/mental/ - Mental Health, Illnesses and Disorders

>Perfect Blue

Mah nigga.

Check out Paranoia Agent. Same creator, pretty much spot on for what you're asking for.

How do you react to the sound of stylophone? Like when you pull stylophone packing pellets of a box or squeeze a stylophone egg carton? That sharp squeakiness is the only sound that practically makes me flinch or almost feel ear pain, but I'm a normie.

Too lazy to search it up tbh

>>12660

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mad_in_America

Going of of wiki, it sounds like drugs should be a last resort after trying therapy first.

according to wikipedia <only> 75% of school shooters claimed or left behind evidence of them being victims of bullying

This could have been me. Just go along with it, try get something out of it, like autismbux.

>>12719

How did you get caught anon?

Did they backtrace your IP?

How has this impacted on your parents financially, exactly? Are you still 15?

>>12729

It was posted on a school computer, so not an ip thing. Apparently they interviewed the kids in the threat and they said it might have been us since we don't really like them. We are also pretty socially inept other than with each other and generally could be seen as a "school shooter" type.

>>12735

We were never very wealthy, but we got by comfortably. The general expenses of the whole shitstorm set us back a bit, but we're basically getting back to normal financially. Still have to wait and see how much the fines will be for though. I'm 16 now, pretty lucky because if I were 16 when we did it, I would be tried as an adult, probably harder charges.

Got cautioned this evening.. theatened my sis and parents with a knife, and later with a fucking crowbar, not sure what to do anymore, next time if the cops ring they'll v& me and i'm behind bars for the next 14 days.

Fuck my parents, fuck everything. They won't do batshit against my sister and pretty much shove it on me for most of the times.

>>12452

OP here again.

I've been re-bailed again, til June. No explanation given as to why, though I overheard that the CPS are working on my case. I was bailed by the same officer that booked me in back in March.

>>12510

Just got told i'm being kicked out of home in about 10-12 days, FUCK EVERYTHING. Seriously considering smashing my parents to death when they're asleep now, fucking done with them and their shit.

>>12519

it is normal that they are afraid of you harming them, so they want you to leave and leave them in safety

Can anybody tell me what happens upon answering police bail? I'm British…

I'm hoping to get put in a cell for a little while, exhibit suicidal tendencies and get sectioned under the mental health act

>>12215

How do I cope? I think that's a strange question, it's not like imagining violence stops you from being able to function like a human being. Most people daydream about music or cars or girls, I just happen to use my daydreaming time thinking about shooting black people in the face with cool guns. I don't like it or dislike it, it's just something that came naturally to me.

>>12227

Have you considered writing a script for an action movie?

>>12227

Yeah but eventually urges are supposed to show up.

>>12231

I'd love to write a film, I think I'd be good at it. But this world has an over saturation of idea guys.

>>12258

None have for me yet. I had a very abusive father and an abusive teacher. the teacher is what made me start imagining rape and murder. she had been raped in college and was traumatized by it, probably why she power tripped and took it out on me. after learning this information i joyously fantasized about raping her again and slitting her throat every day for years. and i imagined killing my father as he slept often too. but even despite their abuse, and the knowledge that I would be in the moral right, and the legal right too (well minus the rape), I never acted on either of them or even considered to. i sort of regret not acting on the dad one, i would have gotten away with it like it was nothing at a young age. too bad.

If you associate a terrible experience with your obsession, it will usually change.

Until you go back to it like the moron you are

>>12740

What if I want to change it because I associate it wish a terrible experience?

>>12742

Force yourself to focus on your secondary interest, even if it isn't as interesting as your main one.

A few things.

1. Infrared will not make you crazy. You PRODUCE infrared radiation, infrared radiation is just heat.

2. The examples you gave are fucking awful and yes, they actually happened.

3. Lithium citrate hasn't been used for cancer treatment since the 1800s.

And how do you make the jump from "20th century psychiatry was fucking nuts, man" to "mental illness is caused by sound waves, EMF, and mattresses?" I just don't see any evidence for such things, Anon.

It honestly sounds like you may be having a manic or even psychotic episode. I'd tell you to seek treatment, but I doubt you'd heed that advice.

I hope you don't do anything to get yourself hurt, Anon. When you come down, PLEASE consider going to the hospital.

I agree, psychiatry isn't perfect, but it does work.

>>12737

i dont fucking care about your chemtrail bullshit

where do you live? i can try to find a physician for you

>>12726

Las Vegas

>>12727

https://psychiatrists.psychologytoday.com/rms/state/NV/Las+Vegas.html

>>12732

Wow, thank you! I was getting sick of getting yellowpages results. My mind is not the same as it was a year ago, my search skills and sense of focus just went to shit. I'm getting tested for schizophrenia btw.

I did have one refer me back to my GP because he felt there was nothing more he could do for me even though it was one appointment and didn't even give me a proper diagnosis. Just said "features of emotional dysfunction". Though an Ed Psych I've met says I have some sort of learning difficulty but I won't know what it is until next week (probably just ADHD, not that it matters).

The only other people I was referred to for help haven't gotten back to me and according to online reviews I've read they're crap.

Not at all in the same way as you've described but more that they don't really give me actual help at all. In fairness, I've stopped caring and if the second lot ever contact me I'd just tell them to fuck off anyway. This is how my contact with mental health teams goes every fucking time and when this round started I said "this time I'll actually do it and get better". It's a fucking merry-go-round.

>>12715

Yeah. This is the second time this has happened. Oh well m8s

>>6404

My mother never talks to me. She simply does not care to interact with me or the outside world at all outside of the bare minimum required for work and by social conventions. All she does is read books and watch TV. She is fat and stupid.

My dad constantly throws tantrums about the most minor things and bitches and whines constantly. Every time he is home he bitches and complains and bitches and complains. My dad will never apologize when forced to. Only when told to apologize by his wife (my mom) will he apologize. But he doesn't care at all about his actions or their consequences. All he wants to hear is that you've accepted his apology and that the matter is finished. I now personally do not accept apologies or demand them. I explain that I feel apologies do not solve problems and are unhelpful.

The treatment from my parents from a young age has crippled my ability to develop social relationships. I have no and have not had a parent-child relationship and as a result I have had not friend relationships. I have no and have not had real friend relationships and as a result I have had not romantic relationships. I have no and have not had romantic relationships and this depresses me.

What can someone like me do??

>parents expect me to work or go to college

>know I can't to college, would be mentally taxing and I'd eventually have a breakdown, flop out, and be thousands of dollars in debt

>same with some jobs, I'm trying to find something I know I can handle

>work odd jobs here and there, trying to save up to drive as I live in an area that isn't very easy to get around in

>parents always say "Well, why don't you just drive" or more for my mother's case, " I'll help you out in a few months I can barely afford rent "

>both refuse to let me learn on their car, would have to learn using instructor's car exclusively to learn, that's a good deal of money.

>only time I've been able to actually work is when my mother is able to bring me to a temp job on a few weekends, for conventions

>still hound me every day despite refusing to help me learn how to get around proficiently

>parents still owe me money from when my dog died, frequently have to help with grocery bills or giving my dad cigarette money lest I get the "you're a leech" talk

Meanwhile my mom sends my older brother money to help him out and he got a car and training when he was 18, not to mention my mother paid for most of his college before he dropped out.

I know we're in a financial pickle, but if you guys don't want to put anything into me, don't expect much out of me. I'm trying but I need a good deal of help like my brother got so I can eventually move the hell out and have a life. I'm almost twenty with no stable work, which is embarrassing for me.

>be me

>be trapped in a fucking anti-pharma cult

>have parents that are way too into it to let you leave it before you go off to college

>be born with autism, adhd, dyslexia, and schizophrenia

>stim by pacing about

>have ableist parents constantly pull that ABA type shit when you do this

> feel very shitty about stimming for most of your goddamn life

>genuinely think you have a "motion addiction" since they are against learn the smallest amount of info on physical and/or mental ailments and disabilities

>have abuse traumatize you to the point your personality's disordered and you have dissociative identity disorder

>think your just reluctant to accept God into your life when your actually traumatized by Christian shit

>have rheumatoid arthritis for years but just thought your right knee was bending weird

>be unable to do fuck shit about anything that ails you because your trapped in an anti-pharma cult

kill me, /mental/

Not going to engage in the pity party aspect of this. I have ASPD, I'm extremely socially awkward, I have an anxiety disorder I take meds for, and moderate addictive tendencies , meaning I may not rob your house to get high but I'll slowly destroy my own life in a long subtle process while I'm high I think I have all the answers and everything is going just fine but it isn't.

Parent-wise. My mom's a narcissist with sociopathic traits. Interestingly enough my direct interactions with her as a child were either a sort of non-malevolent neglectfulness (in her mind I was happier and healthier than she realized because I didn't whine or complain and was often content with the simple things.) or very loving affectionate and enabling. As I got older and became able to call her on her shit I began to see her constant need to shield herself from any and all negative feedback. She was just very thoughtless and self-serving. My brother and I were more objects for her to fill the endless void in her chest. Not entirely her fault. She was very severely abused and traumatized as a girl. Her mother died when she was 7yo and her father was absentee, made her self-conscious about her skin tone, and he was a huge dopefiend. She saved his life one time while he was ODing at a dopehouse and they dragged him into the street to let him die. Also she was molested (not by grandpa, by an uncle I think) . Her grandmother was rotten and abusive as hell. Her range of torture was both physical and mental and from what I know from others she was a master in the art of crushing the human spirit. She even told my brother that he was jealous of me because I'd actually meet my father (his was in the middle of a 15 year sentence). My mother can't help what she became it just sucks to be me because she just had to have children as if that would help her love herself. I'm seeing a bunch of people using their children to validate their meaningless existences. Both I and my brother have followed my mother's foot-steps in those regards. Now that I'm walking in the parental shoes I see things much differently.

Dad wasn't there most of the time and still isn't. I honestly believe he doesn't know how and he has his own drug problems that he doesn't want to be transparent with me about. I'll give him that he at least attempted 3 times. One time when my Post too long. Click here to view the full text.

>>12692

Wow shit, I'm almost the same as you anon, I have adhd and I am always being told that I need to accept God into my life by my mom when she actually believes in crazy cultist-tier shit, the only exception is I am the one who is mostly anti-pharma regarding my own mental health.

Also what are the symptoms of your arthritis in your knee anon? Because I too have some kind of arthritis in my right knee (not yet diagnosed) where there is a clicking sound whenever I bend my knee too much and if I do that too often my joints start hurting.

Gonna steal this GET for /monster/