493
It's a malaise that I'm fairly sure is indicative of a worse problem. If it's something bad I wouldn't have the money to deal with it, so whats the point in even bothering to get it checked out?
I'd rather kill myself than burden my family and let them watch me slowly die.
No.253541
No.253544
No.253644
>Be 21 and officially done with girls
>All girls I know are just awful and even when I get to meet and date new people they end up being shit.
>Desperately spiral into loneliness, but whatever it isn't so bad. I'm a pretty self driven person.
>See /cuteboys/ one day and decide that maybe I can try to get in on this
>Begin losing weight, want to go full skeleton + ass mode
>Come to crippling realization I don't like butt-stuff after trying it
>S-Surely there are cuteboys that just want cuddles and dick-sucks right?
>Right?
>Bad Acne and scarring from sunburn holding me back
>Slowly begin to loosen the reigns on myself.
>Stuck in gay limbo
>Help
No.253823
>>253393
I've been taking them for about a week now. Granted, they said I'll only start noticing them after 3 weeks.
>>253401
I really hope they work. I want to be able to properly finish college for fucks sake.
No.253964
No.253983
>>253971
>I hate saying that I'm gay, i hate the community, i hate everything about LGBT people.
I think what you actually hate is being a faggot. You can be gay without being a faggot. Faggots are the PRIDEfag types.
>boyfriend that says he loves me and i say i love him too but secretly i hate him
O-oh…
No.253997
>>253983
Nope i hate both gay and faggots, like there is a difference anyways.
No.254009
Oh who am i kidding. I dont hate my bf.
I just hate myself and everything that i am.
No.254045
>>253997
>>254009
Well, I'm genuinely curious, why are continuing your relationship with your bf? It seems really wrong to lead him on like youre doing.
No.254493
>tfw acne scars because you were retarded when you hit puberty and kept picking at them
feels bad
No.254495
>>254493
I picked mine all the time and no scars. Do you people just violently dig into your skin and rip it apart or what?
No.254497
>>254495
Maybe it's like a genetic thing. Like your skin cells have an easier time regenerating or something like that. I've seen people with way worse acne scaring and really, mine would probably fall under the mild category but it still sucks
No.254514
>getting closer to graduation
>I have contact with others, but no real friendships
>everyone I get close to quickly loses interest and ignores me for no apparent reason, even if we share common interests
>everythingless virgin
>tried to meet up with someone on here once, didn't work out
>don't know a single non-straight in real life
>growing increasingly apathetic of my peers and their trivial, mundane conversational topics
>at this point I've convinced myself that I'm not interested in any of them, and I honestly can't tell if this is the truth or I'm just deluding myself
>fear that once I meet someone I am interested in, the relationship will follow the same trajectory it always has with others in the past
I don't see any way in which I could improve my situation, and the fact that I should really be studying more than anything at the moment doesn't help.
No.254550
Is there a Teamspeak/Mumble server where I can train my social skills?
No.254560
>>254550
you could always talk to randos on omegle
No.254563
>>254514
idk I enjoyed reading this
imo your best bet is to become a sissy for "real men" or finding an "affectionate daddy"
jokes aside, I especially liked the sperging about finding most conversations "trivial, mundane".
what are you graduating in?
tell us more, this seems interesting
angst is cool and I enjoy it, but it will only get you so far… You should put yourself out there if you're serious about finding someone.
like what are your hobbies and stuff.
what do you like in someone
No.254586
>>254563
I'm finishing high school - for some reason, it's still called graduation in my school. After taking a gap year, I'm planning on studying machine learning and automation. I wrote a paper on artificial neural networks, neuromorphic approaches to machine learning like that really interest me, so as hobbies and interests I'd say programming, pentesting, vidya, 3d animation and simulation, RC-flight, reading and sometimes swimming, cycling and paintball. In my school, most people are more on the sporty side of things and don't seem too interested in non-sport endeavours.
Just "putting myself out there" could prove to be difficult, as I will be confined to my school until graduation, and after that I wouldn't even know what I could do at all; without a pre-existing social network, it is extremely difficult to just get to meet new people, I imagine.
When it comes to what I like in someone, of course it's nice to have congruent interests as it will make conversations significantly easier and more interesting, but I actually have a pretty hard time thinking of what it actually is that the people I like have while those that I don't lack.
No.254601
So what does /cuteboys/ think of this. Frankly it's enough to totally scare me away. These freaks give anyone who supports same-sex intimacy a mark for death.
No.254605
>>253178
>It's never too late.
Kinda is unless you're going to have surgery. Your bones fuse between 20-25. Meaning you're stuck with the male structure. You can still move fat around sure. But you'll just look like a manly woman.
No.254615
>>254601
Avoid casual sex, clubs, and do bring your own condom and put it on yourself. Seriously, there are reasons beyond not wanting to be a whore why casual sex isn't a good idea. You put yourself in more potential situarions where you meet bug chasers, rapists, and other degnerarates when you have casual sex.
No.254617
>>254601
It's a small minority of gay people, in the same way that flag waving PRIDEfags are.
Just make sure you wear a condom, if you're going to bareback then get tested. Also just don't have lots of casual sex for the sake of your mental and physical health.
No.254618
>>254615
Well I'm not into causal sex. How many dates until it's not considered causal? 10?
No.254622
>no cuteboy to go skiing with
No.254630
>>254622
>tfw all the snow melted
No.254672
>>254601
im really scared and confused
why would you want that
No.254675
>>254672
Is it real, tho? I don't think it is.
No.254676
>>254601
bring your own condoms
practice monogamy
No.254679
>>254675
I hope it isnt
Otherwise I would be too scared to look for a bf
No.254682
>>254679
Even if it is real, do what >>254676 said.
Bring your own condoms.
No.254698
>>254601
I love reading these. Sluts getting what they deserve. Fucking whores.
No.254707
>>254698
Really? Is not like the wanted it. They were preyed upon.
No.254731
>>254707
>its not like they wanted it
Too bad. Maybe they shouldn't have been sluts sleeping with people they don't know if they didn't want bad things to happen to them.
No.254733
>>254707
>its not like they wanted it
Too bad. Maybe they shouldn't have been sluts sleeping with people they don't know if they didn't want bad things to happen to them.
No.254734
>>254731
That's unnecessarily harsh. They aren't the ones literally poisoning people with HIV. They're using condoms and they're having consensual sex. They're being safe.
No.254737
>>254734
There is no safety without monogamy
No.254738
>>254734
Yeah nah, fuck off slut apologist. It brings me great pleasure hearing about their lives being ruined. They deserve it for being such disgusting whores.
No.254740
>>254731
But what about the guy who got raped?
>>254737
How can you be sure that your partner is monogamous?
>>254738
Jesus Christ man, you have some problems.
No.254741
>having a great day so far
>get a request to join a Skype call with a cool dude from here who I haven't chatted with in a few days
>added to the chat just to get kicked out so they can all have a laugh
Well, dang.
No.254744
>>254740
>How can you be sure that your partner is monogamous?
Don't date sluts
No.254757
>>254741
Easily fixed, don't bother with him and his ilk anymore. If you're ever the butt of pathetic jokes like that then don't expect it to change cause it isn't. Some people don't grow out of the retarded twelve-year-old epic troll mentality for some reason.
Trust me, there's plenty of people who'll be your friend without doing that whole "don't be such a baby it's just a prank!" bullshit to get a reaction from you.
No.254786
>>253262
It depends on intent, not number of dates.
But not on the first date is best.
No.254789
>>254738
HOW DARE THEY LIVE THEIR LIVES HOW THEY WANT TO DESPITE YOUR DISAPPROVAL. AIDS AND DEATH IS TOO MILD FOR THEM, ESPECIALLY THE ONES WHO GET RANDOMLY RAPED.
>>254744
Good advice. As we all know, committed married people never get tired of their relationship and cheat. Only openly slutty people do that.
I swear this board is full of such elitist spastics. Why do you care so intensely upset about people you don't have to deal with?INB4 slut accusations, actually social retard who somehow has more sense that you people.
No.254813
>>254789
>As we all know, committed married people never get tired of their relationship and cheat.
If the two of you aren't ready to be completely committed to the other for the rest of your lives don't get married.
>Why do you care so intensely upset about people you don't have to deal with?
>Although MSM represent about 4% of the male population in the United States, in 2010, MSM accounted for 78% of new HIV infections among males and 63% of all new infections.
http://www.cdc.gov/hiv/statistics/overview/ataglance.html
That's fucking why.
No.254998
>>254740
>>254789
The guy who got legit raped is the only one who isn't at fault here. I'd feel sorry for that guy if the stories were true, but I'd be overwhelmed with satisfaction if the others were true.
>HOW DARE THEY LIVE THEIR LIVES HOW THEY WANT TO DESPITE YOUR DISAPPROVAL.
Yeah pretty much. What happened to them is a direct consequence of their decisions to be sluts, so yes they deserve it.
No.255004
> loose virginity at 12
> 10 sexual partners by age 16
> clubbing
> gay bars
> drunken sex
> 30+ sexual partners by age 23
> no condoms cause
> grinder
> switch
> "play partners" cause already bored with life at 23
be a normal fag
never a day in my life
No.255006
>>255004
Are you making fun of sickening excuses for human life, or are you saying you are one?
No.255011
>>255004
Geez.
>>255006
I think it's bait to get to you.
No.255014
>>255011
How would that be bait, exactly? It's like taking a bath in a septic tank and then saying "HAH I BAITED YOU INTO BEING DISGUSTED!"
No.255016
>>255014
>It's like taking a bath in a septic tank and then saying "HAH I BAITED YOU INTO BEING DISGUSTED!"
Not really. If it's bait he didn't really do it, he just said he did to get a reaction (and it clearly worked cause you seem pretty upset). The trick is to not respond, dummy.
No.255069
lol a lot of you losers sound miserable because you haven't gotten laid enough
No.255070
>>255069
Oh my god, really? I had no idea. How insightful! You should be a therapist, holy shit. That's some real good help right there.
No.255078
>>255069
i'd rather only have sex with someone I love a lot. I could have random sex like a lot of other anons here if I wanted, but I don't, because I prefer to wait.
sounds awful huh…
I'm all for "sex positive attitudes" and all that other stuff, but don't try to pass mindless hedonistic fuckery for progress… There's a lot of dignity in waiting and only giving yourself to select people.
truthfully, i have little sympathy for people who engage in those activities and their motivations are foreign to me. I feel sorry
No.255097
>>255078
That was a fucking excellent post anon.
No.255102
>>255078
Good post, Finland.
No.255216
All I've been able to feel for the past week is extreme self hatred, loneliness and being unfulfilled. I haven't been able to get suicide out of my head and I don't know what to do about it. I would never actually do it, but I can't stop thinking about it and it's really starting to hurt my morale.
No.255219
>>255216
Well, what has you feeling down?
No.255221
>>255219
It's not really one thing in-particular but just mounting pressure and regret over how my life has been going so far.
I've always hated myself because of how I'm not really that attractive as well as how I used to act (I was a cringy edgelord). It doesn't help that I was bullied in my formative years which has always made me think I'm worthless. I feel lonely because I've never had a relationship and can't picture anyone liking me (which feeds into the self hatred). And I feel unfulfilled because of my lack of ambition.
No.255231
it seems my day cant get any worse,first my boyfriend of a year and a bit breaks off and then my cat dies…..
i really don't know why i even try and keep on living
No.255241
>>241126
Not sad but eh a little scared. Played with my prostate a couple months ago, felt amazing almost came. But I pushed quite hard for it to feel good, now it kinda feels weird in my ass region etc etc.
No.255254
>>255231
Well… At least you had a bf.
No.255467
>>251857
hey iktf
i just fucked up biiiiig
i fuuuucked up beeeeaaaaad vewy vewwy beeeaaaad
i was a vewy naughty boy oooh naughty boys must be punished
OWwIE!!!
No.255468
No.255478
>>252412
Black dudes are cute. But Im from an area where most young black guys are obnoxious assholes who can get pretty violent, so maybe others are in the same position and going based off that. But I wish I had a polite, sweet qt black bf.
No.255563
>have nice cute guy interested in me
>he's kinda cool
>still can't stop seeing him as a silver medal compared to my straight friend who will never love me
This doesn't really feel fair to him, but I can't help it. Not sure what to do about it.
No.255565
>>255478
Black is gross. Even tan white guys are gross. Pale white is the only true master race.
No.255660
>>255478
> Im from an area where most young black guys are obnoxious assholes who can get pretty violent
you mean planet earth?
No.255704
>>255078
weird that this is the opposition movement nowadays, huh?
No.255743
Mods are being mean to me in the tinychat. I just wanted to jerk off with someone, didn't even yet post the link to my chat room and they started saying "fuck you," "don't use this to promote your own shitty chat," etc. I'm sad now.
No.255750
No.255814
>>255563
you need to spend more time with him. he'll eventually take the gold medal, so long as he keeps his coolness.
you eventually forget the perfect straight guys, but only when you substitute them with other people. this cute guy interested in you could be that guy, if you're willing to let him be.
No.255840
>Meet someone online
>Share a lot of the same interests and kinks
>Decide to keep in contact
>Gushes over me for several weeks
>Suddenly decides never to talk to me again
This happens over, and over, and over. Can anyone here please explain this bizarre phenomenon?
I am so fucking fed up with this manipulative shit I am officially 1000% Done.
No.255842
>he likes me
>a lot
>ofc online because every boy I have to crush on is a foreigner
>despite me being a NEET and he's in charge of a tech startup at 25
>he tells me every day how cute I am
>feels good
>then come to realization that he's popular with the girls, he has social skills and a very bright future
>I'm just some NEET thousands of miles away
>get depressed at this for some reason
>realize that most likely nothing will ever come of this E-fling and that. I don't deserve him
>balance between being a giddy motherfucker because a guy likes me and a depressed piece of shit because I know I have a giant crush on a guy an ocean away and the chances of anything happening before he picks up a boy/girl actually near him are very high
This is the second time I've done this. I just need to stop.
No.255846
Saw a qt3.14 to die for yesterday. We both locked eyes for a really long time, but I was too much of a coward to say anything. I hate being like this.
No.255931
>>255842
But being rich makes it more likely he'd actually fly to meet you.
No.255999
>>255814
Part of the problem is probably that I'm still holding out hope that the "straight" friend has interest. He's proven himself to not be entirely straight already, but I'm not sure if I should just go ahead and ask him and risk the friendship. I've been trying to make it painfully obvious I'm into him lately, but he hasn't really responded. Not sure if he's just ignoring it, is too scared to act on it, or if he's just too dumb to realize. The 'too dumb' thing is a very real possibility actually.
No.256125
When you realize the majority of people you know moved on and don't give a shit about you anymore. I've been feeling so fucking lonely lately and that there's no one I can talk to about it. I feel so fucking isolated from everyone that it's driving me insane
No.256154
>>251552
I emailed you a couple days ago about being in Louisiana, too. I don't know if you ever got it.
Please respond ;____;
No.256176
>>241126
>tfw this used to be for cute boys but its all men now
No.256204
>>255840
Think it's the same "Honeymoon Phase" that you get in IRL relationships. What starts as puppy love and wild excitement turns stale once it becomes routine, and the cutting contact is probably just chan stuff (i.e. autistic and unwilling to have a hard conversation). It's my guess from it anyway, I tend to be on either side of it with about 90% of my online relationships.
>>255842
It's working and he likes you. Stop overthinking it and try to stop worrying about it.
>>256125
Sorry to be the bearer of bad news, but it happens often and it is a common part of getting older. Unless you actively chase people and try to stay in touch, people just move on even if they say all that "Make sure to write!" schtick; even if you get an amazing friend, if they get relationship they'll have to ration their time with you. Best plan is to just keeping making more friends, internet or IRL, and remember that since you're either bi or gay you have a much better chance of settling down with your best friend.
>>256176
>This isn't a special club just for me anymore A BLOO BLOO BLOO
Grow up faggot, nobody is making you go to threads you don't want to see and they have zero impact on you other than you have to scroll a little more sometimes.
No.256241
I just thought about killing myself. The act of actually throwing myself off a bridge or in front of a train, drinking bleach, hanging myself or doing any of that and I realized that I would never be able to do something so permanent to myself. But then I realized that there's no fucking exit. I'm stuck with this shitty life and there's nothing I can do about it. Holy fuck, I felt better knowing there's a way out but now everything feels worse.
No.256321
>>255999
yeah that's certainly a problem. are you certain that confessing to him would ruin the friendship? i've done that with several of my straight friends who i crushed on over the years and we still remained bros, but there's a similar number who broke off all contact entirely. if you two are good enough friends, telling the truth might not break anything at all. still, it will make some things awkward, i suppose.
or you could just get him drunk and see what happens, but that's sort of rapey. do what you think is best.
No.256548
>>256241
I can relate. Are you seeing anyone regarding these thoughts? A doctor or a counsellor?
No.256549
>>256241
What don't you like about your life?
No.256550
>>256548
I've been talking to a counselor for a bit now. I haven't been entirely open about my thoughts on suicide however. I can't talk to them until April anyways.
>>256549
Everything more or less. I hate my body, my face, I feel like everybody abandons me for someone they like more, I've never been in a relationship and can't see myself getting one.
No.256565
I got into a serious romantic relationship with a cute boy I met on here about six months ago. We shared a lot of similar interests, goals, feelings (depression, anxiety), and dreams, but we also didn't share the same viewpoints on everything which made things interesting. We weren't perfect for each other, but we definetly thought we were a good match so we decided to pursue our relationship. It got to the point where he would tell me nightly that he loved me and was the only person who ever convinced me to open up to him (since I am a very reserved person). He was the only person in my life that I trusted, so naturally I was okay with him going to hang out with friends and being away for me for very extended periods of time (even if he wouldn't tell me where he was going).
Yesterday he messaged me on Skype saying that he had sex with his curious """ straight""" friend, whom he is really good friends with, and said he wanted to break things off to pursue that relationship. He also admitted that he liked him way more than me for our entire relationship. I feel a mix of emotions. They are mainly angry emotions because of self hatred due to being so stupid as to allow myself to open up/ make myself vulnerable to being hurt when, in my experience, every time I do I wind up getting hurt.
I'm also mad at my now ex for leading me on. I can understand if we were a casual thing and not in a dedicated romantic relationship that there would be nothing wring with him breaking things off to be with his now bf. But he convinced me to open up to him regardless of how much I didn't want to do so, and he convinced me that I could feel safe around him. So to just break off a relationship where you cause the person to think you love each other only to tell them you were second place (if even) to someone else feels horrible. I feel like shit. I feel like my soul has been ripped from my body and stomped on. I don't really have much words besides that.
Sorry for the cringey walls of text. I have a lot on my mind.
No.256575
>he had sex with his curious """ straight""" friend, whom he is really good friends with, and said he wanted to break things off to pursue that relationship
Wow he's so stupid. I bet that 'curious straight guy' has a gf and just wants a 'fem twink' to fuck on the side like most of them do. But I wouldn't be surprised if your ex-bf was into that
No.256580
>>256565
> and said he wanted to break things off to pursue that relationship
I thought effeminate twink boys being attracted to masculine straight men was a meme only straight guys who jack it to traps believed
Welp, I'm gonna go hit the gym, play some sports and drink Stella you girly little fuccbois, oo-rah
No.256590
No.256595
>>256575
I've met the guy before, he doesn't have a gf.
>>256590
I lol'd, but I doubt its him unless he lives in the South in America.
No.256603
>>256154
I guess that was a problem?
No.256631
No.256643
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>>256565
it's NOT cringy. it's better to talk about it as opposed to keeping it all for yourself.
Talking helps a lot. It's pretty therapeutic.
There's 2 sides to every relationship. Try to put yourself in your ex's shoes. I'm sure he isn't as evil as you may think. Maybe there were things that weren't perfect for him. Maybe those things were becoming harder to overlook.
It could also be that you were more dependent on him or the relationship than he was. Being clingy is and never will be attractive.
It's the nature of love. You open yourself and make yourself vulnerable as a consequence. That's the contract.
At least he told you right away about having sex with someone else. That's more than you can expect these days.
I can relate to what you're going through pretty well and the answer is that time heals all wounds. Gotta give it time.
It's part of the process of maturing and becoming older. You understand that nothing's forever and that's fine.
It shouldn't hinder you from trusting people in the future and getting into relationships.
Just take whatever time you need to get over this anon. Don't rush into another relationship even though tempting. That has never helped anyone.
But I promise you'll get over it. We all have.
Just tend to your hobbies. Or get new ones. Learn an instrument. Widen your interests.
Good luck with everything.
No.256680
i don't think i can repress my tranny disease anymore
i'm 21, anorexic fucked up pathetic anxious wreck
I felt like killing myself this morning, I was just like, yep, this is the bad ending, gg kill yourself.
I'm so detached and autistic and I don't see myself in the mirror anymore. I see a prematurely aged skeletal manchild.
fucking end it
No.256696
Hi, I feel kind of empty recently. I need more than my 5 friends. Kik me at imtryingnotams if you don't mind talking for a while. I do not wish for sexting or a boyfriend, please don't message me for that, sorry.
No.256698
>>256643
I know you mean well, but I don't think he's in the right here. I wasn't being too clingy, I said that I was perfectly okay with him going out for long periods of time and doing his own thing. Not to mention it doesn't really matter if he was honest about cheating or not, he still cheated.
No.256729
I got a little caught up in the glum over the weekend. Making a nice dinner, pouring a glass of wine, and eating it by yourself tends to do that.
Luckily it's back to work tomorrow.
No.256746
>>256550
And then this happens whenever I post on here. People ask me questions and I think I'll have someone to talk to but then I never hear from them again. I'm probably just being a faggot when I complain about that though
No.256779
>>256746
well yeah I mean. I think about killing myself a lot. It's become so routine for me that the thought of killing myself doesn't even excite me anymore.
luckily my conscience goes above that. I know that throwing my life away isn't just a waste to the people around me. it's an objective waste. it doesn't outweigh the amount of energy put into me and it doesn't outweigh the amount of waste I am.
so I don't kill myself
now at least I have been diagnosed with clinical depression and I'm getting therapy. I'm on fluoxetine and while I haven't really been feeling better. it's good to know that something's being done.
it's made me more carefree as well. I'm way less anxious around people because I don't really care what they think about me anymore. I don't have to consider them interesting people since talking to them is at least better than thinking about killing myself.
people saying that you need comfort or close friends when you're sad are lying. maybe when you're crying about your dead hamster.
when you're depressed you don't want any of that. the only comfort I get is from the pillow in my bed.
anything else is a distraction. a way to prolong my inevitable death.
at least this way I'll give some objective energy back to society without just taking everything away. killing myself feels too selfish. that's why I won't do it. I think.
No.256781
>>256550
>Everything more or less. I hate my body, my face, I feel like everybody abandons me for someone they like more, I've never been in a relationship and can't see myself getting one.
I'm the same
>>256746
Sorry
No.256801
>>256550
actual suicide is sounding easier for me with each passing, I feel so inferior and alone
i'll never be a cute anime girl so instead I will kill myself
No.256805
>>256779
Yeah, that's a good way of wording it. I really have to drop the whole suicidal thing. Suicide is selfish and only leads to more pain. My very name is a reminder of that. My father named me after one of his friends who committed suicide before I was born. I literally know nothing about this man other than he killed himself and it hurt someone so much that they named their child after him. So my name itself shows that killing myself would be a waste and that it would only hurt those around me. Still though, it's so fucking hard not to fantasize about it. I feel so unwanted and like all I ever do is fuck up around other people and I don't know what to do.
>>256781
I'm sorry man. It hurts doesn't it. I wish you and me both didn't have to go through what we are.
>sorry
Don't be. I was just whining. I'M sorry
No.256836
>>256746
Sorry Anon, I try to check in once a day or so but that obviously is going to leave gaps. I promise I'm not ignoring how shitty you feel because "it isn't worth my time" or anything, I'm just slow to follow up.
No.256908
Is there any way to easily get motivated? I really don't feel like doing anything at all ever, just lying in bed to rot… There aren't any goals I could work towards and although I do want a bf I just don't see myself in a position to have one until next Fall. This is affecting me in a bad way like I'm procrastinating more than I usually do and I sometimes don't eat because getting food takes effort. I just feel like lying down and daydreaming my day away all of the time…
No.256915
>>256908
Same. I need to get a car and move out, which is impossible when you're just bouncing from shit job to another shit job (they act like training me for my shift is just a big pain in the ass) over and over with monthly gaps in between.
I want a BF/GF, but with no money or transport, what hope is there?
The system isn't designed to just let you win, goddammit…
No.256925
>meet /cuteboy/ who's in another country
>start to like him
>don't want these feels because,
>barely know him
>he's in another country
>I'm a trainwreck in life and emotionally
>another country
>too scared to say anything anyways
>like across the fucking ocean it'd be impossible even if
I kinda feel like a crappy person for this tbh.
No.256930
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>>256925
I'm in a somewhat similar situation. Although I don't take it that seriously, it's still nice.
> way too young, I don't like this, but the idea of a pederastic relationship isn't all too bad.
> i don't like guys that much in reality, but my head is full of queer thoughts
> left despite pol meme culture
> is a bottom
> pretty sure is really submissive and could make him crossdress for me if i wanted
> want to bully him hard.
> lives in Canada
> Canada is better at everything the U.S. does.
> except food (poutine not once)
Idk. I don't mind flirting. It's nice!
No.256943
>meet /cuteboy/ trap
>we talk
>figure he forgets me
>unfriends him twice
>every time friends me back
>tells me how important i am to him
>he makes me feel special and tells me nice things
>tell him i wanna see him, tells me he wants to help me, or doesn't really want me to come
>he's not really into relationships but i'm a maybe
>one day contact someone
>implies he's a little jealous
>really like him, but whenever he shows signs he may like me back or says it, i panic
>i stop being attracted to him for like a day
we've talked on mic and it's nice to hear someone talk for a change, i really like him, and i'm just a mess i don't want to get into it, because i'm nervous i like him.. and.. fuck i dunno anons
he's a state or two away and i've told him we don't have to do lewd stuff
i just like the feeling of someone who's nice to me
god fucking dammit i teared up, i hate this, what's wrong with me, i don't mind waiting for him but what if he tells me he's ready to be with me? then what? do i say "Oh! Sorry Anon! I changed my mind!"
i like telling him nice things and being nice to him, and i think my ideal day would be playing some contra on a snowy day
i just need comforting and i'm insecure, and i'm scared, if he told me he was ready to have a relationship tonight i'm so nervous about so many things and how relationships are, how they work, i'd probably just stop talking to him
i don't know if i want one i say i do, but do i?
in a weird way i hope he reads this
No.256971
No.256972
>>256943
are we the same person anon?
No.256976
>>256972
probably, he told me not to visit him because he didn't want me wasting money and that got to me like you wouldn't believe, sorry
but maybe we are the same person
he's a nice christian boy
No.256977
>>255231
and now half of cuteboys is calling me ugly mas well….
maybe i should just kill myself
No.256978
I have a story. Wondering if I did the right thing
>friends with /cute boy/ as a sophmore.
>I'm 15 he's 13
>wrestled around with him a ton
>I wasn't gay, but one day he just wanted me
>no one else but me
>I didn't want him back tho
>was sitting on a hill camping watching the stars when he popped the question
>went dude no that's gay
>he said ok
>next day I'm taking a nap and I wake up and he walks into my tent
>he gets on top and starts grinding on my
>we are fully clothed
>I have sleeping bag on me
>I bust a nut in my pants
>feel weird and don't do it again
Until that summer
Continue?
No.256982
>>256977
nah dude, don't kill yourself, fuck thos guys who don't like masculine dudes like us, they'll never experience a nice bear hug
heh.. right?
No.256995
>>256978
My dick is already diamonds, go ahead.
No.256998
>>256995
Gotcha fam
>sad about a girl at another camp
>we're tenting together, and we're both in boxers
>he climbs under the covers and spoons with me
>I get up on him and a little nervous prepare to grind
>I halt and say that this is gay
>he says c'mon let's continue and starts rubbing my dick
>tell him no and get up
>he says that he wants to see if he can work wonders with his tongue and says this is my last opportunity for this
>I say no and he goes alright
>I wait until I'm soft and then go jerk off in some bushes
I stopped because it didn't feel right. It felt good but wrong, should I go back? He's still fresh but hairy down there
No.256999
>>256998
Why did it feel wrong one may ask? Religion, culture, politics /pol/
I'm 18, so I'm wondering if I should go to him. It feels wrong and he's awesome but I'm not sure if I want a dude. I'd feel like I was giving in
No.257002
>>256999
you did what felt right anon, maybe it was your morals or something?
maybe it was guilt
No.257013
>>256998
don't do it just b/c someone pressures you to, you did the right thing anon
No.257034
>accidentally overplayed my cooking abilities
>promised my boyfriend an amazing cake for his birthday
>no money to buy a cake
>if I make one with store bought frosting and mix he'll know I'm full of shit
>can't seem to figure out how to make a cake or homemade frosting that doesn't take like fucking shit
No.257038
No.257039
>>257038
you can also substitute the apple pie filling for cherry pie filling or any other pie filing of you desire
No.257063
>>256930
It's what we get for spending so much time on /cuteboys/ instead of meeting guys in real life.
It actually probably doesn't bother me as much as I think, I was really high and tired.
Sounds like me tbh. Probably describes a good deal of people here though.
>>256999
Religion, culture, and /pol/, are nothing and meaningless in comparison to the individual. You went to jack off in a bush dude.
No.257090
>>256779
Sad to hear anon, especially from another dutchy I wish I could cheer you up in any way. Same for all the other sad anons.
Bout my own sadness:
>meet guy online through vidyer
>talk for 2 years almost every day
>talk about literally everything including secrets,fetish etc. he even send pics of his toys for shit n giggles.
>finally man up myself and book a plane to him for staying over play games, meet each other real life, go do other shit.
>hyped as fuck.
>finally there, dude is socially weird and really different than I had expected
>entire vacation just felt like him not wanting me around.
>ruined vacation with a broken heart and still had to stay there for 6 days, it was horrible and felt like I was never going to leave resulting in slight panic attacks he didn't know about.
This was months ago but I am still mad/sad and only left being massive insecure which I am still suffering from. (most conversations were fucking awful and destroying me emotionally but I still did hold on, looking back I don't understand why)
Inb4 he is on this board reading this, I am sorry if you do.
No.257093
>>257090
It sounds like he was just really nervous.
No.257097
>>257093
Doubt it, he was more doing his own things like browsing fucking /pol/ out of all things and keeping me around with barely paying attention to me. If he was too nervous he would've never agreed with me coming over.
I even stood up half crying because it was just breaking me emotionally and he didn't show any sign of expression or sympathy.
Could've been me, I don't know, it is all weird but is still in my fucking mind and I just can't get over it because it feels like I have wasted 2 years of my life.
No.257123
>>256982
i'm not even a bear,i'm actually mtf trans ffs
No.257125
>>256943
i feel so gross
i mean why am i the exception
since we ain't together he told me it was okay to do what i wanna do, and he knows i cam
it's not like i wouldn't stop if we were together but i don't know, and he's like the first person in a while i wanna do everything with and talk to forever even if it's about nothing
he's busy, which i understand, but i also don't wanna force anything, fuck anons, i'm confused he's totally my type, i'm sorry this problem is really bothering me, and i don't wanna tell my friends, it's not that they'd not understand, i just don't like telling them my issues about this
in a way i wanna snag him up because he's so fucking sweet and he does something no woman's made me feel and that's wanted
i asked the big question which was "If we dated would it be okay to pass you off as my girlfriend to my parents?"
and it's not because i think traps and MTF are the same, i'm just not comfortable with telling my parents i like dudes
he said it'd be okay
he's worth the wait, though, i've told him i'll wait until he decides whether he wants to be a thing and he's worth it, i've told him, he's worth the wait, and i truly feel he is
but i'm scared if he tells me yes, i'll change my mind because i'm scared of relationships, and someone genuinely caring for me is fucking scary, it's alien to me
i even asked him to stop being sweet but he couldn't
fuck cuteboys i'm sorry i literally have nowhere else to go and i'm so scared of being a spaz even though i am a spaz and i think i just upset him or grossed him out
No.257130
>>257123
i apologize anon, how long have you been transitioning if you don't mind me asking?
No.257151
>>257123
If you would like to talk, please kik me @ cyanica.
No.257152
>>257130
pretransition
asswad doctors won't let me get mones because conservative backwater canada is where i live and so are the views,can't even order them online because customs stops them all,i've tried five times now
No.257158
>>257152
ah, jesus christ, anon, i'm sorry for that, that's really fucked up
no one should be denied to follow who they are i really hope it works out for you, i mean i'm sorry i can't do more and you know what, fuck those peeps who think you too masc, but i really do hope you do find a way to get hormones
No.257170
No.257234
>>257063
And I felt completely alive jerking in that bush of young pine trees.
No.257302
>>257234
Which means you either like jacking it outside or fugging cuteboys. Don't deny yourself whichever one of those things.
No.257581
>tfw all boys school
>tfw lots of cuteboys but noones gay (that i know of
>tfw didnt know anyone coming there so only have aquantinces not friends
>tfw high all the time so everyone thinks im an idiot even people who know
>tfw people who dont think im stupid think im weird
>tfw pretty sure im ugly too
>tfw bi but cant get a gf either