>late 2018
>make a new friend
>really good artist, really nice and interesting person in general with good tastes in things like music
>we're becoming good friends right off the bat
>ohyeahman.tiff
>"I'll go follow you on Tumblr"
>she sees my page
>lots of feral shit I reblogged
>forgot that it was socially unacceptable to like feral furry porn since all my friends seemed to tolerate it and nobody ever really told me anything against it
>"anon, I don't feel comfortable being associated with you. real or drawn, it's straight-up bestiality."
>"oh please can we be friends anyways? I deleted all the shit and well it's not that bad it's only digital drawings I don't find real animals attractive it's the stylization and blended human attributes that make them attractive to me, real dogs smell bad and have STDs"
>"sorry Anon but no. no hard feelings man but we gotta cut it off here."
>I get annoying because I get really clingy to her and just want to promote some type of better bond between us again, hoping she'll get over what she said
>get blocked relatively quickly
>a few more confrontations
>I eventually go on NoFap because I feel sick and I feel miserable because I lost two of my best friends in 2018 due to porn interests
>fail NoFap and become really horny again
shit should I fap to feral anymore but suppress my power level this time, or should I try to be a better human and give NoFap another shot until I have no more or minimal sexual drive